Jacob POV

I was going to kill Embry.

Not only had he not knocked first, but then he barges in and interrupts us. Us. Bella and me. Together. Kissing.

It was amazing. Everything I had imagined and more. Bella was the most amazing girl I had ever met. She made me so happy.

We had been on the floor, kissing, and very much enjoying ourselves. She had wanted that as much as I had and then Embry shows up. Damn it. She just looked up at me, apologized, and bolted. She was out the door so fast I didn't even have time to react and stop her. She looked like she had come to a realization; a bad one. Everything was going great and now she was gone.

That was not quite how I imagined my first kiss.

"Embry! What the hell!" He looked down at his feet ashamed. He should be.

"Jake, look, I am unbelievably sorry. I didn't think Bella would be here and I really didn't think you guys would be…uh…you know…"

"Don't say it." I gave him a death glare. "Why didn't you just knock?"

"I'm sorry! I thought you were alone." He said exasperated. He scratched his head and then asked "So…how was it?"

"Shut up." I got up and walked to the kitchen counter and sat down. I ran my hands over my face and grunted. "What did you want?"

"I came to get you. We're meeting Sam in an hour. I was going to stop by and see if you wanted to meet up earlier."

I sighed. "I need to talk to Bella. I cant leave things the way I did"

"You can call her when we get back. Give her a while to cool off and think about things" He was right. I should probably let her get home first.

Embry and I left the house and phased. We ran the rest of the way to Sam's house. I kept replaying the whole scene with the paint, then smelling Bella fresh out of the shower, and then kissing her.

Whoa, dude. No way. I heard Quil as he phased in.

Shut up. It just sort of happened and then Bella left. Don't bother him about it, he feels bad enough. Embry defended me.

Thanks.

We continued until Sam's house was in view. He phased when he saw us through the window. He let out a howl and soon Paul, Jared, Brady joined us. Lastly, Seth and Leah phased in.

You all know that I called you here so that we could run perimeters with Brady. This is only his third phase, so we need to show him the ropes. I am going to have Paul and Jared take him along the trails we picked up a week ago. Embry and Quil can run tactics with him. Jacob and I will run patrol. Seth and Leah, I need you to keep an eye on Bella's house.

I nodded in agreement. We set off on different paths. I envied Seth and Leah for getting to watch Bella's house. I wanted to know what she was thinking and be close to her. I hated the way I ended things today. I had probably messed up big time.

Don't worry, man. You'll fix it. Quil thought.

Why what happened with Bella? Jared asked.

Oh, Jake just… I growled at him, but I was too late. The image of Bella and me on the floor had already slipped out. Now it was playing through everyone's mind.

Way to go man! It's about time. Jared called out

Who knew Bella had it in her. Maybe she and Cullen did more than you think. It looks like she knew what she was doing. Paul mocked. I snarled at him even though he was a hundred feet away. I wanted to rip his throat out for even bringing that up. Good luck. You couldn't get your hands around me even if you tried.

You wanna bet? I took off in his direction, but Sam caught me around the tail and dragged me back in line with him.

Jacob! Get your act together. This is just distracting you. Get focused.

I didn't owe him an apology. I did want to rip Paul's throat out for being an arrogant son of a bitch. He couldn't just act like that and get away with it. Sam gave me an angry look. I let the thought go.

We ran the perimeters and didn't pick up any new scents. This sucked. I could really use a good fight to get my issues out. I wanted this stupid vamp issue to be gone as soon as possible. I hated the thought of putting Bella in any more danger than she already was.

Once Brady was somewhat familiar with the way we patrolled, Jared and Paul showed him some fighting techniques we were working on. This didn't require all of our help, but I was not allowed to go home and call Bella. Embry, Quil, I just sat on the ground. Seth was up and sitting next to Sam, watching very intently. Leah was off in the corner being her normal pouty self. I couldn't blame her though. She had gone through a really hard time and should be mad. I just wish that we didn't have to share thoughts, so I didn't have to feel awkward around Sam like she did.

Once again my mind drifted to Bella. I thought of the way her wet hair hung wavy on her shoulders. I recalled her smelling like me when she came out of the bathroom wearing my t-shirt and boxers. I could still feel her buttery smooth skin as I ran my hands up and down it. Then I thought of her lips, smooth and pink, on mine. I wanted her hands massaging my scalp while running through my hair, like they had before. My brain was consumed with Bella.

Jake, can you think of something else, PLEASE? Leah complained. I ignored her.

Maybe I shouldn't have kissed her in the first place. I couldn't help myself when it came to her. She was all I wanted. I had gotten carried away with her 'massage' and then just kissed her. But then she kissed me back. She kept kissing me. I could feel her clutch to my body. I could smell her. I knew that she had wanted it. But then why was I feeling so bad? Why had she left so suddenly? I knew she had been freaked out by our sudden intrusion, but I didn't think that would freak her our enough to leave. Did she regret it?

I started to freak out a little bit. What if I had misread all the signs and she hadn't wanted me to keep kissing her? It was a very real possibility that I had made a huge mistake. Shit. What if she thought I was some kind of pervert and never wanted to speak to me again? If she thought I only wanted sex then she wouldn't want to hang out with me. Shit. I needed to tell her that I was sorry and that I didn't meant it. Sure, it had been the most amazing experience, but it wasn't worth it if it made her upset. I would do anything to have her talk to me again.

I was an idiot. I had messed everything up.

Don't worry, Jake. Bella will come around. She knows you would never do something to hurt her. Seth added. I had forgotten that my thoughts were on display for the whole world. I am almost positive that there had been comments made, but I wasn't listening. I really didn't want everyone knowing about how turned on how I felt by Bella. I especially didn't want them to know that she was as well. She would be way too embarrassed to show her face around the pack again. They liked to tease her.

I need to call her. I need to make sure she will still talk to me. I just need to hear her voice. Sam was getting annoyed with me.

Go. Call Bella. We will all meet up back at my place. Emily is cooking dinner and we're going to the beach later.

Thanks Sam.

I ran as fast as I could, trying not to think anything more. I heard everyone slowly break apart and phase out. Leah was complaining

…stupid. All he ever thinks about is Bella. She doesn't even realize it. And here I am while Sam and Emily… and she phased out.

Poor her. Then I heard Sam.

Jacob, you and Bella will work it out. Now please, go call her so you can stop distracting everyone with your thoughts.

I didn't answer. I just saw my house in front of me and phased. I changed quickly and ran for the phone. My dad was home,

"Hey son. The living room looks great. You two did a great job."

"Thanks dad. No one called while I was gone?"

"Nope. Are you expecting a call?"

"I guess not." I continued to the phone and dialed Bella's number.

RING, RING, RING.