Dear Death Diary
Six - Six - Six
"Oh, honey, you know I'd never threaten you," the woman said.
I rolled my eyes, "just like you don't lie? You're so full of bullshit, and you know what? I don't take bull shit from anyone. I don't care if I live with you or not. You're a bitch, I'm not your 'honey,' and I don't know anything about you. You would threaten me. You just did. You know Frank is abusive - you saw him! You're just a selfish little fucker who does nothing but expects things. Leave me alone! Call Frank if you want, I don't care. Let him beat me senseless! Maybe I'll put him in a fucking jail cell!" I turned back around and stormed up the stairs. I had no intentions of ever having any sort of 'relationship' with the asshole's wife. She was just as horrible. Who sits around and let's her husband beat the shit out of someone he doesn't even know?
It was fucking bullshit.
I stopped mid-way up the stairs. Was being here even worth it? Frank would be fuming when he got home and the stupid woman told him what I said... All the money in the world couldn't make me stay here.
I ran down the stairs and out the front door, not sure as to where I was going to go. Where could I go? I didn't want to sleep in a tree again... Miles was staying with hedgehog, and... well, those were the only two people I knew.
Actually... There was one other person.
X
I knocked on the door three times, waiting for someone to answer.
Eventually, the door opened and the blue hedgehog stood in front of me.
"What are you doing here, don't you hate me?" the hedgehog asked.
Completely ignoring him, I walked by him, pickpocketing his cell phone on my way by. I looked through his contacts and dialled Mina Mongoose's number.
"You have the same phone as me?" the hedgehog asked.
I raised an eyebrow, waiting for him to find out the phone I had was his.
He reached for his phone in his pocket, but his face became surprised as he realized it wasn't there. "What... How did you...?"
"Practice," I said, shrugging.
"Hello?" the familiar, evil voice said through the phone.
"Hi, Mina, it's me, Amy. We need to talk," I said.
"Amy? Who's Amy?"
I rolled my eyes. How could she not know who I was? She stole my mother's necklace. "I kicked your ass in school."
"Oh, you. What do you want, and why are you using Sonic's phone?"
"How else do I get a hold of you? Look, just come to my house tomorrow night at eight. I live right across from hedgehog."
"How did you manage to do that? So much for -"
"I'm keeping my word. Just make sure you come." I threw the phone towards hedgehog, saying "catch" just after I threw it.
He stumbled to catch it last second, but managed nicely.
"Nice save," I mumbled as I walked by him to the front door.
"Where are you going?"
I shrugged, "I don't know, I'll figure it out when I get there."
Hedgehog frowned, "what?"
"I'm not staying across the street. No way in hell. I can't be here... Where else can I go? If you have a suggestion, I'm all ears."
"What about Mina? You seem to be..." he trailed off.
"No," I answered simply. Regardless of me telling her to come to my hell hole 'house,' she was still a bitch, and I was still a victim for her silly games.
Hedgehog remained silent.
I took the silence as an opportunity to escape. "Well, see ya," I muttered as I opened the door, heading out.
"Wait! Amy, wait!" he rushed out after me. "Stay here. Don't leave, don't leave me."
I shook my head and began walking, to where ever.
X
"Where is such a young girl headed on such a cold, late night like tonight?" an elderly voice suddenly asked.
I turned around to see an old woman standing underneath an apartment building, staring at me. I shrugged, "I don't know, where ever."
"Why don't you come in and get yourself warmed up?"
I looked the woman up and down. With her gray hair, wrinkly face, and long orange, pink, red and green hippy dress, she didn't look like a bad person. "Are you some sort of murderer?" I asked.
She laughed, "I don't have enough energy to kill anyone! I have enough trouble going up and down the stairs."
After carefully looking at her again, I shrugged. Might as well, what have I got to loose? If she turns out to be a murderer it doesn't matter, I was already planning to kill myself. "Alright," I said.
"Oh, good! I just got back from the store, I have lots of things you might like!"
I raised an eyebrow. Why was I getting the feeling she was waiting for me? I rolled my eyes and shook it off. As Miles said, I should trust some people. "Would you like some help with your groceries?" I asked. If I was going to be at her house, I would have to help on the way up, right? It wasn't an act of kindness, it was common sense.
