Holly J woke up before anyone else at seven thirty-six. She turned and looked at Declan and Fiona. Fiona must have had another night fit, because Declan was sleeping with his arms wrapped around her, and the covers were twined all around her. Her face was red and puffy.

Holly J walked into the kitchen and decided to make breakfast.

Fiona woke up next, for a change, she usually woke up last. She was careful in rolling out of Declan's arms. She didn't want to wake him again. She was already upset that almost everynight she woke him up. It had to be annoying.

She walked into the kitchen.

"Bacon, orange slices, and blue berry muffins." Fiona laughed. "That's nice."

Holly J looked up from the bacon she had on the pan.

"I wanted to have it, and I'm the one making it, so shut up!"

Fiona knew this was probably just hormones, but she couldn't help feeling hurt. She sat down at the kitchen table and watched Holly J eat.

"What are you looking at?" Holly J asked.

Fiona just raised her eye brows.

"I'm sorry." Holly J said "This isn't me." she said raising her hands in the air. "This is the baby."

Fiona smiled. "Have you guys started getting a room all ready for the baby?"

Holly J tilted her head thinking. "No...we could do that today though."

Fiona sighed "After therapy?"

"Of course after therapy, you don't think we'd go with out you!"

Fiona smiled and walked across the table.

"You guys don't have to go with me to therapy, if you don't want." Fiona told her.

"Oh no, of course we can go with you, it's not a problem! Holly J insisted.

"Honestly, I'd rather you not go."

"Why?" Holly J asked.

"I don't want you guys to hear everything. Mark is a complete stranger, and he can hear it, he hears stuff like it every day, but if you come you'll know it all and picture it... picture me. No, you guys can't hear that."

Holly J had already pictured it. She tended to picture everything in her mind.

"Do you think we'd want to picture it?" Holly J asked, trying not to to picture Fiona getting hurt.

"No, but you won't be able to avoid it, trust me." Fiona replied.

Declan came down. He laughed a little at Holly J's choice in breakfast, before grabbing a muffin and asking "Fiona, are you ready to go back to school?"

Fiona looked up at him cautiously.

"It starts again in two days." Declan added.

Fiona stared down at her plate.

Holly J also didn't like the idea of going back to school. She was visably pregnant, and she knew she'd get some remarks, but she didn't say anything to Declan about it.

"We can try to transfer." Declan said, realizing that Fiona didn't like the idea.

Fiona didn't want to make her brother transfer again, and have to make new friends, realize new scheduals.

"No, I'm fine."

Holly J quickly changed the subject. "Declan... how about shopping for the baby today?"

Declan smiled at her. "That'd be fun." he said.

"Fiona and I were thinking, after therapy?"

"Sure."

Fiona looked up at her brother, "I don't want you guys to go with me to therapy."

"Why not?"

Fiona told him the same thing she had told Holly J.

"Ok, Fi, are you sure?"

"Yes, Decs, I am. I can do this."

"Ok..." Declan sounded as if he wasn't sure. He walked past his sister to put his plate in the sink. As he walked back he stopped near her.

"If you need something, you tell me ok. Get out of that man's office if you want me."

Fiona smiled up at him. "You're the best," she said "You truely are."

In a few hours they were driving to therapy. Fiona waited in the waiting room sitting by Declan.

"Fiona Coyne?" Mark asked

Fiona got up and left Holly J and Declan there. They stared after her as she walked into the room.

"Ok, Fiona. Today we're going to talk about why you think this is your fault."

Fiona stared at him. "Because I could have prevented it."

"But he was the one who did it." The man raised his hand to swat a fly. Fiona flinched.

"I won't hurt you." Mark told her. That was what Bobby had said.

Fiona stared at her feet. She was thinking she just made a terrible mistake. Alone, with a man, behind closed doors.

The man was saying something to her, but she had zoned out. There was fear rising in her stomach.

"Ok do you understand?" Mark asked.

Fiona stared at him. "Get out of my head!" she screamed she started to get up but Mark reached out and held her hand tightly.

Fiona saw this and yanked away, crying. She ran out to her brother who immediantaly got up when he saw her. He hugged her and rubbed her back.
"Fi... what happened?"

Mark came out of his office. "She had a break down."

Declan looked down at his weeping sister. "I don't think we'll be coming anymore." he said.

They walked out of the building and got into the car.

He turned to Fiona. "What happened Fi?"

She looked at him. "He was just like Bobby!"

"What did he do that was like Bobby?"

"Honestly, for a second, I thought he was Bobby." Fiona said. "I guess I'm just stupid."

Declan took her hand "You can't say that, you are not stupid. You're scared."

Fiona looked up at him and gave him a small smile.

They pulled into the parking lot of Baby's R Us. Holly J looked around the store and smiled. Little shoes, little shirts. Everything was cute!

Declan put his arm around her.

