Hey everybody, sorry I didn't update sooner. I want to thank for reminding me about the other chapter that was read out by richelle mead several months ago.

I spent the better part of last night copying it down from youtube so I can put it in as part of my story(although I'll let everyone know which chapter it is as it's completely written and owned by richelle mead.)

I'll just be putting it out there for you to read.

In the real book, she says the chapter is about 2/3 of the way through the book. It will be just after halfway through my story. Around chapter 14-15. I have my outline but I'm not 100% sure of a few details yet

I unfortunately own nothing. I bow down to the genius that is Richelle Mead.

CHAPTER SIX

I looked up at Lissa and saw her looking at me with no judgement, and through the bond felt her to be full of curiosity. Also I could feel there was something she wanted to tell me, but she wasn't sure how.

She was worried about me thought. That much was blindingly obvious.

"Yeah" I said "I uh… I need to talk…to you I mean. I just, I feel so..and" UGH what was wrong with me? I am never like this. I always know exactly what I want to say, what I want to do. Well, I always did. Till… Dimitri.

"It's him, Isn't it?" She asked with concern in her eyes. "That's who you want to talk about"

"Yeah but.." I was surprised she was this perceptive. "How did you know?"

"I'll tell you afterwards okay?" she said "Just talk to me now and let me in. You have free access to everything inside me and I have to rely on my not so perceptive skills to figure out whats going on inside your head most the time."

I was still surprised. I have always been able to hide my feelings, or 'lie' if you will to Lissa. Mainly to protect her. This was new, and unsettling. I pushed those thoughts to the back of my mind and tried to get my thoughts in order.

"Ok, well I guess, I guess" I tried to find the words to describe all my feelings "I feel… guilty, and hopeful and… and" I looked into Lissa eyes which were a little concerned looking, but still understanding. "…scared. I am so scared Liss"

The next thing I knew I was leaning towards Lissa and she had her arms around me, comforting me. This was different. Wait, was I crying?

I finally slowed my tears and sat back against the wall. I sat there just thinking. I didn't even hear Lissa talking to me until I felt worry through the bond and looked back towards her face.

"Rose! Where were you just now? You scare me sometimes" She said "But please don't hold anything back, it hurts you when you do and I'd much rather you let me in, like you did just now"

I could feel how earnest she was being through the bond and that she was finally starting to feel like we were two equal friends instead of two friends, one of whom has to give up her own life to protect the other.

"Please keep talking" she pleaded "Tell me why you feel guilty and what I can do to help with your fear. Please."

The look she gave me nearly broke my heart, so I took an extremely deep breath and started talking.

"I feel so guilty that I will be taking you, my moroi charge, my bondmate and most importantly my best friend and sister on a dangerous life threatening mission straight after graduation. I feel bad that you might come face to face with Victor and I don't want you to go through that again, I feel what you feel when you see him. I don't want to to that to you."

"When I heard about the possibility of saving Dimitri, even though it sounded too good to be true, even though I was told its all a fairytale, I got the first sparks of hope I have had since the night he got taken down." I almost started crying again thinking of our last night together.

"Well I swore to myself that I would do whatever it takes to save him. But I cannot risk your life. I just can't. You mean too much to me. I am afraid of losing you. I am afraid of losing him. I am afraid of him staying strigoi. I am afraid of him dying. And I am afraid of what you would do if I was to fail and I… If I didn't return to you." I looked down at this point and stared at the floor.

"Rose" she said gently "You are and will always be first and foremost my sister, and my best friend. The way you are talking now is as if you are thinking about going without me. You made me a promise, and I will hold you to it. You can not leave without me. Please." Her voice broke on the last part.

"See this is why I can't do it." I said in a monotone as I continued staring at the floor "You need me, and you love me as much as I love you. I can't risk you. As much as I love Dimitri and he has a part of me, so do you. I am joined to two people."

"Rose.." she hesitated. "There is something I need to tell you. Adrian and I have been looking through old records of unexplained powers held by moroi. We believe they were spirit users, so… we have been trying to learn some new things. One thing we came across, which I have actually had some minor success with… is reading emotions. I couldn't do it at all before."

I looked up at her. Please don't tell me she knows how I feel all the time. I mean it might be hypocritical of me, but I don't think I could handle that.

