Thank all of you who have added me on your favorites I am extremely flattered. Once again thanks to all my religious reviewers it helps me a ton. I also appreciate those of you that are pointing out some of my typing errors I try my best but I will miss stuff and that is why I depend on you lovely people. Once again, I am trying to make the paragraphs easier to read I'm so sorry it is really hard for me.

A few people are concerned about my rating and what could be coming in the future. I have not decided if I am going to have lemony goodness yet or not, I am letting the story take me where it will. If I do add lemons then yes I will change the rating.

This chapter doesn't develop the story further but I had to let Emmett be heard.

I will change POV in this chapter again, but sorry we won't be hearing a lot from Edward this time around. Be patient, I promise it will be well worth it.

Bella POV

When I woke up from the first good night of sleep I have had in over a year I felt a sudden spike of panic and searched my room until I found what I was looking for, a beautiful pixie like girl rummaging through my closet...wait rummaging through my closet? "Alice, what the hell are you doing?" She turned around and her face was full of horror. "Honestly Bella, I would have thought that even you would know not to take fashion tips from the chief of police!" She was holding my favorite flannel shit that was frayed and lovingly worn in. I normally would have been annoyed by this behavior but I was overjoyed that in the fresh light of day Alice was still here, that everything that happened yesterday was real, that I couldn't be bothered to feel insulted. "Ok Alice your right, but I love that shirt, it has sentimental value." She smirked as she hung it back up tentatively.

"I'm sorry Bella I promised myself I wasn't going to be overbearing with you, but Cheyenne left at five this morning and I was a little bored, so I went through your wardrobe. I have to say that a few of the things I found were surprisingly wonderful, I must have rubbed off a little." I thought of the perfect smart ass retort "No, actually all of my good fashion clothing Charlie helped me pick out before moving here." I couldn't help but laugh at her mock annoyed face. "So, what am I wearing today fashion coordinator?" She lit up like a Christmas tree when I asked. "Really, wow, yay, I promise it will be comfortable it is a bit of a warm muggy day." Then she was in my closet and back out with clothes I didn't even know I owned.

She laid on my bed a pair of lightweight stretch hiphuggers, a blue halter with a touch of purple, and white and the same color blue checkered button down blouse. I put on the outfit, and went to throw on my boots but before I could reach them they went flying out my window. I rolled my eyes I knew she hated them, and they were old so I really didn't mind. She handed me a pair of shoes that sorta resembled a boot but were much more elegant and had a thin but short heel, they were a tanish brown color. I looked pretty good and it was comfortable like she promised, but then I saw my face, the past year had taken its toll, I was sullen and paler than usual, and my hair seemed to be just as hectic. "Umm...Alice....can you fix this?" I motioned to my heard. She sighed and came over to me.

"Bella you still look beautiful, but I guess the past year left its mark, I can erase that for you but remember you don't need fixing just cleaning up." I smiled at her and understood she wanted me to know that she loved me and that I shouldn't be so hard on myself. "Thanks Alice, I think maybe this time I'll listen, it's time for me to be more of a woman and less of a scared child." I meant it too I was done hiding inside myself, I needed to show the world and most importantly myself that I was a woman, especially if I still wanted to....truly become part of the Cullen family.

When Alice was done with me I felt well....sexy...that was the first time I had felt that way it was a strangely exhilarating feeling. I went to my mirror and appraised the woman in front of me, and I really liked what I saw. I heard a buzzing noise and saw Alice type a text message in under a second..it was strange how normal that seemed to me.

"So, I only have two classes today one is library science and the other tonight is my biology lab...is Carlisle my teacher for that? Anyways you can come with me to class if you would like, I'm sure they wouldn't notice, and we could spend the day together between my classes." She looked at me with disappointment, "Well I would really love to do that and technically he is your teacher but he has an aid that teaches his labs, he just gives them the lesson plan, but anyway Emmett wants to spend the day with you he is dying to see you, not literally of course but still, what do you think?" I was torn I really missed Emmett he was so fun to be around but I was terrified to let Alice go in fear that she wouldn't come back, hopefully someday I would quit feeling that way. "Wont Rosalie be mad that I am spending the day with Emmett?" I knew she would but I still had to ask.

