Sorry this chapter has taken so long
Chapter 6
"Alex,
how was it? Did you have a good time?" Liz asked curiously,
sitting up in her bed and switching the light on as Alex entered the
room. She didn't like Mark but she couldn't help feeling a little
of her friend's excitement rubbing off on her.
"Fine,"
Alex said simply, letting out a yawn. She dumped her bag on the
floor.
"Just fine?" Liz wondered, lifting her eyebrows.
Maybe Alex had already realised that going back to Mark was only
going to lead to heartache. He simply wasn't trustworthy.
"It
was just a date," Alex replied with a shrug. She wasn't sure
what Liz expected her to say. She'd enjoyed herself but it wasn't
the same as the excitement and the butterflies she'd felt when
they'd first started going out.
"Where did you go?"
Liz enquired, trying to show some enthusiasm for her friend's
romance. They were getting on well at the moment and she wanted to
keep things as normal as possible between them and what could be more
normal than asking your roommate how her date had gone? Alex
laughed.
"Are you always this nosey?"
"I'm a
reporter," Liz joked, trying to sound light-hearted. "Now
answer the question."
"Ok, we went to El Capitano."
"Can Mark still afford that sort of cash?" Liz wondered
surprised. It had been the amount of money that the basketball
players had been throwing around that had first made her suspicious
about how above board it all was. Now that they weren't getting
those handouts surely Mark must be a little short of cash? Alex gave
her a glare, not wanting to drag up the whole sports' scandal
again.
"Who cares? The point is I got to go there!"
Alex argued disinterestedly.
"You sound more like Jess every
day," Liz told her, shaking her head in disbelief. Enid had
always hated Jessica and she couldn't believe that she'd turned
out to be so much like her.
"I've told you before
not to say that, you'll scare me," Alex reminded her pointedly.
She knew she'd changed but she definitely didn't want to have
turned in Jessica. "And don't worry, Mark got his thanks for it,
believe me." Liz sat there blank for a second then a shocked
look formed on her face as Alex's words registered.
"You
didn't!" She muttered with a sigh. She couldn't believe her
friend would be that stupid.
"Of course I didn't! I just
wanted to see your face," Alex burst out between giggles. Liz
rolled her eyes, not sure she appreciated being made fun of like
that. She'd had no intention of jumping straight back into bed with
Mark.
"Ha ha very funny. I'm glad you didn't though, I don't
want anyone taking any risks. One baby around here is going to be
enough to cope with." Liz let out another sigh, especially when
it was Jessica's baby. Alex picked up her wash bag and headed
towards the door.
"I'm going to go to the bathroom," Alex
informed her casually. "Night, Liz."
"Night, Alex,"
she replied, flicking off the light and turning back over in her
bed.
"Todd," Liz whispered between kisses as she and
Todd fell back on the bed. He moved his mouth to her neck and she ran
her hands through his hair. His kisses then trailed down to the skin
above her blouse and he reached up to unbutton it before lifting her
up slightly so he could pull it off her arms. Their kisses grew more
eager as his hands ran over her bare skin. Her skin felt like it was
on fire under his touch. He hands casually reached around to unhook
her bra, caught up in the passion of the moment. Alarm bells starting
ringing in her head and she pushed him away, sitting back up. She
stared at him silently, she didn't know what to say to him. She
hated to think she kept leading him on but she felt under so much
pressure. He looked back at her for a second, silent as well.
"Look
Liz," he began awkwardly, finally breaking into the silence. "I'm
sorry if you think I'm pressuring you but-."
"I know you're not," she interrupted,
not wanting him to think she'd pushed him away because she was
angry. "I'm sorry-."
"You don't need
to say your sorry," Todd started to protest, his turn to interrupt.
He understood that this was a big issue for his girlfriend.
"Yes, I do,"
Liz argued back, her words rushed. "It's just that I don't
want to end up like Jess." At least that sounded believable.
Todd studied her face. He didn't believe that was the whole story
but he accepted her answer.
"It's doesn't have to end up like
that," he tried to reassure her. "Not if we're careful. Not
everybody gets pregnant."
"Jess said she was careful," Liz pointed out, not feeling very
reassured. She wanted to make him happy and she wasn't even sure
what it was holding her back. She knew he was being understanding but
her nerves didn't seem within her own control. She didn't know
whether she was trying to force herself to do something she wasn't
ready for or whether it had blown up into such a big issue for her
that she was being irrational about it.
