Leah's POV
The sound made my already on edge body flood with adrenalin.
I immediately turned, hoping to see some rabbit or even a deer walking behind me, but nope what I saw was way worse…nothing. It's always when you see nothing that something bad happens. Hey I watch the horror movies of today thank you very much! I kept looking for a few seconds, making sure it wasn't some smaller animal like a mouse even. However, nothing was there, nothing at all.
I turned around to start walking again, I'm really starting to long for those hour long conversations that my mother had in store for me. Hell, compared to this, I'd rather be stuck in a small room with Quil all day listening to him jabber. I mean I know I'm pretty much on the top of the list when it comes to things that go bump in the night, but it's different when your in my position. Just walking through the forest alone.
I heard another twig snap and immediately whip around to see Chance standing there shirtless with a pair of cutoff jeans on. His eyes weren't that playful blue, they were an almost black sapphire color. My heart started pumping, I didn't have any reason to fear Chance, I love him. Something about him though was just darker.
"Hey Chance, what's up? I was just on my way home" I said trying to break the tension.
"I know" He said in almost a pained whisper.
"Chance, honey, what's wrong?" I said trying to calmly talk to him and not show my anxiety.
Chance took a couple strides forward and was in front of me in no time flat. I briefly turned and realized I was backed against a tree. When the hell did that happen!
"How can you stand there and pretend you care about me? Hmm? I saw how Black was looking at you, and that wouldn't have nearly bugged me as much if you hadn't almost immediately left my side to sit next to him" Chance said while his 6'4 build was staring down at my 5'9.
"No, do you seriously think Jacob and I are having some sort of a thing? I haven't seen him in two and a half years. He is my best friend, no, he's more than that, he's practically my brother." I said starting to get annoyed at him.
"Oh what the hell ever Leah! Can you honestly tell me that Jacob doesn't have feelings for you! Have you seen yourself! Most of the boys that aren't imprinted do! But that doesn't even keep the imprinted ones from fantasizing about your body." He said acting like I was crazy.
"Well you should know I don't care about those boys Chance! You should know that the most they will ever be are my pack brothers! And they are going to have those fantasies! No matter if we are together or not! You just need to stop letting it bother you!" I said getting angry.
Chance started to shake lightly as he repeatedly raked his hand through his hair. I love him and he thinks I'm going to sit there and cheat one him with boys I've known my entire life. Ya right!
"That doesn't give them the right to think about you that way! You are mine Leah Clearwater! We are bound together! Why would you tell another man you loved him huh? Did it occur to you that maybe I didn't like the attention you were giving him! No of course not, because Leah can go out and hoe around if she wants to, but Chance is going to stand by her anyways!"
I was fully shocked by the words that just flew out of his mouth. His eyes were black now, no sign of the blue that I love. I felt tears well up in my eyes. How can he stand here and call me names and then expect me to be with him forever? Uhhh this is so complicated!
"Chance, I will say this once and once only…If you call me a hoe ever again I will show you what a hoe is, you got that? Another thing, how do you know I want to belong to someone who's going to act like this? And Jake saved my life, I do love him and I would do anything for that boy, I would give up my life for Jacob Black, end of story…Oh and one more thing…" I said in a deadly tone. I walked to him and kneed him in the groin. He immediately dropped to the ground holding himself.
"That's for being a dick" I said and went wolf, I then began striding back to my mom's house.
Wow. That was pretty frickin' intense. My heart started to burn as I reached my house and my inner wolf began to whine out for it's mate. Well your mate called you a hoe, so you can wait a bit. I turned back nude of course, remembering my split clothing all over the ground back there. Jeez… I really liked that bra too. Grrr…why did he have to make me so mad! I miss him. That's just pathetic Leah, shape up. He was at fault and he got what he deserved, a swift groin kick. Good job Leah.
On the bad side though I phased for the first time in 2 and a half years. The last time was with Jacob, but he really needed me to run with him. And like I told Chance, if Jake needs me I'm there. What was up with Chance's eyes? They were so…cold…I miss my Chance. I snuck into my room very carefully and took a shower, trying to scrub away that feeling of loss that was eating at me. As I stepped out reality slipped back in and my heart started throbbing again. What is with that! He deserved it…right?
I dressed myself in some purple shorts and a black tank top, before pulling my long wavy hair back into a ponytail. I walked to my bed and flopped down. I need him. But he hurt me. Errrrr! What do I do! And what was up with what he said? Jake doesn't like me. He's after Bella right? Even if he wasn't, we just…I don't know? I heard a long low howl ring in my ears and I slowly got up from my bed and walked to the window. I looked out of it and saw a flash of silver and black in the tree line. Was it Paul? Nahh he is completely silver. Maybe a pup? Well if it's a pup I need to warn him not to come so close to the house, it's dangerous with Charlie staying over here sometimes.