"Oh, screw Rose she needs to pull the stick out of her ass eventually, and it is what Emmett wants so she wont openly object." Alice said in a very trite manner. I laughed at her using such rude language and caved "Oh alright I would love to see Emmett, my day should be a real riot, especially with me wearing these shoes, at least I know I wont actually hit the ground." We laughed at that because be both knew I would fall at least once today, and that Emmett would have to save me from injury, and then mercilessly make fun of me about it afterwards.

"Well, I have to get going, Emmett will be here in twenty minutes to accompany you to class, he wont be able to stay with you all day the sun will make an appearance at 2:47 p.m. this afternoon and will be out until sunset, oh and Jasper is excited about seeing you in his lab tonight. I have to go hunt before and make it back before the sun, somebody in your building smells a little too good it's maddening, now I know how Edward feels....oh sorry." I chuckled "Don't be, and please never be sorry about what you are I fully accept it..and..." I trailed off not able to say what I wanted, but her eyes told me she understood.

She swept me up in a tight hug and kissed my cheek "Have a good day, I'll see you in your lab I have a feeling your teacher wont put up too much of a fuss about an un-enrolled student." Then she danced out of my room, and I was alone.

I barely had time to really think about how my life had changed in the last twenty four hours before I heard a hard knock and a booming laugh outside my door. I opened the door and was swept into a rib breaking, suffocating hug which I had missed so much "Uh...Em...can't..breathe."

Emmett POV

I was so psyched about spending the day with Bella that I didn't want to put her down, but unfortunately she was a human and actually needed to breath so I reluctantly put her down. "Damn Bella you look gooood, what a difference a year makes." She was a lot more grown up and those clothes definitely showed off her hot little body. "Thanks Emmett, you really know how to flatter a girl" She giggled sarcastically. Oh how I missed joking with Bella she was so fun to be around. "Um..Bella...I am really sorry that I agreed to leave you, it was the wrong thing to do, will you forgive me?" I asked this sheepishly knowing that she had every right to refuse my request.

She wrapped her arms around me and squeezed "Emmett I know it wasn't your idea, of course I forgive you, your back now so let bygones be bygones." There she was, the most forgiving human I had ever met. "You seriously are the coolest damn person little sister, today is going to rock I can't wait." I looked down at her feet and started laughing "Oh yeah today is going to be hilarious, and of course your gonna expect me to keep you clumsy ass off the ground while your wearing those deathtraps aren't you?" I knew that I wouldn't have to dig for jokes today and my happiness rose even higher.

"Yeah I wore these shoes just for your entertainment, now try not to get me in trouble my first day in library science." She gave me a half hearted serious look, and I knew as well as she did that would be a hard task but I would try to behave. "Library science what kind of a dumb shit class is that anyway?" College courses just kept getting more and more ridiculous over time. "I dunno most likely they don't think people know how to use a library and want to teach you the fine science behind it" He voiced reeked of sarcasm.

"Are you sure I have to behave then, it sounds like the perfect class to be well myself in." I imagined my self running through the library and mixing up all the books really screwing Mr. Dewey's system right up. "We'll have to see, I might be right there with you throwing call cards around" She said in a voice that told me she thought the class was bullshit, but mandatory. "Bella they don't use call cards anymore, there are these new inventions called computers it make the process much easier." She smacked me and of course it felt like being tickled with a feather. "Are you ready big brother?" She asked gesturing to the hallway. "Fuck yeah let's spread some mayhem on this stuffy college campus." If only.

We walked to the library it was only a quarter of a mile from her dorm, what a stuffy place it was. I looked around and imagined that Esme could have done a better set-up with her eyes closed. "Oh joy this place is more exciting than disneyland." I scoffed, Bella looked at me and nodded in agreement. "Better behave Em, how would it look if Dr. Cullen's son got in trouble trashing the ugly ass library." She cussed oh my god I had never heard her cuss before it was awesome, just for that I gave her another hug. "Oh Bella I didn't know you had cussing in you I am so proud, and don't worry I wont embarrass Carlisle, at least not today."

