No Regrets

Chapter 6

Rain Drops and Confessions

Disclaimer: I do not own Fairy Tail. No copyright intended. I do own the story line, because I made that all up with my brain.

Just great, I sigh annoyed at how when I thought things couldn't get worse it starts to rain. How wonderful, I suppose it's fitting given what just happened. Anything else to spoil my briefly happy mood just add right on to it, why not, it's not like I care. I roll my eyes at my own thoughts and stop in my tracks looking up in the sky as it pours rain all around me, I hang my head letting the rain soak my hair then look around my surroundings. Looks like I'm in the woods and realization struck me, I was running in the direction of Natsu's house. How freaking ironic, he's the one person I don't want to be around and I'm subconsciously going to his house?! Wow, maybe I really am pathetic. Thunder rolls in the sky and crashes into lightning, must be a bad rainstorm coming this way, I should get home, there's no need for me to be here. It's not like he and I-

"I knew I'd find you."

I don't even have to turn around to know it's him. "What, Natsu. I want to be alone."

"Well that's just too damn bad. Why did you run out like that?"

"So sorry I didn't want to bare witness to Lisanna all over you." I say bitterly and sarcastically.

"Why would that bother you, Luce?"

I whip my head around and narrow my eyes at him, is he serious right now?! After all this time and more recently I have hinted at my true feelings for him and he totally didn't register them in his mind?! I look at him, study his expression. He's looking back at me with curiosity and no sign of knowing what I am talking about at all. Ugh! I throw my arms up in exasperation.

"Are you kidding me?! You really haven't figured it out yet?!"

"Figured what out, Luce?" He smirked, which made me more annoyed.

"Ugh! Natsu, why are you such an idiot!" I yelled at him as I stormed off in a different direction.

Before I can get very far a warm hand encircled my wrist, I look to see his kind face.

"Let's go to my place to talk, Luce. I don't want you getting sick out here."

I looked at him with a pout, wondering if I should go or leave. The look in his eyes was so gentle yet serious, I couldn't help but smile a little.

I sighed, "Alright, fine. But I'm still mad at you."

He shrugged a bit and smirked at me as we walked to the little hut he and Happy call a home. Speaking of the blue cat, I wonder where he is. He is usually never far behind Natsu, my guess is that he is back at the guild wondering what is going on just like everyone else. I sigh, just thinking about everyone's reactions is overwhelming to imagine, I don't want to think about it. I enter the little house and stand in the middle of the living room, looking around I see that it is as messy as ever. Maybe a little kept up, his clothes are thrown about everywhere but at least the dishes are put up in the cupboards, same huge bulletin board with every job tacked to the board. I smile a little at the memory of our first ever mission and the I look over in his bedroom, looking through the crack in the door, I see a new change. Natsu upgraded from a hammock for a bed and got an actual mattress on the floor, without a box spring or frame along with just a pillow and blanket thrown down on it. I smile a little, typical Natsu, messy.

Natsu looks around his room to find something, I'm left standing there soaking wet from the rain, hugging my arm, looking down or away, anywhere but at him. I'm not sure there is anything to talk about, I got the message loud and clear. Not answering me when I came out and blurted out that question and then her kissing him, his reaction was shocked yes but it's not like he threw her off him. Then again, I don't know what happened because I ran off before I could and he did come running after me. Maybe there's hope for me yet. Or maybe I am still just fooling myself, the memory of seeing Lisanna kiss him burns through my mind. I close my eyes tight as the tears sting, dying to be released.

Natsu clears his throat, "Luce. Take these, I'll dry your other clothes."

