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A/N: This story is set after Shadow Souls and is pretty much AU. Some characters can be a little OC.

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Painful Past & Doubts

Damon POV

I heard Bonnie scream. I concentrate all my attention on her voice. I reached the swirling images in front of me and touched the one I thought the scream came from.

Suddenly I feel like I was being placed inside the image. I am at my old house in Italy. My dad is furious and yelling at someone.

I didn't feel like an adult. I look down at my hands and they are little. I'm a little boy again. The servants begin to cry. I was watching everybody and I feel the fear increasing inside me. I don't understand what was happening. Why is everybody crying? Why is my dad screaming?

Then I realized I was at my mothers room. She looks like she is sleeping. I begin to walk toward her. I touch her hand and pull it a little. Nothing happens. I called her. "Mamma"

Again nothing happens. Then I heard my dad yelling at me. GO AWAY! SHE IS DEAD!

I begin to cry.

Now I finally understand what is happening. This is my memory of my mother's death. I'm that little boy again. My world is crashing on me again. I can't stop myself; I just keep crying for my loss like it never happened before. From all my memories why did I have to be in this one? I wish I had the ability to turn off my feelings. How was able to live with so many emotions as a human back then?

I guess I'll have to remember how I used to do it. I will have to suck it up. Arrgh! This is unnerving. I'm in a swirl of emotions. What is happening to me?

Bonnie where are you? Please come to me. I wish with all my might to hold her. I need her right now. My anger begins to rise again. I keep saying "this is your memory, call her Damon. She is with you. Just call her."

"BONNIE, BONNIE, BONNIEEEE!"

Then I heard the sweetest voice.

"Finally, I found you"

I turn around. She is in front of me. When I see her I just react without thinking. I hug her with all my strength. At first she stands there, doing nothing. Then after a moment she hugs me back. She doesn't say anything. I think she understands that I need her silence. She understands that I need her hug.

When I finally feel better and the memory of my mother's death washes away, I break our embrace. I need to know what happened, so I just begin to question her.

"What happened? Why am I re-living my memories?"

"Damon... I don't... know." She stammers with her answer. I look at her and noticed she is shaken. I notice I am still holding her hands. When I was just about to let her go I felt like I was being transported to another place.

Elena POV

I was in my room when Meredith entered with an strange look plastered on her face. When Meredith has that kind of look it means something is happening or is about to happen.

"What happened Mere?"

"Elena, do you know if something is going on between Bonnie and Damon?"

"What do you mean?"

"Well Mrs. Flowers told me to give Damon some food. She emphasized me to tell him she will be giving something to eat to Bonnie. When I entered Damon's room he seemed worried. I can't tell exactly, but I know that something is not right."

"Mere, I asked for Bonnie's help with Damon."

"Eh? What are you talking about?"

"There are a lot of reasons, Mere, just trust me this time."

"Ok, but..."

"I asked Bonnie to help me to help Damon. We are in strange peaceful time Mere. But you know it won't be long when Shinichi and Misao will come back and attack again. The town is under attack right now. We will need all of our strength and available powers in this next fight."

"I know that Elena, but Damon is human like me and Matt. What can he do about it?"

"I know it doesn't seem important, but we need him in his best shape. Right now he's all over. He needs to adjust himself to be human again. I think Bonnie will be the one to do it."

"Elena, is that what you think?"

"Yes"

"Is that the real reason? That is what you believe to be the right path?"

"Yes, Meredith I believe it is."

I saw Meredith frown a little, but she didn't say anything else. But I knew my friend too well, I know she did not believe my words. What scared me the most was that I'm beginning to not believe them either. I hope everything will turn all right.

Meredith began to walk out of my room, but before leaving she turned and asked me:

"This help you requested to Bonnie, does it have to do with Damon memories?"

"Yes."

"Ok, but Bonnie is the only one who is supposed to be in Damon's room right now?"

"What?"

"Yes, I'm guessing that Damon was waiting for Bonnie. Otherwise why would Mrs. Flowers will send her message to Damon about Bonnie? Elena, you were planning to use your powers right?"

I just stood there, I couldn't answer her. If this is true, Bonnie went alone to help him. Did she do it on purpose? Did she go behind my back? It can't be... she is not like that.

We were supposed to help him together. I kept looking at Meredith with all these bad feelings towards my best friend. I couldn't let this happen. I couldn't let my emotions control me up to the point for me to want to harm my friend. For Gods sake I'm with Stefan not with Damon.

I saw Meredith walking out of my room when I felt a huge amount of power inside the boarding house. I gasped and went running toward the room where I felt the power. I reached the room at the same time as Meredith. Stefan and Sage were already there waiting for us. Just seconds later Mrs. Flower and Matt joined us at the room door. I couldn't believe it.

It was Damon's room.

Stefan POV

I was expecting this to happen. The surge of power coming from Damon's room. It must be a really strong spell. I had to admit I had my doubts about this. After all Bonnie doesn't have a lot of experience dwelling with magic or using and controlling her powers.

I watched as Bonnie entered Damon's room and heard the click of the door lock. I searched mentally for Sage and requested him to come here and guard the door.

It felt silly, but that was what Mrs. Flowers requested. She wanted us Sage and me to stop any interruptions to the magic process inside that room. Now I understood why. I just watched how Elena reached Damon's room all flustered and worried. First I thought that is a normal reaction from her. But the walls to her mind crumbled a little and I was able to reach her mind.

I read some of her thoughts. She felt betrayed. Why did she have to feel betrayed? What happened between Damon and her? I felt the panic beating of her heart. I felt my anger rise and hurtful pang in my chest. I guess it is jealousy what I'm feeling right now. I have to talk to Elena. But first I need to stop her.

I looked at Sage and sent him the message. He slightly nodded. I was the only one that noticed it.

Elena started trying to open the door. I stopped her. She looked at me with surprise and wonder in her eyes. She didn't understand why I was stopping her.

"Stefan, what are you doing?"

"Leave them alone Elena."

"No, there is something happening in there. We need to stop it."

She tried again to reach the door. I held her and Sage moved behind me to block the door.

"Why are you doing this?" She yelled that question. She didn't notice that she was hurting me with every word and gesture.

"Elena, they need to finish what they started. Right now it is more important to prepare our selves for what is coming. This kind of magic is like an invitation to Shinichi. I need you to calm yourself."

She looked at me. Her eyes shifted from anger and worry to understanding. She stopped to struggling and in a hushed tone said to me.

"I'm sorry, Stefan."

"It's ok, but we need to talk. You know that."

"Yes, I know."

Mrs. Flower was the next one to speak."My children we have to reinforce the wards around the house. Matt can you help?"

"Yes"

"Ok good, Sage, Stefan I think both of you need to feed."

I nodded at her. After that Mrs. Flowers and Matt went to work on the wards.

"Stefan"

"What Sage?"

"You should go and get some blood. I'm sure Elena is willing to help you."

I looked at Elena, she didn't say anything. She just grabbed my hand and pulled me a little towards her.

"You, Sage how..."

"Don't worry Stefan I will help him."

That was Meredith she is a remarkable friend no doubt about it. I was beginning to walk with Elena to our room when I heard Meredith.

"Ok, I'm willing to give you some of my blood. But I swear if you kill me I will hunt you down. As a spirit you can't do anything to me. Are we clear?"

The last thing I heard was Sage's laugh.

A/N: Well, what do you think what will happen next? Please leave me some feedback and review.