-1 Notes: To give you an idea of what Gus looks like as a teen, think Thomas Dekker from The Sarah Connor Chronicles. I think he looks like he could be Gale Harold's son, so that's why I "picked" him to be what Gus looks like. Anyway,enjoy!
Chapter Six: Revelations
After what happened at the skating rink, I tried to avoid Blanca as much as possible. I didn't want people to know what happened because there was so much tension between us and I knew Johnny would suspect I was cheating on him if we spent even more time together. However, Blanca would not let me off that easy. As soon as school ended, she asked me why I was avoiding her and that she was getting sick of it.
"In case you didn't notice, I have a boyfriend. A really amazing, sweet, yet jealous boyfriend. It's more than I'll ever have with you. We're not friends, we're not anything." I nearly shouted, trying to convince her I really felt and thought this way.
"If we're not anything, then why do we keep spending time with each other? How come when we're with our friends and family, we talk about each other? If I mean nothing to you, then why did you try to kiss me?" Blanca asked, knowing exactly what the answer was.
"I don't know." I lied.
"Well, here's what you can do. If you come to the talent show tonight and watch me perform or if you choose not to, then I'll know how you really feel about me." she said, giving me a look that said "It's all or nothing." With that she walked away, looking at me briefly before she faded completely from my sight.
I never thought she was the type of girl that gave ultimatums to guys, but again I was proven wrong. I knew I couldn't lie to her anymore or to myself, it was killing me. So I knew what I had to. It was not going to be easy, but Dad told me once "You have to do what you want and not give a fuck about pleasing everyone around you." It was the only piece of advice he had given and I knew I had to take it, for not only my sake but Blanca's as well.
That night, after convincing Dad with the help of Lilly and Justin for at least thirty minutes, we decided to go to the talent show. A half an hour later, we arrived just in time and sat in the fifth row of chairs in the auditorium. Lilly and Justin were happy and excited, I was nervous about seeing her up close for the first time in two months, and Dad didn't look too happy either, but that was because he hated talent shows.
"If she sings as badly as Justin does, I'm walking out and I don't give a damn how rude is it, or how much you like her." he said to me.
"Like who?" Johnny asked as he walked over to the chairs and sat next to me.
"No one." I said quickly.
Dad and Justin were secretly giving me looks that said "Cut the bullshit, you like her, admit it." I knew they were right, but I couldn't tell Johnny now, he wanted to spend time with me and I didn't want to ruin it for him.
However, the moment Blanca arrived on the stage, everyone and everything else disappeared and it was just her. She wore a light blue dress that was a little low-cut but not too revealing, her curly hair dangled loose and was draped behind her back and she wore a touch of makeup to highlight her natural beauty. She smiled sweetly and politely like she always did, but tonight it felt different. It felt like she was holding a secret in her heart that she would only reveal to me. She began to sing a Mandy Moore pop song that I would normally hate, but at that moment I loved it and I felt she was singing only for me.
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever, yet ended so soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside
Deep inside
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The Moment I saw you cry
Cry
The moment that I saw you cry
It was late in September
And I'd seen you before
Seen you before
You were always the cool one
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside
Deep inside
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make everything all right
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
In places no one will find
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside
Forever was in your eyes
It was there that I realized that forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
Baby cry
That moment that I saw you cry
No No oh
I think I saw you cry
The moment I saw you cry
The moment she stopped singing everyone applauded. I couldn't keep my eyes off her and unfortunately Johnny could tell. He asked me if we could speak in private and I nervously agreed.
We walked over to the boys bathroom which was arguably the most private place we could think of.
"What the hell were you doing?" he asked, nearly shouting at me.
"I was watching her sing, what does it look like I was doing?" I replied, my voice rising.
"You're in love with her, aren't you? You never stop talking about her to us and it's obvious you'd rather be with her than me. Are you straight all of a sudden? Did she bring you to salvation?!" he yelled angrily.
"I'm not gay, all right! I don't know what I am at this point, but it's not about that. She makes me feel feelings I've never felt before, not even for you. I was afraid to admit it at first, but now I know I can't deny it. It's over, I'm sorry." I said.
He looked at me angrily at resentfully at first, but then he walked away without ever looking back.
I walked out of the boys bathroom and came face to face with Blanca.
"Hi." she said, smiling at me lovingly.
"Hi." I replied, smiling back with all the love in my heart.
"I'm sorry about what happened between you and Johnny. I didn't want to break you two up." she apologized.
"I broke us up. I want to be with you, and I don't care what anyone else says." I replied sincerely.
"I know, I want to be with you too. I've know ever since you started coming to the Inter-Faith Club." she explained.
"So have I. So, you free this Saturday?" I asked.
"I'll ask my dad, but I'll probably come." she replied.
"All right, it's a date then." I said, a semi-seductive smile appearing on my face.
She laughed and we said goodbye as she walked off, with a flirtatious smile on her face.
At that moment, I had never felt so happy.