Drowning in Her Tears
All eyes are on her. Well just the Glee clubs' eyes are on her. They give her a knowing look, they all know that Kurt has accused her of stealing. All believe Kurt because he's their friend. Rachel can't show that she's suffering inside she has to give them all glare, so she does. Rachel walks past them and sends a scowl as she walks to the school with Puck by her side.
"Ignore them," Puck tells Rachel.
"I'm not bothered by them," Rachel lies. She zips up her jacket and walks the other direction from Puck.
"Uh, No." He reaches out and grabs her by the arm. "With what happened last time I am not letting you go wonder around by yourself."
"What?" Rachel arches her back. "So what are you going to do? Follow me around-
"Yup, switched all my classes to yours. So say hello to your new Chemistry partner." He smiles at Rachel and drags her to class.
When the two enter the class room everyone who's seated stops to look up. Finn and Quinn sit in the middle at their own table.
"Looks like Queen bitch is back," Rachel mumbles as she focuses on Quinn.
Quinn's pink hair is no where to be seen except her blonde highlighted hair. Her Cheerio's uniform is comfortably perfect on her body again. "Hi," she says in her same mellow tone.
Rachel gives her the cold-shoulder and brushes past her and Finn. She takes the the last table at the end of the room with the crappy tools.
Puck follows Rachel's steps and pasts Quinn and Finn.
Quinn stops Puck and reaches up to grab Puck by the wrist lightly. "Noah, I need to talk to you," she practically sings out to him.
Puck whips his hand away from Quinn and gives her a puzzled look. "What?"
"Just meet me tonight."
Puck removed himself from Quinn and took the seat next to Rachel. "Yup same crazy bitch." Puck refers to Quinn. Rachel smiles at Puck.
"Thank you for finally joining us Miss Berry." The teacher says as he finds Rachel in the class room.
"My pleasure," Rachel says arrogantly.
"Watch your tone Rachel," he finishes and starts to mark on the chalk board.
He walks beside the Jewish girl. They both walk down the hall and look the other way as the Glee club stares them down. It's after lunch and the two have History together. Like the rest of the day they both take the seats in the back.
There's a knock at the door when the teacher starts his lesson. Irritated the teacher opens up the door, welcoming the person on the other side.
"Hello Mr. Bilgen, I need to see Noah Puckerman." It's Mrs. Pillsbury. She's wide eyed and all so Puck follows her out of the room.
"Noah, it seems that you have changed your schedule recently and there was a misunderstanding on your 4th period class. It seems that we have you enrolled in study hall not History."
"Okay, change it to world history then," He says casually and shrugs.
"I'm afraid I can't Puck, your new class is P.E-
"What?"
"Come now, I'll walk you to your next class-
"What about Mr. Bilgen?"
Ms. Pillsbury pushes Puck along as she guides him to the boys locker room. "I'll let him now."
"You don't understand Ms. Pillsbury Rachel's go-
"Rachel has enough on her plate already. Now come along now, or do I have to call Mr. Figgins?"
The bell has rung and Rachel stays planted in her seat as the students spread into the hallway. Lazily Rachel picks herself up from the desk and exits the room as the others do. Masses of students crowd the hallway all traveling to their next class. By the time Rachel brings her body to the hallway the warning bell rings and all the teenagers disappear from the halls.
The only sound in the hall is Rachel's shoes softly tapping against the floor. She passes the classrooms that have the teacher starting their lessons,their demanding voices trying to teach the naïve teenagers lesson. Rachel doesn't give much attention to the teachers, she doesn't really give a rats ass about them, but one voice pulls her to a stop. She turns and looks in a class to see a brunette writing on the chalk board. Ms. Corcoran. Rachel sucks in her breath as she sees her mother turn to her and pause, they lock eyes and stare.
Shelby circles back to the her class, excusing herself for a moment. "Rachel." She closes the door behind her.
"Shelby?" Rachel questions, unsure if she had just seen her mother.
"It's-it's nice to see you," Shelby breathes out with an hesitant smile.
Rachel steps back from Shelby as she processes what is happening. "When, when did you get back?"
"Two weeks before school started."
"You didn't-" Rachel stops and removes her eyes from Shelby. "How's Beth?" she changes the subject.
Shelby can't help but smile at the mention of Beth. "Good. She's good." Shelby nods her head a couple times. "I wish I could have been there when you were a baby."
Rachel bites her tongue from saying a cheeky reply. "You weren't," Rachel replies softly keeping her eyes on the white floors. "You never were and when you were, you left. And then you adopted Beth."
"I didn't know what to do when I was with you. I did-
"I'm not having this talk now," Rachel forbids it and backs away from her mother.
"Rachel, don't! Please!"
She hears the pleads of Shelby as she runs down the hall. The silent tears start to gather in her eyes but she forces them down. Taking shelter in the bathroom stall Rachel sits on the toilet, hands on her knees. Then the door is hit open and feet are heard walking in.
