Hey guys! I thought I would give you guys 2 chapters in one this update. You guys have been so good to me, and this little fic of mine. I'm anxious to update. If I had this all written out, I would probably just fling all of the chapters at you guys at once! THAT is how excited I am over this fic. And you guys loving it as much as you are is really making my life right now! :)

I must say that all of your guesses, theories and such are making the experience with this fic even better. I will tell you this: I have SO many twists and turns coming up in future chapters! ;)

As always, thank you Darcysmom for betaing.

So enjoy this double chapter. I can't guarantee it will always be this length. My plan with this fic was to stick with short chapters. But I figured you guys deserve this.

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Enjoy!

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As I looked around the small attic that I have called home for however long I had been there, I found that I was glad to say goodbye to it. Glad to be done with it, and leave it behind, to leave that existence behind and to get back the one I lived before it.

I had to wait for night to fall in order to leave.

No one knew that I was here, and it was better to keep it that way.

Less complications.

As the sky grew darker, I became more fidgety, my patience growing thin.

Once I was sure that no humans were near, I jumped from the window and ran as fast as I could to the forest just outside of the city.

I looked around the trees as I walked, smelling different plants and animals as I went along, waiting for the right smell to catch me.

I needed something big, gamey. A carnivore.

What I needed was a Jaguar, a big cat to satiate my thirst, and hopefully be enough for me so that I could catch a plane to Forks, to my Bella.

As I walked deeper into the forest, a strong, steady heart beat overtook my hearing. The scent that carried over to me was strong, musky, and sweet.

Definitely a big cat.

The predator had now become the hunted.

Once the warm liquid satisfied me, I moved on to my next part of the plan. Clothes.

If only I still had Alice around.

I ran to the opening in the tree line, stopping at the first house I found. I quickly ran in and out, grabbing whatever clothes I could without the occupants waking up.

The button-up shirt was probably a size too small, and the pants too long, but they would have to do until I could hit a store.

I threw my tattered clothes to the ground, out of the way, so no one could find them.

I stood there, becoming more anxious by the second.

I had to hurry- clothes shopping would have to wait.

I quickly made my way to the center of the town, hailing a taxi and demanding to be taken to the nearest international airport in hurried Portuguese, flinging whatever cash I had at the driver as he stepped on the gas.

As the driver pulled up to the curb, dropping me off near the nearest ticket counter, thousands of heartbeats, thoughts, and smells cascaded down on me. It was crushing me. I, sadly, didn't factor in being around humans again after so long.

I approached the ticket counter, asking for the next flight to Seattle as I handed over a credit card to cover the cost.

While the attendant printed the ticket, all I could think about was finding her.

With the ticket in my hand, I set off to go through security and find my gate. I hadn't even bothered to look at that ticket after she handed it to me. I was afraid to look, afraid to see just how much time had passed.

I was afraid of the truth. I would much rather believe that this was all a dream, an alternate reality, and that none of it was true. That I never left her, or hurt her, that this was all some grand hallucination on my part.

As I sat down the ticket felt heavy in my hand, my eyes glanced down and back up again.

I was a coward. How could something as simple as looking at the date on a ticket be so hard for me to do?

I inhaled, long and deep before flipping over the ticket so that the print side was up facing me.

Would I like what I see?

I hoped it had only been a few days maybe at the most a week since I left, but deep down I knew it was much longer.

Deep down something was unsettled in me. I knew that the date, whatever it may be was going to make things worse, not better.

January 28th, 2006

I exhaled quickly as the ticket fell from my hand.

It couldn't have been that long.

My right hand came up to my chest where my heart should be. I rubbed my chest hard, trying to feel something, anything.

But nothing came.

I was empty, numb.

I picked up the ticket, making sure I read the date right. And again the pang in my chest got worse each time my eyes wandered across the ticket.

I needed to get to her, make things right

I needed her in my arms.

My legs bounced in anticipation and nervousness.

My flight was called to board and I stood up quickly, wanting to get to my seat as fast as I could. At least then I was closer to her, closer to getting to her.

I handed off my ticket, slightly nodding at the attendant as I board.

During the flight I couldn't stop my legs from bouncing, my hand from rubbing my chest, or my fingers from making a mess of my hair.

The guy next to me was convinced I was tweaking on drugs, that something wasn't quite right with me. In that moment I was tempted to break my record of not partaking in human blood. I was on edge, and he was annoying me. I'd rather take it out on him and drain him.

But I won't, I can't. I would be letting Bella down, my family down, myself down.

I had to be good for her, the best man, vampire I could be.

They announced that we were making our descent into Seattle. My fingers itched to unbuckle and hop out of my seat as soon as I could.

I'm closer to her. The same state.

I'm almost there, almost to her.

I could almost smell her, feel her hair between my fingers, her body pressed against mine.

I was so close. And yet I felt so much farther from her than ever before.

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