I take the clothes with a deep breath, offering a small smile as a thank you. He pointed me in the direction of his bathroom so I could change, its connected through his bedroom like how mine is at home. I don't even bother closing the bathroom door shut all the way, I just swing it to close, it's not like Natsu is going to peep at me. Just how does he see me anyways? I wonder what he sees through his eyes when he looks at me. Beautiful, sexy even or just a girl that's his best friend. I set the clothes Natsu gave me on the sink counter and take off my wedges and soaked purple cami top and let it fall to the floor in a quiet thud. Today I made the horrible choice to wear jeans, they cling to my legs as I take them off and set them where my shirt is. I look in the mirror, looking at myself in my purple lace bra and panties set, my skin looking pale, I look like a mess. Like a lifeless living girl, I grab my hair and drang it to the side, twisting the water from it. I then grab the shirt, it's one of his black t-shirts, I bring it to my nose and take in his sent. His smell always makes me feel safe, as weird as it sounds, but no. Things like that is just me being selfish, I don't have the right to find comfort within him, his place is with Lisanna. Not me.

"Luce." His voice so gentle as his fingers trail my bare arm.

I turn around and look up at him, not even caring that I'm in my underwear, tears flowing silently down my cheeks, he cups my face with his hand and wipes away my tears with his thumb.

"Why are you crying? I hate it when I see you cry, it hurts me."

I blink and look away, my lips brush against his hand, I close my eyes and take a breath. Well now is a good of time as any, I have to stop lying to myself.

"Because Natsu. I'm the idiot here and I'm just now realizing it. I love you. I love you with my entire being but it doesn't matter, does it? You already have someone, I'm just getting in the way."

I tried to smile through my tears, "I'm just a foolish girl that fell in love with someone she can never have. I should go home, Natsu. I don't belong here."

I bend down to reach for my clothes but am stopped my his hand grabbing my arm to make me stand, I do stand back up, looking at him confused. His eyes locked onto mine, gentleness, passion and fierosity shone through his gaze.

"Don't ever say that Luce. You belong here, with me."

I look at him even more confused, that was unexpected.

"You ran off before you could know, so I'll tell you now."

I nodded and kept silent, listening so he could explain.

"It's no lie that I did love Lisanna, childhood crushes and all. Then she died, at least I thought she did, the entire guild thought she did. When she came back from Edolas, it was a shock to us all. My heart ached knowing she was alive, I was just happy she was standing there in front of me, breathing."

He sighs, "I never know how to decipher feelings of the heart Luce. It took me a while to understand how I felt about her, I came to realize that I did still love her, just not as strong as I once did when we were younger. My feelings for her are ones that I place with all of Fairy Tail, my family. And romantically, I found myself tripping over a girl I met in Hargeon all those years ago."

I looked up at him, tears brimming my eyes as a smile spread across my face.

"Lucy, meeting you that day may have been fate, who really knows. Becoming your best friend was the greatest choice that I could have ever made in my life but falling in love with you was something I had no control over."

My eyes widen as I take in his words, my mouth a gape a little in surprise. He smiled and moved a strand of hair behind my ear.

"Yes, Lucy, you heard me right. I'm in love with you too. I mean that with everything I am, I love you. I know I've put you through pain, I never wanted that. I'm sorry it took me so long to realize it, could you ever forgive me?"

I looked at him grinning ear to ear, giggling as tears fall from my eyes, happy tears not sad ones. I reach for his drenched scarf and pull him to me, crashing his lips to mine in a heated kiss. I felt him smirk against the kiss as he lifts me up and sets me on the sink counter, I break away and giggle as the sweatpants he gave me to wear fall to the ground. I rest my forehead against his and smile brightly.

"Of course I forgive you, Natsu. I love you."

He grinned and kissed me again. I'm not sure how much time went by as we stayed in that spot kissing, fighting for dominance, in the end I let him take over. Much to my surprise, Natsu is no fool when it comes to kissing and showing just how much he loves me.

"Lucy." He said a little breathless, breaking the kiss.

The rough sound of his voice strangely turns me on, I giggle at the sensation.

"What Natsu?" I asked.

I saw him gulp, finding the words. "I want you, Luce."

My eyes widen a bit knowing what he means by that, I just giggle and wrap my arms around him.

"Do you see me stopping you?" I answered with a smirk.

He looked up at me, seeing my serious and genuine face and picked me up with a huge grin plastered on his face as he walked to his bedroom, my legs wrapping around him tighter with each step he took.