I slipped on my flip flops and lightly walked down the stairs and to the door. I let myself out, but didn't lock the door thank god. Jeez…it's kind of cold out here weird seeing as I'm a werewolf, but since I haven't been changing it's helped my temperature lower. I hope today didn't ruin everything I worked so hard for. I walked slowly to the tree line and whistled. Hopefully attracting the pup's attention and he'd come in. I saw a huge silver wolf with black paws and muzzle approach. It whined when it saw me. The weirdest thing was the wolf's eyes were blue, just like Chance's. I scratched behind the wolf's ear and it closed it's eyes and sighed happily. I then put two and two together and got a sad look in my eyes, the gorgeous wolf before me was Chance.
"You shouldn't be here, Charlie could've seen you, and after today it's none of your business to protect this place or me." I said almost bitterly.
The wolf whined again putting it's tail between it's legs. It looked at me as if telling me to stay there. It took off into the forest and a few minutes later a very buff and shirtless Chance appeared. The look in his eyes were a mixture of sadness and shame.
"Please, Leah, just listen to me." Chance practically begged.
"Why Chance? What's going to change between us. Words and…actions…can't be undone" I said sadly.
"Listen please, I've never been in this situation before. I have never once let someone in. Not even family Leah. You are totally different than anything I've ever went through. I just wish that I could take back some of what I said, it was just me projecting my insecurities onto you." Chance said desperately.
"I know, Chance, but I have been in this situation before. I've loved so deep it hurt. I picked up his pieces, I fixed his heart and he swore it only belonged to me. We thought we were going to get married, have kids, and grow old together, but none of that ever happened! He instead imprinted on my cousin only two weeks after taking my virginity. All he could say was I'm sorry it wasn't my fault, but that didn't help the fact that everything I loved left me." I said on the verge of tears.
"Leah.." Chance started but I interrupted.
"No Chance, he left me! He didn't care about me! He broke every promise he ever made me! I wanted to die Chance! I would've welcomed death with open arms! And I even tried once three years ago…that was the day Jacob Black saved my life, that was the day I realized I had to try to forgive and heal. I finally did, and then I met you…And I thought you were different, I thought you knew what it was like to love something so much and then have it ripped away, but then you can turn on me just like them…" I said letting tears fall from my brown orbs.
"Leah…I love you, and I'm not Sam. I'm never going to be Sam. You're it for me. You want to know why your brother hates me? I used to sleep around a lot, get into bar fights, the works. I was a mess. I know what it feels like to lose someone you love to this transformation Leah. I didn't want you to think I was a monster so I didn't tell you. The night I turned was when my mom's boyfriend and I were getting into a fight. He had beaten her again and she wouldn't do anything to stop him, not even when he used to hit me. I was so angry that I snapped and changed right there and killed him on the spot, I was so angry all I could see was red and I didn't know…I didn't…I didn't know that she had tried to get in front of me to stop me from killing him. By the time I realized it was her…it was too late. I killed her Leah. I killed my own mom, because I couldn't control myself." He said tears streaking down his moonlit face.
"I ran for weeks, I didn't know what to do. The cops assumed I had been killed along with them and my body was never found. I couldn't even go to my mom's funeral, not that I deserved to. I finally reached the La Push border and was met by Jared and Paul. They finally calmed me down to where I could change back. After I told them what happened they told me I could join their pack, I managed to get a job at a mechanics shop and they are paying for me to go to college, which is where I met you. When I saw you on campus, it was like I was done being the person I was before, and now I was someone else, someone so much better. I didn't want anyone else. All I wanted and still want is you Leah" He said finally letting it all go.
I couldn't help myself I moved forward and touched his arm his my hand and felt shocks run up and down my arm. My heart skipped a beat and my stomach flipped. My inner wolf cried out again in sorrow for her mate.
"Chance, why did you freak out yesterday?" I said calmly looking into his blue eyes, the ones I love.
"I don't know…the whole Seth thing had me on edge, and then when you stood by Jacob instead of me, I felt…jealous. Like I was reminded that I wasn't good enough for you. Plus, I'm not going to lie I'm very possessive of you Leah. My wolf is half of who I am and I can't help that, when he senses your away and can smell other males, especially male wolves, he freaks out. He wants to start shredding people to get to you. It's a very powerful pull, and he makes it even worse. And then when you told Jacob that you loved him…It was a done deal. The wolf doesn't care if Jake is a good guy or not, he just knows that he can't smell you without smelling Jacob. The love part hurt me though, I don't want to share that part of you with anyone, I'm not used to it yet. I'm so grateful to Jacob for saving you, but I don't want to share you quite yet." Chance said finally letting his feeling out.
