Author's note:

Wow, this was pretty fast. Here's chapter five for you guys! Let me just say one thing: Let's hope Tori can get rid of this annoying person...

I used another awesome song in this chapter: Falling by Tyler Ward 3

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CHAPTER FIVE

ALMOST DOESN'T COUNT

BECK'S POV

I almost jumped when I heard my phone ringing. What? NO! God damn it! As I opened my eyes all the striking distance between Tori and me was gone. She had taken a few steps back and looked quite confused.

"Sorry" I whispered. I was such an idiot. Awesome, Beck Oliver, awesome as always... You just ruined the perfect chance to kiss the girl you love!

"Hmm" was all she replied. Then she ran her hand through her hair and bit her lip. I gave her a last excusing look and then pulled out my cell phone. I almost froze when I realized who was calling. Jade. Shit! I was about to kiss the girl I loved and of all people it was my current girlfriend who hindered me from doing so? Ugh, that was... awkward. But then again... Shouldn't I be lucky? I mean... What the hell was I thinking? I had a girlfriend, I couldn't kiss Tori. Yeah, I wanted to kiss her, but I wasn't allowed to do so. Besides, she was kinda drunk, right? She didn't know what she was doing. I couldn't take advantage of that, I couldn't be that selfish. After all she was still my best friend... And to put our friendship on the line for one single kiss she didn't even really want would be... insane.

"It's Jade" I finally said and looked up again. I could see sadness in Tori's eyes, even though she tried to force a smile. "I think I better pick up. I don't want another fight tomorrow."

"Um, sure, okay. I go and look for a place to sit." And with that she turned around and tumbled away. I got the sudden urge of holding her back, but I shook it off and quickly left the living room. Time for another fight, I guess... Awesome. God damn it, what a great evening.

TORI'S POV

As soon as I had turned around and started walking (if that was even the right word in my situation) away, I already regretted it. There was still this "thing" between Beck and me in my mind, that had happened a few seconds ago. I couldn't believe what just had happened. Or almost had happened... Oh my... Tori, you almost kissed your best friend! Are you insane? Yes, I definitely was. But I couldn't help but getting this weird feeling in my tummy. Butterflies. No. Please not. God, what have I done? I was such an idiot! Okay, I think I need some alcohol!

I didn't know how I got up to this, but the next thing I knew was that I had three cocktails too many. Well, at least the reasonable part of me knew that... The desperate part of me didn't even want to think of stopping this weird crocked-phase I had right now. It made me forget everything. And that's exactly what I needed now. I didn't want to think of my stupid Beck-problem or everything else, I just wanted to have fun. And these cocktails actually made almost everything pretty funny.

With an absent-minded smile on my face I tried to make my way through the crowd to find a place to sit. I still hold the glass of my last cocktail in my hand. Gee. Was it already empty again? Oops. Hahaha. Oh, Tori, Tori, Tori. You little addict. I giggled and tumbled forward, even though I couldn't recognize where I was. Oh, wait. That looked like Cat's sofa! Uhh, Cat's empty sofa! Well, no, not empty. There was a boy I didn't know. But... whatever. There was still a place for me to sit! Yaaay! I almost fell over the table as I finally reached it. With a bright grin on my face I turned to the stranger next to me, shoved my empty glass in his face and asked with a begging voice:

"Heeeyy there! Would you mind bringing me a drink? – Any drink?" I fluttered my eyelashes what probably didn't even look half as sexy as I thought. I almost froze when I suddenly realized who was sitting there. Sinjin. Oh no! I quickly wanted to pull my glass back, but he was faster. With a bright smile on his face he took it and then looked at me full of enthusiasm.

"Tori!"

