Brave New World Chapter 6: I'm Wide Awake, its Morning…, a glee fanfic

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I'm Wide Awake, its Morning….

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Rachel walks out into the kitchen wearing an off the shoulder blue sweater and black leggings. "Finn…this is amazing." she says noticing the table setting as she takes a seat.

"I figured I should do something nice for my girl." he gives her a crooked smile and takes a seat. Rachel feels the panic start to kick in as she puts two and two together.

"Finn…." Rachel begins to say but is interrupted by his lips on hers. Rachel pushes him away trying to catch her breath. "This is all too much. I'm sorry." She gets up to leave when Finn stops her.

"Rachel…what's going on?" He asks trying to figure out what happened from the time she took a shower to now. Rachel stares at the ground and lets out a sigh as she brings her eyes to his.

"I found the ring." She knew from past experience it was better to just to be honest than to run away.

"Rachel I can….." Finn starts to say before he is cut off by Rachel.

"I love you Finn more than anyone I have loved before. And yes one day I hope to walk down the aisle with you but…not now not…when there is so much at stake I'm talking just me but for you as well. We just found our way back and to be honest I have no idea what we are at this point. I just think we should wait until after Funny Girl is over and after you graduate." Rachel says never taking her eyes off him. Hoping that he won't run away like he did the last time.

"I get it I do but…if you love me and I love you then why not? I was stupid enough to let you go once before and I am not going to let that happen." He starts to get up knowing that if he stayed any longer things would be said that one of them would regret saying.

"It's not that simple. What are we? Are we friends? More than friends? What is it Finn?" Ok…that was a lot of questions at once. Finn thought about this for a minute. He knew that they were not just friends and well they didn't fit the more than friends definition.

"We are Finn and Rachel." He simply states.

"We are." she gives him a small smile.

"Look…I am not saying we get married right away. I just want to know that if I ever were to ask that you would say yes." He knew she was right they still had a lot of things to work out before they could get married.

"You already know." she gives him a smile and kisses him. Their kiss was interrupted by the ringing of the phone.

"Are you going to get that?" He asks breaking the kiss. Rachel looks at him and the back at the phone. She contemplated letting the machine get it but…decided to just answer it.

"Hello?" Rachel answers.

"Rachel! Finally!" Kurt says in an annoyed tone.

"Well…hello to you too Kurt." she tells him as Finn gives her a weird look.

"Sorry…have you seen Finn? I have been trying to get a hold of him for the last hour." Kurt takes a deep breath regaining his composure.

"Yea…he's right here?" Rachel says handing the phone to Finn. He looks at her and Rachel shrugs her shoulders.

"Hey little brother what's up?" Finn says taking the phone from Rachel.

"My god! It's about time. I have been trying to reach you for an hour now." Finn chuckles at his brother's comment.

"My phone…" Finn starts to say but is cut off by Kurt.

"It's Carole…she's…she's…in the hospital Finn." Kurt tells him as he moves to other room. Not wanting Rachel to panic. It was probably nothing.

"W…What happened?" Finn asks calmly.

"I…I…don't know dad called me and told me that she was getting off work and one of her co-workers said she face planted on the concrete." Finn can feel his panic set in.

"I'll be on the first flight out." Finn says hating having to leave Rachel but…he needed to be there for his mom.

"Ok…"Kurt says as he hangs up the phone. Finn walks over to his room and begins packing his bag. This sucked just when things were starting to look up for him this happens. He didn't blame his mom for this it wasn't like she planned it. It was just one of those things that sucked. He grabbed his bags and walked out of the room.

"Where are you going?" Rachel asked confused she thought that everything was going good between them.

"Home." he simply stated as he tried to keep his voice calm.

"Why?" her voice on the verge of tears.

"It's…it's my mom she's in the hospital." Finn states.

"I'm going with you." she says to him.

"Rachel…what about Funny Girl?" Finn asks knowing that he could never ask her to give up her dream.

"It will still be there. I am sure I can take some kind of leave and…if not then so be it. You need me more than they do." Finn just looks at her and pulls her into a hug. Letting everything go that he had been holding in.

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In the hospital~

Finn and Rachel walk through the big glass doors that lead to the waiting room. Burt and Kurt are both nervously pacing back and forth waiting for some kind of answer.

"Any news yet?" Finn asked.

"Nope every time we ask it's the same answer sit down, relax, and we will let you know." Burt tells him. Finn rubs the back of his neck in frustration. Why couldn't they at least tell us that she is ok?

"Family of Carole Hudson-Hummel?" A man in blue scrubs comes out. Burt, Finn and Kurt walk over to where the doctor is standing.

"How is my wife?" Burt asked hoping the doctor had more to say than we are doing all that we can.