"Can you believe Mercedes and Santana? Switching to Shelby's Glee club?"
"Now we're really screwed without Rachel," Tina replies.
"And Mr. Schue wants us to welcome them with a friendly competition?" Quinn declares out. "Well our number starts at 4 and the trouble tones are going to go after us."
"Better get out those stupid costumes I made," Tina sighs as she turns on the faucet.
"I'll see you later Tina." Quinn leaves the restroom.
Rachel looks down at the to white pills on the palm of her hand. She plays with them in her hand, rolling them around as she thinks of what to do. Finally after Tina leaves Rachel pops them into her mouth and swallows them.
The New Directions clear off the stage one by one as the trouble tones make their way to the stage in their pretty dresses. Rachel closes her eyes at the dresses from the seat in the back. They began their performance with the flashy flickering lights in the background as Santana and Mercedes take the lead while the other girls harmonize in the background.
Rachel has to be honest she quite liked the number and clapped for them as they bowed for the audience. Rachel smirks as she stands from her chair and makes her way to the stage. It feels good to have the stage under her feet with the one spotlight on you.
"Mr. Schue, I'd like to sing a song," Rachel speaks into the microphone.
All the members look at the stage, shocked by her presence. She can't see anyone due to the lighting but she hears Mr. Schue start to talk.
"All right Rachel." he says leery. "Go ahead."
The lights start to get brighter and she can sense her body getting hotter. She doesn't know if that's from the lights or from the pills she popped. As the music begins she starts to breath faster then she can handle.
I'm miss autonomy, miss nowhere
I'm at the bottom of me
Miss androgyny, miss don't care
What I've done to me
I am misused, like I wanted to
Be not your slave
Misguided, high-minded, I'm missin the train.
The music slows. Rachel takes the break to clear her dry throat and calm her heart rate. The light doesn't seem so bright anymore but her body is hot. Before starting to sing she takes off her jacket revealing her tank top under.
And I don't know where I've been
And I don't know what I'm into
And I don't know what I've done to me
And as I watch you disappear into the ground
My one mistake was that I never let you down
Rachel slides her eyes toward Finn and Kurt as she sang the last verse with a smirk on her lips
So I'll waste my time, and I'll burn my mind
On miss nothing, miss everything
I'm miss fortune, miss so soon
I'm like a bottle of pain
Miss matter you had her
now shes going away
She can feel her throat start to turn raw as she continues singing. She hadn't warmed up nor was her voice prepared to sing. The back door of the auditorium opens and Puck enters. Rachel can see that he has a confused look on his face as he travels down the isle to the center.
I'm miss used, miss cunt-strewed
I don't need to be saved
Miss slighted, high-minded
I'm stuck in the rain
And I don't know where I am
And I don't know what I'm into
And I don't know what I've done to me
And as I watch you disappear into the ground
My one mistake was that I couldn't let you down
So I'll waste my time, and I'll burn my mind
On miss nothing, miss everything, miss everything
And as I watch you disappear into my head
Well, there's a man who's telling me I might be dead
Her eyes somehow find Puck's when she sings the last part. But soon her eyes move along.
So I'll waste my time, and I'll burn my mind
So I'll waste my time, and I'll burn my mind
On Miss Nothing, Miss Everything!
At the last note Rachel kicks over the microphone stand on the account of adrenaline pumping through her veins as she flees the auditorium with Puck on her heels. Her heart is thumping in her ears but her ears are ringing which adds more tension. She doesn't know why but her eyes began to collect water and her breath is shortening while she speeds down the hallway. Her back hits the wall and her eyes roll back.
"Rachel!" Puck's voice breaks her out of her head.
She stares up at him with burnt out eyes. "Noah, I don't know what's happening!" Slowly her body slides down the wall and lands on the ground.
"What did you take?" he immediately asks.
"Pain killers. Two." Rachel breathes out as she grabs her stomach. "Noah-"
Reacting, Puck picks up Rachel and puts her over a trashcan as she starts to throw up. "Shit."
There's a scene already. The glee club has paraded out into the hallway gasping at the sight of Rachel. Mike makes his way to the two and helps Rachel stand.
"Help me take her to my truck." Mike nods at Puck as he helps her stand and drag her to the exit.
I decided to update today because of how much feedback I got for chapter 5. I guess reviews do make people right faster!
Chapter 7 is going to have a very disturbed-damaged Rachel; she starts to break.
Now since this story is going to be wraping up I'm going to start another story. I have three stories I'm working on. The first is a horror story to tie in with Halloween. The other is an AU story with the glee members in bands and the glamorous lifestyle they live, highs and lows. And the last is another AU with some of the Glee members in rehab. All will have a Puckleberry romance. Tell me which one you would like me write :) PM me and leave your answer in a review or vote on my profile.
What do you all think about Rachel's breakdown?