There was a voice inside my head telling me I should leave as fast as I could, unless I didn't want to start talking about the weird stuff that kept popping up in that boy's mind. But considering my state that was definitely easier said than done. As soon as I tried to stand up I could feel a heavy weight in my head and not a second later I keeled over onto the couch again. Damn it! Stupid alcohol! I refused trying to do that again, so I just sat there and acted like Sinjin wasn't here. But that obviously didn't hinder him from talking to me anyways. I sat through his babbling for a while not willing to listen to what he was actually saying, which didn't seem to bother him at all. Then I finally turned to him and pressed my empty glass into his hand.
"Shut your trap and bring me a drink! Now!" Wow. That actually worked. Sinjin immediately stopped talking and without saying a word he stood up and disappeared. Yay, Tori. Rudeness works after all...

Maybe I should learn a lesson from Jade. At least she always got what she wanted. She got Beck, right? And he's all you could ever want... Argh, someday I'm going to kill her for that, I mean it! I wasn't rude and aggressive usually, no, I actually was quite the opposite. But that girl caused some sort of sickness in me. And I just couldn't help that feeling of hate and... yeah, jealousy. And someday she'll pay for that. – Okay, no... I wouldn't try to kill her, but... I've already started filing out some crazy plans of revenge. And one of them will work. You'll see! Well, whatever. Back to reality again. And back to my crocked ego...

I just sat there for a while see-sawing impatiently. My head still felt heavy and things suddenly started to rotate. God, damn it! No, please not! Uuugh... I hardly tried to ignore it, but that was easier said than done. I closed my eyes trying to convince myself that everything was okay, even though I knew that nothing was okay. No, Tori, please don't vomit! Please not!

"Here you go, Tori!" If I had been able to do that I probably would have jumped. Sinjin had appeared out of nowhere and offered me another cocktail. I gave him a confused look and then gazed at the glass in his hand. Should I? No, Tori! Stop drinking! You don't want to chuckup, do you? The reasonable part of me screeched. But then again... Who cared? I needed to forget this whole Beck-Jade-Tori-shit! And if that was the only risk I'd take... I'd put up with that. I grabbed the glass and downed its content with one gulp. Things immediately started to rotate again. I hiccupped. As I finally turned around to face Sinjin I almost froze when I saw him sitting only a few inches away from me.

"Sooo, Tori, tell me: What am I getting for bringing you your drink?"
"Hmmm?" was all I could say. Where was this leading to?
"I think, you should do me a favor..." This meaningful grin on his face didn't please me at all. And this uncomfortable feeling proved to be true as he suddenly approached even more and pursed his lips.
"Oh my god! No, no, no, no, no! No! No way!" I shrieked and didn't hesitate to jump up. That was a mistake. As soon as I stood on my feet again everything seemed to become blurred. I stumbled forward and before I could fall I hold on to the first avaiable thing I could grab. That this "thing" was supposed to be Beck's arms wasn't part of my plan...

"Tori! Ah, thank god, I thought you left! I was looking for y-" I cut him off with a hug. I could feel him hesitating but then he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close. "Heeey, what's wrong? Are you okay?" He whispered into my ear. I shook my head and backed off. He gave me a concerned look, then grabbed my hand and pulled me with him. I didn't know what he was doing, but I didn't even care. When we finally reached the kitchen I was a bit confused. But... whatever. It was much quieter here. He tried to make me sit down on a chair, but I shook my head and just leant against the table. I hiccupped again before I could explain anything.

"It's Sinjin... He... he has tried to kiss me! KISS me!"

"He did what?"

"I asked him to bring me another drink and... he wanted me to do him this little favor. And then I tried to escape from him and... bumped into you. Oh my gosh! I'm so sorry!"

"Hey, it's okay, Tori! I'm here now." He replied and pulled me into another hug. I could feel things starting to rotate again as I looked up trying to face my knight in shining armor. All I could spot was his tousled black hair and the sparkling dark eyes. The dim feeling in my tummy got even worse. Oh shit! I tumbled again and Beck had to grab my arm so that I wouldn't fall.

"Tori, how many cocktails did you have?" He suddenly asked.
"Uhm, I don't know... Four? Five? Maybe more..." I giggled, but as he shot me a mad look I immediately stopped.

"MAYBE MORE? Gosh, why did you get drunk?"

