April Rain Showers Chapter 6
Beep! Beep! Beep!
Eren groaned and rolled over, blindly feeling for the alarm clock,"Kill it, kill it with fire..."
The raven moaned and nuzzled into a nearby pillow in hopes of blocking out the sun and the noise. He didn't want to leave the warmth of the blankets just yet. The two let sighs escape their lips as the alarm clock was finally turned off, Eren collasped clumsily back on the bed, hoping that Levi forgot what day it was so he could just stay in bed and sleep. Sadly, the raven didn't and after a few moments Eren was shoved gently to wake up.
The raven slowly sat up, eyes half opened, yawning loudly, and scratching his back. He let his body awaken a bit before walking off to the bathroom, returning after to get dressed, Eren still asleep.
"Brat, if you don't wake up in the next few seconds I will kick your ass out of the bed, you have been warned," Levi replied, earning a pathetic whine from the brunette.
"I don't want to gooo," the brunette whined pathetically in hopes Levi would take pity on him.
"I know, but your going whether you want to or not. Maybe if you be a good boy I might buy you some chocolate and strawberries afterward." Levi replied.
"I can't eat solid foods after surgery," the brunette reminded the raven somberly.
"Then I can get you some strawberry jello until you can," the raven replied.
"Okay..." the brunette replied, laying down for a few more minutes before actually deciding to be productive. He winced and when he was sure the raven wasn't looking he hugged his abdomen in pain. He felt a shiver of worry as he realized it wasn't just one side that was hurting now. He decided to just shrug it off, perhaps it was just in his head right?
The raven quickly got dressed and went off to search for some comfortable clothes for his boyfriend to wear before the surgery while he was waking up. The raven threw said clothes at his boyfriend,"Hurry up and get dressed, I'm gonna go start up the car."
"Okay," Eren mumbled, standing up slowly.
"Is your kidney bothering you?" Levi asked, seeing how slow his lover was being.
"Y-Yeah a little bit," the brunette replied, half-heartedly picking up the sweatshirt and sliding it over the shirt he wore while asleep.
Levi stood, watching his lover dress for a few moments before reluctantly leaving to start up the car while Eren finished dressing. Eren slowly got dressed, whimpering in both fear and pain. He would do anything to get out of this surgery, anything. After a few moments, Levi returned to see his lover hugging himself and crying, to which Levi immediately ran over.
The raven gently grabbed the brunettes chin to make him look at him,"Eren, Eren what's wrong?"
"I-I d-don't want to d-do this," Eren sobbed,"I'm s-scared."
Levi reached up to brush away the taller man's tears,"Are you scared of the surgery?"
"N-No...e-everything. W-what if it doesn't work...what if I end up dying?" Eren continued to sob, beginning to feel light-headed because of it.
"Eren, look at me," Levi said, making sure the brunette was looking at him through watery tears before continuing,"Erwin is going to do anything in his power to make you better, he promised me. If you don't do this, then you will die, so you have to go through this to live. It's going to put us through hell, it's going to be painful and heart-wrenching, but your not going to be alone. I won't let you go through this alone. And if you do end up dying from this disease I will die with you, do you understand? I'm not going to let you die without a fight, because I love you and I have lost too many people already."
The raven sighed as his words seemed to make the brunette cry harder, and he didn't know if it was out of happiness or pain. He let the brunette cry for a few more minutes, brushing away the torrent of tears that fell before deciding it was time to go. He took the brunette's hand and led him through the front door and down to the car that was left purring out in the parking lot. The older opened the passenger side door and gently shoved Eren inside, making sure the brunette was comfortable he shut the door and walked over to the driver's side to let himself inside the car.
The drive over to the hospital was mostly silent except for the sobs and sniffles that came from the brunette and the soft ruffling Levi's hand made as he rubbed his back comfortingly. Levi felt the brunette stiffen under his hand as they parked in a parking spot near the hospital. After parking the raven looked over to see his lover who was trying to hide his fear behind indifferent eyes. The raven sighed and grabbed ahold of the brunettes chin, guiding his face to face his own before leaning in and giving his taller lover a slow, passionate kiss.