"Oh, no, I already have it all upstairs."
I nodded, trying not to say some dumb ass remark.
She led me inside the apartment and up the stairs to the ninth floor. We walked down the hallway for what seemed like an hour before she opened a door, and led me in.
Wow. Her apartment was... amazing. It was what I expected to see at a millionaire's house, not some old lady's apartment.
There was a small and simple but gorgeous crystal chandelier hanging from the ceiling. The couches were a very fine, red velvet. The carpet was a royal blue - something to be found in a castle. The walls were a very nice brown. Not too dark, not too light. It was even... shiny? The kitchen... Wow. The counter was black and marble and the stove was flat-topped. The fridge was also black - it even had the freezer in the bottom half.
Looking around, everything looked more depressing than expensive.
"Why the depressing look?" I asked as I sat down on the couch.
The old lady sighed and took a seat next to me. "It suits me."
I raised an eyebrow, surprised. "You're depressed?" Usually old people were happy, carefree and problem free. Weren't old people supposed to be perfectly fine with the fact that they could drop dead at any given moment?
"Well, you see. Life hasn't been fair for me."
"You look like you have a lot of money. How can't you be happy?" If I had money, I'd buy my own house. I'd be the happiest person who ever lived. No more strangers!
"Money can't buy happiness, dear."
"Money can buy things which bring happiness."
The woman shook her head, "the happiness you buy only lasts so long. Soon you'll get bored, something new will come out. You'll never stop buying. What matters is love. Love is really all you need, it's what keeps the world spinning. Love is happiness. Love is something you can't buy."
This woman may not be happy, but she was sure wise. "I guess," I agreed. "So, you don't have love?"
"I'm lonely. I used to have everything."
"What happened?" Why wasn't this lady giving me direct answers?
She pointed towards the ceiling, "God needed them all back."
I frowned. "You'll see them again someday."
"What makes you so sure?"
"I know I'll see my mom. You'll see your family, too."
"Your mother passed away?"
"Well... I don't know exactly know. I mean, she might have. I hope not. I haven't seen her since... well, it could have been since the day I was born. I've been living with a whole bunch of different people." I tried not to say any curse words in front of this old lady. She could easily get offended and kick me out. I was appreciating the warmth.
"I'm sorry to hear that. My daughter left several years before the others."
"That's too bad... I'm sorry."
"It's alright," she stood up, dusting herself off. "I assume your tired and have no where else to go?"
I nodded.
"Bad house?"
I nodded again.
"Feel free to come here anytime you need to," she smiled.
"Thanks," I said, smiling back. I would definitely hold her to her word.
"Come with me, I'll show you to your room."
I followed her inside a room, just beside what looked to be her bedroom. She turned on the light, revealing another bedroom. The walls were covered in black and white vertical stripes. In the centre of the back wall sat what looked to be a double bed with a red comforter covering the entire bed.
"Wow," I said. Even a simple pattern such as black and white stripes looked amazing. "Thank you."
I couldn't believe a complete stranger - who wasn't wanting to adopt someone, would allow me into their home like this. She was so nice... and had no reason to be.
"No problem dear. I have a pair of pajamas that might fit you?"
"No thanks. I'm alright."
"You sure?"
"Positive," I nodded.
"Alright. Well, I'll see you later," she left the room, closing the door behind her.
X
I woke up feeling fully rested. I looked over at the alarm clock to see it was ten minutes past twelve o'clock.
My eyes widened. I was late. Very, very late. I jumped out of the bed, grabbed my shoes and ran out of the apartment.
"Where are you off to in such a hurry?" the lady's voice called after me.
"School, I'm late," I said as I was jumping up and down, trying to grab my balance long enough to put my shoes on.
"Want a ride?"
I stopped what I was doing at looked at her. Someone as old as her was allowed to drive? I shrugged, but gladly accepted the offer, "sure!"
"Alright, let me go get my makeup, a new outfit, I'll have to pick out a purse for today and..." she smiled at me. "Look at your face. You don't think I'm crazy, do you? I was only joking, let's go." She grabbed her keys from the counter and left the apartment.
