Alyson tossed and turned that night hearing Draco's voice in her head playing over and over again. She was so mad at herself for letting her feelings get the better of her. She glanced over at Fred who was out cold. She sighed heavily and kicked the blankets from off of herself and swung her legs over the side of the bed. She got up slowly and silently. She slipped a pair of flats on and made her way out of the room and down the stairs.
She opened the front door to the burrow and looked out around the dark yard. The moon hung high in the sky and it was so bright Alyson could see everything. She made her way into the tall grass not knowing where she was going but wanting to be anywhere but here. She hadn't realized that she was running until she felt herself become out of breath.
She stopped and looked around seeing some woods ahead of her. She had no clue where she had run to but she didn't dare go any farther. There was a log in front of the woods and she plopped herself down and looked around.
Just then she heard a loud flutter as Dex flew into her view and landed besides her. He cooed loudly and nipped at her finger as she reached for him. He lifted his leg towards her showing off the note wrapped around his foot.
Alyson slowly reached for it but untied it quickly. Her heart ponded heavily in her chest as she hoped it was from Draco though as she unraveled the note that seemed to not be the case.
Dearest Alyson,
How are you? I noticed when Draco came back today he was not quite himself? Did something happen? Are you alright? They haven't hurt you have they? I swear if they have even harmed a hair on your head I will kill every last one of them. Write me back.
-Bella
Alyson sighed and flipped the note over conjuring a pen with her wand. She scribbled quickly and furiously.
Dear Bellatrix,
Nothing happened. Im Fine. Don't worry about me and don't start anything. I can handle myself.
-Ali
Alyson wrapped the note back up and tied it onto Dex's foot and then gave him a quick pet on the back of the head.
"Wait Dex hold on" Alyson called softly as she ripped some of the paper off the bottom of that note and wrote two words and gave it to Dex.
"Take this to them, make sure they get them" Alyson said as she stroked her owls feathers one more time and watched as he flew off into the night.
Alyson wrapped her arms around herself and starred up at the night sky. The sky was so clear she could practically count every star. Alyson sighed thinking how peaceful it would be if she could just sit here for the rest of her life and leave everything else behind. But then the faces of her fellow death eaters flashed in her mind.
She missed them so much, missed being in the presence of the dark lord. Missed not having to worry about offending people, missed not being around people who she was supposed to hate, and most of missed not feeling a single emotion towards anyone or anything. Things were simpler there and made more sense to her.
Draco's words kept echoing in her mind, "You don't love me." Alyson had always cared for the boy but she would never admit to herself let alone anyone else how much. It was true what they had said. The moment she found out he was to be a death eater she went to the dark lord and fought with him for hours about it. In the end the dark lord got his way wanting revenge on Lucius and his family and to torment Lucius further he gave him the task of killing Dumbledore and then told him that if he did not do this he would kill him and his mother. Alyson volunteered her services to the dark lord to help Draco complete this task.
The dark lord forbid it and Alyson fought with him for days over it. She begged and pleaded and offered the dark lord everything under the sun to prevent Draco from being harmed. Finally he agreed to let her go to Hogwarts but to carry out another mission that was far darker and more dangerous than any she had done before. She had made the dark lord swear not to tell Draco about any of this and he agreed not to. Draco had no idea that the reason she was doing all this was for him and his family.
She remembered the day that they announced his arranged marriage to Pansy. How thrilled his parents and Pansy had been. She flung herself all over Draco which enraged Alyson more and more by the second. Alyson ended up leaving the house that day and keeping to herself outside. Eventually the dark lord had found her and asked why she had been hiding outside by herself for the most of the day.
"Alyson what are you doing out here alone?" asked the dark lord as he strolled up and took a seat next to her.
"Nothing, I just can't stand to be in there another minute" Alyson admitted as she buried her face in her hands.
"And is there a reason for that?" he asked receiving no reply.
"Perhaps you are jealous?" hinted the dark lord.
"Jealous of what" spat Alyson as she pulled her face out of her hands, her eyes narrowing as she glared at the dark lord.
"Of Pansy perhaps because maybe you have feelings for the Malfoy boy?" the dark lord inquired.
"As if! Feelings are a stupid thing that I do not have time for" hissed Alyson as she turned her eyes towards the house.
"Feelings are a weakness. Trust me when I tell you that love does not exist. All those fairy tales you were told about as a child were a lie. Love is the weakest emotion there is and you are a lot stronger and smarter than that" Voldemort explained as he looked from the house to Alyson.
"I am not weak. I will never be weak and I will never let my feelings get the better of me" stated Alyson as she clenched her fist and shook the feelings of hurt and jealousy out of her mind.
Later that night Draco had come to her room he noticed how red and puffy Alyson's eyes were and he immediately wrapped his arms around her.
