And the longest chapter yet.
I continued hitting my head against the wall in the hope that my skull might just crack open leaving my brains on the already bloodied floor because Alonzo accidentally killed someone and couldn't move the body without the bit of blood still in the corpse to get on the floor. I wish I was that dead women, I bet she didn't have to put up with an insane man and ex-girlfriend questioning her decision to fuck someone, then again if she did tell someone what she probably did with Alonzo someone would have some questions because I handled that corpse and if cloths do in fact make the (wo) man then she wouldn't usually be around someone like Alonzo…Why am I even thinking about the dead girl? I didn't like moving parts of her corpse then and I don't like thinking about her now.
"Oi, Xander." Alonzo said "Can you stop hitting your head against the wall
Oh great, he's back to calling me Xander, let me just get my eye patch and become more useless to live up to this name.
"No. The wall doesn't care about me and Jagger. It just wants to break my head open."
"So it wasn't just a one night thing?"
"From what I could tell that was it."
"Why?" Raven asked
"Why not?" Alonzo asked
I hit my head against my new friend the wall once again because everyone around me is a moron; at least Raven seems to have calmed down.
"I don't know why not, but Raven you didn't seem all that opposed to him…or Phoenix."
"That was you in a purple wig!" She yelled
"You didn't know that, and damn it you were attracted to me in a purple wig and sunglasses and I told you it'd be better not to go because I knew what I was doing and you are just a human and you know what happened why bother going over it"
"Because Alonzo would like to know…" Alonzo said
"Alonzo finds out later."
"Alonzo is happy."
"And Alexander is in love with a wall."
"And Jagger."
"Fuck you."
"Okay then, tell Raven to leave and—"
I continued trying to make a head shaped indent in the wall.
"Okay fine, don't fuck me; I'm fine with that as well."
Head. Wall. It's still not breaking.
"Why are you still here?!" I yelled at Raven who just stepped towards me
"Because I think that if we could just talk now that I don't want you to turn me into a vampire it could be—"
"No, please just leave…I don't want to have to say it again. We've been done. I've been repeating myself over and over. It can't work between us again."
"He has—" Alonzo started
"I don't have Jagger!"
"I was going to say a potential harem but that works as well."
Raven once again stepped closer to me without saying anything and was pouting…
"It could if we tried…" She said quietly
"What don't you understand, I don't love you anymore. I can't love you anymore; you ruined that yourself by obsessing over becoming a vampire. I've moved on, I've started a completely new life and for the first time in my life actually am rather contempt with my life."
"If the next thing you say is we could be friends I'm going to beat you with one of my boots. Those fuckers have spikes on them, you don't want to be beaten with those." Alonzo said quickly.
"I wasn't going to, at this point I think friendship is well out of the question after tonight. I don't know what to think of you, Raven. Maybe I do have Jagger now, I don't know what was going on that night. Everything has changed since last year and it's fucking apparent just from once again, Alonzo's apartment, mine isn't much better…I don't have as many crazies living with me but Alonzo fits right in with them."
"I do not fit in with the axe-murderer lady!"
"Dead girl." I said.
"One dead girl and I'm a horrible murderer!"
"Not horrible just a murderer."
"She tasted so good though…"
"I know but we are supposed to try not to kill people because it draws attention to us. I'll take your word for her tasting good but drinking enough to kill someone…yha."
"I usually don't kill people."
"I know, you are usually carful and just make them think it's a normal and they haven't lost a bunch of blood."
"And I hadn't eaten in awhile…"
"I know, you've already explained to me and Onyx when we helped you hide her body."
I looked at Raven and she looked kind of repulsed by this conversation, probably because it's not being talked about like it was all that bad.
"He killed a woman and you helped him hide the body…" She said
"Yes, it happens, he'd have done the same if I accidentally killed someone.
"Why is this even something to consider?"
"Vampire." Alonzo said "We drink blood…Blood makes things able to live, we are like leaches in that we need to eat it although unlike leaches it isn't visible if we haven't…unless you are Dracula and then you are just awesome enough to get away with that."
"We don't make as good pets as leaches though…" I said, thinking out loud…I like my pet leaches, though I wouldn't like pet vampires because we are far harder to train.
"No…" Alonzo said slowly "Unless you're into that sort of thing."
"I didn't even think of it like that" I said.
"But she's dead, a woman is dead because you—"
"He got a bit carried away." I said "It's not that big a deal and now he might know what people do when they are dying from blood loss. It happens to the best of us."
"You say that like he cheated on a test or got a bit to drunk."
"I was a bit too drunk at the time, so it could happen to anyone" Alonzo said
Raven backed away from Alonzo into the useless kitchen
"You didn't think about the blood drinking did you?" He asked "Only about no garlic and lack of reflection? Not the primary source of life…" He started laughing "You're a fucking idiot aren't you! I killed someone, yes, and I regret it, I feel horribly guilty that she had to die because I got a bit carless because I tried to eat and have sex at the same time and didn't notice she stopped living! You didn't think about things like that did you! I've been a vampire my entire life! I didn't get a choice to have to live off blood! Did it ever cross your little head that blood is the source of all life! It's just that humans are lucky enough to get to have mitosis of blood cells which for some reason we don't have despite being able to heal which is the same damn process!"
Okay then…his rant included simple biology…I don't even want to know where he's going
"Why the fuck do we have mitosis and meiosis everywhere else besides blood cells! Fuck we can have children until the day we die and women even start making egg cells and yet blood no! Nothing! This isn't fucking fair! And yet I kill one woman out of lack of self control because I want to live and you act like it's horrible and yet you've undoubtedly had blood before! And what's worse you CHOSE to be this!" Alonzo punched my friend the wall, putting his fist through it. "How fucking dare you talk to me like you are better when you had a choice to live as a human or die and live forever as a leach!"
"Is Alexander that fucking important to you that you would give up everything to live this way?! We have to put up a little masquerade every day! Our lives are shit because we can't get regular jobs due to that sun and you will understand that soon enough!"
Raven continued to back away from him until she hit counter, her eyes wide
"This is exactly why I hate our main way of reproduction and this stupid vampire craze because now everyone wants to be a vampire and no one thinks about it not being all that great!" He leaped towards Raven and instinctively I ran over and stopped him from attacking her
"Let me kill her! I've killed one woman another won't be too bad for me!" He roared
"Alonzo, crazy axe-murderer downstairs!" I yelled hoping a completely random phrase might distract him
"Fine, I'm just as bad as her I don't care, I just want to see this bitch deader then she already chose to make herself!"
I continue to try to hold him back but Alonzo is possibly a bit stronger then me, and Raven had to back into a corner…
And I still love Alonzo who is the one man spotlight steeling squad...I didn't intend that to happen.
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