A/N: Ah, I hoped everyone liked the last chapter. Now that I have finished two of my other stories, updates should be every day or every other day. =)
Chapter 6
Kendall walked back to 2J, with so many questions in his mind. Does this mean that Jett has feelings for me too? Why did he kiss me? Is this why he didn't want to talk to me anymore? Why did he kiss me?
Kendall couldn't get his mind off the biggest one of why did Jett kiss him. It made no sense, he didn't think that Jett was gay, but if he wasn't why would he have kissed him. Maybe he was attracted to him, maybe he wasn't gay but just curious. When Kendall walked into 2J he saw Logan sitting there watching television.
He ran up and grabbed Logan's hand and pulled him into their shared bedroom. "Logan, I need your advice."
Logan raised and eyebrow at Kendall but didn't want to ask why he was coming to him, so instead he asked. "What's going on?"
Kendall paused deciding how exactly to explain what had happened. He finally settled on telling him the end. "Well, I went to Jett's apartment to talk to him and when he walked up to me I shoved my way into his house and then we started arguing. When we were in the middle of arguing he just kissed me. And then when I started kissing him back he shoved me out of the apartment." Kendall was trying to catch his breath because he had said all that as fast as he could push the words out of his mouth.
Logan sat there surprise clearly written on his face and Kendall waited anxiously for his response to what happened. Logan finally sighed. "Maybe that is why he has been avoiding you and acting the way he has been. Maybe he has feelings for you and he doesn't know how to deal with them. You're obviously confused about your feelings, wouldn't it make sense for him to be too?"
Kendall thought about it and while he could see where the genius was coming from it still sounded stupid. "Jett isn't like that though. If he wants something, he goes for it. He takes it by the horns and tries his best. That's just the kind of person he is."
Logan thought about what Kendall had said. "While that is true, you're a confident person too. You and Jett are a lot a like and you are still holding back because you're scared he won't feel the same way, or because you don't know what to do with these feelings either."
Kendall finally saw the logic in what Logan was saying. He knew that he was right and there was absolutely no denying it. "Well, what should I do then?" Kendall asked in a frantic tone. "Should I kiss him? Maybe then he'll know that the feelings aren't just one way."
Logan shook his head almost automatically. "No, don't do that. That might just freak him out more. The best thing to do is just talk to him about what you've been feeling. Tell him exactly what you told me and see what he says. If he doesn't feel the same way then he doesn't. But something tells me that he does."
Kendall knew that his friend was right. The best thing to do would be just to talk to Jett. But for whatever reason, Kendall didn't think that would be possible to do. He also knew that he and Jett would never be friends again if he didn't man up and just say what was on his mind. He nodded at Logan. "You're right."
Logan gave his famous half smile. "I usually am."
Kendall glared at him. "Cocky prick." Kendall stood up and decided he needed to go talk to Jett. He needed to get all this sorted out so he could have some peace of mind, so in order to get his mind together he decided to go on a walk.
Jett sat on a bar stool at his apartment. He was staring off into space and was trying to make sense of what had just happened. I can't believe I did that. Now Kendall is going to know that I like him and he is never going to want to talk to me again. How could I have been so stupid? I had a shot of having Kendall in my life at least as a friend and now that chance is gone completely. Why? Why did I have to be so fucking idiotic and kiss him, why?
To say the least Jett was kicking himself in the ass for doing it. He couldn't handle the fact that he had completely messed things up between he and Kendall. He couldn't believe that he lost his composure and kissed him. He had been doing so well of keeping his head together and in a matter of seconds he had lost it all.
But then a realization came to Jett. Kendall had been kissing him back before he had pushed him away. Kendall was kissing me too. Does that mean...no it couldn't! There is no way Kendall would ever consider anything with me. But then why were he moving his lips moving in sync with mine?
Jett knew that there was one person, and one person only who could talk him down from this. There was one person who could tell him it would be alright and he would believe him. That person was James. Jett pulled out his cell phone and dialed James number. -Yeah, what's up bud?-
"Come over, now. I need to talk to you."