Levi smiled against his lips as he felt the brunette begin to relax into the kiss. The raven sadly had to pull away after a few moments for air, but he made sure to keep the brunette's gaze on him.
"Eren, relax, I'm right here and I'm not going to go anywhere. You can do this, I have faith in you," the raven replied, giving his lover another chaste kiss before getting out of the car. The brunnette inhaled deeply before pushing open the passenger's side door, and getting out. Eren smiled at the hand that was thrusted in front of him, palm up. Without hesitation the brunette took it into his own hand and looked up to his raven smile at him encouragingly. With a light squeeze, Levi led his lover into the hospital doors, hiding his own nervousness away from the brunette.
After a few hours of waiting, Levi was now left pacing the waiting room with a sytrofoam cup half-full of coffee. The raven kept seeing his lover's fear and tired-filled, child-like face in his final moments of wakefulness.
Eren watched as a nurse injected the anesthesia into his IV, the raven holding his hand tightly and rubbing his thumb over the blue veins on the back of tan hands. Levi looked up to fearful green eyes and felt his chest constrict painfully. He felt like the worst boyfriend ever. He would give anything to take it all away, to take away all the fear and pain Eren must be feeling right now. He wished he was the one who was getting surgery right now.
The raven watched as tears begin to pool in his boyfriend's eyes for the second time that day. The raven's eyes widened in alarm and he immediately put his free hand on the brunettes face to wipe away the newly falling tears,"No baby, no don't cry."
"L-Levi I'm scared, I-I don't like this," Eren replied, his voice slowly becoming more child-like as the medication took effect.
"It's okay baby, it's okay your just going to take a nap is all and then you'll feel all better," the raven said.
"Y-You sure?"
"Of course I'm sure," he replied, rubbing a thumb against each of Eren's eyes to wipe away any remaining tears. He was amazed at how fast the medication was taking effect, Eren's eyes were already glazed over with fatigue.
"Are you getting tired Eren?" the raven asked like a mother to a little boy.
"Yeahhhh" the brunette replied sleepily.
"You should go to sleep then."
"No, your going to leave me."
"No I won't, I'll be right here, I promise."
"Pinky promise," the brunette commanded, holding out a pinky to the older male.
With a small smile the raven obeyed his brat's childish command and held out his own pinky finger to the brunette who reached out and wrapped his pinky around the olders. Levi felt warmth spread through his tired body when he saw Eren's grin afterward. The raven sighed and stood up from the chair he sat in and sat on the edge of Eren's hospital bed, he gently pressed his hand on Eren's chest to force his lover down on the bed.
With a small smile the raven said a motherly voice,"You look very tired baby, maybe you should close your eyes."
Eren fought to keep his eyes opened, his green orbs reflecting how tired he was with a hint of fear underlying it. With a pout the brunette replied,"I d-don't want to Levi."
"Oh honey it's going to be okay," Levi said, not even sensing Erwin's presence in the room, witnessing this very unLevi-like display. The raven caressed his lover's face, watching as his brat fought to keep his eyes opened.
"I d-don't want to sleep, L-Levi," Eren whispered, his eyes finally sliding shut.
"I know baby," Levi whispered back, running a hand through Eren's soft, brunette hair. He was going to miss the feeling of his hair between his fingers once his chemotherapy began. The raven turned around, sensing someone watching him.
Levi fixed Erwin with a stern glare before saying,"You better take good care of him Erwin, he was very scared before he got here."
Erwin placed a hand on Levi's shoulder, giving him his most encouraging smile,"Don't worry Levi, I will."
Levi stayed there for a few moments, glaring at him to make sure he made his point clear, before setting his gaze on his lover once again. He felt the nurse from earlier place a hand on his shoulder, intending to lead him to the waiting room. He sighed and let her lead him down the various hallways he already knew by heart. Before she left, he made sure to make it clear he wanted to be there right after Eren's surgery, he wanted to be there before he woke up.