"Jessica being
careful?" Todd queried, raising his eyebrows in disbelief. He
wanted to lighten the mood between them. "Jessica's never been
careful about anything in her life." Normally Liz would have
defended her sister out loud while secretly agreeing with him, this
time however she did actually believe Jessica. She would risk a lot
of things but not using protection and ending up pregnant wouldn't
have been one of them.
"But we
can never be sure, can we?" Liz mumbled, ignoring his comment
about her twin. Maybe that really was the problem. She liked to plan
ahead and know exactly what she was doing but with this it was new
and she didn't have a clue what to expect. Todd was silent for a
moment.
"Liz, when are you going to be ready?" He queried
bluntly, wondering what exactly was putting this distance between
them so they couldn't go to the next level. "You know, it's
always going to be a risk. I mean even if we got married, what if we
didn't want kids straight away? We'd still be taking a risk
then," he tried to explain, not sure if he was making that much
sense. Now she sat there stunned into silence. He had a point.
"I
can't help being scared." She wanted to explain her own feelings
to him. He cupped her face in his hands, hoping to reassure her.
"I
just want to show you how much I love you. I don't want to rush
you," he whispered honestly.
"But-," she started to
argue. Her head agreed with him but it was hard to get her emotions
up to speed.
"We'd have to deal with the consequences when
they came," he told her, sensing what she was going to say and
being straightforward about it. She stared back at him, still unsure
of what to say. "What are you thinking?" He wondered.
Hoping he hadn't sounded like a complete jerk.
"I'm thinking I'm ready,"
she admitted, her voice shaky. Half of her certain and the other half
was still terrified. He pulled her close. "Not tonight,"
she told him firmly, pulling away from him. Todd opened his mouth to
tell her that he hadn't meant it like that but she'd silenced him
with a look. Maybe Alex was right about not thinking about it too
much.
"When?" He asked her nervously, he couldn't help
feeling excited at the prospect.
"Tomorrow," she offered
again, trying to sound more certain than she felt. "Tomorrow,"
she said out loud again, still trying to reassure herself.
The
next morning Liz ran down the stairway of the psychology department,
knocking a person coming up the stairs towards her in her rush to get
to her class. What had happened between her and Todd had been playing
on her mind and unusually for her she was actually running late.
"Hey
watch where you're going," a voice snapped angrily. Liz looked
around to acknowledge the person and apologise.
"Peter,"
she sighed. This was one person that she'd hoped she would never
see again. He still seemed too stupid to have been working with
William White, running the secret society.
"You really ought
to be more careful," he whispered, leaning close to her, trying
to look menacing. Liz looked down anxiously. She couldn't deny he'd
succeeded slightly.
"Peter, don't you have somewhere more
interesting to be?" A voice Liz instantly recognised interrupted
them. She turned back around and saw Tom. She let out another sigh as
a wave of relief washed over her.
"I'm just going. Maybe you
can fight your own battles next time," Peter whispered again,
taking a last look at Liz before skulking off.
"Are you
okay?" Tom asked quietly.
"I'm fine," Liz forced
herself to say, even though she didn't really feel fine.
"You
look shaken up. Come on, let's go to the coffee house." Liz
hesitated but she figured one missed class wouldn't hurt. Just this
once. They started to walk along. "Liz don't worry about it.
Peter's a moron but he's not going to hurt you," Tom said with
confidence.
"I know that. I mean, I know I should
know that. He's all mouth and wouldn't have the guts to do
anything, but -," she started to reply, looking away as she felt
embarrassed.
"You're right. He won't do anything,"
Tom tried to reassure her again.
"I just wish I'd never
started this whole thing," she admitted honestly. It seemed to
have caused her so much trouble, not least of all William White
trying to kill her.
"What? You wish the secret society was still
around?" Tom asked surprised shocked. He didn't want to think
he'd dragged Liz into something she didn't really want to be
in.
"No! I just feel like I've turned so many people life's
upside down," Liz explained carefully, still feeling shaken up.
"Including my own."
"But think about Nina and Bryan. After
all they went through they at least deserved justice and that's
what we did by catching William," Tom argued.
"I know," Liz agreed, not
sounding entirely convinced. She knew she'd done the right thing
but she wasn't completely sure she hadn't opened a can of worms
that she couldn't control.
"We did the right thing," he
comforted her. "The society was pure evil. It's right that we
exposed that. You can't let them stop you doing the right thing.
You can't spend your life running scared of living. What would be
the point? You'd never achieve anything, you'd never-," Tom
continued, sounding like he was trying to convince her as much as
himself. There had never been anyone more scared of living and
admitting his feelings than himself. She lost track of his words as
she started to focus on what he had just said. The analogy was so
true of her own life that it hit a bit too close to home. She
realised he was right and her twin was wrong. She didn't want to be
scared of living, she wanted to live life to it's fullest. Todd
was the right man and it was the right time. A small smile rose on
her lips, surprised at the sudden feeling of clarity.