"I'm glad you told me all of this, I really am. I mean I honestly just kind of thought you were being a jerk, but I want you to answer something honestly for me." I said wondering how I was going to word my question.
"Absolutely, ask away" he said slightly smiling as if a huge weight had been lifted from his shoulders.
"Umm…when I look into your eyes their this gorgeous sea blue color, and then when we were at Sam's and I was with Jake I noticed they were this darker sapphire blue, and then when we were in the woods…they were almost black…why do they do that?" I asked curiously.
His smile slightly dropped into a light frown, and it looked like pain flashed through his eyes. I felt bad for asking him, but I couldn't help myself, I need answers. He finally began to get this thoughtful, yet shameful look on his face.
"I just…It's kind of…alright…When I am fully in control and my inner wolf is content my eyes are that sea blue. That's the color I was born with but when I started changing they were always that dark blue almost black color. When my eyes turn to that sapphire color it means I'm on edge like they would be that color if another guy was trying to flirt with you or if you touched another guy for too long, it means the wolf is starting to get upset, and depending on the level of it I can either calm myself or they'll go blackish, which means the wolf is more in control than me. When that happens you'll know, because I'm more impulsive I don't really think things through when I say them. It's like taking all the thoughts out of my head and screaming them. I can't really control myself, Sam says I should be able to over time, but because I'm only half Quileute he's not completely sure, in fact I really shouldn't have changed at all." Chance said waiting for my reaction.
"Well I kind of think the whole changing eye color thing kind of hot, I mean at least I'll be able to read you better" I say trying to brighten up the mood. By now I've totally forgiven him. I mean I love him, I can't really help it.
Chance smiled brightly when he heard that not only had I accepted his darker side, but I complimented his hotness. He then turned the smile into the smirk and put his hands around my hips and pulled me closer to his body. The heat between us was almost unbearable. I wanted him right now.
"So you think I'm hot?…" Chance smirked as our foreheads were touching and our lips so close they were practically on each other already. I let a low growl out of my throat without thinking.
"I never said that, I said your eyes were hot, which doesn't include you " I said smirking at him also. The sexual tension was building like a wildfire.
"Well what I'm about to do to you doesn't involve our eyes, so you're going to have to settle for this" He growled back playfully before crashing his lips down and onto mine.
The feeling of his lips on mine raged through me like nothing else I had ever experienced in my life. Shit, I thought Sam was a good kisser? Poor Emily, she's really missing out. I felt myself being pushed against a tree forcefully, if I wasn't as strong as I am, I'm pretty sure that would've hurt a little. I smiled into our passionate kiss, I could feel his teeth bite down lightly on my lower lip, demanding entrance. It felt really nice to be the more submissive one in this department, I mean not that I couldn't be aggressive, but it sometimes feels nice to let someone else take control. I played a little hard to get and denied him entrance, however Chance growled and let on of his hands grab mine and push it to the cloth covering the area I had assaulted earlier. I gasped and he entered before mumbling in a husky voice.
"You so owe me for that"
I giggled lightly and began letting my hand massage the cloth while he moaned into my mouth. I felt his lips travel down my neck, sucking and nipping the skin, this boy was amazing. I moaned out loudly as his teeth bit down a little harder on my sweet spot. We were totally about to surpass making out when we heard a door slam shut and realized Seth had probably just got back from patrol. We hesitantly pulled away from one another but kept out foreheads touching as we breathed in each other's scent.
"I love you Leah, your mine and no one else's, I mean it, after that I don't think I'm ever going to let you out of my sight, mine" he growled lightly.
Usually that would piss me off, I'm Leah Clearwater! I am an independent woman, I don't need a man in my life. However, I knew that was a lie now, I needed Chance, more than I needed air.
"I love you too, I'm ruined now I hope you know, I'll never be able to be with anyone else, and if you think for one second that I'm going to let you go, then you're a dumbass, I'm yours, but you better know your mine too, and no ones going to be able to take you from me." I growled back just to show him I meant business.
"Lee, anyone who is stupid enough to try and take you out isn't worth the time anyways, besides I love you, and you're my mate now, for life, jeez that sounds weird, but it's the truth." He said smiling playfully.
"Oh what have I gotten myself into?" I say pretending to be overly dramatic.
"Whatever you love me" Chance said and kissed my lips again.
"You're an ass" I say defeated, and pretending to pout.
He just rolls his eyes and pecks her pouted lips before running back into the forest to transform for patrol. Leah made her way quietly up to her room and sighed. Today was a great day.