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COMPLICATIONS OF SEX
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Synopsis
Harry and Snape bump into each other before 7th year. They begin a sexual relationship, but is one of them developing feelings? SLASH, HPSS, SSHP, Harry/Severus, Severus/Harry, MPREG, OOC, AU.
Notes
Story contains SLASH, HPSS, SSHP, Harry/Severus, Severus/Harry, MPREG, OOC, AU. Please no flames regarding any of these warnings as you have been forewarned.
Disclaimer
I do not own Harry Potter etc.
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Chapter 6: Leaving
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"How are you going to manage with all your stuff?" Ron asked as Harry was putting things into a rucksack in their bedroom.
"Dumbledore is sending most of my things to me, so I'm only going to have the rucksack to take."
"You know, it's not going to be the same around here without you," Ron said quietly.
"Thanks Ron," Harry replied with a lump in his throat. I'm really going to miss you. But I'll see you at Christmas and it's only eight months until you'll be leaving Hogwarts too."
"Yeah, and you'll have a baby then. It's going to be so weird."
"I know, but… weird, in a good way."
"Yeah…anyway, I'll wait for you downstairs, let you have a couple of minutes to yourself."
Ron left. Harry smiled as he surveyed the room he had slept in for the past six years. He really was going to miss Hogwarts, but he had more than himself to think of now. He had his child, and what was best for it. Putting the last of his things in his rucksack, he paused at the door and then left the room. Forever.
"Oh, are you going now?" Hermione asked as Harry appeared by the fire with his rucksack where she and Ron were sitting. Harry dumped the bag down on the floor beside them.
"Soon. But there's something I've got to do, will you guys wait for me here?"
"Of course," Ron replied.
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Harry walked down the dungeon corridor and came to a stop when he reached Snape's office. Having consulted the Marauders map, he knew this was where he would him. Taking a deep breath, he opened the door, not bothering to knock. Snape was, as ever, sat at his desk. His head shot up when the door opened and Harry was sure he saw a flicker of a smile threaten to appear on his face. Harry closed the door and then walked up to the desk.
"Hi," he said.
"Morning," Snape replied, putting his pen down to give Harry his full attention.
"I didn't want to leave without saying goodbye properly."
"Oh, right."
Snape stood up and walked around his desk to where Harry stood. He held out his hand for Harry to shake and gave him a smirk for good measure too, but Harry didn't return the favour and shake his hand.
"No, I don't mean that," Harry said.
"Surely, you're not suggested we actually hug are you?" Snape asked with a raised eyebrow.
"I don't mean that either."
"Then what? Do tell."
"I want you to… make love to me."
"Excuse me?"
"I want my last memory of you to be making love to me, not bending me over your desk."
"Look, I'm not sure th-"
Snape didn't get to finish his sentence. Harry had stepped forwards and kissed him on the lips. Placing his arms around Snape's neck, the kiss deepened and Snape reached around to cup Harry's bum cheeks. Harry pulled away to look Snape in the eyes, daring him to chuck him out.
"I suppose it wouldn't hurt" Snape said, smiling ever so slightly.
He pulled Harry's hands off from his neck and held one of them in his own; guiding him through a separate door to the door he had just entered through. This door was the entrance to his private rooms. Harry found himself being led through a living room, down a corridor and into a bedroom. Once there, Snape closed the door behind them and resumed their kissing. Harry moaned into the kiss and didn't object as Snape began to take his clothes off. Down to just his underpants, Harry returned the favour and removed all of Snape's clothing. Snape pulled back from the kiss and whispered "get on the bed" into Harry's ear, which he did, lying on his back. On all fours, Snape crawled over to Harry, pulled his underpants off and couldn't help the smile spreading across his face when he came face to face with Harry's erection. He then pulled his own underpants off revealing his own throbbing erection.
Snape leaned down and captured Harry's lips in another searing kiss. For several minutes they were just lost in their own little world. Nothing else mattered. Eventually when the need for air was engulfing them, they pulled apart, panting heavily. Snape reached with a hand to move a stray bit of Harry's hair, tucking it behind his ears. For that moment Harry felt completely and utterly loved, the intimate gesture almost made him want to cry but he held his composure as Snape stared deep into his eyes. Not wanting the moment to end, Harry was slightly disappointed when Snape looked away from him, leaning over to pull open his bedside draw. The familiar sight of a condom and lubricant appeared and Harry almost, almost, started to say that they didn't need a condom because he was pregnant.
