Around 8 am Emily had already lost count on how many times 'The Wizard Of Oz' had played. She was also impressed by the fact that she wasn't really tired. She had about 3 hours of sleep that night but she didn't care at all.
J.J. Texted her asking if it was okay if the team stopped over there around 9. She said they would take breakfast. Of course Emily said it was fine. She wanted them there. They could help distract Bella and the kid seemed to have liked them.
Callie woke up. She had been in and out of sleep too all night.
"Did you sleep?" She asked Emily.
"Just a little" Emily answered.
"At least Bella managed to get some." She said looking sad at Bella, who was sucking her thumb and hugging her "tramp".
"Hey. She's going to be okay Calliope" Emily said.
"I know. She's a tough kid. But that doesn't mean it won't hurt to get there" Callie said sitting on the bed.
"I know. That's why she needs us strong." Emily said.
"She needs us strong so she can break" Callie added.
"Yeah" Emily agreed. They both knew Bella was a rock. She could hide her feelings so well, just like her mother could. But they both knew that Emily was the only thing that took Bella's shield off. They knew that sooner or later a tsunami would come from the kid.
"She will be alright" Emily said reassuring Callie and even herself.
"Do you want something to eat?" Callie asked.
"The team is coming over with breakfast." Emily said.
"Oh good. At least no one has to worry about cooking anything" Callie said.
"Yeah" Emily agreed.
"I'll go see if Jeremy is awake" Callie said as she got off the bed and headed to the door. She went downstairs to find Jeremy and Marley on the couch watching tv, they weren't paying attention really.
"Hi guys" Callie said.
"Hi. How is she?" Jeremy asked.
"Alright." Callie said.
"Did she sleep?" He asked.
"Yeah. She was in and out all night. But she slept way more then what I thought she would" Callie said.
"Good" Marley said.
"Well Emily said her team is coming with breakfast" Callie said. "I'm just gonna make some coffee. Do you guys want some?"
"I do" Marley said.
"Me too" Jeremy said. He was tired even though he slept all night because of the sleeping pill he took. Too many things were going through his mind. He was scared. Too.
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Upstairs on Bella's room Emily got another text from J.J. Saying they were on their way.
She though it would be best to wake up Bella now so she had some time before everyone got there.
"Hey honey wake up" Emily whispered running her hand on Isabella's hair. Bella moved a little and took her thumb out.
"Wake up" she whispered.
"Hey" she said as soon as Bella's eyes opened. "The team is bringing breakfast"
For a couple of seconds everything that happened the day before was not on Bella's mind. But when they hit her again she hugged her mom as if she was scared of everything around her.
"Oh it's okay. I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere. Shuuu shuuuu" Emily said squeezing Bella tight and placing the girl on her lap. A few tears had fallen so she wiped them.
"I'm fine" she told her mother.
"Hey. You're not. And it's okay not to be" Emily said serious and gave Bella a hug. "You don't have to hide anything from me. alright?" Emily said and Isabella nodded yes shyly.
"Come on. Let's go" Emily said getting off the bed. She held Bella's hand and they went downstairs.
They went to the kitchen to find Jeremy, Marley and Callie sitting drinking coffee.
"Hi" Jeremy said getting up. He went and gave Bella a hug.
"Are you okay?" He asked.
"I'm fine" Bella said giving him a little smile. She could see he had been crying and he could see that on her too.
"Do you want some coffee?" Jeremy asked.
"No thanks" Bella said.
"I think they might bring donuts" Emily said.
"How classic. Police and donuts" Bella said putting a smile on everyone's faces.
They were happy to know her silly humor was still kind of there.
"Donuts are just really good" Marley said smiling.
"Yeah" Bella said.
"So you'll wait for them?" Jeremy asked.
"Yeah." Bella said heading over to the couch and sat down.
The TV was still on from when Jeremy and Marley were there. It was on some sport channel so she changed it to the history channel and They all followed her and sat to watch a documentary about world war 1. If it was another 10 year-old Emily would think the kid was a little crazy to voluntarily watch a documentary about war but not her Bella.
After about 10 minutes the team got there.
Emily got up to buzz them in and waited to open the door.
Penelope was the first there with a box of donuts. She was followed by the rest of the team. They had also brought bagels and cinnamon rolls.
"Come on in" said Emily holding the door.
"Hi everyone" said J.J stepping inside. They placed the things in the kitchen island.
"Let's go eat." Jeremy told Bella.
"I'm not hungry" she said still looking at the tv.
"You have to eat something" he said staring at her.
