A/N I know Callie's reaction to Mark's tirade was disappointing but this entire chapter will be devoted to Callie and Mark and why Callie didn't jump to Arizona's defense.
Properly Chastised
The next day had come and with it a fever for Callie. The reason for Callie's fever was being attributed to Callie pushing herself too much. So she was prevented from seeing Sofia because no one wanted Sofia to become ill. So Callie had all sorts of time to think about what Mark had said. She was furious with him and she wished she had immediately defended Arizona from the moment he had lit into her. That was a mistake and one that she never planned to make again. Mark was her best friend, but Arizona was the woman she loved and she wouldn't stand by and watch him disrespect Arizona again. She had made the excuse to Lexie that the stress had caused it but there was no excuse for it. No reason for Mark to have lit into Arizona like he had done.
Callie knew that Mark wouldn't leave Sofia's side for anything, but she needed to talk to him. She had texted him about twenty minutes ago and he had yet to respond. That only furthered her anger towards him. Finally he responded and told her that he'd be right there in about five minutes. Callie leaned back on the stack of pillows that she had been able to talk the nurses into giving her. She was exhausted over the last few days, but she was also angry. Right now, that anger was the main feeling. She could push back the exhaustion she was feeling to deal with the anger she was feeling.
Personally Mark was surprised that Callie hadn't jumped to Arizona's defense yesterday. He had completely expected her to jump to Arizona's defense after he had gone off on her. Mark suspected he was being summoned to Callie's room to talk about that very incident. Of course Mark felt rotten for saying it, and the truth of the matter was that he never should have said it. Arizona was Callie's life and Arizona was a huge part of Sofia's life. Mark and Arizona hadn't spoken to each other since Mark had asked her if they could fake the reconciliation. He wasn't good at apologies but he knew that both Arizona and Callie deserved them and even more. He had a lot to do if he wanted to make things right with both of them.
When he finally walked into Callie's hospital room, he didn't dare offer a smile. He knew that it wouldn't be returned. Callie looked tired but she also looked angry. Mark had seen her angry before, but he had never seen her this livid. Truthfully she kind of scared him. Not that he would ever admit that though. An angry Callie was very dangerous. Callie knew that Mark knew why he was there. He wouldn't even look her in the eye. Despite his recent behavior he wasn't usually a complete moron. Instead of starting off with a stream of yelling, Callie asked about Sofia.
"How's Sofia doing?"
"She's stable. Her blood pressure looks better though." Mark answered. He was confused. He had thought he was being brought into the room to listen to Callie scream at him for disrespecting Arizona. Callie nodded, glad to know that Sofia was doing a bit better number-wise. Now that that was out of the way, she and Mark could have a real discussion.
"Why would you ever say what you said to Arizona. Especially in front of Sofia. My God Mark that was mean And cruel and I'd really like to think you aren't cruel. That was awful. You made the woman I love cry. That is unacceptable. I wish that I had defended her because I should have. She's an amazing woman who loves me and loves Sofia more than anything. She told me she was in this despite the fact that she knew it wouldn't be easy on her. She knew you two would both be involved in Sofia's life but she was willing to put her dislike of you on the back burner and focus on Sofia. And then you just start yelling at her and you blame her for the wreck Mark. How could you do that? That day was awful and there was a real chance Sofia and I could have died that day."
Callie was livid and if Mark understood Spanish she would have been screaming at him in Spanish, but since he didn't, Callie stuck with English. Mark had no words. Strangely he was glad to see Callie finally defending Arizona even if it was twelve hours after the offense had occurred. He started to speak, but Callie held up her hand. She wasn't done and Mark was grateful for that because he still had no idea what he would have said.
"I'm in love with Arizona and I cannot wait to marry that woman. You have to understand that while we share a child together, you have no place in our relationship. Arizona feels as though you come first with me and I have got to change that if we have any chance at making us work. You need to learn boundaries Mark. That means you can't just barge into the apartment uninvited anymore." Callie continued. She and Arizona had talked last night after Lexie and Mark had gone to get some sleep and Callie had reassured Arizona that she loved her and that she couldn't wait to marry her. Mark was suddenly feeling like a chastised five year old. He knew that everything that Callie said was right. He knew that he had acted like a complete asshole last night. He also knew that he did in fact have boundary issues. He was still at a loss for words and he hoped that Callie wasn't done yelling at him because he still had no idea what to say. An apology wasn't enough in this situation. He needed to do something else.