James didn't reply. He hung up and within two minutes Jett was hearing a knock on the door. He opened it and saw that James was standing in front of him. Jett motioned for him to come in and James did. When they sat down on the couch, Jett didn't waste any time telling him what happened. "Kendall came over, we got in an argument and I kissed him. But I was surprised when he started kissing me back."
James' eyes widened slightly. "You know Logan and I were talking and Logan let it slip that Kendall is into you. He just isn't sure what those feelings mean. Kendall wants to find out though." Jett couldn't believe what he was hearing. There was no way that Kendall could be into him. He couldn't believe it. He wouldn't. James continued talking though. "I told Logan that you like Kendall too."
Jett wanted to be angry at James and he truly did try to get angry at him. But no matter how hard he tried, that emotion couldn't rise up. Instead he felt gratitude. He knew that if it hadn't been for James he wouldn't have even gotten to know Kendall, or know this information for that matter. He knew now that Kendall felt the same way he did. He knew that Kendall liked him the same way Jett did him. And Jett couldn't help but contain his smile.
"You're sure that Logan said those exact words to you?" Jett asked, still not fulling believing what he had just heard.
James chuckled. "Yeah, his exact words were 'Kendall admitted he's into Jett…Shit, don't tell him I told you.' I am pretty sure that being said means that he likes you. Why else would have Logan used the word into?"
Jett knew that James was right. He couldn't stop smiling. "Great. Then at least the guessing work is over."
James smiled and then his smile dropped into a frown. "Jett, yo need to talk to him. You need to tell him that you like him, because right now this is just agonizing for the both of you. You already knows that Kendall feels the same, so what's the big deal?"
Jett decided that James was right. He knew that Kendall liked him so there was no point in avoiding or acting like a dick towards Kendall anymore. This information was what he needed to give him that push to make a move one Kendall, a REAL move.
Kendall was now at the pool trying to think of what exactly to say to Jett. He still couldn't be sure if Jett had feelings for him, but that kiss had almost been enough to prove to Kendall that the other male in fact did like him. He wanted to just waltz up and kiss Jett and say "hey I like you, lets go out sometime." But he then remembered that might not work, especially if he was wrong and Jett didn't like him.
Kendall sighed. How the hell am I suppose to do this? I'm going to sound like a complete chick if I just pour my heart and soul out to him. I don't want him to think I'm some pansy or something. Kendall was broken out of his thoughts when he felt his phone buzz in his pocket. He sighed at the distraction and pulled out his phone, expecting it to be Jo. He was surprised when he read, new text message from Jett Stetson.
He instantly pushed the open button and smiled when he read what it said in it. Kendork, I think it's time we finally talk and I mean REALLY talk. Meet me in my apartment. Kendall couldn't help but keep the goofy grin on his face when he saw that Jett had called him Kendork. Sure the nickname at first was offensive but later it became a term of endearment between the two of them. On my way. He typed back and pushed send. He stood up and made his way to the elevator.
Great, now maybe Jett and I can just work things out and if we do we can at least be friends if nothing else. But if he feels something for me, then what? What will that mean for us? What about Jo? As if magic Jo was walking out of the elevator. "Hey you, I saw you at the pool and thought I'd come down and surprise you. I thought maybe we could go on a date tonight." She said with a charming smile.
Kendall couldn't help but panic a little inside. "Normally, you know I would say yes. But I'm on my way up to Jett's. He said that he thinks it's time we talk and try and work out whatever this problem between us is."
Jo couldn't help but frown at Kendall. He could see the disappointment in his girlfriend's face. "Well, can I come with you and we can just go out right after?" She asked in a hopeful tone.
Kendall started to panic more. He knew that Jo couldn't come with him. He knew that if she did it would send him and Jett back to square one and he couldn't have that. Plus he and Jett wouldn't be able to talk about everything they needed to if Jo was there. "I don't know, Jo."
She frowned again. "Well, I mean I would like to spend some time with you today." She said in a hurt tone.
Kendall tried to give her one of his smiles. "And we will…right after I get done talking to Jett."
