A/n: I don't own anything

Chapter 6 Forgiven?

The rest of the week flew by in much of the same manner. Rose keeping me busy with various actives she had planed for the day, Esme made my meals, falling asleep every night in Jasper's arms and waking up still in them. It was something that I was slowly becoming accustomed to. I knew however that it would have to end since we were heading home today. We were leaving early in the morning so that we would be home by lunch time. Jasper and I had decided to talk to Alice and Edward when we got home. I had caused enough problems in this family and I wanted to mend it as quickly as possible.

We had been driving for a few hours now and I had been wrapped up in my thoughts that whole time. I wasn't sure how to talk to Alice. I knew that she could never be my best friend again but I still wanted to be on good terms with her. It was going to hurt every time I see Edward kiss her or wrap his arms around her like he used to with me. But I knew that I would be able to move on eventually. This was my family now too. The thing that I knew was going to hurt the most was telling Alice that Rose was my new best friend. I was assuming that she had already seen our talk coming and was hoping that this would make things a little easier. Jasper was the one that pulled me out of my thoughts that were quickly spiraling out of control.

"Things are going to go fine. Alice will be sad but I think that she will understand. She knew that she was giving up a lot when she moved on to Edward. Don't feel guilty for patching the hole that she caused." I knew that he was worried about me. I felt guilty because I didn't want him to have to worry about me anymore that he already did.

"I'm fine. I think I'm just a little antsy. I don't want Alice to hate me that's all."

We rode in silence until my until my stomach decided that it wanted some food. Jasper pulled over at that the next rest stop for me to get something to eat. I ate my food while once again wrapping myself in my thoughts.

All too some the Cullen's house in Forks came into view. I swallowed hard as Jasper helped me out of the car. He gave me a big hug and whispered into my ear. "Are you ready for this?"

"As ready as I'm ever going to be." I replied with a groan. He gave me a kiss on the check and let go of his hold on me. He grabbed my hand and led me toward the door. He gave my hand a quick squeeze before he opened the door and led me past him.

Alice and Edward we standing at the bottom of the stairs when we entered. They both looked like they were a mess and hadn't feed in a while. Jasper nodded his head toward the living room and they followed the two of us in. Jasper and I sat on one couch and Edward and Alice on the other. Before I could sit Jasper had sat and pulled me onto his lap. I herd a small growl come from Edward. Jasper just wrapped his arms around me in a protective manner and stared back at Edward. It seemed that they were having a private conversation probably involving how close me and Jasper were at the moment.

I figured since I was the one who was deciding to forgive them that I should start. "Edward, Alice I assume you know why we are here." Alice gave me a small smile but Edward just kept glaring at Jasper.

"Alice, you were my best friend but I will never be able to fully forgive you for what you have done. I miss you and I want us to be able to be friends but I need you to understand that we will never have anywhere near the relationship we once had. Rose has been filling the hole that you caused and I'm really glad that I got the chance to know her better. I thank you for that." Alice gave me a small nod saying that she understood what I was saying. She looked sad and I sent a twinge of sadness through me. I then turned my attention to Edward.

"Edward, I will never be able to forgive you. I know this will hurt you, but it hurts me too much too even think about you with Alice. I hope that maybe one day in the future we will have some type of relationship but right now it is not possible. I'm sorry." I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes and quickly buried my head into Jasper's chest. I could feel the calm that Jasper was emitting.

"Edward, I really expected better from you. You were my brother and she was my wife. How could you do that to me? I know that neither of you expected it to happen, but can you imagine how much pain it has caused either of us. That's your problem Edward, you never think of other people. It's always what Edward wants or what Edward thinks is best. Well maybe it's time that Edward stopped and thought about someone other than himself for once." As Jasper spoke, the sound of his voice and the movement of his breathing started to clam my tears. I could tell that he was holding in a growl because I could feel the vibrations in his chest as I lay there.

