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Four Months Later

I laid in bed with Edward wrapped in his arms, my brown hair falling over his chest. He leaned in and kissed the top of my head quietly and running his hand up and down my arm creating a nice pattern on my skin. Ever since my year as a newborn mark my life had taken a rather relaxing turn. I still wanted Edward with every crystallized cell of my being, but I was able to have soft moments like these now where we could both just lounge and be intimate and still not be ruled my sensual emotions.

Charlie was now fully settled into the cottage with Nessie, (yes I gave in on the name) and was living a nice quiet life there. I patted Edwards arm and looked up at him smiling a bit before stroking his cheek. "So how many times did Nessie ask you today?" I asked with a slight chuckle in my voice.
Edward rolled his eyes and that adorable half smile crossed his lips. "Only a few hundred or so. She and Alice practically put on a presentation, slide show, skit, and gave me target graphs and data on the topic. Of course Alice saw it as an opportunity for a fashion show on Nessie."

"She came to me first," I said, "but I told her you were the deciding force on the matter." I stretched out in his grip before laughing fully. "She really has gotten out of my hair now and seems to have moved onto you!"

He squeezed my sides in an effort to tickle me, and even though it didn't work I was still reeling with laughter. When all the laughing and tickling was done he let out a heavy sigh and placed his hands back over mine.

"Bella, we really are going to have to start thinking about that, Carlisle is supposed to be entering his late thirties and people are starting to get curious. When I went to the hospital yesterday one of the nurses was thinking that she should ask what anti-aging products we use since they work so well. And a patient actually stopped us on our way out and asked where we had our Botox done! Then of course Nessie will never stop until we finally let her go to school..." His voice trailed off as he was going deep into his thoughts on this point.

I frowned and mumbled about how I knew we were going to have to leave soon, "But what about Charlie, he won't just pack up and leave and after all the times I have left him I can't just abandon him now!"

Edward frowned at me and nodded not wanting to push the subject. The Cullen's had been trying to leave for the last few months now but I was the insisting force keeping theme here in forks. Everyone was able to see how much it was hurting me with thinking about leaving charlie, but he was looking so frail lately, I couldn't just push him away right now. The whole family seemed to have grouped after Nessie though in her quest to go to a normal school and socialize with humans. Edward would always side with me though and until he wavered too they would stay knowing they owed Edward for all the time he begrudgingly left places he liked for them.

He could tell that this subject was starting to bother me and he sent his hands traveling and hoping to turn the subject to a more sensual matter that was bound to thrill me. I smiled at him and leaned in giving him a long deep kiss. He flipped me over on the bed quick as lightning and I was suddenly under him while he held himself just inches over my body our lips never breaking. I ran my hands through his hair and allowed myself to be distracted in the feel of his body.

He left out a deep growl but it was not one of fear or protection but of pleasure. In the distance I could hear the quick patter of footsteps and mentally blocked the noise not wanting to think about anything but my love.

Suddenly Edward broke away from me and turned his head to the door looking at it for a second hearing beyond the doorway. He jumped off the bed and ran swiftly to the door flinging it wide open. I pouted at first annoyed that he was breaking away from me but then my curiosity was taking over. Alice swung herself over the threshold and looked at me though half of her sight was looking past me and into the future.

"Bella!" She said her voice raised too loudly for even human ears. "You have to go quickly!"

I was sitting up in the bed by this point and was going to ask what she was talking about but Edward was quick to grab my hand and drag me straight past Alice and down the steps of the house.

"Edward, what is going on" I was quick to ask while we were practically flying though the living room.

He didn't respond but kept dragging me behind him as he broke off into a run more fit for vampires. "Carlisle will be right behind us" he stated as he started dashing through trees with me quick on his tail."

My mind went crazy with the thoughts, Why would carlisle be comming? Was Nessie sick? Had the wolves finally turned on her? Did Jake crawl into her window to be with her and phase to close and hurt her? I picked up the pace and started to overcome Edward as we were both racing on the well worn path to the cottage. I could hear someone running behind us quickly with a leather bag in his hand. My natural instinct was to stop and protect my back from the intruding person running behind us. I pushed the thought away though with no time as my darling daughter could be hurt.

When we got to the cottage I opened the screen door and almost ripped it off it's hinges before running into the living room. I stopped to look around and was instantly taken back by the scene I saw around me. Renesme was sitting on the floor her head laying in one hand the other wrapped around that of Charlie who was lying on the floor unconscious. I flew to his side rubbing his hands and face and patting it lightly and shaking his body.

