Chapter 5

The next few days flew by, and I didn't think much more about Jacob. One because my chest would feel the strain of his last words to me. Two I knew that he wasn't worth the pain. So I carried on with the motions of the wedding, I never cared to ask Bella about it.

The time was easy to let slip by, and the wedding planning didn't involve me that much. Bella and I just found it amusing to watch Alice go into more fits. First the photographers, and then the catering staff, she even wanted an ice sculpture of Bella and Edward. I was glad both Edward and Bella put there foots down with a strong no.

I even got to spend more time with Renee; she was fun to have about, even if she avoided seeing Charlie that much.

"So he went to catch, and he feel face first in the dirt. Oh it was funny, but he caught it, so winning the game."

Bella already heard this story about Phil. I found it amusing to hear Renee talk about her new husband. "So Lou how's your Father?" my eyes fell slightly not for her to notice, but then Renee always picked up on the little things.

"His doing ok, better than even." Renee nodded dropping the subject.

I was sitting with Emmett playing a game of battle ships. I found more fun to play with Emmett, and it was nice spending time with my favourite of the Cullen's. It was nice playing a game with someone who wouldn't predict my moves, or read them from my thoughts.

"Lou, we need to talk!" Bella said lightly after I sank Emmett's battle ship, and won again.

"Erm yeah, sure." I got to my feet, and Emmett requested a rematch when I got back.

Edward was standing by the sink, and Bella stood by his side. It was like the moment my mum and dad told me about my mum's cancer. I sat down at the table. My head was spinning, and I didn't know I was going to hate what they were going to tell me.

"Louise, I know for a while, you have wondered why me and Bella." Edward started, he kept looking to me, and I knew he was trying to hear in my thoughts if I had a clue, what on earth he was talking about. "Lou, I'm going to be a vampire." I then felt my breath stop; I held it for so long I didn't want to get mad, not yet.

"It's a long story Louise, but it's what Bella wants." Edward carried on, but my head I was scream, shouting my protests.

"Louise, I have to do this, I want forever with Edward." I jumped up finally finding my voice.

"You." I pointed to Edward. "This is your fault. I can't believe you of all people."

Bella put a hand up in protest. "Louise, there are these vampires, The Volturi, and if I'm still human. Louise they're going to kill me."

My hands clutched onto the table. My knuckles were turning white. I didn't care, and I didn't want to.

"You just, make me sick." I wanted my eyes to burn Edward. I wanted to rip him up.

"Louise, it's going to happen, we thought." I laughed darkly at Edward's soft voice.

"I don't care. I hate you, and I wish you got killed in Italy." I spat the words knowing they would hurt Bella.

Edward didn't seem to look angry with my response, but I could see it eating up Bella.

"Louise you're the only one, who will know." My eyes were still wide. "Bella, I'm sorry, I don't approve and will never." My eyes filled with tears. "Once he bites you, when this happens." My voice was getting shaky from my tears spilling down my cheeks. "You're dead to me." I then rushed from the room.

I brushed past Emmett who tried to stop me. "Emmett please, let her go!" Alice said softly. I felt his cold grip loosen, and I ran out the door after grabbing my things. I drove away, to the only place I could think of to go.

I reached the beach, and I felt the wind whipping my hair around. I then felt my voice build to a scream. I screamed, and Swore into the sky. My tears were burning my face when the wind hit my tears. I couldn't control the sobbing falling down. I curled in on myself. It was a nightmare. I knew it wasn't a joke, and it was going to happen. Bella and Edward, I could see the vision more clearly in my head.

I see Edward kiss Bella softly; the bite was gentle on her throat.

Bella wouldn't scream, but gasp holding onto Edward pushing him away. Her eyes wide in pain, and then Edward would pull off.

I opened my eyes looking to the sky, it was twilight, and I started to pray, I prayed Bella would change her mind. I knew it was a long shot, but I couldn't be a part of the wedding. It wasn't a wedding to me, but a funeral.

I didn't hear someone join me, but the warmth of a hand on my shoulder made me feel colder than ever.

"Louise, I'm sorry." The voice soft, but I didn't look to him.

"It hurt, and it will always hurt me." My voice was horse from my screaming.

"Louise, it's complicated." The voice was spoken lightly. I knew it was the Jacob Black I knew, but I didn't want to look. I closed my eyes placing my face into my knees.

"I know, everyone has problems, I don't care." His arm was around my back holding me; I just closed my eyes tighter.

His body was too hot, like he was running a fever.

"Louise, can you look at me please?" I shake my head in my knees, my eyes still tightly shut.

"Jake, I, I just can't look at you." My voice was just a whisper.

Jacob still hugged me, and I felt my heart still straining to keep beating. "I'll wait for you, to be ok." Jacob got up.

I knew this from the sudden cold surround me, lifting my head from my knees he was gone, and a part of me wondered if I made it up, the whole thing up. If what just happen, was a part of my madness,

I didn't want to go back to Bella's, and I couldn't think of where to go. I sat in the car. I felt like it wasn't a gift anymore, but a bribe.

A dirty trick to make me approve of the wedding, I was on the back seat closing my eyes. I didn't like sleeping in the car, it was cold and the leather wasn't worn in, so it was still hard.

I used my coat to try and keep warm, the dreams I had kept me waking up in fear, and I then finally got some sleep, I was planning to leave as soon as I could.

When the sun was up, I started the car driving back to Bella's. I stepped inside the house, and it was quite. I noticed that Charlie had already left for work.

Bella suddenly rushing down the stair, and I was surprised she didn't trip. "Louise where was you?" her voice high and full of concern.

"I slept in the car." I then walked to the kitchen.

"Louise we were worried, Alice couldn't see where you went."

I just shrugged. "Well I'm ok, so no worry." I tried to keep my voice even.

"Jacob called for you." She spoke with hope.

"And your point is?" It was like I wasn't even there to control my words. I just spoke and acted on auto pilot.

Bella touched my arm. "You're still mad about, my choice."

I spun to face her, and I slapped her quickly. Bella held her face, her eyes wide with shock. "I'm not going to be ok; I am never going to accept your choice." I kept my hand down at my side.

"Louise, you. You hit me." She spoke softly. I turned away from her. "Bella, I'm going to go home."

Bella, still holding her face blinked still. "Please. Louise, don't go." Her voice pleading with me, but I didn't know what to say.

"I can't, I just don't want to see you throw your life away." Turning to see Edward was now with us in the room. I glared, and he didn't even flinch.

"Louise, I would hope. Well I just want you to understand what would happen. What will happen, if Bella remains human!"

I folded my arms tight across my chest. "I don't care; I thought you didn't want this for her." My whole body was trying hard to leave. I stayed for only to understand.

"I don't, but it's what Bella wants, so I think you should understand. You know I won't let her hurt anyone."

I finally caved. "Fine I'll stay, but I am still not happy."

Bella stepped closer to me, and we hugged. "I'm sorry I hit you Bella." I felt her nodded.

"It's ok, don't worry about it."