"Alyson I'm so sorry, if I could fix this I would. I don't want her you know that" he whispered hoarsely as he pulled her against him tighter.
Alyson wrapped her arms around him and continued to cry.
"Alyson you know that I'll always be here for you no matter what" Draco cooed in her ear. Alyson felt her knees give way and she fell down towards the ground, Draco dropped down with her not letting her.
She cried into his chest for hours and he just stayed there and held her tightly and sometimes ran his fingers through her hair and down her back trying to calm her.
"What can I do to make this better?" asked Draco finally as he pulled her away from him so he could look at her face.
"There's nothing you can do, you have to marry pansy that's all there is to it." Replied Alyson coldly as she pulled away from Draco and picked herself up off the ground.
"So that's it? That's what you want?" asked Draco as he raised his voice in anger.
"No it's not what I want but I will not ruin your life so that I can have you to myself. You can't be with me and you know it! I'm not good for you!" hissed Alyson as she turned away from him.
Draco starred at her silently his eyes were red and puffy. She knew he had been crying with her. They both loved each other and they knew it though they had never said it to each other.
She thought back to what had happened today and sighed loudly to fight back the tears that were forming in the corners of her eyes. She knew that having a relationship with Draco was something that could never happen but she knew that as long as she was alive she would do everything and anything in her power to make sure that he was safe. The dark lord knew this as well and reminded her of how it made her weak.
Alyson slowly picked herself up and headed back to the burrow. She knew that Fred would be up soon and if she wasn't in the room he would send a search party out. She went back the burrow and climbed back into bed and felt herself drift off into a quick slumber.
She awoke the next morning to a gentle push on her arm.
"Alyson, come get up breakfast is ready" called a voice.
Alyson's eyes fluttered open and she thought she saw blonde hair in front of her. Her lips curled into a smile until she completely opened her eyes and noticed that Fred was standing before her.
"You okay?" asked Fred as he watched her expression change.
"Yeah I'm fine" She lied as she climbed out of bed and grabbed a pair of clean clothes.
"I'm going to take a shower don't wait up for me" she told him as she disappeared behind the bathroom door and sighed heavily.
She cleared her head and pushed her mind into Fred's thoughts.
She looks like hell. Poor thing I wish there was a way I could make her happy. Damn that Malfoy. All he ever does is break girls hearts. He is the man whore of Hogwarts how could she ever have any feelings towards him.
Alyson watched as memories of Draco kisses other girls and flirting with other girls throughout Fred's time at Hogwarts played in his mind. Alyson gulped and shut his thoughts out. Draco wasn't like that he was a good man. She shook the thoughts out of her head and quickly took a shower.
When Alyson stepped out of the shower she noticed two large trunks at the end of her bed and on her bed was a stack of large books.
"What's that?" asked Alyson as she gestured to the stuff on her bed.
"Dumbledore stopped by while you were in the shower to drop off your school things" Fred explained as he made his way over towards the door.
"Is he still here?" asked Alyson.
"No he said he had very important things to do" replied Fred.
"Oh alright then" Alyson whispered.
Alyson followed Fred downstairs to the kitchen where the table was piled with food. There were a few extra people sitting at the table that normally weren't there but only one stuck out to Alyson.
"Severus" Alyson cried out as she dashed for the seat next to him.
"Morning Miss Frost" Snape muttered flatly.
"How is everyone?" she whispered so that no one else would hear her.
"Well they seem to think that you are in some kind of danger after the way Malfoy has been parading around the house hence why I am here this morning instead of back at the manor" he said dryly.
"Is he okay?" she whispered even softer.
"He'll be fine. Pansy was summoned to the manor to be with him during this tough time" he said.
Alyson's hands clenched into a fist and her face flushed red.
"You would be wise to move on Alyson or else you are going to end up hurt or worse" warned Snape softly enough that no one else could hear them.
"And what can anyone do about it?" Growled Alyson.
"If he doesn't carry out this task the dark lord is going to kill him. And the dark lord is counting on him not to succeed." Snape confided in her.
"He Will! He Must!" cried Alyson.
"I won't let him hurt him!" hissed Alyson as she picked up the knife next to her plate and begin to cut the waffles that lay in front of her.
"Alyson you know as well as I that if you try and fight the dark lord he will kill you" Snape explained with a desperate voice.
"He is not going to kill Draco. I can kill him I know his secret!" whispered Alyson, "If he even touches a hair on his head I'll hunt them down and kill every last one of them"
"Alyson, Draco is not worth all of this. You two can't be together you know that so just let it go" warned Snape again as he bit into a green apple.
Alyson swore under her breath as she shoved the waffles in her mouth. She knew better than any of them that if the dark lord even tried to hurt him she would kill him no matter what it took. She swore she would protect him and that's what she was going to do. Even if she couldn't be with Draco in the end she would make sure he at least had a fair shot at a future.