And now he was here, pacing circles around the waiting room, like a husband waiting for his first child to be born. Levi lifted the styrofoam cup up to his mouth, pausing midway to realize he wasn't in the mood for coffee, so instead he began to bite on the edge of the cup in nervousness.
Two hours passed, with each minute that went by the raven felt himself grow more afraid of the outcome. How pathetic can I get, it's not like he's getting brain surgery for crying out loud. Eren will be fine you idiot.
He inhaled deeply, he was on his third cup, and it wasn't even filled with any substance at this point, he just wanted to chew on it. He looked over at the waste basket that was filled with two previous cups that had bite marks all over, in fact some of them was in pieces. How pathetic,the raven thought, cursing as he bit through the third styrofoam cup. He looked over to the tv they had in the waiting room, desperate for a distraction, especially now since a couple and a little boy walked into the waiting room. He was almost certain his current behavior would earn a few concern looks and maybe a therapist recommendation for his addition of chewing on styrofoam.
He channel surfed for awhile, mostly to keep some part of his body moving and hopefully distract him from chewing on the cup in his hand. He suppressed a growl when he saw absolutely fucking nothing was on television, he instead chose to stare out the window which was a nice gray. He repressed a groan of frustration as he felt the urge to look at the clock. Don't look at the damn clock Levi, don't look at the damn clock, don't look at the motherfucking clock, Levi looks at the clock anyway to see the fucking hand has not moved any fucking farther then one second ago, fuck.
As a final ditch effort, the raven decided to go to the bathroom to avoid having a possible mental breakdown in front of the couple and their kid. He splashed some cold water on his haggard face, even went so far as to jog in place for a minute or two in hopes of getting rid of the building, nervous energy. Once he thought he wasn't going to have mental breakdown, he left and chose to stroll around the hallways instead. That idea was soon regretted as he accidentally wandered in the cancer unit and was met with bald, sad faces. The raven wondered if Eren would end up looking like that, pale, and depressed looking. He felt his chest constrict painfully when he saw the children cancer patients, playing with toys that the hospital offered to patients who had to stay for a much longer period.
Levi felt his eyes widen as he recognized two of the people behind the glass windows. Was that Jean and Marco. The raven hadn't seen Marco in such a long time, and it shocked him to see the pale, freckled face staring back at him, bald like the rest of the cancer patients. Jean looked over to see what Marco was staring at and his own eyes widened as he recognized Levi. Before Levi could turn and run, said horse face was walking over to the door.
The raven managed to compose himself into his normal state, which was basically "bored as fuck" by the time Jean opened the door.
"Levi? Y-You can come in if you want, we were just talking about Eren," the two-colored brunette offered.
The raven bit his lip, glancing in the direction where he knew the waiting room was, before sighing and allowing himself to walk into the room. Levi could've sworn he heard the sigh of relief Jean gave when Levi accepted his offer. Marco offered the scarier man a sweet smile, Levi wondered how Marco was able to smile in his condition, in a strange sense, the raven admired it.
"It's so good to see you Levi," Marco said with a small chuckle he continued,"Well Jean, looks like the secret is out..."
"Yeah," horse face replied, seeming uncomfortable.
"Jean told me about Eren...I know you're probably getting this a lot...but I'm sorry," the freckled-face man said.
"Yeah well, I know they're just trying to comfort us," the raven replied with a half-hearted shrug.
After a few awkward moments of silence, the raven dared to ask the question,"If you don't mind me asking, what cancer do you have?"
"Stage II stomach cancer," the freckled face replied.
"I'm sorry..."
"Don't be...everything happens for a reason, right Jean?"
"Yeah," horse face replied, seeming to calm down a little more.
After a few more comfortable moments of silence, the freckled face decided to start up conversation again,"So...where's Eren anyways?"
With a sigh the raven replied,"He's having his kidney taken out today..."
"Ah...I'm guessing in a few days he'll be starting chemotherapy as well?"
"Seems like it..."