"Edward, what is wrong with him?" I screeched when I did not receive a response in my attempts to shake life back into him. He placed a reassuring hand on my arm pressing down lightly to make my grip loosen on Charlie. "Bella he has had a heart attack, but he is not dead." He spoke in a smooth calm voice which I knew was to try and calm me but it was not working.

I flung my body over his torso my hair flipping over his body. The death grip I had on him was tight once again and if tears could come to my eyes I was sure they would be creating a flood around us. A soft arm was placed on my back but the smell was different this time. Carlisle was here and I seemed to be in his way. "Bella, Charlie is not dead but I need to get to him to help" he said smoothly but a hint of urgency stuck in his voice.

I then stopped my hysteria for a moment and listened to hear the faint heart beat that was barely audible even to my ears. I nodded and pushed myself up and looked away as charlies body collided back to the floor. Carlisle came and took my place immidietly listening to his heartbeat, and starting CPR on him quickly. I ran back into Edwards arms and turned my body sideways so I would never lose sight of the scene in front of me. Renesme was still holding his hand her body slumped over and a tear was gliding down her face. It seemed Carlisle was working on him for hours before he backed away. Charlie had still not opened his eyes or responded so I knew Carlisle was not done in getting him back. He placed his hands on charlies neck testing for the pulse before looking at Edward a deep sorrow in his eyes.

Edward tightened his grip on my arms trying to catch my attention. He had to mummer my name a few times before I finally turned to him my face contorted into a deep frown.

"Bella, Charlie has had a heart attack, Carlisle cannot save him, I am so sorry.."

I dropped my head into his chest and started sobbing a tearless cry. My father was dead and I was the one who had killed him. All those years of vanishing in the middle of the night, throwing the words that would break his heart so that I could have my way with Edward, they had all caught up with him and tossed him overboard.

Edward pulled back on my shoulders though and leaned down to reach my eye level, "Bella, we can still keep him though, just give us the word and we can change charlie and you won't have to worry about him leaving us." Edward gave me a half smile only in trying to cheer me up to seeing the new possibilities. I turned back to the lifeless charlie laying on the ground.

My mind started going a million miles an hour thinking of all the possibilities. Charlie as a vampire? I would never have to worry about hurting him or leaving him again. He could be with me and Nessie forever and we would never have to hide things from him again.

As soon as the thoughts crossed my mind though I knew it would never work. Charlie was laid back, liked to fish, drink Vitamin R, and spend time with Billy. His life had only become complicated once the Vampires came into town and he never really wanted to know about us. Changing Charlie would be wrong for him, and doing it for my own gain would be a selfish act in damning him.

Finally a voice straining to speak broke through my silent thoughts. "Bella, love, we need an answer." I turned back to my Edward and shook my head, "No Edward, I cannot force Charlie into this, you all regret being changed so much I cannot condemn him too." He looked at me and then nodded towards Carlisle to back away.

No one pushed me to make sure this was the decision I wanted, we all simply gathered around him and placed our hands on his body. carlisle was holding Charlies head in his lap his eyes closed and his lips moving. He was not speaking so I was unable to tell if there was a prayer coming out of his lips, but I think if any Vampire were to be praying for a human soul it would be carlisle. Edward took the other hand directly across from our daughter and sat next to me cross legged leaning slightly towards me so that I could feel his warmth and comfort.

I was there next to my father and my love, the two most important men in my life and one was about to leave forever. I had gone through losing someone before and didn't handle it well, this was not going to be a clean break like last time. I placed both of my hands on charlies chest, needing to feel his heart and reassure myself I still had moments left with him. Leaning forward I placed my mouth near his ear so I could say my last words to him while there was still thumping under my hands.

thump

"Dad... please don't leave me....

I am sorry that I have let you down so much..."

thump

"I know we were never close...

but you have always been there for me...."

thump

"You were never my knight in shining armor Dad, you were more than that, you were the castle protecting me."

I took a deep breath and realized the weak thump had not come this time.

"I love you" I whispered before kissing his cheek.

Edward let go of my father and placed his hand on my shoulder as I turned back into his arms knowing that charlie had gone forever and I had never really told him these things while he could hear them I let out a wailing cry and was sobbing harder but not reaching the point of hysterics as I had previously. No one spoke a word but sat there keeping a quiet vigil for his soul as the morning sun came up. A mute wake for the life that would never grace us again.

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A/N: Ok so please no hate mail for killing Charlie I needed to do it for the story. Also I get alot of personal e-mails about the stories, thoes are great and thank you but please I would love a review more! So please review!!!!

I sped up the story a bit for thoes who asked!

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