The Lyon
I sat on the patio outside of my office with a drink in hand, staring off into the city sky line, thinking about that disaster last night with Cookie. How the hell, did I let things get so jacked up between us, I inwardly wondered while looking down at my cell phone to see if by some sort of chance she'd returned any of my multiple phone calls or texts. NOTHING...I pressed her speed dial number ...
"This is Cookie Lyon..." Shit man, voicemail again. She didn't even come into the special board meeting that Andre called earlier and I can still see those big beautiful eyes of her fluttering with excitement as I caressed the smooth skin of her back then instantly shifting from wanting me to hating me within a split second. I had to adjust myself in my seat to keep my body from reacting to the images of her half naked frame trapped in my memory.
The white party is tonight, I'd planned on telling her everything, but now things are way beyond complicated. I know she'll be there, Mal and Keem are supposed to perform the remix, but hell she might try and cold cock me if I even look in her direction. "Lucious!", I heard Vernon shout from behind me, I didn't even realized he'd been standing there. "Aye Bruh, you alright? I've been calling your name for a minute...you ain't hear me?" I glanced over at him and took a gulp from my glass as he moved closer and sat next to me. "My bad Vern. I guess I must have zoned out for a minute there or something." I replied, "Yeah, whatever's on your mind must be pretty heavy, what's going on? Everything straight...you feeling alright?" He spewed out. "Everything is cool. I'm feeling fine...I've just got a lot of shit on my mind that's all." I replied.
"You wanna talk about it? Anything I can help you with?" He questioned, I exhaled then glanced up at him, "Nah, just girl problems you feel me." I said, then took another sip from my glass. "Ahh, I see...Anika stressing you? Or is it the Mrs.?" He rebutted, my head turned on a dime towards him, the hell he talking about I thought nobody knew about what happened between Cookie and I, as he gazed back at me with a grin on his face like I should know exactly what he was referring to.
"Come on now Lucious. I see you bruh. You've always been weak for Cookie and from all the tension and bickering y'all two have every day it seems like that ain't changed much. Huh, I see the way you look at her. You be trying to act all hard in front of Anika but I know you homie." He chuckled then continued, "Shit man, I'm surprised y'all ain't ripped each other's clothes off by now." He teased through a slight chuckle and all I could do was stare at him because he had read my ass like a book, but I ain't surprised though, he was there when we first met. Plus, I've never really been able to hide my feelings for her, he called me out on it back in the day and he was doing it now. Vern's been my boy for the longest, ain't really no point in me keeping this a secret from him, Hell maybe he can help me figure out a way to fix this whole situation.
After I explained how everything went down he leaned back in his seat, took a long gulp of his Bourbon, exhaled then spoke up... "Damn, that's fucked up. Are you sure that Anika is pregnant?" He asked, I nodded. "Yeah, she says she is. I don't see why she'd lie to me about something like that. Besides, how would she fake a damn pregnancy Vern? Some things are just black and white, babies are one of those things you know." He ran his hand over his chin, "True...True, but I thought you were being careful? Thought you didn't want any more kids, especially since you found out about the ALS." I released a long, frustrated breath, "Yeah, well I thought I was being safe too, but you know sometimes shit happens man. Now, Cooks won't even give me a chance to explain what happened and once she finds out about this baby mess, she's gonna hate me." I commented.
We both sat there for a few minutes in silence then Vernon chimed back in "So now what...I mean I know you wanna do the right thing by Anika, but you don't have to be with her to be there for your child Lucious." He took the rest of his glass to the head, "It seems to me that you can do one of two things...Either stick with Anika and be miserable in a loveless marriage or bite the bullet and do whatever you've gotta do to win Cookie back, so you can be happy instead of pouting out here on your patio. She'll be hurt about you having a kid with another woman, but she'll forgive you...that woman still loves you. But you've gotta make your play before it's too late." He advised me.
I unleashed a heavy breath through my nose, gazed back out over the mid day city sky line. He has a point, but despite his words everything in my spirit is telling me that this is just something that Cookie won't be able to move past.