"Tom,
I'm really sorry," she began, interrupting him mid-sentence.
"But I really have to go." She didn't give him a chance to
respond as she hurried out of the coffee house. She picked
her
mobile out of her bag and selected her sister's number. "Jess,
I need you to do me a favour," she said breathlessly when her
sister answered. She put down the phone after she'd finally
rebutted Jessica's ten thousand arguments and when she saw his
familiar face.
"Todd," she called as he emerged from his
class. She still felt her heart skip a beat just from looking at
him.
"Hey Liz," he responded casually, looking slightly
nervous about what Liz had come to say.
"I need the keys to
your dorm," she told him, with a mischievous smile, trying to
act mysterious. He stared back at her, wondering what she was up to.
"Why? What are you
planning?" he asked confused.
"Just wait and see,"
she reassured him.
"Come on Liz. What is going on?" He felt bad about what had
happened between them the night before. He didn't want her to think
he wouldn't wait for her, because he would. He'd just wanted to
know where he stood and it had come out completely the wrong way.
Besides he wanted it to be the perfect moment they'd both dreamed
about since they'd started dating. He would hate it to go
completely wrong because she wasn't ready.
"Aren't I allowed to
plan a surprise?" Liz demanded with a sigh. When other people were
spontaneous it was considered romantic but when she was everyone
acted as if it was completely shocking.
"Liz, I just meant-," Todd tried to explain.
"I just don't want you to be mad with me."
"Why would I be mad?" Liz asked, surprised
by his worry. She'd thought they'd left everything on pretty good
terms last night. Maybe it had been more strained than she'd
realised.
"I don't know," Todd admitted. "I
thought that maybe I acted too pushy, I didn't-." Liz started to
giggle. He raised his eyebrows at her reaction.
"And here I was
thinking that you were upset with me."
"Of
course not," he interjected. This had to be one of the most
confusing conversations he'd ever had.
"Just don't come back to your dorm
until eight," she insisted, deciding they were only going around
in circles. She looked him up and down, wrinkling her face
disapprovingly. "On second thoughts maybe you should go back
there now and pick up a suit or something."
"What? A
suit?" Now that made it official. It was definitely the most
confusing conversation every had by two human beings
"Don't
forget the roses," she yelled as she ran off.
"I can't
believe you're doing this," Jessica complained loudly as she
breezed through the door of Todd's dorm, not waiting for an
invitation. Her hands were full of bags containing takeaway.
"Don't
lecture," Liz mumbled, rolling her eyes and sounding remarkably
like her sister as she closed the door behind her.
"I'm
serious. I don't think you're ready," Jessica warned, trying to
sound as confident and self assured as her sister did when she argued
her point. Of course the confident and self assured part wasn't
that difficult but she really wasn't used to being the moral
sister.
"How do you know
whether I'm ready or not? Jess don't-," Liz began to argue
back. She hated when their roles were switched like this. It just
upset the balance.
"Ok, ok I'm not going to fight with you.
TOAD isn't worth it," Jessica conceded defeated, not very
graciously. She knew that even though Liz hated to admit it, she
could be just as stubborn as she was and that nothing would change
her mind when it was truly made up. Liz didn't rise to the bait and
decided to change the topic of conversation. She had more important
things to do than pick fights with her twin.
"How do I look?"
she asked, giving a little mock twirl. Nothing distracted Jessica
better than fashion.
"Fine, I guess. A little too conservative for my
taste, if you want the truth," Jessica said with disapproval,
looking Liz up and down expertly.
"Jessica!" Liz exclaimed in
annoyance. Why couldn't she praise her? Just this once? She needed
all the encouragement she could get, not Jessica putting her down to
make herself feel better.
"You look nice," Jessica finally
admitted, sensing her twin wasn't happy with her. "This is all
wrong though," she told her, glancing around the room.
"What
do you mean?" Liz demanded, wondering what exactly her sister
was getting at. It was sure to be an insult.
"Well it's
suppose to be the man that gets everything ready, isn't it?"
Jessica questioned in a teasing voice. Finally deciding to lighten
the mood between them. She wasn't her sister's keeper after all
and she couldn't bear to have anymore of her family mad with
her.
"Well, I'm against sexism and besides I bet Mike didn't
go to all this trouble for you," Liz teased back. She wanted
them to go back to being the sisters they'd been before they came
to college. The ones that had laughed and chatted so easily.
