Hi my lovelys! Long time no see huh? Well, I hope this chapter will answer some questions! And reveal some new ones!

Once again, I do apologize for the VERY late update. So, this chapter is all in Beck's POV but the next one will be Tori's!

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Beck's POV::

God I can't believe I let Tori run out of the diner like that. What was I thinking? I should have never let her go. No, I should have talked to her after that night we slept together. God I can't believe how much of a jerk I was to her. I let Jade convince me that she loved me and I loved her. I don't know why I ever forgave her. No one should be forgiven after what she did to me. But all those memories are being repressed. For the time being anyway. Everyone knows that Andre won't let it slide. He should though. He should just forget it all happened. He's the reason this all happened! Why won't he just let it go!?

Ha. There I go again. Taking my anger out on something I swore I forgot about. I forgave him, so why am I still so upset? Is it the Tori thing? Or is it the fact that Jade never really loved me, but I let her convince me she does every time it happens. I just need to talk to someone. Someone who isn't involved in this tangled mess of things.

The next thing I know, I'm whipping out my phone and dialing Robbie's number. He picks up on the first ring.

"Hi Beck!" Robbie greeted.

"Hey Rob. I need someone to talk to," I sighed. "Nothing is happening the way it should be."

I walked across my RV and sat on my bed. Finally, with one last sigh, I collapsed back onto the bed anxiously awaiting what Robbie might say. I never thought I would hear myself think that...

"Well, what's wrong? Is it you and Jade again? Or is it Cat? Do you like Cat? Don't tell me you like Cat!" Robbie sounded like he had just started hyperventilating.

"Woah, relax Rob. Cat's yours. I know that. She's like my little sister. I could never love her like you do. But, you could say that the source of this problem is Jade. I mean, I keep letting her convince me that she loves me. But you know what? I'm not so sure she even does!" My anger got the better of me and I started shouting.

"Beck, calm down. I know you're upset about what happened between Andre and Jade, but there's nothing that you can do to change what happened. As for the love between you and Jade, are you even sure that you love Jade?"

"No, I think I love Tori. But I just have no idea. I mean, I've been with Jade for years and then Tori came along and changed my life. She showed me what compassion was. She showed me what it felt like to be loved. I don't think I can ever feel like that with anyone else." Isn't love just great?

"Well, problem solved. You're in love with Tori. But you miss the security you had with Jade. It's simple really."

"I don't miss what Jade and I had...well have. She was always so jealous. I know Tori would never be like that. Tori is sweet and she's friends with everyone. Sure she has her flaws. She lets small things get the better of her, like Trina. Well, that's a bad example. Trina isn't exactly a small thing."

"Beck, you love Tori. You can see the flaws and perfections in her personality. That's how you know if you love someone. Can you see the flaws in Jade?"

"I think that's all I can see..."

"Maybe we should make you a pros and cons list like girls usually do."

"But that's a girly thing...I'm not girly..."
"Ah but you are having a girly problem my friend. So pros...and cons. Of Jade."

"Jade? Well that's easy. Her cons especially. She's too protective, she's really jealous, she's bossy and she hates Tori. Her pros are not so easy to list. She's...well...that's a good question."

Robbie started to laugh and I soon joined in. Who knew that Robbie was full of such good advice?

"Well, then there's your answer Beck. You love Tori. That's all there is to it. Now you just have to tell her that."

"I don't know if I can do that. She ran out of the diner when we met yesterday. She was really upset and it was all my fault. She'll never forgive me for what I did. I mean, I got her pregnant and then I got back together with Jade." Sighing I sat up and ran my fingers through my hair.

"Wait you did what?"

"Ugh. I can't believe I just told you that. Andre doesn't even know. I only found out like what yesterday? You never heard anything okay Rob? My parents don't know and when they find out they're going to kill me."

"Okay. No problem. I won't tell a soul..."

"Robbie..."

"No I swear. I won't. I forgot what you even told me. But uh...I have to go, so call me later?"

"Yeah sure Rob." And with that I collapsed back once again with a heavy sigh.

My mind started going a mile a minute. I couldn't help but think about how much I miss Tori and what a mistake it was to get back with Jade. I guess the only solution is to text them both.

First, Jade.

To: Jade

From: Beck

Hey...we need to talk.

I couldn't bring myself to hit send. But if I hit send, then I can end things with her. Maybe I just need to talk to Tori to see what she thinks about all this...

I created a new message, but this time to Tori.

To: Tori

From: Beck

Hey. I'm sorry for making you upset. I think we should talk.

I hit the send button and almost started hyperventilating. It's not known for me to be anxious about things like this...

I waited for all of about twenty seconds later until I got a text back.

To: Beck

From: Tori

Hey...it's okay. I know you didn't mean to make me upset. It's not even really your fault...all theses stupid hormones and stuff like that. It's just all so overwhelming. But what did you want to talk about?

Well, it all seems good doesn't it? But I really don't think that it is. I mean, I was upset that Jade made Tori cry. And now look at me. I'm apologizing for something I didn't even do to the girl that I love. Ha. The things you do for love huh?

To: Tori

From: Beck

I'd rather call you...

And with that I called her. I need to tell her everything - from how I feel about her to how much I miss her.

Lucky for me, she picked up after only a few rings.

"Hey Tor..."

"Hey...so what did you have to tell me?"

"I need to tell you that I never stopped loving you. I never meant to get back with Jade. But, that night we slept together, it made me realize that I did love you. I never loved Jade. Well, I did love Jade. But not after that first time that we kissed. I want to be there for you. And I get the feeling that you want me to be there for you too." Wow. Well, now that that was all out, all I could do was sit and listen.

"Beck, I've loved you since the first time we kissed too...but you always kept returning to Jade. How do I know that you won't just go back to Jade again? I mean, I would love to believe that you could be there for me and for me only, but Jade won't let that happen." I could hear her tearing up again.

"Hey, don't start crying again. You know all too well that Jade is cunning and can get people to believe whatever she wants them to believe. I never truly loved her after we kissed. Please Tori. Please come back to me." Talk about all things nerve wrecking.

"I...I do know that Beck. But...I don't know. I'll think about. I'll call you tomorrow." And with that the line went dead.

God how could I have been so stupid as to let the best thing that has ever happened to me go? Now I have no choice but to fight for her - fight for the love that I have lost.

So! There is chapter four! I know, it's not as long as some would have hoped, it's only like 1,400 words, but I hope it'll keep you guys happy until I can get the next chapter up! Thank you for all the reviews and favorites and follows! 32 follows! I have to say I am very happy! Anyway, I love you all!

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