"She's not nothing Mark. She's the woman I love more than anything. She's Sofia's Mama too, you know. She's a big part of Sofia's life and that is not going to change," Callie told Mark, her voice dropping slightly. She was done for the time being and now she waited for Mark to say something.
Mark knew that it was his turn to speak and he really wasn't sure what he was supposed to say. Yes he was sorry and no of course he didn't mean it. He needed to say something eloquent though and he was not known for his eloquent speeches. He finally was able to catch Callie's eye and he noticed that her face had softened slightly.
"I am sorry, but I know that's not enough. I have a lot to do to make it up to both of you. I still cannot believe that I lost my temper in front of Sofia. That was one thing I swore to myself that I would never do. I don't want to be that guy. That guy who loses his temper in front of his children." Mark began quietly. The fact that he had yelled at Sofia's Mama Arizona in front of Sofia was unacceptable to him. It didn't even matter that Sofia was a baby. Her jump in heart rate last night had been proof that she sensed the fight.
"Did you mean it?" Callie asked softly. She hoped that he didn't mean it. Arizona had worked hard to prove that she wasn't going anywhere. She had worked hard to prove her loyalty to Callie and Sofia.
The fact that Callie even had to ask him if he meant it hurt. Of course Mark hadn't meant it. He wasn't sure what had caused his temper to flare so quickly. He wished he could offer an explanation, but he couldn't.
"No of course I didn't." Mark told her honestly.
"Then why the hell did you say it?" Callie demanded. Mark was not giving her satisfactory answers and Callie was not happy.
"Why does anyone say mean things? Maybe because they're scared or stupid or just mean." Mark replied. Callie wanted to kill him. He wasn't giving her answers that she could live with.
"That's a cop out Mark and you know it." Callie accused.
"I don't fucking know okay. It just came out and before I could take it back I had Arizona in tears and you and Lexie were in complete shock." Mark told her. He was growing frustrated because he couldn't find the right words to express his regret. He was proving that he was not good with words of an apologetic nature.
"Because you had never yelled at her like that. I was angry and shocked and I should have stood up for her and I regret that I didn't." Callie responded.
"Arizona's a good person and she loves you and Sofia and I regret what I said to her." Mark finally told Callie. That was honest and sincere. Mark wasn't entirely sure that Callie would accept that and Mark knew that he had a lot of work to do to make it up to both Callie and Arizona. Callie decided just to let it go for a bit. She had other more pressing things to discuss with him.
"And while we're on the subject of Arizona. You have to understand that this baby belongs to four people. You cannot keep making decisions about her and just assuming that we'll all agree with you. I know Derek's the best neurosurgeon but last night I told Addison that I want Archer to consult on the case. Derek's too close to the case because of you and I know you dislike Archer intensely but you have to stop being a total asshole Mark. This is about what's best for Sofia and Arizona and I think that Archer is it." Mark couldn't believe that Callie and Arizona had gone over his head and requested Archer's presence on Sofia's case when Mark had explicitly said no. Callie could see that Mark was once again fuming so she continued to talk.
"No one is taking your place in Sofia's life Mark. She loves her Daddy just like she loves all three of her moms. You aren't any more important than Arizona is or than I am or Lexie is. We are all important in Sofia's life and if you would stop being such an asshole then you would realize that." Callie informed him with a glare. Callie was sick of Mark always announcing that he was the father. The whole damn hospital knew that from the moment the pregnancy was announced and Callie wished he would just stop.
"And as for you repeatedly announcing that you are the father, everyone knows that Mark. You have made that very clear from the moment the pregnancy was common knowledge. I will not take that title from you, but I am begging you to stop staking your claim on her. There are four parents who love her and who want her to have the best care in the world. We have other people's opinions to listen to. Your opinions don't carry more weight because you are a biological parent." Callie finally told him. Mark sighed, knowing that Callie was right and he was once again in the wrong.