"…and well, I kind of can now, but only in bursts. Only from you. And only when you are feeling particularly emotional. The only emotions I have been able to read are love, despair and hope. AND I am fairly certain you only have felt this strongly about dimitri."

"That's how you knew what I wanted to talk to you about" I said. "But how long has this been happening? And how did I not feel you feeling my emotions through the bond?"

"Well.." she began "Since you got back from Russia. And as for how you didn't you're your feelings through me…well first of all I have been becoming better at blocking you out"

"HMPH!" I exclaimed. "Not at night time you haven't, or in the middle of the day for that matter… you guys are animals since you got back together." I smirked.

I did have a small hand in their happy reunion so I didn't really begrudge her a few disgusting images of Christian in my head. It had taken a little bit on my behalf, but it was worth it. Even if they were both so stubborn that I nearly lost it. He made her happy and that made me happy. Well happy for her anyway. Although I definitely did not get any sleep the night he took her up for 'dinner' to their secret attic and they 'made up'.

"ROSE! You know I can't block it completely when I'm… otherwise occupied" she blushed and continued. "ANYWAY secondly I think you can't sense secondhand emotions through the bond, whether that's just because they were yours and your own emotions overpowered them, or you just won't be able to sense anyone else's emotions through me, when I master it of course."

I took a moment to think about this. "Okay, so you know how I feel about him. How does this change anything?"

"This changes everything" She insisted. "I was a little… hesitant about helping you break Victor out but now I really know how you feel about Dimitri, and how his lack of presence has hit you. I know that you would do anything for me, and I want to do this for you. I want you to be happy. I want to help make you happy again. You take so much darkness from me, and you have so much darkness on your own… I just, I want to help. I'm not even afraid of Victor anymore."

I could sense through the bond that everything she said was the truth but I still didn't want to put her in danger.

"Liss…" I started but she cut me off.

"NO Rose, I love you. You need this, and I need to help you. That's all there is to it. You have not been yourself since he got taken." She stopped and grabbed my hand.

"I Vasilisa Dragomir make this solemn promise to you, Rose Hathaway, that I, we will do everything within our power, and probably some things not in our power, to save Dimitri." She was serious. I can't believe she just did that. She would risk her own life to save him. I was so overwhelmed with emotions that I just stared at her with a blank face, as if my face didn't know which emotion to represent.

Lissa gasped. "What? What is it are you ok?" I asked worried.

Her face broke out into a huge grin. "I love you too!" and she hugged me in a huge bear hug crushing my arms against my sides. As she pulled away I looked at her questioningly.

"I felt it, your love… FOR ME." Her smile widened.

"Well you should always know that. I told you. You're my sis, my best friend. We are forever connected" I smiled at her and she crushed me again.

"Yes but now I can feel YOU!" she said triumphantly and jumped into the air a little.

Just then the door opened and Christian walked in. "Are we all finished here then? Because there are guardians headed this way and we shouldn't be in here."

"What are you still doing here?" I demanded.

"I asked him to be our lookout" said Lissa. "Just in case."

"Oh, well thanks fire boy." I hurriedly shoved the destroyed dummy into a bag and threw it into the cupboard and we ran out just in time to hide down a little hallway as 3 guardians I didn't know walked past talking about practicing some new moves.

We headed back towards the dorms, and split up when I had to head to the left. I gave Lissa a huge hug and said "I'm going to talk to Abe tomorrow, about whatwe just talked about. Maybe he can help us."

Lissa smiled and nodded "That sounds like a good idea. He has a lot of contacts… from what I've heard anyway."

We said our final goodbyes and headed our separate ways. I just wanted to sleep. I felt as if a huge weight had lifted from my shoulders. It was wonderful knowing that fir the first time in a long time, I was completely on the same level as Lissa. We knew everything the other should tell us and we were in sync perfectly.

I knew I could trust her with my life, and I knew that she would trust me with hers(theoretically and physically).

If only I could have Dimitri back as well, my life would be perfect…

Thankyou again for your patience. I hope you enjoyed this chapter, I know there seems to be something happening in every chapter. I hope you don't mind, it's just because there's so much to go in and I was only planning on making this around 28 chapters…

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