I sighed in relief. I followed her to the elevators and we waited to go down to the lobby.
Suddenly it felt like the elevator stopped. "What just happened?"
"It seems the elevator broke. It happens every so often. We'll have to wait."
I froze. Broken? We were in some little broken box hanging who knows how many feet above the ground? "Are we gonna fall? Are we gonna die? I'm late!" I started banging on the doors, yelling for help.
"Relax, we won't fall."
I sighed and sat down after a minute. We were going to be stuck here for quite a while...
X
"Hey, hedgehog," I said as I approached the blue hedgehog. I needed his phone again so I could tell Mina to meet me elsewhere.
He turned around, and frowned at me.
"What?"
He shook his head and turned back around.
Now I frowned. "What's with you?"
... No answer.
"Look, I just need your phone for a minute to tell Min-"
"I don't care," he mumbled.
"What's with y-"
"Look, Amy," he turned around, "you gave your word, and I so did I. Could you make my job a little easier?"
"What are you talking about?"
"We're together," Mina suddenly said, holding hedgehog's hand.
I bit my tongue, trying not to laugh or say something. I waited for hedgehog to push her off of him, or something, anything. Instead, he nodded.
"He said he wouldn't talk to you. Sort of like how you said you'd stay away from him! He means his word, though."
"You can't loose, can you? You have to win. If it's not your way, it's no one's way," I shook my head. "You're not even worth it." I turned my heel and started to walk out of the school.
"Amy, don't do what I think you're going to do," a familiar voice said.
I turned to see Miles walking with me. "What do you think I'm going to do?"
"Cut yourself!"
I rolled my eyes. How the hell did he know? "Why not?"
"What good does it do? It doesn't do any good. You may think so, but you're used to it. Please, just don't do it this time."
I sighed. "What do you want me to do?"
"Inflict pain on something else."
"Like?"
He shrugged, "I don't know." He looked around, searching for something. "Sonic!"
I laughed, "you want me to hurt him?"
"No! He might know."
"Miles,"
"Tails," he corrected.
"Miles," I said. To me, he was Miles. He was always Miles. "He can't talk to me. He promised her," I nodded towards the mongoose attached to hedgehog's arm, "he wouldn't."
Miles snorted, "do you know how much he talks about you? He'd never do that!"
"He talks about me?"
"Only all the time. You're the only thing on his mind! I'll go talk to him, maybe he'll change his mind." With that, the yellow fox headed towards hedgehog and his new girlfriend.
All I could see was Mina made a disgusted look, and hedgehog nod emotionlessly. I frowned at him. What the hell was he thinking?
... Why did I care?
Suddenly, hedgehog returned the gaze, staring deep into my eyes as I did the same. He looked... torn. I cocked my head slightly to the side.
He mouthed what looked to be "I'm sorry."
I shook my head. "No," I mouthed back. I turned around and headed towards my temporary home. I had to get my razor. Miles couldn't do anything.
Before I got out to doors, I heard hedgehog's voice call my name. I turned around, with hopes that this was all some sort of sick joke. Unfortunately, he was no where in sight. I sighed and continued walking.
X
"Fuck!" I almost yelled as I looked at the clock. It was nearly eight o'clock. I hadn't told Mina to go elsewhere or even not to come at all. She would be here soon. Great. To top off my completely horrible day, I got to have another fight with the stupid mongoose.
"Amy!" an angry voice yelled. I sighed. Forget Mina, Frank was one hundred and fifty times worse. "What?" I yelled back.
"Get down here!"
I made my way down the stairs - stopping on the last stare. "What?"
"There's a movie on in five minutes. You're going to watch it with us."
"Why?"
"It's a Halloween special."
"Halloween isn't for -"
"Watch the damn movie!" Frank interrupted.
"Whatever." I sat down on the couch, crossing my arms and legs.
–
Not even five minutes after the movie started, Frank put his hand on my leg. I looked at him, frowning. He was looking at the tv as if he wasn't doing anything. I took his hand off my leg and put it back on his own.