Snape put the condom on and then slowly lifted Harry's legs over his shoulders He spent a few minutes preparing him, using one, then two and then three fingers to enter him, never once taking his eyes off Harry. Once fully prepared, he positioned himself at Harry's entrance. Taking his time, he thrust all the way into Harry and it wasn't until he received nodded consent that he began thrusting out and then in again. He leaned down again to kiss Harry and couldn't believe how much pleasure he was getting out of this. He'd never made love in his life. He thought it was what boring heterosexual couples did. He liked hard fucking, but this was a lot better than any sex he had ever had. The gentleness of it and the emotion surrounding it was fascinating him.
Several minutes ticked by and Harry felt his own orgasm building. Breaking from another one of their kisses he panted "I want you to come." Snape sat back up and started thrusting faster, Harry's tight warm body clamped down on his cock, willing him to the edge. He grabbed hold of Harry's cock and stroked it in rhythm with himself. Harry was moaning in pleasure and this finally tipped Snape over the edge. He released deep inside of Harry and seconds later Harry released into Snape's hand.
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"Where did you go?" Ron asked, as Harry returned to Gryffindor Tower.
"Just some unfinished business to take of. Nothing for you to worry about." Harry picked up his rucksack and positioned it on his back. "Ok then, do you two want to walk me to the door?"
"Of course we will," Hermione replied, tears springing to her eyes.
The three of them walked in silence as they made their way to the entrance hall. Stopping at the door, Harry turned around and could feel his eyes watering. This was harder than he thought it would be and he wanted to get it over with.
"Bye then," he said.
"Bye mate," Ron said quietly, Hermione was far too emotional to say a word.
Harry hugged Hermione and then he and Ron shared an awkward split second pat on the back hug. He then walked down he steps and began his journey to the castle gates, where he would be apparating to The Burrow. He felt a mixture of emotions, happy at the thought of his new life, and sadness at the life he was leaving behind. He rubbed his stomach affectionately and whispered "we're going to be ok," to his unborn child.
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Ron and Hermione,
How are you both? I'm fine. I know it's only been a week, but I'm missing you guys terribly.
I told Mrs Weasley about the pregnancy and she was brilliant, she hasn't pushed me to name the other father either. I'm going to start looking at houses next week, which is exciting and daunting at the same time.
Nothing much to report on the pregnancy, feeling slightly sick but luckily that's all. Has Snape mentioned me at all?
Harry x
P.S. I was thinking I could meet you both on your next Hogsmede weekend, let me know when it is.
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Harry,
We hope you're ok and you're not feeling too sick. How is it going by the way? We're fine, missing you obviously. Everyone is inundating us with questions about your disappearance. Neville and Luna, in particular, seemed quite hurt you didn't tell them yourselves.
Snape asked us how you were getting on in our last Potions class. We said you were fine and settling in to a new place. He seems ok, the same as ever really.
We'd love to see you in Hogsmede, that would be brilliant. Our next trip is the first Saturday in December.
Love Hermione and Ron xXxXxXxXxXxXx
P.S. This is Ron, all those x's were Hermione's idea, not mine.
P.P.S. This is Hermione again, ignore Ron, he's a prat!
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Ron and Hermione,
Firstly, I'm sorry it has taken me nearly two weeks to write this, I was busy with the house hunting for a few days and since then I have had terrible morning sickness; although it's been better the past couple of days. Mrs Weasley has been great taking care of me.
I feel really bad that I've upset Neville and Luna, could you tell them I'm sorry and that they will understand one day why I had to leave without telling anyone?
I guess I shouldn't expect anything less from Snape, it's not as though he was in love with me or anything.
I look forward to seeing you both in Hogsmede, we'll have a great day.
Harry x
P.S. Do you two ever stop bickering?
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"Harry!" Hermione shrieked.
Harry was standing outside The Three Broomsticks in Hogsmede waiting for his two friends. He broke out into a huge grin when he saw them on the horizon and Hermione enveloped him into a bear hug when she reached him. They went inside, ordered butterbeers at the bar and found a table.
"How are you?" Hermione asked, as soon as they were seated.
"I'm really good. I'm missing Hogwarts, but I'm… happy."
"And the baby?" Harry touched his stomach protectively. It was still relatively flat; he was only just over three months gone.
"Making me feel a bit sick, but other than that everything's fine. I've got my scan next week, I can't wait."
"What about your new house?" Ron asked.
"The house is great, I love it. Mr Weasley, Fred and George helped me decorate. And I know it's early, but I've already got most of the nursery done. When I know what sex it is I'll incorporate more blue or pink though."
Just as Harry finished his sentence, the door to the pub opened and in walked Snape. His eyes instantly fell on Harry and for a few moments they just stared at each other. Breaking the eye contact, Snape walked up the bar. Harry stood up.