"He
did actually," Jessica informed her smugly. She couldn't help
but feel happy that he'd gone to so much trouble for her and wasn't
going to miss the opportunity to gloat.
"Only because he
wanted to get you into bed." Jessica bit back her annoyance. She
knew there was an element of truth in that but she didn't
appreciate her twin wreaking her memory of that night. Besides she
was still certain that Mike had been developing feelings for her by
then and had wanted to make their first night together special.
"Well he didn't exactly have to try hard, did he?"
Jessica joked back, keeping her tone light-hearted. He probably could
have made her a sandwich and she'd still have sleep with him that
night, she'd been that besotted with him by that point. Liz's own
face suddenly became serious.
"It will be all right, won't
it?" Liz asked her twin quietly, feeling her own nerves rising
in her stomach. Jessica held her tongue to stop herself repeating
that she thought Liz needed more time.
"If it's the right man
and the right time then it'll be wonderful," Jessica assured her.
She smiled an impish smile. "And if it isn't, well then I'll beat
up Todd for you." Liz looked at across at the alarm clock.
"You'd better go. I've still got a few things to get ready
and he'll be here soon," Liz explained. She wanted time to calm
her nerves which her sister wasn't exactly helping her do.
"Do
the right thing, Liz." Jessica cast a worried glance as she
walked out the door. A few minutes later there was a knock at the
door.
"Just a minute," Liz called, her voice a
little louder than she'd intended. She run a brush quickly through
her hair which unusually she was wearing down. Perhaps dressing like
Jessica would give her a bit more of Jessica's impulsiveness. She
walked over to the door and took a deep breath before opening it. It
was now or never.
"You don't have to
knock on your own door," Liz assured him, feeling some of her
anxiousness build up again as she saw him.
"You look
wonderful," Todd cried, his eyes wide as he looked her up and
down before handing her a bouquet of roses. She laughed. She couldn't
believe he'd actually listened to her about that. She'd only been
teasing him, though she was glad he was trying to make it special for
her.
"I wasn't serious about the roses you know," she
told him truthfully, giggling as she ushered him to the room, partly
out of nerves and partly out of happiness. He looked around the room
which was lit by candles and which was completely spotless for a
change.
"You've really transformed this place. How did you
have time?" He asked her, clearly shocked.
"I work
quickly and besides the food's take away," she admitted with a
knowing smile as she put the roses in a jug. He laughed, Liz had
always been resourceful. He pulled her into his arms
affectionately.
"You didn't have to go to all this trouble,"
Todd told her, sounding slightly uncertain about the whole thing.
He'd wanted to make all this special and memorable for her and now
it seemed like she was the only one who'd gone to any effort.
"I
wanted to do it," Liz assured him, her voice a whisper. Despite
her twin's mocking she really didn't think it mattered. All the
mattered that it was special for them and she was sure now that it
would be.
"Liz,
I'm sorry if I pressured you yesterday. You don't have-," He
began bluntly, still feeling uneasy about how quickly all this had
come about. She silenced him with a kiss, stepping towards him.
"No, I
made this decision on my own," she protested. That was the truth as
well. She wasn't doing this because she knew it would make him
happy but because she loved him and it would make both of them happy.
"I don't want you to regret
this," he argued back hesitantly. Now they were actually at this
moment he felt a huge amount of pressure on him. He didn't want her
to be disappointed. She ran her hands down his chest and took his
hand before leading him over to the bed.
"I
wouldn't be doing this if I thought I was going to regret it,"
she told him firmly. She was far too stubborn to let herself be
pushed into something she didn't want.
"What about the
food?" He questioned. He was completely thrown by her
certainty.
"Forget the food. It's not important," she
murmured as their lips met and they collapsed back on the bed
together.
The
next morning Liz slowly opened her eyes and smiled as they fell on
Todd sleeping quietly next to her. She snuggled up against him. It
almost felt like a relief to think that she'd finally taken the big
step of moving their relationship forward. It had become so much of
an issue for her, and for them, that she couldn't believe it had
been brushed aside so easily. No one could change what had happened
now. Her virginity was gone and she didn't regret it at all.
Jessica had been right about all that mattered being them loving and
trusting each other. It had felt so right and natural between them in
the end. She laughed to herself as she remembered Jessica's threat
to beat up Todd if it wasn't. She looked back over at him. He
looked so fast asleep that she couldn't imagine he was going to be
waking up for a while. She closed her eyes and tried to go to sleep
as well but the light was shining in brightly through the curtains
and she climbed out of the bed. She ruffled through the bag of stuff
she'd brought with her, trying not to disturb him.