"Dunnoooo, Beck. J-just happened" I lied.
"God damn it, why didn't I keep an eye on you?" He backed off and for an awkward moment I thought he was going to leave me, but he just walked over to the fridge and took out a bottle of water.
"Here" he said and offered me the bottle.
"Th-thanks" I whispered and took a few sips. I forced a smile as Beck gave me another concerned look and then staggered forward. He laid his hands on my waist and pulled me closer.

"Okay, Tori. I think you need some air. Come." And without waiting for an answer he took my hand and pulled me with him. It took us like forever to get out of Cat's house. I almost bumped into every second person we passed and as if that wasn't enough my stagger wasn't helpful either. Beck was holding me in his arms while we were making our way through the crowd. I could see Cat giggling and André starring at us in a rather confused way and it even got worse when Cat leaned over and whispered something into his ear. Why was I so sure she was telling him about the little private girls talk we had earlier? Argh, I'm going to kill her! When we finally reached the door I heard Beck sighing. He softly pushed me outside and made me sit down on the stairway. Then he sat next to me and remained silent for a while. I felt his glance on me but I forced myself not to look at him, even though I wanted to get lost in his eyes so badly. After what seemed like hours he finally broke the silence.

"You feel better now?"

"A bit" I replied. This fresh night air actually helped. At least a bit. My head didn't feel that heavy and I didn't feel the need of throwing up anymore. But then again... maybe it was just because Beck was here with me. His very presence made me feel better. Gosh, he had such an effect on me.

"Good." He looked at me and suddenly pulled me a bit closer to put his arm around me. I laid my head on his shoulder trying to calm down a bit, even though his touching made me wanna jump. I got the sudden urge of kissing him. Oh my... Stop thinking this!

"Promise me you'll never do that again, Tor! I know I should have looked after you, but... Don't do that ever again!" He suddenly whispered.

"I'm... I'm sorry! And I promise... Gosh, you wanted to have fun tonight! And... I'm ruining your plans!"

"You aren't ruining anything, Tori! I wanted to spend time with you. And that's what I'm doing, right?"
"You aren't mad at me?" I asked and looked at him.

"How could I? You're my best friend, did you forget that?"

"Sure... your best friend. How could I forget that?" I forced an awkward smile and then burried my face in his shoulder again. That's all I'm ever going to be. His best friend. I should have known it. How could I ever thought for one single second that there was something more between us? Like when we were about to kiss... Oh my god, the kiss... - almost-kiss... Damn it, didn't I want to forget about that? The voice inside my head suddenly started singing. I didn't even know why. That song just popped up in my mind, even though it didn't fit at all to our situation. It was more like a wish I had... or some sort of illusion.

Will you catch me
Because lately
You're a dream come true
Say you love me
You are lovely
Do you feel it too?

„Say you love me..." I didn't even notice that I whispered this line out loudly. Not until Beck looked at me and raised an eyebrow.

"What?" Oh shit!

"Nothing!" I replied way too fast. He grinned and tousled my hair.

"C'mon Tori, I know you've said something!"

"Umm... I was just pondering something?"

"What?"

"That I better should go home?" Tori! Do you want to convince yourself or him? Come on! I sighed and added: "It's just... I... I still feel a bit dizzy... Very dizzy, actually. And... I'm kinda tired." That wasn't even a lie. I really was tired and didn't feel that well. Plus: At least I wouldn't have to hinder myself from kissing my best friend anymore...

"Oh" Beck murmered under his breath. I gave him a little smile.

"Why don't you just go looking for André or Robbie? Have fun, Beck! There's a party going on inside the house." I tried to laugh but it ended up in a really awkward giggle.

"Nop. I drive you home. You're still a bit drunk and... I just feel safer then."

"You don't have to do that, Beck!"

"I know. But I want to" He said nonchalantly. I couldn't help smiling. Awww, he was so cute. Stop it, Tori. Don't fall even more for him... Argh. Stupid Beck. Way too gorgeous. Nearly perfect.