"What you doing mate?" Ron whispered.
"I'm just going to say hi," Harry replied. Ignoring the worried looks on Ron and Hermione's faces, Harry walked up to where Snape was standing. "Hi," he said, as he reached him.
"Afternoon. How's the outside world?" Snape asked him conversationally.
"Oh you know, its ok. How are you?"
"Very well, thank you."
"Would you mind, um, coming outside with me for a moment?"
Snape considered Harry, giving him a rather curious stare. He nodded and walked back towards the door. As soon as they got outside the pub, Harry did a quick look up and down the street, and seeing no-one approaching, kissed Snape, who immediately pushed him off of him.
"Mr Potter, what are you doing?"
"Oh, its Potter again is it?"
"Like I said, what are you doing?"
"What does it look like?" Harry asked.
"It's not a good idea. I think you should go back inside with Miss Granger and Mr Weasley."
"Why not? You go out every weekend purely for the intention of fucking someone, so why have you gone all shy about a kiss?"
"I don't have time for this, if you'll excuse me."
Snape walked off down the street. Harry contemplated following him but didn't want it to turn into an argument. He had his baby to think about and any stress should be avoided. And anything to do with Snape tended to make his stress level rise dramatically. If he was honest, Snape was what he had missed most since leaving Hogwarts. He often cried himself to sleep at night, wanting to feel his touch, his lips, see his smile… he was finding it incredibly hard to get over him. Letting out a huge sigh, Harry returned to the pub.
"What's the matter?" Hermione asked as soon as he sat back down.
"I kissed him."
"Why?"
"I don't know. I couldn't stop myself. But he basically told me to piss off, as though we've never so much as touched each other before, let alone shagged. He acted as though I was… nothing. I mean, he shags a different guy every week, what's his problem?"
"Harry, the last few weekends, we've seen Snape. He's been doing the night time patrolling around the castle."
"Really?"
"Yeah," Hermione replied. Later that day it was time for Ron and Hermione to head back to the castle. They were all standing outside The Three Broomsticks saying goodbye.
"I'll see you guys in the Christmas holidays," Harry said as he hugged Hermione.
"Take care of yourself, and the baby."
"See you soon mate," Ron added.
Harry watched as his friends started to walk back towards Hogwarts. He felt a lump form in his throat and he fought the urge to burst out crying. Hermione had given him a lot to think about. Why was Snape no longer going out? It didn't make sense.
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Snape was in his office. He was contemplating drinking a whole bottle of fire whiskey when there was a knock at his door. "Come in," he said irritably. The door opened and in came Hermione, looking a little apprehensive.
"Yes? What can I do for you Miss Granger?"
"You love him don't you?"
"Excuse me?"
"Harry. You love him. That's why you rejected him earlier, because being near him hurts you too much."
"Miss Granger, I really don't think this is any of your business, so would you kindl-"
"He's in love with you."
"What?"
"That's the reason he left Hogwarts, the reason he broke things off with you. He couldn't bear to be around you, it was eating him up. He hasn't moved abroad, he just told you that to try and convince you that he'd had enough of the Wizarding world."
Snape didn't reply, he was still processing the words in his head and was trying to make sense of it all. Hermione put a piece of paper on his desk. "That's Harry's address. I think you two need to talk." She turned and left his office. He was in shock. Harry had left Hogwarts because of him? But it didn't make sense, hadn't he asked Harry if they could try dating exclusively? And hadn't Harry turned him down? Maybe Harry thought he hadn't been genuine? Had thought he would soon have got bored of "dating"?
He had to admit that with anyone else he probably would have got bored. But Harry wasn't anyone else. He was… Harry. He had never been a relationship type of guy, but Harry had done something to him. As soon as he had called things off, he'd realised that he had been falling for him. And instead of the feeling getting better, it was getting worse. Seeing Harry in Hogsmede had once again made him want nothing more than to have Harry in his life. Forever. Since Harry had left Hogwarts he hadn't slept with another guy and hadn't even been out clubbing. He just didn't want to anymore. He didn't want mindless sex with a stranger, he wanted to make love, like he and Harry had done on his last day at the castle. Snape stood up, grabbing the piece of paper with Harry's address. Hermione had been right, they did need to talk.
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Snape found himself standing outside a cosy looking cottage. The lights were on, so he knew Harry must be in. He walked up the path and took a deep breath before knocking on the door. He felt his heart rate increasing and didn't know why he felt so nervous. Severus Snape didn't do nervous. The door opened and he came face to face with a very surprised looking Harry.
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