Mark couldn't tell her that he was terrified that Callie and Arizona would try to push him out of Sofia's life. Before their latest blowup, Arizona had reassured him that he would not be pushed out and up until yesterday he'd believed her. He knew if he told Callie this, that she would think he was trying to excuse his behavior and that was absolutely not his reasoning at all. Callie didn't know why Mark had gone very quiet all of a sudden. It wasn't like him at all.
"We've got to figure out how we can make the best decisions for Sofia together. Sofia's well being has to be our number one goal Mark. Not trying to one up someone or avoid talking to someone." Callie told him. She was insistent that they had to fight for their daughter. There was no guarantee that Sofia would make it, but Callie wasn't giving up on her. After the discussion with Arizona last night, she had finally come to the conclusion that as long as Sofia was stable, they would continue to fight for her. Finally Mark nodded again. He knew she was right. Sofia was the number one priority. He had told Lexie that the night Sofia was born but in the last few days he had not acted in Sofia's best interests. He knew she was stronger than she looked and he knew he could never be the one to stop her fight.
"When is Archer coming?" Mark finally asked. He figured that he should try to stay civil to Archer no matter how much he disliked the older man. Callie was surprised that he had finally accepted the idea. She hoped that this meant that he was going to put Sofia's well being before his own desire to avoid Archer.
"In a few days. Addison wants Sofia to have a few days of recovery under her belt before her brain is checked out." Callie replied.
"How do I make it up to her Cal?" Mark asked. He did feel remorseful and he wanted desperately to make things better. He and Arizona would be parents for the rest of Sofia's life, no matter how long that was. They had to get along better. For Sofia's benefit. Callie couldn't believe Mark was asking her for advice on how to fix things between himself and Arizona. That wasn't her job. Mark had to do that on his own. If Callie helped, it would feel less sincere to Arizona and Callie wanted Arizona and Mark to eventually be able to be civil.
"You need to figure it out on your own Mark. You made her cry and that isn't something early remedied." Callie pointed out. Mark sighed, knowing that Callie was right. He had to do a lot of groveling on his own and with no help from anyone. Of course he had done stupid things in the past, but he could count on probably one hand the number of times he had been genuinely sorry. There was something that he needed to ask Callie though before he started working on his plans for a sincere apology.
"Why didn't you defend her Cal?" Mark finally asked. Callie sighed. She had known that question would come up and it had. It had come up with Arizona too and she had struggled to find a reason. The reasons she had come up with were too damn simple.
"I was in shock at what you said to her and I was overwhelmed. I mean Addison and Teddy were asking about signing a DNR and then you went nuts on Arizona. It was all just too damn much for me to handle in one day." Callie finally answered. Mark was surprised that it was something as simple as that.
"I assume you apologized to Arizona?" Mark asked. Callie nodded. She knew Arizona wasn't quite ready to forgive her yet, but the good thing was that she hadn't bailed on the non-traditional family. Apologizing to Arizona was not an experience that she was willing to repeat anytime soon.
"And now I need to do the same." Mark said mostly to himself. He just wasn't sure how to go about it just yet. That would require some careful thought and consideration on his part.
"No you need to do more than apologize Mark. You need to grovel on you hands and knees." Callie informed him seriously. Mark nodded when Callie spoke to him. He knew she was once again right. He knew that getting Arizona's forgiveness was going to be next to impossible, but he was doing it for Sofia.
"Now go sleep Mark. You've been exposed to whatever caused my fever and Sofia does not need to get it. Go get some sleep." Callie told him. No way was Mark going to sleep now. He was going to work on getting Arizona's forgiveness. He knew sleep would not come until he did that. He nodded to Callie, hoping she'd believe that he was going to sleep. Of course Callie didn't believe him, but she didn't want to deal with whatever he was planning right now. Mark didn't smile at her as he stood up from the chair he had been sitting in this whole time. He left her room and went in search of Arizona.