She didn't move so he just went away. He walked closer to Emily and said "she said she's not hungry". He was talking low so Bella wouldn't hear it. Emily had a face like she knew that was coming.
"I'll talk to her" Emily said.
She put a glazed donut on a plate and poured some orange juice on a cup and took it to Bella.
Isabella was laying down on the couch with her eyes closed. Emily placed the plate and the mug on the little table beside the couch, kneed down to Bella's eyes level and ran her hand on The girl's hair making Bella open her eyes.
"Hey. I need you to eat something" she said with a tender voice.
"I'm not hungry" Bella said.
"Just try it" Emily said. "Please. Just a donut" she said giving her daughter her puppy eyes.
"Okay" Bella said sitting up. She started eating so Emily got up to get some for herself. She headed to the kitchen island where everyone was gathered.
"Is she eating?" Jeremy asked. He was sitting on a chair and didn't have visual of Bella on the couch.
"Yeah" Emily said.
"Good" Marley said. Everyone smiled but everyone was very concerned.
They ate and talked about work at the fbi and at the hospital. Penelope saw Bella finished eating so she went to sit with her.
"Hi" Penelope said once she got close to the couch.
"Hi" Bella shyly replied.
"Do you mind if I sit here?" Penelope askedand Bella shook her head so Penelope sat next to her on the couch.
"So watch are you watching?" Penelope asked.
"I'm waiting for doctor who" Isabella said.
"Oh my god! You like doctor who?" Penelope asked enthusiastic.
"Yeah. It's a cool show" Bella said smiling.
"I love it so much. You have no idea" Penelope said. "Reid likes it too" she said.
"He does?" Isabella asked surprised. Penelope laughed. "Yeah" Bella gave her a sweet smile and the show started.
Spencer Reid was standing close to the kitchen island finishing a donut when he saw the show starting. "Uh doctor who's on" he said starting to walk to the couch and then running.
"Oh no another whovian" Jeremy said. Making Emily and Marley laugh.
"Another what?" Derek Morgan asked confused.
"Whovian" Jeremy said.
"It's what people call 'Doctor Who' fans" Marley explained.
"Oh" Derek M. said laughing.
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The rest of the morning went great. Everyone watched tv together and after doctor who was over Penelope saw that Bella had 'hugo' , a movie she wanted to see for a while so they decided to watch that. After the movie was over Marley ordered some Japanese.
Once again Bella wasn't hungry and didn't want to eat but Emily managed to get her to eat a little bit of yaksoba. After everyone was done J.J said as she was putting the dishes away with Emily "Em. It's almost 1. We should get ready" she was talking about the funeral.
Emily agreed. She walked to Bella and said "come upstairs with me?"
Isabella got up and they went upstairs.
J.J. told the team they had to go to the hotel to get ready because of course they weren't wearing proper clothes. So they left. Marley and Jeremy went to get ready too.
Upstairs, Emily went to Bella's bedroom. She sat on the bed and Bella followed her and sat on her lap.
"Honey. You need to get ready" Emily said.
"Okay" Bella said trying to act normal but inside she was broken. She didn't even wanted to go really.
"Go take a shower and I'll shower really quick on the other bathroom okay?" Emily said.
"Okay" Isabella said.
Emily knew she was scared. She gave her a kiss on the cheek and started getting up.
"Let's go" she said pushing Bella a little towards the bathroom.
They both took a shower really fast.
All Bella could think was how she did not want to go. Not at all.
Emily had left a black dress laying on the bed, J.J. Had bought this morning for Bella because Emily asked her. She didn't want her kid to use something she already had or anything like that. The dress was pretty, Isabella thought.
She had washed her hair and had it fallen on her shoulders. She put the dress on though she couldn't close it. Emily was getting dressed in the other room so she decided to wait for her to help and she started combing her hair instead. Emily came at the door also wearing a black dress J.J. bought.
"You look pretty" Bella said shyly and a little sad. Emily saw Bella's dress was still open on the back.
"Do you want help?" She asked. Isabella nodded yes and she went to help. She closed the dress and said "you look pretty too" giving Bella a sweet smile. Bella smiled back shyly.
"Do you want me to do your hair?" Emily asked.
Isabella loved when her mother did her hair so she nodded yes. They sat on the bed and Emily started combing Bella's hair. Half way through Bella started to cry. She was so scared. She didn't want to go. She wanted to stay home. She was quiet so at first Emily didn't see but when she realized she let the comb down and hugged Bella tight.