"What
time is it?" A groggy voice questioned. Liz looked over at Todd
who was sat up in bed, his head in his hands, and then glanced at the
alarm clock.
"About eight," she told him, keeping her own
voice quiet. She still felt slightly groggy herself. He groaned,
clearly disappointed.
"I'd better get up. I've got a class
in forty five minutes," he admitted with a sigh. "But
you're welcome to stay here. My place is yours." He wanted her
to feel at home in his dorm, even if his dorm was an ugly dump now
that he'd moved out of the athletics dorm.
"It's all
right," Liz answered truthfully. She was grateful he was being
thoughtful but she wouldn't really want to stay here by herself
anyway. "I've got a class shortly as well and I need to go back to
my dorm first. So, where is the bathroom?" She suddenly felt a
little awkward about going to the bathroom. Everyone was going to
know she wasn't living here and be wondering why she actually was
here.
"I'll come with you. I need to get ready as well,"
Todd offered, picking up on her awkwardness. Liz nodded. "You
see this is what I was looking forward to," he commented
lightly, putting his arm around her as they walked along the
corridor. He really did want to share everything with Liz. She pulled
a disbelieving face.
"Oh if that's the case then we'll just
skip the rest of it and I'll just show up in the morning to brush my
teeth with you," she teased him, wrapping both her arms around
his waist.
"Liz,
where on earth have you been?" Alex demanded as Liz breezed into
the room. She didn't want to sound like Liz's mother but she had
been genuinely worried. It wasn't like Liz to spend the whole night
out.
"Doesn't this sound familiar? However usually it's the
other way around," Liz commented with a smirk. She liked the
thought that her friend was shocked by her actions.
"You're
in an awfully good mood," Alex observed curiously. Liz had
always been a morning person but this was freaky.
"Aren't I
allowed to be happy?" Liz wondered dreamily, falling back on her
bed and sighing. It was one of the first times since she'd left
Sweet Valley High that she was genuinely completely happy.
"So,
where have you been?" Alex asked again. Liz looked around the
room, not answering the question straight away. When they'd first
got to college it had made her feel like she was being childish by
not wanting to rush into sleeping with someone. It had made her think
that once she had gone through with it she would want everyone to
know, just to prove how grown up she was or something, but now it had
actually happened she didn't feel any need to tell anybody. There
was a special bond between her and Todd which couldn't be broken
and no one else needed to know about it.
"No where." Liz
tried to ignore the question, keeping her voice casual "So what did
you do last night?" Alex eyed her suspiciously. She knew when
Liz wasn't telling her something and she had a feeling she knew
what it was. Liz was pretty transparent but she wasn't going to
make a big deal about it.
"I went out with Mark and unlike
you I came back at a decent hour. Anyway, I'd better go. I'm
supposed to be having breakfast with him." As Alex went to
leave, Jessica came through the door. They gave each other short
looks. They'd never been friends especially after Jessica had
revealed Alex's past drug habit to the whole of Sweet Valley
High.
"So, did you go through with it? What was it like?"
Jessica asked in a rush, her tone excited. Jessica hadn't exactly
wanted to dish the dirt about her own sex life, it had never really
been as open as that in the Wakefield house but she was desperate for
all the gossip from her sister. It seemed like so long ago since
she'd been through those new and exciting stages of a relationship
that she almost wanted to live the excitement through her twin. Of
course it had only really been a few months but in Jessica's world
that was a long time.
"Yes and fine," Liz responded
simply, shrugging her shoulders. Jessica raised her eyebrows and
looked at her surprised.
"Just fine?"
"Why? Should it be better than fine?" Liz teased. She
couldn't believe what a big deal it had all seemed. It had seemed
so natural in the end. Jessica rolled her eyes. She didn't
appreciate her sister mocking her.
"I can't believe my big
sister is all grown up," Jessica commented. In some ways she'd
liked the fact that she'd had an experience her sister had never
had.
"I can't believe my little sister is married and
pregnant," Liz responded bluntly, suddenly becoming serious. She
couldn't help wondering how Jessica really was handling all this.
Jessica sighed out loud.
"Don't remind me," she
muttered. She just wanted to forget about her responsibilities for
one morning.
"So who have you got a got a problem with now?
The husband or the baby?" Liz enquired intuitively. She could
see that her twin wanted to talk to her about something but she
wasn't going to say it until she was given the green light. That
way she could pretend Liz had dragged it out of her when it wasn't
what Liz wanted to hear.
"The husband.
I called his mom yesterday," Jessica explained.
