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The drive to the motel was done in relative silence. Derek looked over at Cameron and sighed.

"Look, I know we didn't plan to tell them this way, but at least we don't have to explain the fact that we're having sex, I mean, they saw us."

Cameron took a deep breath. "Yes, but this emotion I'm experiencing. I'm not sure I can see them. Ever."

He had to chuckle. "Embarrassment, that's what that one is. Sarah and John saw us fucking; they saw us practically in the throes of an orgasm. So yeah, a little bit of shame is kinda right up our ally."

"I was in the throes of an orgasm." She said quietly.

"Well, yeah, guess I knew that. But look, we'll just tell them what's going on and we'll move on. It's all we can do." He looked at the motel Sarah said she had past and shook his head. Another dive. Oh well. He parked and opened the door.

"You comin'?" He bent over and looked at Cameron.

"Can you please rent the room while I wait here?" She asked.

"Come on Cam, we have to face them sooner or later. And I'm gonna get a room for the both of us." He insisted.

She nodded. "Alright. But I think later might be the preferable option."

"Humor in the face of total demoralization, good job Cam!" Derek smiled at the terminator. She snorted at him before stepping out of the car.

They caught up with Sarah and John, who could not bring himself to tune around look at them.

"How many rooms?" The attendant asked, not looking up from his magazine.

"Two." Derek answered as he stood in front of the desk.

"How many beds?"

"One room with two beds, the other with one." Derek gave Sarah a hard look, daring her to object. She merely shrugged.

John's head jerked up and he stared at his uncle before looking over at Cameron, who once again was biting her lower lip. He just shook his head and went out to the parking lot. Cameron followed him.

"Cameron, just go away." John growled.

"You should not be alone. I'm sure we were not followed, but never-the-less I am still your protector." Her voice was steady, although she was far from feeling it.

"Yeah? Well you sure proved that with Derek." His retort held sarcasm.

"I can have sexual intercourse with Derek and still be your protector John. That is my first and foremost mission." Her voice softened.

"Your mission, right." He lowered his head.

"John, I…" Cameron was cut off as Sarah and Derek strode up to them.

"Okay, let's get our stuff in the rooms and then we talk." Sarah got in the truck and motioned for John to do the same.

Derek and Cameron slid into the cab. He hesitated before starting the engine and turned to Cameron.

"I know you think what I did was cruel, but he has to know Cam, he has to realize. You may be his guardian, but in all other aspects, you are mine." He took her by her shoulders. "Are we clear on this?"

She nodded. "Yes."

Cameron had a difficult time relegating control to Derek, as a terminator she held death in her hands, power. But now, with this change in her, she felt practically subservient to him in all things but John.

"Yes." She repeated.

Derek came out of the shower with a towel hung low on his hips. Cameron quickly turned. For some reason she was feeling shy, yes, shy. That was it. He knew her body inside and out, and she his. But for some inexplicable reason she felt herself flush and was unable to look at him.

She had showered first, stopping Derek when he followed her into the bathroom.

"No Derek, we should not bathe together, there isn't time and if you join me we will undoubtedly have sex. John and Sarah want an explanation and we shouldn't keep them waiting that long." She was right, he knew that, but it still didn't stop his need for her.

He noted the expression on her face when he came out of the bathroom. The first was lust, he smirked, and then the embarrassment. Shyness exuded from her and she turned back to the window.

"Hey." He called at her while he fished clean clothes from his bag. "Are you okay?"

"Mmm, I'm fine." She still had her back to him.

Derek quickly dressed and went to her. Turning her around to face him, he took her chin in his hand. "What's the matter?"

"I don't know. I saw you and suddenly my body flushed and I felt…I think I felt inhibited." He felt her shrug.

"Well, we've been doin' a lot of fu…we've been having a lot of sex, so seeing me almost naked and us not going at it, well…" He chuckled.

"Yes, I suppose you may be correct in your assumptions." Her lower lip was pushed out in concentration. Without thinking, Derek took it between his teeth and lightly bit down before kissing her.

She gasped before returning the kiss. He broke contract when he heard the knock at the door.

"Okay, you ready?" He raised a brow.

"I suppose." She shrugged.

"Okay, so I programmed Cam to feel emotions, to…I don't know, to empathize with humans?" That John was floored was an understatement.

"Yeah." Derek looked over at Cameron.

