'I'm gonna have to start from the beginning if that's ok with you,' Danielle started, with her head still to one side she turned over and look at Ronnie who was looking at her. Ronnie nodded. Danielle looked straight into the ceiling and carried on, 'I didn't get adopted to start off with, I just went into different foster homes. Then when I was five I was put into a care home,' Ronnie listened fully, making sure she heard every word her daughter said, if they were going to start a mother/daughter relationship, it would have to be truthful from the start.
'Then when I was around six this couple came into the home and decided they wanted to foster me. And after three months of living with them (not to mention lots of toys and games) I decided to call them mummy and daddy, because they were acting like they were. Then one night…' Danielle stopped, unable to control her emotions yet still looking up at the ceiling, tears flooding down her face, 'Please Ronnie, please, don't make me go through this, please,' Danielle cried.
'If you go through it this time, you'll never had to again,' Ronnie said, comforting her daughter yet she would really like to know why she was screaming last night.
'Daddy came into my room, he said "Let's keep this our secret", he touched me, I cried for help, he just laughed and said "your mummy's out and your real mummy doesn't want you, I guess your all mine". I lost my virginity that night. I was six.' Danielle looked relieved that she had said it, even though her tears were flooding. Ronnie also had tears in her eyes, she couldn't believe her daughter had been through all that pain, and she felt guilty that it was her action at the age of fourteen which had caused it.
'Danielle, can I ask, did it happen again, I'm so sorry. So sorry.' Ronnie said, unable to hold back the tears any longer.
'Every Friday night up until I was eleven,' Was all that Danielle replied. The two of them didn't know what to say next. Then after 5 minutes Danielle had the courage to say something else.
'I got pregnant, and by the time I knew I was past having an abortion, they made me have her,' Danielle murmured, yet Ronnie heard it all. She was in shock, her daughter actually had another child. At the age of 25 Ronnie was a grandmother, she couldn't take it in.
'I'm, I'm a grandmother?' Ronnie stammered.
'I suppose you are,' Danielle replied, actually unsure what to say next.
'When mummy found out, she was very angry and in shock, she didn't expect daddy to do these things, she didn't find out until I was about six months gone. She called social services when I was giving birth, they took her away, I was deemed to be in a much too fragile state to look after her. I got 20 minutes with her. My baby,' Danielle was just sobbing now, and Ronnie couldn't look into her eyes, she felt so much bitterness towards this man who she had never met, and she thought her dad was bad.
'Danielle, my baby…'
'I SAID DON'T CALL ME THAT' Danielle shouted, too distressed to say anymore, she turned her head back to the other side and thought about the consequences of her telling Ronnie. Plus she hasn't told her everything yet. Danielle was actually scared of her mother, not knowing whether her Ronnie would be angry at her for being pregnant again, and that Jack was the father. She really wanted her mother, but because she was scared of loosing her, she was pushing her away.
At the same time, Ronnie was really worried for her daughter, the fact that she made her abort her grandchild, and that Danielle already had a child already. Danielle had been through exactly the same as her, but at least Ronnie wasn't raped. Ronnie was welling up with tears.
LOL, I really hope you liked the chapter, I didn't like writing it myself, I don't like writing about people's pain. But yet is there more to come? How will Ronnie react to Danielle being pregnant, and that Jack is the father? And how does the doctor fit into it? Well, hit that green button and you might find out LOL. J
Abbi x