The Sliver of Light in the Dark
Chapter 6
Disclaimer: I do not own anything Twilight related, they all belong to Stephenie Meyer.
Summary: What if Bella didn't survive Renesmee's birth? What would Edward do? Would he kill himself and leave Renesmee without both her parents?
Author's note at the bottom! Sorry for any spelling mistakes!
EPOV
Not being able to cry was torturous. I wanted to be able to shed a tear for my beloved Bella, to show her (although she would never see) how much I love her. I was still able to sob, tearless sobs.
The dreaded date came. It was a lot harder then I thought it would be. I thought I could put on a poker face and try not to break down. I had to look at the ground alot to maintain my focus.
The ceremony was beautiful. Alice and Esme had thought of everything and it was perfect. Alice started with a speech about how she and Bella became best friends and would always be sisters no matter what. Esme and Carlisle talked about her lovely personality and how Charlie and Renée must be so proud to have her as a daughter and how they both loved her like one of their own. Emmett was the hardest to watch. He would say how he would tease her all the time because he finally met someone who was just like a little sister to him. I could see the pain in his face and how much he was trying to hide it. Charlie and Renée were second to last and they talked about basically Bella's entire life. From how excited they had been to find out they were parents to everything she did. Renée was sobbing close to the end and couldn't finish her sentence so Charlie took over, but the tears escaped him too. If i could cry, I would have been sobbing like a baby. His sentence still rang in my head.
She had so much faith, in everything she did. Her heart always saw the best of anyone and that's what i'm going to miss the most.
Renesmee was on my lap the entire time. She was confused about everything. I didn't have the heart to tell her what she was witnessing and she was too frightened to know the answer. She clearly saw the pain on mine and everyone's faces.
It was finally my turn to go up and make a speech. I looked down at Renesmee and she clinged tighter to me, not wanting to let go. I clutched her tighter and made my way up the stage.
"I would like to thank everyone for coming today. It means a lot to my family and myself. Honestly, I don't even know what to say, where to start, what to do. I see her body in front of me and I know i'm at her funeral, but how can you wrap your head around the realization that the one you love is gone forever?" I briefly closed my eyes and swallowed back the sob that wanted to break out.
"She's everything to me. She would always make me smile by just smiling at me. She was the only one who would put up with my temper and calm me down by just holding my hand. I loved that I could stare into her eyes and see her soul and see goodness and kindness." I looked at Renesmee.
"She's the one who brought this little rugrat into my life. When my birth parents died, my brother and I were split apart. So about a week or two ago I get a call from a court and they informed me that my brother and his wife had too passed in a car acciedent. This little girl here was the only one that survived. So Bella, still sick, was practically boucing off the walls with her excitment about this little one, so how could I deny both of them a chance of having a family?" I looked back at the crowd.
"Bella will always be present in all of our lives through our memories. Once again Thank you." With that said I walked off stage and everyone clapped.
I took my place next to Bella's coffin. Everyone lined up next to me. First Alice and Jasper, Emmett and Rosalie, Esme and Carlilse and lastly Charlie, Reneé and Phill. I held Renesemee tightly to me. Everyone that attened the funeral was lined up in front on Phill and everyone gave us their regards.
After what felt like forever, the last person gave their regards and left. Reneé came up to Renesmee and I.
"She's so beautiful, Edward. I'm sure you guys would have made great parents, but you're going to be the best dad." She leaned on her toes and kissed my cheek.
"Thank you Reneé. That means a lot to me." I closed my eyes and swallowed the sobs once again. She patted my cheeks and turned to Phill and they walked towards their car.
Charlie came up to us next and put a hand on my shoulder.
"I'm sorry about your brother and sister - in- law. They have one beautiful baby girl, she looks so much like Bella." I nodded my head.
"Thanks Charlie." He nodded, gave my shoulder one more pat then made his way to the cruiser.
Wordlessly Alice took my free hand and together we walked towards the my volvo. Before getting in, I passed Renesmee off to Jasper as he got into the back seat and made my way to the driver side as Alice got in the passenger. Esme, Emmett and Rosalie all got into Carlisle's Mercedes.
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I walked in to my room and place Renesmee on my bed. The day had been long as she quickly fell asleep when we arrived home. After kissing her forehead goodnight, I ran downstiars and picked up the vase with Bella's remains and ran back up to my room. I placed in on the nightstand closest to where shey normally layed, where Renesmee curantly lays.
"Goodnight my Bella. I love you." I turned off the lights and layed besides Renesmee. I closed my eyes and let the memories of Bella flood my mind.
Author's note: So what do you guys think? I kind of had a hard time writting this chapter. I rewrote it like 3 times. I hope you guys liked this one. Review please! The more reviews, the faster chapter 7 wil be up!