Chapter 6

Mistakes

Tonight I'm having trouble sleeping again. This time it's not the cold or the bed, it's the fact that every time I close my eyes I see Tom falling from the roof, just like in my dream. So now I'm afraid of closing my eyes for a second. It really is difficult when you see someone you care about doing something that terrible, even if it's not real, it feels really real. I know what I should do; I could go into to Toms' room and cuddle up so I know he's safe, with me.

So off I went half asleep down the corridor I opened the door and walked into a dark room. It was hard to tell any features of the room without turning the lights on, and I really don't want to wake him up. So I left the light off and walked across the dark room over to the bed I climbed in and I cuddled right up close to the dark figure. I fell asleep really quickly because now I know that Tom is safe, right here, in front of me.

I rolled over slightly after waking up, and I glanced over at the clock, 01:00 it read. So I closed my eyes and rolled back over, getting close to the dark figure again. As I was drifting off I started thinking that Toms' been working out, he never used to have these muscles, especially since the incident in a club in Berlin a few years ago, whilst I was up there with them. I'll tell you all about it, if you want.

Well basically, Tom and I went down to a club in the middle of Berlin. We were partying really hard, me and Tom were dancing to the end of ... we caught eye contact in the middle of a packed dance floor and we were going to kiss, for the first time, then others came over to us, just as Basshunters' 'Now You're Gone' started to play, Georg put his arm over my shoulder and said,

"How's it going?" me and Tom, weren't to pleased with this, we tried to look like we weren't going to do anything, I turned around and started to walk away when Tom took my hand and said,
"Where are you going?"
"Bathroom... won't be long" I said. Tom let go of my hand, I then went to the bathroom, I looked at the sign on the door before I went in... Unisex loos, 'that's different' I thought I hope it's safe, I went in anyway. I finished up on the loo and unlocked the door. All of a sudden I was pushed back into the loos by someone, the door of the loo closed behind the man slowly.

Back on the dance floor Gustav said to Tom,
"Where's Dorinda?"
"Bathroom..." Tom said,
"Oh... OK she's been a while..." Gustav said,
"Good point, I'll go see if she's OK"
"If you're going to the bathroom, I'm coming with you... to help, just in case" Georg said to Tom
"OK..." Tom replied. So Tom and Georg went into the unisex loos, by this time the door of the loo was open enough for Georg to see this random man, and me. Georg sprang into action and pulled the guy off me,
"CAREFULL!" I shouted "HE'S GOT A GUN!" at hearing this Georg let go, the man pulled his gun out of his belt and pointed it at Georg, at Tom and me. Not at the same time though. He said
"Don't anybody move, this things loaded!" neither of the boys moved, I was hiding in the toilet cubicle. The man decided to try and scare the boys by shooting in-between them, somehow the bullet bounced of the wall and hit Tom right in the spleen, he fell to the floor, I rushed forward to help him, shocked, "go back in the cubicle, missy" the man said, he turned and ran out the club, putting his gun into his coat pocket so no one could see it. No one had heard the bullet being fired because the music was so loud, so no one came into help.

As soon as the man had gone I rushed out the cubicle, trying to stop the bleed with my white blouse. I turned to Georg, "Go and get help!" I said crying, Georg ran out, taking another look at me and Tom and called for an ambulance. I stayed with Tom keeping pressure on the wound, I cried hoping he would be OK.

Georg came back in, "The ambulance is on it's way" he said, Bill came in after him after sensing something was wrong, he stopped in the doorway caught in that moment. Tom looked at me and whispered,
"I..." he passed out. Gustav went over to the DJ and told him that everyone needs to leave the club, as the ambulance crew ran through the door moments after Tom had passed out. Georg had to pull Bill out the way of the ambulance crew and Gustav pulled me out the way. The ambulance crew turned around and glanced at me,
"Hi I'm Simon, and that's Amy we're paramedics, who's this?"
"He's Tom" I said crying,
"How long has he been like this?" Simon said
"Not long, about 1 minute" I replied
"What happened?" Amy asked,
"He was... shot" I said crying,
"By who?" Simon asked,
"I don't know..." Georg said, "We were both in here when it happened"
"I tried to stop the bleed with my blouse..." I said to one of them, "he was just about to say something as he passed out."
"Well you did a good thing, trying to stop the bleed, he might have lost too much blood otherwise..." Amy said, trying to reassure me. "...the police will want to talk to you about the attack..." Amy turned her head towards me "would you like to come in the ambulance with us?"

The paramedics put a big bandage on Toms bullet wound and put him onto the stretcher, they took Tom in the ambulance to the nearest hospital, there is more to this, but I'm not going to give you too much detail, basically Tom went into a coma, he woke up about 3 days later, I hadn't left his bedside the whole time, well apart from bathroom breaks, but that was it. He regained his memory, he knows about the attack, but we never mention it. We do still go out partying, occasionally, we are just more careful, that's all.

Anyway, whilst I'm asleep I have this dream that me, Tom, Georg, Bill and Gustav are all in the club in Berlin everything happened exactly the same until just before Tom was shot, the mysterious man turned and ran out the door. The others realised something wasn't right so they rushed in one after the other and Tom said to the others picking me up off the floor, "I'm going to take Dorinda back to the flat, make sure she's OK"
"OK see you later" Bill said
"We'll be back at midnight Tom" Georg said
"Yeah we're going to pull every single girl here" Gustav said,
"Lucky them" Tom said "come on Dorinda I'll take you back." So Tom took me back to the flat in the back of a cream Mercedes Taxi.

Back in the flat Tom and I started to watch a film, Scary Movie 1. About half way through the film Tom stopped it. He looked at the clock, it read half past ten. He looked at me and said, "Are you OK? You look a bit shaken"
"Yeah I'm fine" I said,
"Are you sure?"
"Yes"
"Positive"
"Tom stop it, I'm fine! How am I going to make you stop? I know"
"How?" Tom asked. So I kissed him, to shut him up of course. He then stopped me, and asked "Dorinda are you sure you want to do this, you've been through a lot." I looked at Tom with the 'are you serious' look. He wasn't sure what he supposed to say next. I leant in and kissed him. We then made out.

Back in reality I was kissing the guy in the bed. I then woke up and the light from sunrise was creeping in through the window. I can now see a face. It was Georg!
"I swear. You kissed me! I tried to stop you, but you..." Georg said panicking,
"Did we go any further?" I asked him, I looked mortified,
"No we only made out, you made the first move! Cross my heart!" he said, still panicking
"Ok I believe you... calm down..."
"Right sorry, but you're a good kisser..." I looked at him weirdly,
"Thanks now let go I better go back to my own room, because the others might come in here in the morning and we would both be murdered!" Georg wouldn't let go. "Georg let me go!" Georg reluctantly let me go and I went back to my room.

I stayed awake for the rest of the night. It was about 6:30 when I managed to fall asleep. Which was difficult, I couldn't stop thinking about the dream with Tom and the roof and what happened between me and Georg. It was really playing on my mind!