Again, he put his hand on my leg. I stood up ready to murder him. "What the fuck do you think you're doing?"
"Wh-"
"Oh my God!" I yelled. He was not about to act like nothing happened. I walked over to the front door, swinging it open.
"If you leave this house, you're not coming back!" Frank yelled after me.
I stopped dead in my tracks. I quickly ran up the stairs to grab my death diary and razor, then ran back down the stairs. "I hope you mean that," I said before leaving. I froze when I saw Mina standing in front of me. I opened my mouth, but no words came out.
"I saw everything," she whispered.
I looked down at the ground, staying silent.
"I owe you a big apology for putting you through more than you could handle."
I nodded, "don't worry about it. It's fine."
"No, it's -"
"Really," I interrupted. "It's fine."
"I want you to know something."
"What?"
The mongoose pulled a wallet out of her purse, and opened it. She showed me a picture.
"Who's that?" I asked, looking at the little girl sitting on the man's lap, both smiling.
"My father. He used to be the greatest man in the world. Now he's... he's just the worst."
"That's too -"
"He's the same man you live with right now."
I frowned, looking at the man in the picture. I imagined the man with no hair, and a big beer belly. Soon enough, I saw Frank. I gasped.
"Yeah," she trailed off. "I know what you go through. It's pretty bad, right?"
I nodded, speechless. "That's why you're a bitch?" I asked.
She glared at me, clearly pissed off. I shrugged. She rolled her eyes, "yeah. I guess. I mean, years ago everything was great but, the next day he came home drunk with no job. He started doing... awful things. It's been the same since."
"Did you know he had... this house?"
She shook her head, "no. It doesn't surprise me, though. He's just that kind of person."
"Wow."
"This doesn't mean we can be friends, though," she said. She turned and walked away before I could reply. I shrugged. Fine with me.
I quickly opened my death diary and scribbled in it.
Dear Death Diary.
Mina's father is Frank. She goes through what I do, if not, worse. She apologized, but still hates me.
Frank said if I leave the house I can't come back. I gladly left. I'll have to live with the nice lady in the apartment building which isn't too far.
First, I need to talk to hedgehog.
I walked across the street to hedgehog's house and knocked on the door.
Surprisingly, Miles opened the door. "Oh, hey Amy! Come in!" He stepped aside, allowing me to come in.
"Thanks," I muttered, looking around for hedgehog. "Where is he?"
"Umm..."
"What are you doing here?" a cold voice asked.
I turned around to see hedgehog. He didn't look happy. "I.." I paused, taking in his negativity. "What's wrong with you? Why are you back with Mina? And don't give me any 'I can't talk to you' crap, I gave her my word, but I still spoke to you. The least you could do is give me a reason!"
Hedgehog and Miles' faces both looked surprised, as they both remained completely silent.
"Well?"
"I gotta... uh... check the..." Miles tried making an excuse to leave.
I rolled my eyes, "we all know you're now going to check anything. Just leave."
He nodded, and quickly left the room. I turned to hedgehog who still hadn't said anything. He was so frustrating.
"I can't tell you," he finally spoke.
"Why not?"
"Because, I just can't. I'm sorry, Amy."
"Hedgehog, -"
"That's not my name," he hissed, turning around. "You can leave now."
I clenched my fists. I wasn't about to let him just turn his back on me. Not after all this time, not after everything he knew. Not after beginning to trust him. I knew exactly what was going to happen. Mina would get him to hate me, and he'd tell her everything - if he hadn't already. This was why I didn't want to trust him, but he had to push me too hard. Why did people always have to be so complicated?
I sighed, trying to calm myself. I suddenly remembered my plans for my eighteenth birthday, which wasn't that far away. Whatever he did now, just wouldn't matter. It would all be over soon enough.
"Look, Sonic. You win. Have fun with your new girlfriend. Nothing matters now, anyways." I opened my death diary and ripped out the page which read "Never Trust" written in my blood. I dropped it on the floor and left.
X
"What's wrong?" the old lady asked.
"Nothing," I mumbled, squeezing by her. I flopped myself down on the couch and sighed.