"What's
wrong with that?" Liz wondered, slightly confused. She'd never
heard anything about Mike's mother before.
"Mike and I had
a fight about it a few days ago. He didn't want me to talk to her.
He got really upset with me and I promised that I wouldn't."
"Then
why did you do it?" Liz questioned, not being able to hide a
little bit of annoyance at her twin. Why did she have to create these
situations? It was always left to her to help Jessica out of them.
She really didn't want to spend the rest of her life doing it.
"I
just needed to know," Jessica defended herself, surprised by her
sister's disapproval. "I convinced myself there was some dark
secret. I couldn't leave it like it was."
"Was there?"
Liz asked curiously, her reporter's brain taking over. She wanted
to know the facts.
"Sort of. Well not really," Jessica
admitted slowly. "She didn't really say much. I think she was a
little shocked that I'd called. But apparently she lost a baby when
Mike was about eleven. It was stillborn and after that her and Mike's
dad's marriage fell apart pretty quickly. They'd never been a
picture perfect family and she'd never been much of a mother but it
just got worse, that's what she said anyway. Then when I told her
about me being pregnant and us being married she started going on
about coming for a visit. I tried to put her off but I don't think it
worked, she sounded pretty determined. Why did she have to do this
now? She hasn't spoken to Mike for years. What am I going to do,
Liz?" Jessica asked desperately. She couldn't risk her husband
finding out she'd gone behind his back.
"I'm sure you'll
think of something," Elizabeth reassured her, sensing she needed
comfort rather than a lecture at that moment.
"I just wish I
knew what," Jessica stated anxiously.
Alex
stifled a groan and tried to hold her tongue but failed.
"Mark
will you get that look off your face, please?" Alex demanded,
finally letting out her groan. They were sat in the coffee house
scuffing food.
"Sorry," Mark replied, giving her a
sheepish grin before grabbing a few fries.
"I keep telling
you that Liz is doing her best with the story," Alex repeated,
giving him a pointed look. Mark looked doubtful. He still blamed Liz
for the whole scandal coming out. She knew that deep down he knew he
only had himself to blame but he was still in that angry denial stage
she'd been in at first.
"Well it seems to be taking a long
time," Mark moaned truthfully. He was shocked that Alex had
forgiven Elizabeth so easily.
"That's just because she
doesn't have Tom Watts working with her anymore. She wants to get it
right or it won't work," Alex tried to explain. She could see
that Liz was finding doing her first story by herself daunting. Mark
sighed, knowing she was right.
"I'm sorry. It's just making
me anxious," he admitted quietly. It seemed like this was the
only hope for his future.
"Well you have nothing to be
anxious about. You just took what was offered to you, that's all."
She tried to sound reassuring but she knew even Liz didn't rate the
chances of this story having much impact. Not with the university so
determined to protect itself.
"I know but that was my choice.
I was happy to have all that stuff," Mark told her guiltily,
finally admitting some of his blame.
"So you were a little
naive. Most people would have accepted what was offered."
"Alex
I'm not quite sure how to tell you this-," Mark began nervously,
after hesitating a second. A lump of nervousness formed in Alex's
throat and she gulped hard. This definitely sounded like bad news. "I
got a call this morning," he continued awkwardly. "It was
from the guy at the Lakers who I tried out for. He wants me to
comeback and try out again. He said he thought I had potential."
Alex was astounded. She'd thought the Lakers had turned out to be a
complete dead end. Liz had been right all along, he was just going to
let her down again. Mark looked down uncomfortably. He'd been
dreading this conversation. "I have to go," he explained
honestly. "Basketball is all I ever wanted to do with my life."
He looked into her eyes, wanting to be as truthful with her as he
could. "But I want you to come with me." Now Alex truly was
shocked. She'd thought he was running away from her
again.
"Really?" She questioned, disbelieving. Mark
nodded. He had genuinely missed her while he'd been away and knew
he'd made a mistake. Now it was Alex's turn to sigh. It would be
impossible.
"I can't," she said with sadness. "My
life is here, not in LA. I want to stay in college." Mark looked
disappointed but gave her an understanding smile. That was the
response he'd been expecting anyway.
"Well it's unlikely
I'm going to be leaving," he assured her. "And you could
still come and visit me." She smiled back at him, relieved
they'd come to some sort of agreement. She was surprised that she
didn't feel as disappointed as she'd expected to.
"In the meantime I'll work on getting
that story moving along," she told him. She realised that would
be the only way to make it possible for him to stay.
Later
that day Alex knocked nervously at the WSVU office door. There was
only one person in there, a man she recognised as Tom Watts. He gave
her a pleasant smile as he opened the door.