Even though I promised to be good, Bella and I got yelled at a few dozen times, and the up tight old and smelly professor threatened to kick us out after he caught us passing notes for the eighth time. Bella's face was fire red by the end of class, and neither of us could contain our laughter. I was so thrilled that she was so happy spending time with me, Jasper had explained how she had been just the day before and I have to admit I was worried. Even my darling Rose thought that a day with me would help ease Bella's pain. I was so excited it worked that if I could I would have pissed my pants.

We walked around and talked for all of the morning, I took her to lunch at the student union, she ate while I watched. I had always been tempted to eat human food but even this stuff held no curious appeal it smelled so appalling. "Emmett, thanks for spending the day with me, it really helped, I feel a lot less in shock, and I think that I am more ready to think about the really important aspect of all of this." I nodded thoughtfully " Not to put you on the spot but you know me, Bella do you still love Edward?" I couldn't keep that question locked up any longer it had been trying to run out of my damn mouth all day. "No offense Emmett, but I can't tell you the answer, I don't want him to know, I want him to have to figure it out with out his little talent for support, he could use the challenge." She said in a slightly dark tone. Even though she didn't tell me the answer, I saw it in her eyes, but I knew that Edward wouldn't see it there he was so fucking hard on himself he always missed the obvious. She still loved him, and would never stop loving him.

We walked back to her building in silence except for the three times she tripped and I caught her with mere inches to spare, one of the times she would have shattered her nose if I hadn't been there. I howled with laughter the entire walk, and she was blushing so much I though her head might actually catch fire, it was so fuckin cute, I was so childishly giddy to have my baby sister back my life, it wasn't the same without her.

We got back to her room with half an hour to spare before I had to go, I met her roommate Cheyenne and five of her friends. Cheyenne was nice enough but the others were too aroused by me it was stinky, and annoying. They all kept sending Bella daggers when they didn't think we could see, so I did what any big brother who wasn't really related would do. "Oh Bella you are the most beautiful (human..I whispered) woman I have ever seen, no woman has ever been as sexy and delicious as you are." I swept her up back like in old-fashioned movies which weren't old when I was a human but anyways and kissed her. I knew Rose and Edward would be miffed but they would appreciate the reason behind it. "Bella blushed brighter than I had seen all day. "Thanks, Emmett but um well your brother is more my type no offense, but I am sure you will find an even more beautiful girl to spend your life with. She then whispered so low only I could hear.. who is going to kill me for letting you do that, damn it she already hates me." I scoffed it was freaking cool how Bella knew how to speak to only the vampire in the room, the girl was destined to be part of our family.

"Well since you don't love me the way I love you, I guess I will go home..and cry." I said in mock despair nodding at the clock. "Thanks for the great day big brother bear, I really needed it, tell everybody I said hi, and tell Rosalie not to kill me. She said with a wink. I laughed "Ok so can she maim you? Just kidding, she wont I'll keep my sexy lady distracted so she wont remember to." Just the though got me excited to get home, how I wanted Rose to punish me, yeah buddy. "TMI Em TMI" She said while trying to shake the image in her head away. "Peace out homey." I said while leaving her with those nasty fuckin girls. The human roommate element was going to suck big balls. I took off running once out of sight, going home to my Rosie my whole body excited to get home.

Bella POV

I was alone again for the second time today, ok not truly alone Cheyenne and her annoying friends were here but I felt alone. My morning with Emmett was just what the doctor ordered I felt so much better today. I even felt ready to mentally tackle the Edward dilemma. Once again I said his name and there was no pain, but instead a feeling of longing. I still didn't know what I wanted to do about Edward, and I knew I couldn't make a decision until after seeing Jake this weekend. There was one thing I needed to do to make sure I chose the right path, and I needed Jake to be here so that I could do that. I reluctantly socialized with my roommate and her friends, the more I talked to Cheyenne the more I liked her, and the more I talked to her friends the more I wanted to kick their teeth in. They had been listening to a rock cd I had never heard before but it drew me in. When I asked Cheyenne about it she handed it to me and told me her and her friends had to get to class but that I should look up the lyrics to the songs and read them while listening or I would get them terribly wrong. I laughed but what the hell I had two hours to kill before class with Jasper as my teacher and Alice as a fellow student, how funny is this going to be.