John caught the exchange and shook his head, trying to clear the betrayal he was feeling.

"What's your part in this whole thing?" John looked at Derek, his eyes narrowing as Cameron sat next to him on the bed.

Sarah leaned against the doorframe, just trying to take it all in, letting her son handle this one.

"You asked me to take care of her, teach her." Derek eyes were downcast as he stared at his hands. "And I let you down. When I got here, when I saw Cameron, all I could see was metal. What you asked of me, before, it made no sense." He looked up at the cyborg. "I only saw the enemy."

"Well, you really brought new meaning to sleeping with the enemy." The boy sneered.

"John." His mother scolded. "That was unproductive." She had to admit to a certain relief that Derek was sleeping with Cameron, this meant that John wouldn't be.

"Okay," John continued, getting his anger in check but ignoring his mother, "what happened between then and now?"

"Cameron confided in me." Derek simply stated.

"You confided in him?" John's voice was incredulous as he looked at Cameron, the hurt evident in his eyes. He quickly turned on Derek.

"And what did you do!" John was seething. "She confided in you and you took advantage of her, you took her vulnerability, her confusion and you used it to just fuck a metal. Well, is revenge sweet?"

Cameron felt the change in Derek's demeanor immediately, his jaw clenched, his hands fisted, his heart rate increased.

"You little shit." Derek ground out between clenched teeth. "You aren't John Connor yet, just remember that." The larger man began to rise, his intent clear to both Cameron and Sarah, who had pushed herself off the wall.

"Derek, please." Cameron's voice was soft. "He's upset, he feels betrayed by the both of us. Please."

He looked over at her face and took a deep breath, feeling himself relax. Sarah watched the interaction with more than a small amount of interest. She always considered Derek a loose canon, more so than Cameron even. But the look on his face when Cameron spoke to him. He's in love and he doesn't even know it, she thought.

"Okay, okay," Derek muttered. "Don't stress on his account."

"John, you can just calm down too." Sarah went to her son. "She's your protector, we know that, but that's all she's ever been to you so stop acting like the wronged boyfriend."

John swept his hand over his eyes.

"Yeah, whatever." He knew his mother was right, but it still hurt like a fist in his gut to know that his uncle was having sex with Cameron. And to know that Cameron wanted it.

He turned back to his uncle.

"Okay, so she," he looked at Cameron, "sorry, you feel." John looked back to Derek. "But what about you?"

"What do you mean?" Derek knew exactly what his nephew was asking, but he needed time to figure out what his answer would be.

"You know what I mean Derek." John wasn't a fool, even at 17. "What do you feel for Cameron? Is it just for a fuck? Is that what she, it, means to you?"

Derek's head fell back as he ran his hand over his eyes. He felt so tired. When he was in Cameron's arms, inside of her, it was the only time since before Judgment day that he some semblance of peace.

He looked at the girl, woman, beside him. "She's not just a fuck."

"Then what? Do you love her?" John couldn't keep the slight sneer out of his voice.

"Jesus John, I'm not even sure what love is anymore. I loved Kyle, he was my brother, I know I love him." He raised his head and looked into his nephew's eyes.

"And you, in the future, I respected you. Hell, I fucking worshipped you. I would've died for you. So yeah, maybe I loved you." His voice was firm.

"And Cameron?" John was unrelenting.

"Hell John, I don't know. All I know for sure is I'm supposed to take care of her." He gave John a sideways glance. "I'm not sure if future you figured I'd have sex with Cameron, but I gotta think you had an idea."

"Why?" John was incredulous.

"Her programming. Her responsiveness. And you never slept with her. She never had sex before me." Derek shrugged.

"How can you be so cavalier?" John was outraged. Maybe, just maybe future John had planned for his younger self to be with Cameron.

"I'm not being cavalier John. I'm just trying to explain this to you the best I can. I also realize that you, the John of today, doesn't know the reasoning behind this. But the John of the future, he did."

"It's late. We should all get some sleep." Sarah went to stand before Derek and Cameron. "This is very…intriguing. But I think we can try and figure this all out later. We need to rest and decide where we should go next. If Ellison will stay off our trail, if we've managed to stay under police radar." She motioned to John.

"Come on, you look exhausted." Sarah turned back to Derek and Cameron. "Watch the news before bed; see if we're on any newscasts." She walked out and John begrudgingly followed.

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