"I-I did mean what I said to Eren...I'm here for you two...I know what it feels like," Jean said, his gaze towards the floor.
"I am to," Marco added.
"Th-Thanks...Eren and I really appreciate it," the raven replied, allowing some emotion to show through his stoic expression.
The trio turned when they heard the click of the door opening, it was the nurse Levi recognized earlier.
"Levi Ackerman?" the female voice asked, her gaze searching the room for a few moments and then landing on the short, scary man.
"Ah, there you are, I came to tell you Eren just got out of surgery. I can take you to his room if you'd like," the nurse said.
Levi nodded and turned to the two young adults,"It was good to see you two again. I'm sure we'll meet again soon yes?"
"You bet, tell Eren I said hi," Marco replied.
"See ya later Levi," Jean said with a wave of his hand.
Levi sighed, mentally preparing himself for a bitchy and whiny Eren, before turning on his heel and following the nurse. He felt a little better that Eren wouldn't be going through chemotherapy alone, he'd have Marco there with him. And as for Levi, he wouldn't be alone in the emotional turmoil of watching his boyfriend suffer, he'd have Jean who no doubt suffered enough already.
Owwww. Eren groaned in pain, his side was killing him and he didn't know why at the moment. He slowly opened his eyes to a place he didn't recognize, he winced, it was blindingly white. Who in their right mind would decide on a totally white room? He felt a shiver of fear run through him, he was in the hospital, where was Levi?
"L-Levi?!" the brunette managed to choke out, wincing at how scratchy his voice sounded.
"It's okay brat, I'm right here, just like I promised you," the raven replied, reaching up to brush away hair from his lover's face.
The brunette sighed in relief, Levi was here, and that was enough to calm the brat even if his mind was still foggy from anesthesia,"Levi, what happened?"
Levi couldn't help but smile as his brat looked at him with hazey, confused eyes. His hair was messed up, he looked so adorable,"Congratulations Eren, they took out your kidney. I told you that you could do it brat."
Eren's eyes widened in confusion,"They did? I don't remember it."
Levi chuckled,"Your not supposed to remember it stupid."
"Oh," Eren replied with a blank look, taking in his surroundings. As his body became more awake the brunette smiled to himself. He did it. He conquered his ultimate fear of surgery, but it sure hurt like a bitch afterward.
"Hey Levi, I did it," the brunette giggled stupidly, regretting it instantly as it made his side hurt. He groaned loudly in pain, although he still had a stupid grin displayed acrossed his face.
Levi leaned over, his eyebrows drawn together in concern, he took one of Eren's hand and kissed it before replying,"I know you did, I'm so proud of you Eren."
The raven felt warmth spread through his entire being as he saw his brat grin impossibly wider. Even in pain, the brat was extremely happy of his accomplishment, no amount of pain could ruin this moment. The raven couldn't help it, he laughed, he was just so happy his brat was still able to smile that beautiful, stupid smile of his. Levi didn't take this moment for granted though, for he knew that sooner or later that happiness was going to be replaced by a crabby Eren. This point was only proven when one of the nurses came in to remind the couple that Eren couldn't eat any solid food until his organs have all "woken" up. Levi didn't miss the stubborn pout, and eye twitch his brat gave at that. Yep, it's going to be hell for the upcoming few days, Eren was going to make sure of it, that is for the nurses. Levi personally loved it when his brat was occasionally bitchy, especially when it was towards other people.
Notes: Yeah I know I haven't updated yesterday...sorry but I'm gonna be a little busy. I'll be able to update Thursday for sure though, and perhaps Friday depending how tired I am. You know your obsessed with a story idea if it makes it hard for you to fall asleep and it wakes you up at an ungodly hour to write :P. Anyways keep the marriage proposal ideas coming, I'm really beginning to like them so far. Thanks for the reviews, favorites and follows so far you guys, it makes me really extremely happy! Also is it just me or is Levi sort of becoming more...not so Levi :/? I also apologize for calling Jean horse face constantly during this chapter and Marco freckle face...I don't have any other ideas of what to call them lol.