That week ended rather quickly. The weekend coming fast. I knew I was in a foul mood the whole week, even Haru was getting fed up with me a bit. But that didn't stop him from sleeping in my bed every night. I can't do anything about it. How am I supposed to feel? You came crying to me to get you away from Makoto! And now you are going to meet up with him? Even though I'm coming, it still feels so wrong.
"Are you ready?" Haru came into my room, he had his coat on, ready to go. "Uh, yeah just looking for my keys." I was searching everywhere for them.
"I have mines, so it's okay." I sighed and put my coat on and followed him out. It's pretty cold out now. I need to buy a new coat, mines pretty light. "Haru, do you know how to get there."
"Yeah, I've gone there before with him." Ugh, this is so annoying. I hate this. Every step we took, I felt sicker. Haru was rather quiet, but he's always like that. I should say I'm rather quiet.
"We're here." I look up and it's a hotel. I feel sick. "There's a lounge with light snacks and drinks open to the public." Haru looked back at me. "Well, I bet he's already inside, are you ready?" I looked at him.
"Are you ready?" I asked back. He stared at me and turned away. He walked inside and I followed after. Slowly from a distance, I see Makoto already sitting at a table with drink cups of water on the table. He looked rather nervous. It wasn't long until he spotted us, he got frantic and got up quickly to greet us.
"Haruka!" He reached his hand out but quickly pulled it back, I guess he doesn't feel like he should be touching Haru. He shouldn't be. He looked behind Haru and to me.
"Rin!" I waved awkwardly. I don't know how to act around him yet to be honest. Haru didn't say anything to him at all. We both sat down across from him. I moved my chair a bit back. No matter how you look at it, this really isn't my business. But I can still hear their conversation.
"H-Haru, how have you been?"
"The same…" Haru looked away, and then he finally looked at Makoto for the first time, "What about you?"
Is he interested in this assholes life?
Whoa. Calm down Rin. This isn't about you. I got up quickly. "I'm going to get some water!" I left as soon as I could. I need to get out of here for a bit.
'R-Rin…" I heard Haru from a distance. I went to the bathroom and washed my face. I feel terrible, I want to go home. I left the bathroom and passed by a vending machine. That's right, I said I was getting water. It'd be stupid if I came back without some.
I started walking back…
"Haru, I'm sorry." I stopped. "I'm so sorry for hurting you. I- I was obsessed with you. I never wanted you to leave my side. Since it was always like that. We were always together. Even when we were together, I'd miss you. I was messed up back then." Stop. "But I got help. I went to counseling as soon as you left. My way of thinking has changed. I.. I miss you… Haruka." Haru jolted. "I've changed, for the better! I love you. I want you back!"
I can't move.
"Can we try again? Do you still love me?" He saw me, Haru saw me. Why are you looking at me? He looks scared. Come, come to me. Ask me to take you away. But he turned away and looked at Makoto. What are you doing?
"Makoto.." What are you doing?
"I..I still-" I dropped my bottle. He still loves him. Haru looked at me. "R-Rin?" He got up.
"Rin what's wrong?" I was breathing heavily. Panting, sweating. I took a step backwards and turned around and ran, like a coward. I ran out the hotel and across the street. I can't see… I can't breathe, I'm going to black out again. I stopped to catch my breath.
"Rin!" I look over to see Haru running after me. Please go away. He caught up and stopped to catch his breath. "Rin.. what happened?" He was staring at me. It was burning.
"Are you okay? Do you need water?"
"You still love him don't you?" He was a little shocked I said that.
"What?"
"Why else would you hesitate? If you didn't you wouldn't have looked at me and you would've said no! Why? Why would you still love him?"
"R-Rin, I-"
"He hurt you! He abused you!"
"Why are you so worked up about this Rin?"
"Because I love you!"
I gasped. We both gasped. Did I just?
"Rin…"
"I- I'm sorry. That was… I.." I sighed. I picked up my bag and turned away. "Go home. It'd be best if you didn't see me for a while."
"Rin! Where are you going to go?" He reached out and I moved away. "A hotel or something. Just go home…"
I knew as I walked away Haru just stood there watching me.
I fucked up.
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