"Alice, I have no idea what to even say to you. You were everything to me. You were the one person who I knew I had been waiting all of my life for you the minute I saw you. I don't understand how you can do this to me without so much as a second thought. I would expect something like this from Edward but never from you. And Bella was your best friend Alice. Could you even imagine what position that put her in?" Jasper was getting frustrated and angry and I didn't want him to lose his temper. I looked up at him and put my hand on his check. He leaned into the warmth and closed his eyes for a second. He took a couple of deep breaths trying to calm himself. While his eyes were still closed I replaced my hand with a kiss. I put my head back on his chest once he had opened his eyes.

I heard another growl erupt from Edward. "You don't have that right anymore." Jasper was furious now. He really had stepped into the role of big brother rather well. I was glad that I had Jasper to protect me because I really didn't want to deal with Edward right now. "You can't break her like that and then expect her to not move on. She has finally come to terms with what the two of you have done and you treat her like nothing ever happened. You can't hold her in limbo Edward. She had enough courage to come here and tell you both that she forgiven you for the terrible thing that you did to her and this is how you repay her. She maybe able to forgive you or one day forgive you but I however can not. I will live in this house and be civil with both of you but you are nothing to me. I hope that you both will realize just what you have caused."

When Jasper had finished his rant, he picked me up and carried me up the stairs. "Where are we going?" I asked my voice cracking at the end. I hoped that I had cried my last set of tears over this.

"Esme moved Alice into Edward's room and redecorated my old room for me. I hope that's ok with you. I will take you home later but I just got so frustrated with them." He looked as if he was in pain. I hated seeing Jasper like this and I just wanted to make him feel better. "If you don't mind I would like you to stay with me for a while. You have gotten good at calming me down." He said with a small smile.

When we got to his room he took us straight to a large bed. I raised my eyebrow at him. I knew he didn't sleep so why did he have a large bed in the middle of his room. " I figured that you would need it when you stayed here." He said with a shrug. He was trying to play it off because he didn't want me to make the fuss about it that he knew I would make.

"Thank you. I know that I will have lots of sleepovers in the future with Rose so this might come in handy."

He laid us down on the bed and wrapped his arms around me. I curled up into his chest and rested my head on it. We sat there for a while in silence. I wanted to get Jasper to relax so I reached up and place a small kiss on his neck and then another on his chest. I felt him shiver slightly under my kiss and assumed it was because of my warm skin touching his cold neck.

"How are you feeling?" I finally asked not able to bear the silence much longer.

"Much better now thank you." Jasper said while bearing his head into my hair.

I could get used to this, I am used to this. No you can not get used to this! What are you thinking, Jasper is your big brother. Ok, I just got wrapped up in the moment that's all. I started to take a few deep breaths.

Jasper sat up and pulled me up into his lap. He still held me close to him. He looked like he was debating over something. He had his eyes locked on mine as if he was trying to find something in them. Edward then burst through the door.

"Jasper I need to speak with you now." He snarled while pulling Jasper up off of the bed. I could tell even without his powers that he was furious about something. Maybe the talk we had with them had just sunk in. He led Jasper out into the hall and closed the door behind him.

I took this opportunity to take a look around the room. I saw that the room was painted a dark beige color. It had a dark green couch in one corner with the comforter on the bed matching in the same green. He had a wall that was nothing but shelves of books. I got up out of the bed and walked over to see what books he had. A lot of the them were philosophy books. I noticed that most of the classics were as well. Most of them looked old enough to have been from the time the book was originally published. I then noticed that he had a shelf of books that I recognized held most of the books that I liked. He had all of the Jane Austin books and Wuthering heights. I decided that I would have to ask Jasper if I could borrow a few of his books. I then moved on the closet. I opened it and was caught by surprise. Not only was Jasper's clothes in there but mine as well. I couldn't help but smile and realized that Rose must have done it will we were talking to Alice and Edward. I then proceeded to the bathroom. I wanted to see how red my eyes were from crying.

They were just a little puffy with a trace of red in them. I was heading back to the bed when Jasper entered the room. "I'm taking you home, let's go." He said with a little more force in his voice then necessary. He pulled my by the arm down the stairs and out to the car. He opened my door for me and I got in. He went around to the driver's side and was closing the door before I had time to reach for my seatbelt. He had the key in the ignition and was tearing out the driveway before I even got it bucked and he looked livid.