I listened to the CD several times, and the lyrics were interesting some of them even a bit disturbing, but one song in particular held my attention the most. I listened to it over and over. It had a sense of raw sexuality to it, and while I listened I allowed myself to fantasize, some of my fantasies more sexual than others, most of them were about Edward, and one or two were about Jake. I was embarrassed for thinking the things I was, but I was nineteen and had never been to second base so what else was I going to do.

I felt a breeze behind me and turned with a start and saw Alice beaming at me from my bed. "Hey Bella how was your day with Emmett?' I rolled my eyes "Like you don't already know the answer to that. Anyway it was awesome I really have missed him." I looked at my clock and saw that I had an hour and a half before my lab at seven. I thought about the no contact order for Edward and I and it hit me. "Alice, he will leave if we don't talk soon I just know it." She looked away for a second, and her expression told me I was right.

Then a portion of the song I had listened to all afternoon crossed my mind, and I knew how to make sure he would stay. "Genius Bella, whatever you are going to do will make things around here very interesting." Alice said with udder joy in her voice. I went to my computer and wrote a note, all I would put in the note was Dear Edward the portion of the song that I knew would mean something to him because it did to me, and my interpretation of what it meant, and that I simply wrote so what are you going to do about it? Love Bella, P.S if you can't figure out the song ask Jasper I think I heard him mention the band before. I placed it in an envelope and wrote his name on it. "Alice this isn't against the no contact order, will you take it to him now, then come back when you are finished?' I knew she would and I knew how cruel this was but I didn't care I wasn't going to come back easily I wanted him to fight for me if he still wanted me and I knew this would the spur in his side. "Ok, be back in thirteen minutes." Alice said while she dashed away very excitedly.

Edward POV

I heard Alice's thoughts before she got home and she was doing her best to hide them but memories of Bella popped through here and there. She then just barged into my room and handed me an envelope. "Here this is for you." Her voice was way too thrilled. I took the envelop and heard Alice tell Jasper to distract her, and prepared my self for the lust that was going to be pouring in soon, I wish Alice would find a better distraction to keep me out of her mind. I had enough of my own lust to deal with.

I opened the envelope and it simply said:

Dear Edward,

Someday soon you'll find that someone....................................Obviously I will find somebody else, maybe I already know him

waiting for the chance to beat you................................................Who will break through my resistance because of you

drooling on the stage to feel you......................................................once again obvious

blessing you with every kiss.............................................................and he would try to make me forget all about you

Oh yeah,.. it would be strange and adored by me throughout.., if you let it happen.

Someday my body and hormones will win the battle with my heart. So what are you going to do about it?

Love Bella

P.S. If you can't figure out the song ask Jasper I think I heard him mention the band before.

I read those words a dozen times, and it hit me. She is telling me that she has needs and that she will move on to satisfy her needs unless I stop her, and I knew then that this no contact bullshit was coming to an end, how can I win back somebody I can't see, touch or talk to. I would give her the weekend to explain to the mutt, oh shit she wouldn't NOOO. I really needed to figure out this song so that maybe I could figure out what she was thinking. "Jasper, finish with Alice and come here." I heard both of them growl, but their private time could come later. I needed to make a plan and I knew I needed to let go of all my preconceived notions about physical boundaries I knew this time she wouldn't allow me to push her away, and I wasn't sure I would allow it either. God the things I wanted to do to her, and the need to claim her as mine so that filthy dog wouldn't be able to.

"What has got you so lustful and determined, and why did I have to hurry through sex?" Jasper was at my door. I showed him the note, and he laughed "Wow, that is quite the threat, hold on I'll get the CD and the rest of the lyrics." He laughed all the way to his room and back. "Ok my master planner, I am going to win her back so help me come up with a fool proof plan." That was funny to me because I had been such a fool.

"Ok, but it will have to wait, I have to go teach Bella's class now, don't know how I am going to look at her the same after reading that note. Just read the lyrics you're smart you'll figure it out." He said while walking away. I read through the lyrics and found the song, and listened to it and read it over and over, and it finally hit me what she meant when she said that it would be strange and adored by her throughout, and I about dropped dead from unadulterated arousal. My, my Bella was definitely hitting below the belt, and did I ever like it.

I know you want to know the song, but I think I will just make you sweat it out, and maybe you can guess it.

Sorry I didn't get this posted sooner my internet was down, so I had to wait, I hate it just as much as you do.