"You can't lie to me. Come on, what's buggin'?"
"This guy," I began.
"Boys," the lady rolled her eyes. "I should have known. What we need is a sad movie and ice cream."
"Do people actually do that?" I thought that was just something that happened in movies. "I didn't get dumped, just... I don't know."
"Start from the beginning."
"Okay. When I moved here I bumped into this guy. He wouldn't leave me alone, so I started talking to him. Then he started to know things about me - things no one else has ever known. Then he tells his ex, who hates me, about it. Then she starts stuff and blah, blah, blah. Now he's dating her again, and won't talk to me. After everything! How is that fair?"
"Life isn't fair. He sounds like he's confused."
"Confused? That's no excuse."
"Maybe he's protecting you."
"From what? That's bullsh-" I quickly closed my mouth, trying to think of something else to say. "Bull shoot?"
"Nice save," she winked. "The ex, sounds mean. I used to know someone like her. She tried to control everyone else's lives. She manipulated, lied and blackmailed everyone into doing what she wanted. Don't have so much faith in this girl. Put your faith where it belongs: with him. You never know, this girl could be forcing him to do what she wants."
I frowned, thinking about what she had just said. She might be right. Mina was a complete bitch who was obviously capable of many things. Hedgehog... I guess I should say Sonic doesn't seem like the sort of guy to say one thing and do another. He left Mina because she was a bitch. He didn't think she was like that, then he goes back to her? Who does that?
"Thanks," I said, almost inaudible. Still soaked in my thoughts, I walked out the door, down the stairs and towards Sonic's house.
I had an answer, which needed a question.
X
"Sonic!" I yelled, walking in his house.
"What are you -"
"What did Mina do?" I interrupted. He wasn't going to get a chance to avoid anything or make me leave. Not this time.
"What?"
"What does Mina have against you?"
Sonic looked away from me. "Nothing."
"Sonic, please -"
"Amy, don't -"
"No, you don't. I'm trying to figure this out. Remember when we first met? Remember how you wouldn't leave me alone no matter how hard I tried to get away from you? Remember when you left Mina because you thought she was something else? Where the fuck is that Sonic?"
A small smile appeared on his face. He tried to cover it up with a frown with no avail. "Did we switch places?"
I groaned and sat down. "Please, answer my questions. What's going on? You can trust me."
He sighed. "It's not what she has against me, it's what she has against you."
I frowned. "What does she have against me?" realization suddenly hit me. "Oh!" She knew a lot... "I have an idea. We're going to put an end to this, alright?"
"We?"
"You can help or you can't, makes no difference, either way I'm putting an end to it."
"What do you want me to do?"
X
"Listen up," I yelled, standing on a table in the cafeteria.
No one paid attention. "Listen the fuck up, you worthless bitches!" I yelled louder.
Every set of eyes were on me.
"That's more like it. Now, listen. My mother abandoned me when I was little. I have no parents. The person I live with is Mina's dad - he has two families. Cool right? Hmm... What else? Oh yes, I cut myself!" I showed my cut wrists. I turned to Mina who's jaw was about to hit the ground. "Now you have nothing on me." I jumped down and headed over to Sonic.
"That looked..."
I shrugged, "half easy, half hard. Worth it, though, right?" I mentally scolded myself. All I've wanted is for him to leave me alone, and I turn around and do whatever it takes to get him to talk to me again. What's wrong with me? I rolled my eyes at myself. He wasn't that bad.
He nodded. We walked out of school and sat down outside.
"So?" I asked.
"You're a lot nicer than before."
"I hate it."
"I like it," he smiled.
His smile was suddenly replaced with a frown. He pulled up a folded piece of paper. He unfolded it, and handed it to me.
I looked at it. It was the page I ripped out of my black book. I bit my lip, not knowing what to say.
"Why?" he asked.
"It never ends well."
"Why?"
I shrugged, "I used to trust Miles. He was my best friend."
"What happened?"
"He thought telling everyone I cut myself and I was depressed would help me. Instead, I got kicked out. I told him everything, I always had his back... and he betrayed me. Sure, I guess he had good intentions, but they were stupid. I thought I belonged..." I trailed off.