"Your wife has what we call hypertrophic cardiomyopathy." The doctor explains while they all give him a weird look.

"English here doc." Burt says having no clue of what the doctor is saying.

"It is a condition where the muscle of the heart thickens, most commonly at the septum between the ventricles, below the aortic valve. This leads to stiffening of the walls of the heart and abnormal aortic and mitral heart valve function, both of which may impede normal blood flow out of the heart. It is commonly known as HCM." The doctor tries his best to explain but…can see the dumbfounded looks on their faces.

"So…her heart is bad is that what you are saying?" Finn asked trying to make sense of what is going on.

"What this means is that we are going to need to place your mom on some diet restrictions, some light aerobic exercise, as well as some beta blockers to relax the heart so it can work more efficiently." The doctor explains.

"So…when can she come home?" Burt asked.

"Well…we want to keep her here overnight for observation and run a few test. If everything turns out good. I see no reason to keep her here any longer." The doctor tells them.

"When can we see her?" Burt asked.

"Now if you'd like. I do ask that only one at a time so she can rest." the doctor tells them as they all look at each other.

"Go." Finn says motioning to Burt.

"You sure kid?" Burt asked.

"Ya. Go ahead I've got to make a few calls and find Rachel." Finn tells him. Burt gives him a hug and walks through the OR doors.

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Rachel is sitting in the cafeteria when Finn comes walking up towards her. "How is she?" Rachel asked getting up from her seat and giving him a hug.

"She's stable." Finn simply states.

"Do they know what is wrong with her?" Rachel asked.

"They said it is hypertrophic cardiomyopathy." He tells her.

"Finn…I am so sorry. She's going to be ok right?" Rachel pulls him closer to her.

"They are keeping her overnight to run some more tests. Basically her heart is not getting enough blood flow. But…with a change in diet and getting exercise they said that she will lead a normal life." Finn explains to her still trying to grasp the concept himself. "Rachel I can't lose her." Finn breaks down in Rachel's arms.

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Everyone is getting ready to meet up fro Glee rehearsal Puck gives Quinn a smile "Hey" Quinn smiles back and kisses him on the cheek. She wasn't sure what was going on between them but…whatever it was she was starting to like it. Mike and Will are doing some silly dance moves, Santana and Mercedes are trying to listen to Tina's overly long and dramatic graduation speech and Sam is copying off Blaine's history homework. When everyone's cell phones start going off they all check their phones.

"What the hell is going on here?" Santana is the first to ask as she looks at the message from Rachel.

"Something is not right here. I think we all need to get to the hospital." Blaine says looking at the message.

"Blaine is right." Will looks at the clock and then back to everyone else. "Let's go." Will says as he locks up the choir room and they all head to the hospital.

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Everyone from New Directions rushes up the nurses station.

"The children's ward is on the third floor." The nurse tells them giving the group a confused look.

"No…we're here to see our friend…Carole Hummel." Will tells her.

"Of course…right through those doors and please try to keep it down." The nurse rolls her eyes and walk off as they walk through the doors. Kurt is sitting in a chair mindlessly flipping through a magazine. Finn is staring out the window not saying a word. Rachel is on the phone.

"Kurt…how is she?" Will asked as Kurt gets up from his seat.

"Finn's…mom had a fall at work and passed out. They said it is hypertrophic cardiomyopathy." Kurt tells them trying to keep calm and collected.

"What the hell is that?" Santana asked

"It is a condition where the heart is not getting enough blood flow, which is the reason why she passed out at work." Kurt does his best to explain to them what is going on. Puck walks over to where Finn is.

"Hey bro." Puck places his arm around Finn.

"Hey." Finn says his voice cracking.

"Hey…since when has your mom ever given up on something….come on mama Hudson is a boss." Puck says to Finn trying to find some words of comfort but he knows nothing is going to help.

"She's all I got man." Finn says as tears run down his face.

"Come here." Puck pulls him close to him and Finn let's out everything he had been holding in.

"I'm here for you man I mean…we all are." Puck gives him a tight squeeze.

After a few minutes Puck returns to where the group is.

"How's he doing?" Will asked. Placing a hand on Puck's back.

"He's trying." Puck simply says.

"Why do bad things happen to good people?" Brittany asked. Trying to grasp what was going on. Everyone just looks at Brittany. "I mean he is a good guy and…it seems like all the bad things just happen to him." Brittany lets a tear fall.

"Let's get you some coco." Santana says placing a comforting hand on her back. Brittany gives her a nod.

"I guess we just have to be here for him." Will says his heart breaking for the man he thought of as a son.

"Shue's right how many times has he been there for us and never once asked for anything in return? I think we should return the favor." Puck says as Finn walks back into the waiting room and sits down in one of the chairs.

"I really hate hospitals." Kurt says feeling his anxiety kick in.

