6. Eternally Yours, Elena
This felt like a really sad chapter to write, imagine knowing you are going to die and having to try to make the person you love so much understand what you must do. I hope that it's equally sad to read and that it is moving. Read and review, please!
I follow Klaus to a hotel room, one that is so tousled and messy that I wonder how long he's been here, staying in Mystic Falls, and waiting. But then I think about it a little and realize that I don't want to know how long he's most likely been stalking me.
"You can have this bed here. You're tired, aren't you?" He says, earging me to lay down on the most made up bed. I sit down on the edge. "We want our doppelganger well rested for tomorrow," He glances at the clock, "-Or tonight, I guess- sacrifices."
"Thanks." I say, attempting to smile lightly as my head spins. I don't understand how I got into this situation, at least not this fast. I mean, I was just, a day ago, going to college and trying to live a normal life. And roughly succeeding at it too. So it's hard to comprehend how in one night, the life I'd been trying to push away and not think of, had come together and then fallen apart. How it happened, and why are the hardest things to get used to. That and the fact that in less than 24 hours, I am going to die.
"I'm going to go throw them off of our trail." He says with a smile, "You try to sleep, alright?"What he says makes sense, for there's no possible way that Stefan and Damon haven't managed to heal and aren't on their way.
"Alright," I say, leaning back against the pillows and closing my eyes until I hear the click of the lock in the door, knowing that he didn't tell me not to leave because he's sure that I won't make an attempt at an escape, that I'm not stupid enough for that. And that I just want to get this over with.
But as soon as the lock clicks, I jump up, looking to the nightstand for what I hope and know is there. I pick up the hotel rooms pad of paper and the pen and then I start to write:
Dear Stefan,
Forgive me. I know you don't want to, because I know you, and I know that you can't comprehend the reasons for which I am giving up my life. Just know that I'm doing this to end the running that you've been doing, trying to search, find, and kill him. After the sacrifice, he'll be weaker, as we know, and then with Bonnie's help, you can kill him, and end it. That way no other doppelganger we'll have to be used to end the curse, and so that no other life will have to be ruined for a reason simply because they were born as something they cannot help.
I love you, remember that. I may not have shown it earlier, in my room, because I thought I'd erased that part of me that wanted to remember and love you. But it was just hidden behind a wall, because It was too painful and full of anger and resentment. But still, it's there, and it will never go away. I love you, Stefan, so much that I can barely bare it. And so this gift, I may it may not feel like one, now or ever, but it is. Because I want to release you from me, because you don't deserve this. You deserve more than me, you deserve someone who can be with you, someone you don't' have to fear will die on you. And you deserve someone who doesn't fear eternity as a vampire, but will rather embrace it to be with you forever.
And you'll find her, if you keep yourself open to all the possibilities and never give up on love or feeling. I know letting me go, might be hard, because I've just now realized just how much you love me, and how much I love you. And I want you to let me go, because I don't want you to suffer, I want you to know how much you deserve someone better. And I want you to wish for her, yearn for her, and know that when the time is right, you'll find her.
Eternally yours,
Elena
And then I stuff it in my pocket, knowing that somehow, somewhere, I will hide it so only he can find it. And with that thought in mind, I close my eyes and let unconsciousness swallow me whole.