"It happened for the best."
"What do you mean?"
"You didn't belong there," he whispered. "You belong here."
I couldn't help but smile. "We'll see."
X
"Gonna stay here tonight?" Sonic asked.
I shook my head, "I'd love to, but I have to get back to someone."
"Who?"
"Some old lady. She let's me stay at her apartment. She's pretty nice," I smiled.
"Can I come meet her?" he grinned. "I'd love to meet the lady who kept you safe," he winked.
I laughed, "sure. I'm sure she'd love to meet you too!"
—
I knocked on the apartment door and waited.
"How old is she?" Sonic whispered.
"Pretty old," I whispered back.
The old lady, who's name I would have to get sometime, opened the door with a smile. "Hello, again! I see you brought a friend."
I nodded, returning the smile, "yes, this is Sonic, the one I told you about. You were right! Thank you!"
"Oh, Sonic! Hello! It's a pleasure to meet you. You keep treating this young lady right, alright?"
Sonic chuckled, "will do!"
I rolled my eyes and squeezed by. I searched the woman's cupboards and fridge for something to munch on. I grabbed a bright red apple and washed it off before biting into it.
"I've heard a lot about you," the lady said as she let sonic in.
I tried to argue, but I ended up with pieces of apple flying out of my mouth. Sonic and the lady just looked at me. I swallowed what was in my mouth, and continued to say what I was trying to. "You have not!"
Sonic laughed.
"I have amazing manners, I'm sorry.. Um?" I looked at the lady, waiting for her to give me her name.
"You can call me Eleanor."
"Eleanor," I repeated. "My apologies."
She nodded, "don't worry, dear. I'm not one to make a big deal out of talking with your mouth full."
I smiled. I liked this lady.
"This place looks awesome," Sonic said, wondering around.
Suddenly Sonic's phone rang.
"Who is it?" I asked, walking over to him.
"Tails," he sighed, and answered it. "Hey, buddy." Pause. "With Amy at -"
"If you do anything to her again I'll kill you! Do you hear me Sonic? I'll kill you! Don't you ever hurt her again and do something so -"
I laughed and took the phone from Sonic. "Miles, calm the hell down. It's alright, I'll explain later. Calm yourself. If you're always that loud on the phone, remind me to never take any calls from you!" I laughed and hung up the phone.
"Who's Tails?" Eleanor asked.
"He's his," I pointed to Sonic, "best friend, and he's like a brother to me."
"Sounds protective."
I smiled, "it's great."
Maybe I didn't belong with Miles' parents way back then. Maybe I belonged with Tails, and here with Sonic and Eleanor. It's not about where I am, it's about who I'm with. I couldn't be with anyone better.
Maybe Miles was right. Maybe it does get better...
X
"Amy, would you please wake up," I heard Sonic's voice say.
"What happened last night?" I said, my voice groggy. I kept my eyes closed. My head was aching! I rolled over, burring my face in my pillow.
"You don't remember?" he chuckled.
"If I remembered do you think I'd ask?"
"You had a drink... and you sort of got drunk."
I sat up and looked at him, suddenly wide awake. The light burned my eyes, but I ignored it. "I got drunk?" I laughed sarcastically, "okay, right. Try again, make this one believable." I had never, ever gotten drunk let alone had a drink! There's no way I would start on some random night for no reason.
"Ames, I'm serious."
I sighed and flopped myself back down on the bed. I pulled the blankets up over my head. "Wait," I said into the pillow. "Why are you still here?"
"You wouldn't let me leave," he chuckled again.
Stupid girl, I told myself.
"You're pretty funny when you're drunk."
I rolled my eyes. "How bad was I?" I sat up.
"You were... Well you didn't do anything bad. You were just funny."
"Funny?"
"You were dancing, screaming... All that."
I grabbed a pillow and shoved it into my face, hiding myself. I groaned. "Did you have a drink?"
"I had half of one."
"Never let me do that again."
"I don't know. If I'm ever bored I know how to have some fun," he smirked.
"Sonic!" I yelled, hitting him with the pillow. "My drunkenness is not something to be played with!"
