chapter 6
I woke up the next morning feeling like a princess. There was a tray with my breakfast over the nightstand table and a rose over the pillows with a note. That Tommy had written "Thanks for the magical night". But he wasn't there. And I couldn't see him for the rest of the week because he traveled to London to record his new song. But I waited for him because I love him. It's unbelievable, but I'm in love with my sister's husband. I hope when he comes back we can talk about everything. Oh I'm going to school now and it's great, just hating the uniform.
The day Tommy came back was the longest in my whole life. Longest than the day my parents died. I couldn't concentrate at school and I didn't eat anything, just waiting for him to come that night. But when I got home, everything changed. Michael was there watching tv.
Jude: hi buddy, did you father call?
Michael: nope, he didn't call. But he's on tv.
I ran to the couch and looked at the screen. There was Tommy, the guy of my dreams. He was hotter than a week ago. I was smiling until I saw Sadie holding his hand. It was an interview.
Sadie: I'm telling you Hannah, this year have been the best of my life. Tommy is a great husband and we couldn't be more in love.
She said making that fake smile that made me want to hit her, even if she's my sister. She looked at Tommy and he smiled in the same way.
Hannah: I can see, you two are pure love. And you Tommy, what can you say about Sadie?
Tommy was nervous, I could tell. Maybe he was going to say that he loves me.
Tommy: what else can I say? I love Sadie more than anything. She's Michael's mother and he's my world.
Hannah: and when is the second kid coming?
Sadie's smile faded.
Sadie: well, we'll see. But we are fine with Michael; he's such a great boy.
Michael turned off the TV.
Michael: sure, I'm a great boy. She doesn't even know me. How can she….
I was lost in my thoughts. Tommy said he loves Sadie. I gave him my virginity and he loves Sadie. I'm so stupid, how could I believe in him?. He just wanted fun, and of course I gave it to him.
I ran upstairs and locked my room's door. I just wanted to cry, to kill myself. But I did something better. I wrote a song and when Tommy hears it, he'll know how much I love him and hate him at the same time. After writing my song, crying and laughing a little, I felt dirty. I had sex with my sister's husband. I'm a slut. I went to my bathroom and got naked. I looked at myself in the mirror. My body wasn't like Sadie's, it wasn't perfect. Of course Tommy just played with me; I was just a fantasy, a desire.
I reached for the bubbles and spread the liquid on the tub, feeling the warmth of the vapor. The hot water made me wake up from my dream even more. I was lost in my thoughts again when I heard a knock on the door. I froze when I saw Tommy walking through the bathroom. He was smiling.
Tommy: hi girl, how are you?
I looked at him totally mad as I tried to cover my body with my hands and the bubbles.
Jude: I'm fine. Better than ever.
He sat on the edge of the tub and looked at me with those eyes. Why was he acting like nothing happened?
Tommy: I brought you some presents from London; do you want to see them?
I rolled my eyes.
Jude: why did you bring me presents? Do you want to pay for my silence?
Tommy: what are you talking about?
Jude: I heard you on the tv show. So I was just one more. Sorry if I was that stupid, but I thought I was special.
He put his hand over my shoulder.
Tommy: but you are special Jude, never doubt that.
I stood up but when I realized that I was naked I sat on the tub again. It was a big tub by the way.
Jude: am I special?, Tommy you told everyone you were in love with Sadie!
He took my hands as I tried to think of the worst insults for him.
Tommy: Jude, listen to me…
Jude: I'm just your toy for now, I know. but why did you tell me that?. Why did you tell me that you loved me?, because I heard you when you said that. You thought I was sleeping, but I heard you. Why did you lie to me Tommy, why did you do that? Why…
I was cut off by Tommy's lips smashing against mine. At first I protested but then I lost control and before I knew it, he was all wet making out with me into the tub.
Tommy: Jude, I'm sorry. But Sadie threatened me. And it's complicated. I can't explain things now.
He said pulling away. But I pulled him back to me and kissed his now bare chest.
Jude: ok. I believe you. But what are we going to do now?. We are cheating on Sadie and Michael!
Tommy didn't say anything. All that I could see in his eyes was lust. His hands found his way under the water.
Jude: what are you doing Tommy?!, somebody could catch us.
But Tommy didn't listen so I gave up.
Jude: I missed you so much Tommy.
Tommy: you were the only thing I thought about when I was in London.
I was about to kiss him again when we heard a knock on the door. The door suddenly opened.