Jo didn't seem too satisfied with that. "Well, I just don't see why I can't come with you." She said in a pouty voice. Kendall couldn't help but get annoyed at it.
"Look, what's going on between Jett and I is between the two of us. Not you." He said it a little meaner then he had meant to, but he knew his words were true.
Jo's hurt look only continued and then it turned into a scowl. "Fine. You know what, forget our date. Don't bother talking to me again, until you want to be a little nicer." Jo stomped off and Kendall did a face palm. He couldn't believe that he had just said that to her. Can I be anymore of a douche bag?
Jett heard an knock on his door and couldn't help but get nervous when he stood up to answer the door. When he opened it he saw a nervous Kendall standing awkwardly and biting his lower lip. Jett couldn't help but smile when he saw Kendall, knowing that he liked him was enough to make him want to smile and never stop. Jett motioned for Kendall to come in. Kendall sat down on the couch while, Jett stood pacing back and forth.
"Okay, first things first. I want to say that I am sorry for being such an asshole recently. I know that I have been pretty harsh to you and the others and I am really sorry about that." Jett couldn't meet Kendall's gaze. He didn't know if he could handle looking him in the face right now.
He heard Kendall sigh. "Why did you tell me you didn't want to hang out anymore and I want the real reason and also why did you kiss me?"
Jett didn't expect for the conversation to get so heavy, so quick and he didn't know if he could face all this right now. He took a deep breath and finally sat down next to Kendall. He didn't know what to say and he didn't know if he could be completely honest with him. Then he remembered what James said and if that was true, this may have been the only chance he got to finally say something to him.
"The truth?" Jett said hesitantly and when Kendall nodded, he knew that he had to at least give Kendall that much. "The reason I was always so nasty to you was because from the moment I saw you, I was instantly attracted to you. I wanted to get to know you, but I didn't know what me being attracted to you meant. As time went on, I found myself getting more jealous and jealous of Jo. When she finally asked me to get to know you, there was no way I could even refuse. I had to.
"But then I realized that I wasn't just physically attracted to you, I was attracted to your personality too. We're two of the same people. We like the same things, do things the same way and we're both born leaders." Jett had to stop and think of his next words carefully. He took a deep breath before he continued. "As time went on, I realized that I wanted to be with you. I liked you as more then just a friend and I didn't know how you would take that. So I lashed out and wanted you to hate me, so my feelings couldn't develop anymore."
Kendall seemed to be rooted to his seat when Jett looked over at him. Kendall was staring straight ahead and Jett couldn't help but think that maybe he had laid too much on him at one time. "And the kiss?" Kendall asked softly.
Jett sighed again. "I just couldn't take it anymore. I had to do it. I had to kiss you, I couldn't take the fighting anymore. I was tired of being such a dick to you, I didn't want to anymore."
Kendall took all of it in and Jett watched as the blond sat there thinking. "So, you were mean to me because you had a crush on me?" Kendall tried to reason. Jett nodded slowly. "What are we in grade school again?"
Jett couldn't help but laugh. That was how he had always felt when he was done taunting Kendall. He always felt like a kindergardener picking on a cute girl or something. "Well, that's all you have to comment on?" Jett asked nervously. "Is that the only thing that caught your ear out of everything I said?"
Jett saw Kendall finally look up at him. "No, I want to see where we could go. I want to give you a try because to be completely honest, I like you too."
Jett couldn't believe what he was hearing. He gave Kendall his cocky grin, but then something else ran through his mind. "What about Jo?" Jett asked with narrow eyes, suspicion clearly written in the words he had just spoken.
"Well, I would still date her until I knew whether things between us would work or not. There is no need to hurt her unless I have to." Kendall reasoned.
But Jett didn't like that answer. He hated it, to be blunt. "No, you're right. You would only be hurting me. I think it's time you leave now, Kendall."
Jett didn't use his normal pet name for him and he stood up and walked to the bathroom and slammed the door. He didn't hear anything stir down stairs but after a few minutes he heard Kendall get up and then he heard the front door slam. Damn, Kendork.
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