"How can I help
you?" He asked, clearly confused by her presence. He didn't
recognise her as one of the people who worked at the station.
"Umm
I'm Alex Rollins-," she started nervously. She'd hated him
with such a passion when he'd done the story that it was hard to
believe she was stood there having a conversation with him. His face
changed as he recognised her name
"Hey if you've come to -,"
he interrupted, stepping back slightly. Liz had told him about how
Alex blamed them for ruining her life.
"I haven't come to
start a scene," she assured him, interrupting him this time. His
face relaxed and he pushed the door open further.
"Let's
start this again. How can I help you?"
"Well Liz has agreed to do a story about how the
university is trying to scapegoat the players," Alex explained
him, hoping that he'd already heard about it. He nodded though he
was still clearly confused about why she was there.
"Yes I
know that," he replied a curious tone in his voice. He couldn't
see what this had to do with him. Him and Liz had stopped working
together a long time ago.
"It just seems to be taking a
really long time," Alex explained quickly, starting to regret
coming here. He obviously wasn't interested in helping her. "And
I wondered if you might work with her on it," she finished
lamely. Tom looked away, clearly debating the question within
himself.
"I don't know. I'm trying to be her friend but I'm
not sure I can work with her that closely again," Tom admitted
guardedly. Now Liz was aware of his feelings for her, he didn't
believe they could just return to normal.
"You really care
about her, don't you?" Alex asked slightly surprised. The
impression Liz had given her was that it wasn't anything more than
a little crush.
"I guess so," Tom replied, giving her a
guarded smile, surprising himself at how quickly he was opening up to
her. He had a nice smile and Alex could see why Liz had been so
attracted to him. He was definitely better looking close up.
"I'll
tell you what." Tom's voice interrupted her thoughts. "I'll
talk to Liz and see what she thinks. Maybe she can give me part of
the story to work on by myself or something. At the very least I
might be able to speed her up." He gave her a genuine and
totally relaxed smile.
"Thanks," Alex replied, giving
him one of her own brightest smiles.
"Todd, stop it!"
Liz giggled, pushing him away. She tried to return to the work that
she had across her desk in the library. He leaned over her shoulder
and tried to give her a kiss. "How am I suppose to pass my exam
with you distracting me?" She asked jokingly, too happy to get
mad with him, even though she really did need to work.
"Me
distracting you?" Todd queried, laughing as well in a
disbelieving manner. "If anyone's doing the distracting around
here, it's you."
"How did you figure that out? I'm just
reading a book," she replied truthfully, giving him an innocent
grin. She was glad that he still found her so attractive.
"You're always distracting
to me," he told her, continuing his trail of kisses.
"Shh,"
the librarian interrupted, giving them a stern look, clearly not
impressed by their behaviour. They looked at each other and both
tried not to giggle. Right at that moment Liz's mobile beeped. The
librarian gave her another glare. She blushed and discretely opened
up the text message. She couldn't believe she hadn't turned it
off.
"It's
from Tom," she said out loud in a surprised tone. She wasn't
really addressing the comment to Todd.
"What's Watts doing
texting you?" He demanded grabbing the phone off her. He'd
thought he'd given up chasing after Liz.
"Hey give that
back!" Liz cried, annoyed that he'd invade her privacy. The
librarian walked up behind them again.
"If you're not here to
do work, could you two please leave?" She threatened in a hard
voice. Liz felt her face burning and quickly collected up her
stuff.
"That was really embarrassing," she told Todd in
an irritated tone as they left the library.
"I'm sorry. I
just don't see what Watts needs to text you for," Todd admitted
jealously. He couldn't believe the persistence of the guy. Sure Liz
had been slightly interested in him when they were apart but now they
were back together.
"He's still my boss at the station,"
Liz reminded him. She couldn't see what Todd was feeling so jealous
about. She got her mobile out and finally got to read the text. "See
he just wants to talk to me about a story," she said waving it
in front of Todd's face.
"I'm sorry," Todd said,
embarrassed. He felt even more stupid now. "But you know he
still likes you." He wanted Liz to make it clear to Tom that
there wasn't any future for them.
"Well that's his problem,
not mine, or yours." Liz left Todd and headed to the WSVU
office. "Tom," Liz called, walking in cautiously.
"Hey
Liz," he replied casually. Now that he was face to face with her
he wasn't sure he could handle this. He didn't want to work with
her again.
"So, what did you want to see me about?" Liz
asked nervously, sensing his reaction wasn't entirely
positive.
"Alex Rollins came to see me earlier," Tom
began to explain. He didn't want her thinking she he was doing this
just so he could spend time with her.