"Kurt your dad and Finn need you right now." Will tells him.

"I have to get some air Mr. Shue." Kurt tells him walking through the door.

"Blaine follows him and make sure he is ok." Blaine gives Will a nod and follows after Kurt.

"Who was on the phone?" Mercedes asked taking a seat next to Rachel.

"No one." Rachel tells her not taking her eyes off Finn. She wished there was something she could do but she knew the best thing was to let him have his space.

"Didn't sound like no one." Mercedes points out seeing the look on her face.

"I have to go back to New York." Rachel tells her.

"What? Why?" Mercedes asked.

"I tried to get a leave and Rupert the director told me that if I wasn't back by tomorrow not to bother coming back." Rachel tells her not really wanting to get into any more detail besides they were here for Finn not her.

"What are you going to do?" She asked feeling bad for her friend.

"I need to be here for him." She says looking at Finn.

"Go." Mercedes nudges Rachel's arm. Rachel's gives her a nod and walks over to where Finn is sitting.

"I brought you some coffee." Rachel says handing him the cup of coffee. He gives her a nod and takes the coffee.

"Thanks." He gives her hand a slight squeeze as she takes a seat. They sit there in silence for a minute when Burt walks out.

"Finn…you want to see her?" Burt asked Finn nods his head.

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Finn is standing outside his mother's room staring at the number on the door 226. He ran his fingers over the raised numbers, took a deep breath and prepared himself for what he was about to see. When he walked in there she was lying there hooked up to all these machines. It was like he was in some kind of nightmare. He pulled up a chair next to her and took her hand in his. "Hey…mom it's me Finn." He says trying to keep the tears that are threatening to fall at bay. Finn closes his eyes and begins to softly sing to his mother. Hoping that she could hear him.

Finn: You taught me everything
And everything you've given me
I'll always keep it inside
you're the driving force in my life, yeah

There isn't anything
or anyone that I could be
and it just wouldn't feel right
if I didn't have you by my side

(Finn takes his hand and strokes the top of his mother's head.)

Finn: You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You will always be
You will always be the girl in my life for all times

(Out in the waiting room Burt is pacing back and forth, Rachel is sitting in the chair with her head on Mercedes' shoulder, Will and Puck are looking out the window.)

New Directions: Mama, mama you know I love you
Ooh you know I love you
Mama, mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars (yes it is)
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin' you is like food to my soul
Yes it is, yes it is (ooh), yes it is, yes it is, yes it is

(Kurt and Blaine are outside on the balcony. Kurt is crying in Blaine's arms)

Kurt: You're always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong (yes you did)
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin' me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on

(Finn closes his eyes and bows his head letting the tears fall from his eyes.)

Finn: There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you'd come to me
And say to me I could face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You'll always be
You will always be the girl in my life (ooh)

(What was he going to do now. Yes he had Rachel and while she was always by his side. This was his mother and no one could replace her. He hadn't even had the chance to tell her about New York)

"Please let her be ok." Finn says looking up.

("She's going to be ok." Blaine tells Kurt as they continue their embrace.)

Kurt: Never gonna go a day without you
Fills me up just thinking about you
could never go a day without my mama

(Rachel gets up from her chair and stands in front of the door watching Finn. Her heart breaking for him.)

Finn: Mama, mama you know I love you
Ooh you know I love you
Mama, mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin' you is like food to my soul
Ooh, yeah yeah
You are the food to my soul
Yes you are, oh

"I love you mom." Finn places a soft kiss on her forehead as he leaves the room. When the machines start to go off as the doctors and nurses all rush into her room. Finn stands there in shock listening to the doctors and nurses he hears one of them say code blue and he knew from watching Grey's Anatomy with Rachel that it was bad. He felt his head begin to swim it was like he was in a bad dream. This really wasn't happening they told him that she was going to be fine.

"Son…I need you leave the room." He hears one of the doctors say to him.

"No…I am not leaving." Finn shakes his head.

"In order for us to work on her I need you to leave." The doctor says. Finn just stands there. The doctor gives him a knowing look and continues to work on his mom. "Paddles." He says as a nurse hands him the paddles. "Clear." he says as he places the paddles on her chest. Finn watches his mother's body violent lift from the bed. He watches as the doctor gives the paddles back to the nurse and continues with chest compressions. After a few minutes he hears the doctor say something. His mind too clouded to understand everything the doctor had told him. The last words he heard before walking out were time of death. Finn stood there looking at Rachel not knowing what to say. He was numb to what was going on. "She's gone." Was all that he said before collapsing into her arms.

Ok…so there you have it I am working on the next chapter and will have it up soon. I hope you liked this one. Thanks again for reading. And….as always reviews are not always welcomed they are greatly appreciated.