The last bit of steam was just coming off his coffee cup as he sat waiting, fingers tapping against the ceramic cup and eyes darting everywhere the sound of approaching footsteps came from. To say Enjolras was, for once, nervous is an understatement. He was fidgeting, jumping at sounds, feeling as though the knot in his stomach was never going to untie and he did not enjoy that feeling one bit, only Éponine could do this to him.
"Hey." The sound of her silky voice brought a calmness to his heart that he'd been missing.
He practically threw his chair back as he stood, "Hey, Ep. You look good." And it was true, she looked refreshed, like of the weight of the world had been lifted off her shoulders and she could finally relax, a look that hadn't been seen on her features in quite some time.
She gave him a small smile as she took the across of him and he settled back into his own chair, for a few minutes an uncomfortable silence fell between the two, a silence that hadn't been there since before they started dating until he finally broke it, "I gotta be honest, I didn't think you'd agree to see again."
"Neither did I. I honestly wasn't going to accept but seeing as you're driving everyone insane I figured the least I could do was listen after leaving like that."
"No, you had every right to leave like that. That's what it took to get me to realize what an ass I've been lately and how much I've-"
"Stop that right now I didn't come to hear an apology because honestly, Enj, it won't fix anything. It won't make anything right so don't do it."
"I know it's not going to fix us but you deserve an apology Ep, after everything it's the least I could do is apologize to you for my behavior and my actions, or better said the actions and behavior that's been lacking on my part. I'm so sorry Éponine you need to know that. I never wanted to hurt you and I'm sorry that I did."
"I know Enj, I know you never meant to but you did, more than you think you did and you were the one person I thought would never, ever hurt me in any way and you did. It's..I don't know how or if I want to try and fix or salvage what we have. Not if this is going to just happen again, I can't handle-"
"No I completely understand you. Éponine I'm not here to get you back, I mean yes I do want you back more than I've ever wanted anything in my life, but I'm here to let you know that I've realized that you do deserve better than me, better than what I've given you."
"Enjolras that's what you don't understand, I don't want anyone else all I want is you and how you used to be, how we used to be. That's all I've ever wanted." There was a look in her eyes that he hadn't seen before, a look of lost and longing and he knew that he was the reason for that look, it killed him to see her so vulnerable.
He reached over and took her hand in his, it still fit perfectly in his and a small wave of calm went through him when she didn't immediately pull away, and ran his thumb over her knuckles slowly, "Éponine I can change if that's what you want it'll what I'll do. I will do anything you ask me to do I just want to make you happy, just tell me what you want from me."
"It's not that easy Enjolras. I don't want you to just change because I tell you to, I want you to do it because you want to on your own." Her eyes fell on their hands and her breath caught in her throat, she realized how much she missed his touch, how gentle he was with her. It took everything in her to not just break down and fall back into his arms and take him back, how easy that would be and just go back to how they were but she knew she couldn't, as much as she wanted, she couldn't just go back to how they were because they were already too different from what they were when they began to date. "Enjolras, I love you so much and you know that and I know you care about me but it's-"
"I love you too Éponine, so damn much and it kills me that I haven't been showing you how much you mean to me. You balance me Ep, where I'm tunnel-visioned you're open minded, where I'm quiet at times you're extremely vocal, I could go on and on listing how you balance me out but the main thing I'm trying to say is I need you and I know I can be what you need just let me prove it." His eyes now searching hers for any sign of hope, any sign that he might have a chance, "I'll make myself perfect, perfect for you."
Her eyes lit up at his words, never had he said words like that before to her and the look in his eyes, she wanted to take him in her arms and kiss his pain away. But she knew she couldn't and forced herself to break her gaze from him, she tried pulling her hand from his but he wouldn't let her go, he truly was fighting to keep her with him.
"It's not that easy, I don't want you to just change I want you to be who you were but I know that can't happen because you've grown as a person and that's a good thing, Enj it is and so have I but, maybe who we are now..maybe we just aren't compatible like were before when we started dating. So many things can go wrong and we could get hurt without trying to hurt each other."
"I'll be the one thing in this world that won't hurt."
"You already have hurt me." With those words she finally pulled away from him, feeling an instant cold where he palm was, and stood, "I love you Enjolras and you know that a huge part of me always will, but I think right now I need to focus on myself and Gavroche and Azelma. I'm sorry but we can't get back together, not now. I'm sorry." With that she turned to leave but he couldn't help but notice how her voice broke or how she wiped her eyes as she left.
He sat there watching her go, unable to say a thing or move feeling as if his whole world had finally collapsed in on itself. Until then he at least had some hope that she might reconsider and they might be able to work through their issues. But now she flat out said that there is no hope for them, that she can't be with him. She walked away and didn't look back, maybe there wasn't any hope left, maybe he did have to finally let her go.
AN: This one is taken from another musical [I'm kinda obsessed with musicals right now] and this one is Next To Normal which I just love so much. The versions that I've seen have been the ones with Aaron Tveit as Gabe and it's another of my favorites I cannot tell you how beautiful this score is really I highly recommend anyone to look this one up on Youtube. This particular song is so sweet and I love it so much. Again I do hope you enjoyed this one I had so much inspiration for this particular one as it leads so well into the next part of this continuity.
Any and all comments on song choices, writing, any comments at all are all welcomed don't be afraid to be critial if you see fit.