"Do you guys know if it's a boy or a girl?" Fiona asked, annoyed that she was getting so many stares from people. She didn't feel like wearing makeup sometimes, and all of her bruises were visable.

"No... and if we knew, you'd know." Declan said.

"Maybe we can get an ultra-sound soon." Holly J suggested. "I'm nearly seven months now."

"Want to?" Declan asked, wrapping his arms around her waist.

"Only if you do."

"I do."

"Ok...I'll schedual for one!"

Fiona was looking at the baby shoes.

"Fi, we're going to get an ultra sound on Monday after school, then come back ok?"

Fiona looked up, "Ok..." she whispered.

"Fi, what's wrong?"

"Nothing." Fiona answered "I just... school... never mind."

"You sure?" Declan asked putting his arm around her.

"Yeah..."

They got back in the car. Fiona looked straight in front of her all the way home. When they got back, she sat on the couch and stared at the TV which wasn't turned on.

Declan took a shower, and Holly J was researching pregnancy. Holly J noticed Fiona just sitting there, and decided to walk over to her.

"Fiona, what are you doing?"

"Nothing."

"Yeah, I can see that but why?"

"I'm just trying to think."

Holly J sat down beside her.

"Mind if I think with you?"

Fiona shook her head.

They sat in silence for a long time before Holly J said, "I can't believe I'm doing this."

"I can." Fiona answered. Holly J looked over at her.

"You're Holly J Sinclair, and if I know anything about you, I know that you're strong."

Holly J smiled at her.

"And what about you, Fiona?" Holly J asked. "What have you been thinking about?"

"The only thing I ever think about anymore."

Holly J put her arm around her friend, and gave her a little shake.

"You're strong too." she said

Fiona looked at her, "Not as strong as him."

"No, you're stronger, only losers do that to people."

Fiona yawned. "I think I'm going to try to go to sleep, in my own room tonight."

"Ok. Good luck!" Holly J said.

Fiona walked upstairs. And into her room.

Holly J sat alone in the living room until Declan came down.

"Where's Fi?"

"She went upstairs. She says she's trying to sleep by herself again."

Declan sat beside Holly J.

"Tomarow and we'll be able to see our baby!" he said excitedly.

"I'm tired, want to go to sleep?" Holly J asked, smiling at the thought of actually seeing her baby.

"Sure."

The two walked upstairs and fell asleep.

Fiona didn't go to sleep. She sat in her room, jumping at every sound. She covered her hands in her face and began crying. She started to think of the times Bobby hurt her.

-"Fiona, want to come to my house after school?" Bobby had asked.

"Of course!" Fiona answered with a smile.

That night Fiona had been so excited. She had walked into Bobby's house, and he had lead her up the stairs to his room. She sat down on the edge of his bed.

"So what do you have planned?" Fiona had asked.

Bobby had pulled her into a kiss. Fiona let it happen, even though she didn't quite enjoy it.

He pushed her down onto the bed, she quickly got up.

"Bobby, no... we've barely dated!" Fiona insisted.

"Fiona... I love you and I just want to show it."

"No!" Fiona had screamed, running out the door.
"Where do you think you're going?" Bobby screamed grabbing her wrist and yanking her back.

"Ow!" she yelped.

He haden't done it that night. He'd just punched her, for not listening to him.

She walked home and put on makeup. No one could know she had let this happen to her.

It was three weeks after when he had found her walking home from school.

"Come to my house, Fifi." Bobby asked. He had been hurting her everyday.

"No." Fiona had said.

Bobby grabbed her by the wrist and pulled her along with him.

"Leave me alone!" she had screamed. He didn't listen.

He hauled Fiona up to his room.

He took her virginity, no matter how loud she screamed, how hard she fought.

When he was done he threw her clothes at her. Her shirt was wripped. She put them on, despite all the bruises that made her muscles tighten with pain.

She tried to get out as soon as possible. "See you later Fifi!" Bobby had said he had kissed her again. And she walked home and changed her clothes, added more makeup.

She sat on her bed all day. Declan came in.

"Fi, what's wrong, you've been acting off lately."

"I...I just got a bad mark in school, that's it."

Declan wrapped his arm around her, "Well, you can pull it back up easily, you're smart."

Fiona looked up at him, and wished it was that simple.-

Fiona snapped out of her flashback, she was breathing deeply. She stared at the clock, realizing it was 1 am. She had school tomarow, school with Bobby.

She closed her eyes to try to go to sleep. But she couldn't.

She walked into Declan's room.

"Can I sleep with you?" she asked, her voice broke, and she sounded like a little girl.

Declan sat up and reached for her hand.

"Of course."

Fiona smiled greatfully, yet at the same time, she felt scared, again, like it was all starting over.

She crawled into the bed with Declan and Holly J.

Holly J was having another nightmare about pregnancy.