That should be me- 6

Chapter 6: iWake up and come clean

Two weeks have passed and Sam still hasn't woken up. I've been up here every day after school to see her. Carly's been hounding me, trying to get me to admit that I love Sam. But the problem is: I don't love her.

I haven't been getting much sleep lately, because every time I go to sleep, I have the dream of Sam and I on the fire escape.

Every time I'm close to kissing her some one wakes me up, and I always feel disappointed. Right now I'm sitting in last period bored because Sam's not here, she'd be telling the teacher off right now if she were here.

I try my best to focus, but it's hard. Why do I keep thinking about her? I sigh quietly to myself and look down, playing with my fingers. I miss her so much; I wish she would wake up already.

Just then, the door swings open and I lift my head up to see Carly at the door.

"MS. SHAY! HOW DARE YOU INTERRUPT MY CLASSROOM!"

"I'm sorry, Mr. Howard, but Freddie needs to come with me"

"Is it about Sam?" I ask out loud, gathering my stuff

"Yea, the doctor just called principle Franklin, Sam's awake."

My eyes widen, that was some freaky chizz. I pick up my stuff and follow Carly.

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We arrive at the hospital, and I rush past Carly and head to Sam's room. Once I get there though, before I go in I look through the window to find Arthur already there, in a chair and holding Sam's hand. She's smiling widely and I feel my heart break, why can't that be me? O that's right because she hates me!

I suddenly feel sadness come over me. Wait why did I just feel like my heart broke just because she's holding Arthur's hand?

"Because you love her." my eyes widen and I look next to me to find Carly.

"Did I just say that out loud?" I ask completely angry at myself. That was supposed to be thought not spoken.

"Yea you did."

I sigh, what if Carly's right. What if I am in love with Sam? I don't know if I truly am though. That's the problem.

"Well, come on. Let's go in." I nod my head at her and walk in with her.

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(At the shay's apartment, Freddie and Spencer are talking)

"Hey Spence?"

"Yuh-huh"

"Can I talk to you? Like guy to guy for a sec?"

"Sure freddo, what's up"

"How...I shouldn't even ask you this since you've never been in it before"

"Ask me what? I'm sure I could still help you."

"How do you know if you're in love with someone?"

"Well... For starters, you should be willing to do anything for that person, you should also love them for who they are and don't try to change them. Whenever you touch, your heart; starts racing, you get chills down your spine. Who is it you think you're in love with?"

I sigh heavily then answer:

"I think I'm in love with Sam."

Spencer's POV

O my God! He's finally admitting it! Well partially admitting it. Ok no body knows this but. I'm a secret seddie shipper, so for me to here this is so epic!

That's why when Carly told me him and Sam kissed I was all excited, but then she said Sam told her on laughing gas and I became disappointed, because people say anything on that stuff. Speaking of which, I got to ask Freddie if that was true or not cause Carly never told me anything after that.

"Spencer? It be nice if you said something. I feel like I'm about to throw up."

"O, sorry Freddo I spaced out for a second there."

"Yea, I saw that."

"What is that makes you feel that way fredster?"

"Fredster? Anyway, well, I don't know actually. It's just, like today at the hospital, before I went in to Sam's room I saw Arthur holding her hand and she was smiling widely. Once I saw that though I felt my heart break, and I don't know why but I kept wishing it was me who was holding her hand and making her smile. Then I remembered why it's not me and I felt sadness over come me, and it stayed the whole time I was in the room."

"Well, that's just one factor Freddie. Let me ask you one thing if you liked her, tell me some things about her that would make you feel that way and feel happy."

Freddie's POV

I didn't know how to answer that exactly. I mean, I don't even know where to begin, so I just look at him and start speaking, as I do; it seems like the words just flow right out of me.

"I love the she smiles when ever she's beaten me up.

I love the way her dirty blond curls hit her shoulder perfectly, I love that evil smirk she gets when she has a plan, or did something bad to a teacher.

I love the way she can eat like guy and her petite figure doesn't change...not that I paid attention to it or anything. But yea, I love our first kiss together and- O GOD! I LIKE SAM!"

A/n: ep has ended, please r & r! I'll love you guys forever! :]