"Oh honey. Come here" she said dragging Bella to her lap. Isabella was crying but she wasn't make any noise. The tears were jumping out of her eyes but no sound came with them. She was so hurt and so scared. And also embarrassed because she couldn't keep herself from crying. Emily began rocking her slightly.
"I don't think I can do this" Bella said. Emily's heart sank by the tone of Bella's voice. She sounded so hurt.
"Oh honey. I'll be right there okay? I won't leave your side. I promise you" Emily said.
"I don't wanna go" Bella said crying.
"You have to baby" Emily said broken.
"I'll be right there"
"No mommy I can't" Bella cried.
"Yes you can. I know it hurts but you can do it alright?" Emily said.
"They gonna bury him to the ground mom"my" Isabella said almost not able to finish the sentence.
Emily didn't knew what to say so she just rocked Bella and squeezed her tight until she calmed down. It took a while for that to happen but she did. Emily wiped her daughter's tears. The hurt on the child's eyes was becoming too much for her. She felt like she was going to break down.
"I'll be right there with you. If you need to leave I'll take you away but you have to go alright?" Emily said trying to be strong for her girl.
"You promise you'll take me?" Bella asked.
"I promise baby" Emily said and gave Bella a kiss on the forehead. "Come on we have to go."
They got up and Emily finished combing Bella's hair. They went downstairs to find Marley and Jeremy waiting for them.
"Are you guys ready?" Jeremy asked.
"Yes" Emily said grabbing Bella's hand.
They headed to the car.
Emily sat next to Bella and didn't let go of her hand not even for one second the entire ride to the cemitery.
When they got there the team, the doctors, and a lot of other people were waiting.
John didnt have any other family members beside his kids.
Isabella stood next to her mom and held her hand tight as they walked towards all the people. She didnt want to be there. She didnt want to see or talk to anyone. She just wanted to go back home. But she knew she had to stay. So she was trying her best to keep her composure. Derek Shepherd came close to them.
"hey. are you okay?" he asked Bella.
"i'm fine" she said trying to avoid eye contact. She was doing that to everyone. She knew that if she saw someone crying she could possibly lose control and she didnt want that, specially not in front of everyone. Shepherd smiled and stood next to her. They just stood there for a while and then someone from the church was handing over roses for the people to put upon the coffin. The guy handed one to Derek Shepherd and moved to Bella. When she remembered what she was supposed to do with it she took a step back and hid her face behing her mother. Emily took the rose and said "i'll hold it for her"
"I'm sorry" the guy said.
Emily gave him a look as she was saying it was okay. He gave her another one for herself and walked away. Shepherd could see Isabella was begining to panic so he got behind her just in case she tried to run off. Emily turned around as soon as the guy handed her the rose. She wrapped her arms around Bella.
"It's okay honey. It's alright" she said. Bella was not crying. She was concentrating so hard not to.
Shepherd held her hand and the priest began talking.
The cerimony was alright.
John's friend Richard, who used to be his boss, gave an eulogy, and Jeremy spoke too. Isabella tried not to pay attention to what they were saying. When they were done the priest started talking again. There were a lot of people crying. Jeremy just hugged Marley and cried. Penelope and Derek Morgan were holding arms and penelope was crying. J.J. was standing beside Emily and she was crying too but she tried not to let Bella see it.
Isabella just held her mom's hand with one hand and Shepherd's with the other.
The priest finished talking and asked for them to lay the roses. Jeremy and Marley went. As soon as the laid it Emily began to take a step but Isabella froze on spot. Shepherd placed his hand on Bella's shoulder as a way of telling her to go ahead but she couldnt do it. She looked on Emily's eyes and Emily knew Bella couldnt take it anymore. She handed the roses to Derek and hugged Bella.
"I wanna go. Mommy i wanna go now" bella said as her tears started to fall. Derek handed the roses to Jeremy while Emily watched what he was doing and picked Bella up.
"Do this for your sister." Derek told Jeremy.
"sure" jeremy said waking to the coffin again as Emily handed Bella to Shepherd. She was crying but she was soundless. Emily didnt even realize she was crying too.
"I wanna go" Bella said.
"it's almost over" Derek whispered.
"mommy" she cried quietly. Emily held her hand.
"i'm right here. its alright." she said.
"it's almost done" Derek said.
The priest spoke again just to finish the Burial Service and as soon as he finished Derek started walking to the car. When they got to the car Emily went inside and opened her arms waiting for her daughter to come in and hug her.
And that was exactly what Isabella did. She was crying so much. So was so scared and she wanted to just leave that place.
"please i wanna go" Isabella cried.
Derek shepherd knew she had to get away from there.
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