"Alex?" Liz
interrupted with shock. As far as she'd been aware Alex hated Tom.
"What did Alex want to see you for?" Tom sighed and sat on
the edge of his desk. He didn't think Liz was going to like this
but he might as well just get it over with.
"She's worried
about the story that you said you'd do for her," Tom told her
bluntly. He was half tempted to cover his face with his hands to
protect himself from her reaction. Liz was independent and stubborn
and wouldn't like someone else muscling in on the story even a
former work partner.
"Why
is she worried about that? I promised I'd do it and I'm working on
it," Liz wondered confused. Surely Alex knew she wouldn't let
her down.
"But it's been quite a while since the story on the
athletics scandal. If you don't get it out soon it won't have any
effect and the university will get away with it," Tom reminded
her, not quite being able to resist returning to his role as her
boss.
"Well, it's not like I don't care," Liz defended
herself. "I want Todd back on the team as much as Alex wants Mark
to be back on it." Tom's face tightened slightly at the mention
of Todd's name. "Besides," Liz continued, deciding to
ignore his reaction. "If Alex was that worried she could have
spoken to me. She is my roommate after all." Why had she gone
and dragged Tom into this? He was the last person Liz wanted to be
involved with. There were too many raw emotions.
"I don't
think she wanted to worry you. You have been kind of busy lately. You
never come here anymore," Tom finished sadly. He couldn't deny
how much he'd missed Elizabeth, not just because he was in love
with her but as a friend. He didn't have anyone to bounce ideas
off.
"Well I thought you didn't want me around that much
anymore. Besides I've got my own problems at the moment. I'm stuck
right in the middle of Jess and my parents and-." She didn't
really know why she was divulging this much information.
"I
know. I'm not saying it's your fault," Tom placated her, he
only wanted to do the right thing. He was as involved in this scandal
as she was. "Look is there anything I can do to help you with
the story?" Liz looked thoughtful. She did need someone to take
some of the load.
"Well, you could interview some of the
jocks. Most of them wouldn't comment before. I guess they didn't want
to get into trouble and thought they were better off keeping their
mouths shut," she explained. "Maybe now they'll think they
have nothing to lose. Anyone close to them as well. People who might
be able to back up their stories."
"You mean people like
Alex?" He asked, looking slightly distracted. He couldn't get
his brief conversation with Alex out of his head.
"Yes, I
guess so," Liz said in a confused tone, slightly surprised he'd
mentioned her name first. They'd had nothing to do with each
other.
"Do you want me to draw up a list of jocks then?"
She nodded.
"I'm still busy working on getting the Dean to
give me an interview. So far he just keeps issuing the same statement
about university sanctions and regulations. The more time I have to
put pressure on him the better."
Billie opened the door
to her and Steven's apartment and got shock at the familiar face
standing there.
"Chas, I'm really sorry but I've got to go,
I'm in a rush," Billie stammered uncomfortably. She was already
starting to walk out of the door, closing it behind her. She'd do
anything to avoid having this conversation. He blocked the door with
his arm when she turned back around to try and leave.
"You
can't avoid me for ever," he told her sternly.
"I'm not
avoiding you," she lied hastily. In truth she was avoiding him. She
wasn't sure she could trust herself around him. "We just have
nothing to talk about."
"I thought we had a lot to talk
about," he continued in the same tone. It was time for them to
face up to their feelings
"Not anymore," she replied,
trying to convince herself the most. "I'm happy with
Steven."
"If that was true then you wouldn't have slept
with me," he said in a harsh tone.
"That was a mistake,
I was upset. It meant nothing." Billie copied his voice, trying
to sound as firm as possible so he'd believe her.
"I don't
believe you."
"Well you should because it's the truth."
She couldn't bring herself to look into his eyes. This was one of
the hardest things she'd ever had to do. She'd betrayed everyone
including herself. She'd thought she had principles but apparently
not.
"I -," he started to argue. He wanted them to
become a couple, he didn't want her to turn him away. She forced
her way past him, determined to finish it once and for all.
"Just
leave me alone," she shouted, running down the corridor so that
she wouldn't have to look at him.
"I'll tell Steven,"
he threatened, yelling back down the corridor after her.
"You
wouldn't." She turned around again, shocked by his threat. She'd
never expected this from him.
"Why not? I'd be doing you a
favour. You can't stay with him."
"You're wrong and you
wouldn't dare," she muttered angrily, sounding certain as she
started walking down the corridor again. But secretly she wasn't
certain at all. She had no idea what she'd got herself into.
