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:IT BELONGS TO SUZANNE COLLINS

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Katniss P.O.V.

the constant beep is all I hear I try to move my hand but I can't there are no restraints it just feels like my arm is being forced down with a weight. I try to open my eyes or call out to someone but nothing is working.I go through what happened in my head.

there was an explosion I remember pain all over my body. Why was there an explosion? Why was it in my sleeping compartment?

I start to hear voices that bring me out of my thoughts, "Is she going to be okay?" I hear a voice say. Peeta, I know that soft voice anywhere. I hear another voice but I don't know this one "she will most likely not wake up, I'm sorry Mr. Mellark." I hear Peeta take a deep breath and then someone picks up my hand and kisses it I know it's Peeta and I wish I could reply when he whispers in a voice that breaks my heart "Katniss, come back to me I love you.

Peeta P.O.V.

My heart breaks every time I look at her, broken bruised, limp. Yet when I came to her side she smiled at me like there was no one else in the world but us. I pick up her hand and kiss it holding it tight, "Kantniss, come back to me I love you" I whisper it like its a magic word and she will come back to me, but this is life. Life isn't filled with good things all the time

"Kid, if you stay here you are going to get sick. come one back to the train, it's not leaving or anything" Haymitch tells me even though I'm sure he knows that I'm not leaving her side.

"Haymitch, you know I'm not leaving" I see him nod from the corner of my eye but I don't look away I haven't since I got here it's almost like I'm waiting for her to magically open her eyes and be here with me, I'm not going to listen to everyone and be negative. Everyone is telling me to give up and that she isn't going to waken up, there aren't many people around but everybody that is around is saying that.

Deep down I know she isn't going to wake up but I just want to hold her one more time, kiss her one more time, talk to her one more time.

"Katniss, I know you probably can't hear me but I want you to know that I love you and I hate myself for even thinking what Gale said could be true, everybody keeps telling me that you're not going to wake up but I'm not going to listen to them I just want to be with you, and I want you to wake up so I can hold you and kiss you and tell you that I love you while you are awake. Come on Katniss wake up, please I need you" My voice cracks at the end and before I no it there are tears streaming down my face I don't want anyone to see me like this so I put my head on her arm hiding my face. I feel someone put there hand on my shoulder, I look up to see Haymitch looking at me with a sad smile "She'll be okay kid." It is at that moment I know she isn't going to wake up and it's my fault.

I sit here and there is nothing to do so I grab a piece of paper and I start to write my feelings eventually they start to rhyme and it sounds like a song so I keep writing and it actually sounds like a song.

It has been a whole month and I am a wreck along with the rest of Panem, one of there victors is going to die and the other is going to be broken, I'll be a Haymitch. Today if she doesn't wake up they are pulling the life support thing that they have in the Capital. I walk into her room and look at her again she looks like she moved. I shake my head and sit down I know she didn't move but I see her finger move and I grab her hand she gives me a squeeze I have a sudden burst of happiness "Come on Katniss you can do just open your eyes look at me please I miss those eyes." People must think I'm crazy right now but I don't care. I can see her trying to open her eyes but she can't, she slowly moves her arm up and puts it down on my hand, she is almost telling me to let her go, but I can't and I won't. If she dies I am killing myself.

I fall asleep with my head on her arm. Katniss and I are sitting on a picnic blanket watching the sunset it's beautiful, I wait for something horrible to happen but so far nothing does, there are two kids a boy and a girl playing with each other the boy looks up "mommy come play tag with us" Katniss gets up and the kids start running away laughing the little girls while laughing tackles me and says "you're it daddy come on get up you lazy"

I wake with a start first non nightmare in a long while but it makes me sad because it's what could have been and also what can't be. I feel someone running there hand through my hair, I look up to see Katniss with her eyes that I have missed for a month I grab her hand and hold it in both of mine "you're awake" I say but it comes out for of a question she nods her head and smiles at me I give the biggest smile I can "I missed those eyes so much" I say holding her face in my hands "I missed that smile and your hair, and your hands, oh hell I missed everything about you" She starts laughing at me and I pull her in for a kiss. We kiss for a good thirty seconds before I pull back " and I missed your kisses" I kiss her one more time before I hear Haymitch walk in.

"Well it was nice of you to finally join the land of the livin' sweetheart" he tries to sound like he doesn't care but really he does, he leans down and gives Katniss a hug. "Missed you there sweetheart, Kid was goin' crazy here without ya" I look down thinking about what I had been telling myself I was going to kill myself I also remember meaning it.

Katniss tries hard to sit up but Haymitch pushes her back down "now sweetheart, you were pretty roughed up you should probably stay down for a while" Katniss looks as if there was a spark inside of her brain "why was there a bomb on the train?" A bomb? I didn't know there was a bomb "well sweetheart someone was tryin' to kill you and Peeta just you were there at the right time but Peeta wasn't, so here you are, that's why the Victory Tour was moved back a week, they were tryin' to find all them bombs that were if they hadn't have found all of the others we would probably all be dead right now."

"that's why we are moving you two to a under ground facility after Katniss gets better, so we won't have any problems" A person that I don't know comes out into view "Plutarch Heavensbe" (I think that's how you spell his name) He holds his hand out to me and I take it. I'm not sure I should trust him.

After he leaves Katniss is the first to ask "should we trust him?" I shrug "I'd rather trust and regret than not trust and regret" Katniss just nods "you should go to bed" I tell Katniss she hesitates "will you stay with me?" she asks I nod and she scoots over so I can lay down "always" I whisper before she falls asleep she tells me "I love you" I smile to myself and reply "I love you too"

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