He laughed, hitting me with another pillow, "maybe you should be able to withstand a tiny little drink!"
"Shut up! You're just jealous you didn't have as much fun as me!"
Sonic laughed, "I don't think I've ever had as much fun as you did last night."
"Sarcasm?"
He shook his head.
I sat down on the bed, throwing the pillow back where it belonged. What we were doing was scaring me. I was... having fun? "Tell me about yourself," I said, turning the conversation.
"What do you want to know?" he asked, sitting down in front of me.
"I don't know, anything. Where's your family? Are you always alone?"
"My mom kicked me out of the house last year. My brother stays with him. He's her favourite. My dad's dead, -"
"I don't believe you don't care," I interrupted.
"Why not?"
I shrugged, "you're not the kinda guy to hate someone. Especially your father. I just can't see it."
"Why did you get so... angry, when I told you?"
"Because, Sonic, you had a father. I've never had that, and I never will. You don't know how lucky you are. I'd do anything to have what you do... or, did, and you hate him! That's..." I just shook my head, unable to put how horrible it was into words.
"I'm sorry... I didn't realize -"
"Don't apologize. Your entitled to your own feelings. I'm only saying, I don't believe you, at all."
"I do hate him," he mumbled.
"As much as I love life," I sighed.
Sonic raised an eyebrow, "you hate life?"
"Why the fuck do you sound surprised?"
Sonic's slightly surprised face took me by surprise as I realized what I had just said. "Sorry," I muttered, "that was... uncalled for."
"No, that was a stupid question. Of course you hate life."
I raised an eyebrow.
"Not that you should. Life is -"
"Shh," I said. I went to playfully hit him, but I somehow missed, and fell on top of him. We both fell backwards onto the floor. I landed on top of him, my face was just an inch away from his.
He grinned as he stared into my eyes.
I could feel his breath on my face. It smelled amazing. It was dazzling. I somehow managed to snap out of it, and get off of him. "Sorry," I said, climbing back on the bed.
"Feel free to do that anytime," he chuckled.
I just sat there, staring at his face. He was so beautiful...
"You know," he said, his smile vanishing, "I do care."
"About what?" I asked, not following where he was going.
"Him." He kept his eyes away from mine.
I suddenly caught on to what he was saying. He cared that his father was dead. "Oh... What happened?"
"My parents got divorced when I was only seven. I lived with my dad. When I was twelve we got into a fight. I said I was going to move out, which he gladly allowed. The last thing I said to him was 'I hate you, I hope I never see you again.' I never got to fix it..." he trailed off.
"You never will," I finished.
He looked up at me, the hurt was very visible in his eyes. "I don't know if he died hating me, or..."
"I'm sure he forgave you. He must know it was only a fight."
"But I'm seventeen now! I'm old enough to have gone to him, apologized, made things right."
"Sonic, you are your father's son. If he was even half the man you are, he would forgive you. Judging by how you are, I'm positive he was a great man. Besides, he knows how you feel now. I know he's forgiven you."
He sighed.
I guess having no parents wasn't as bad as having parents, but having your last words to them be "I hate you." That was something you could never change, and you'd have to live with it for the rest of your life. In my case, I'm just left with a whole bunch of unanswered questions.
I threw my arms around Sonic, giving him a hug. "I'm sorry," I whispered in his ear. There was nothing worse than losing a parent, no matter how long you knew them. Finally, Sonic and I had something in common. It wasn't the best thing, but it was something.
A/N: Not even 6k words... I was hoping for 7k. I'll get there... someday.
I decided not to proof read this, as it's so long, and I'm so tired, LOL, so I apologize if my grammar/punctuation isn't right, or if part of it is flat out boring.
– Anyways, on chapter four you guys gave me thirteen reviews! *New Record!* Think you can beat thirteen for this chapter?[;
My sister and her family are coming over tomorrow, (January 5th) so I probably won't be able to write/update for a couple days, HOWEVER, just for you awesome people, if you can beat thirteen reviews, I'll definitely update sooner. Possibly even on the 6th [;
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-xxTinaSparrow