AN: So thanks for the reviews! And to answer your question Sirius doesn't think that he can be a good husband because of his upbringing. He doesn't think that he really knows how to act in a real relationship. So that's why he's got so many problems in this story...

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Chapter 5- Happy Holidays?

Christmas 1980

"Look at the camera, Harry!" Gia said as a baby Harry Potter played with wrapping paper on Christmas morning. She took a picture and then Lily picked up her baby.

"Are you being a good boy over here with your Auntie Gia?" Lily asked giggling the baby and Harry gurgled at her as Gia took another picture.

"He's been an angel." Gia said and absently put a hand on her stomach glancing over to where Sirius was standing by the fireplace talking with James, Remus, and Peter.

"Oh. My. God." Lily said and looked at Gia with wide eyes and an open mouth. The boys looked over at the pair of them.

"You two alright?" James asked looking over at the two women.

"We're fine!" Gia said quickly and Sirius looked over curiously. She blushed. "Just girl talk." The boys all pulled a face and returned to talking amongst themselves.

"You're pregnant, aren't you?" Lily asked in an undertone, giving Harry his favorite toy to play with in order to distract him.

"I am." Gia said relieved to have finally told someone.

"I take it Sirius doesn't know yet." Lily deduced by the way Gia kept looking nervously over towards the fireplace.

"I haven't told him." Gia confirmed. "I can't. He doesn't want this. He never even wanted me." She admitted in an undertone.

"That's nonsense. Maybe he wasn't thrilled about everything at first, but he really cares about you Gia. He'll be thrilled about the baby." Lily said earnestly and Harry took her momentary inattention to pull her hair. "Ow." Lily pulled her hair from Harry's grasp. "You see how he is with Harry. He'll be so excited to have a child with you." Gia shook her head stubbornly.

"Lily. I just know that there's something going on he's not telling me about. He's out late, not happy…I-"

"How far along are you?" Lily interrupted seeing that Gia was working herself up into a state.

"Three months."

"Look. You should tell him. He's busy with the Order and everything but when I got pregnant, James asked for Dumbledore to-"
"What's the Order?" Gia asked before Lily could continue.

"Didn't Sirius…Don't you? I thought for sure he'd have told you-"

"No." Gia said and she felt tears coming to her eyes. She wiped them away impatiently with the back of her hand. "I've got to go." She said in a falsely cheerful voice.

"Gia, don't go. It's Christmas!" Lily protested.

"It's fine Lily." She gave a forced smile. "I'll come by and baby sit for you guys so that you can go to the party-"

"Gia. Don't-"

"See you." Gia said with one last fake smile and dashed for the door, needing to escape. She quickly grabbed the broom that she and Sirius had used to travel there and wrapping her cloak tightly around herself, sped towards home.

When Gia arrived home, she was cold. It had just started to snow a few minutes before she had gotten to their flat. The flight home had given her a chance to think, to wonder why she'd gotten so upset about Lily knowing something about Sirius that she didn't know. And Gia could only come to one conclusion…

She loved him.

She loved the life he had given her since she'd arrived in England, the friends that she'd made through him, and how he'd made her feel cared for and even valued. But tonight, somehow everything had suddenly felt like a lie. He didn't care about her how she had begun to care about him. He obviously just thought of her as someone who was pleasant to be around and convenient in the bedroom.

But even after realizing this, she still loved him.

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Sirius laughed at a story Remus was telling about one of his students at the school her was temporarily teaching at. Apparently the boy thought of himself as a prankster.

"But this lad is nowhere near as bad as you two." Remus said with a chuckle pointing between James and Sirius. "To think all those years of watching you two pull off elaborate pranks would thwart the next generation's plans." They all chuckled.

"What's wrong Padfoot?" Peter asked as Sirius looked around the house distracted.

"Where'd Gia go?" Sirius asked seeing Lily playing with Harry by the tree but no sign of his wife.

"Maybe she went to the kitchen." James said with a shrug. Sirius frowned and went to the kitchen to check. The other three marauders exchanged glances.

"Is he still pretending he doesn't care about her?" Remus asked with more than a bit of impatience in his voice. James shrugged in response.

"Pretty unsuccessfully." James snorted as Sirius came back over.

"She's not there." He informed them a bit of a pout in his voice.

"Maybe Lily knows where she went." James said with a bit of a smile. Sirius didn't notice the looks his friends were exchanging and went over to where Lily was playing with Harry. "He's pretty bad about pretending he's not interested."

"Yep." Peter replied and they all watched as Sirius cursed and hurried from the house.

"Well. Happy Christmas mates." James said with a grin and met Lily's eyes across the room. They only hoped that this would end well for their friends.

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Sirius had apparated home after realizing that Gia must've taken home their broom. Using his wand he unlocked the door and was surprised to see Gia sitting on the couch in the dark, the only light coming from the flickering television set as she watched an old Muggle Christmas movie.

"Gia?" Sirius called quietly and she turned to face him. He was a little surprised by the coldness in her eyes.

"Oh. I didn't expect you'd be home for a few more hours." She said in a distant tone. He hesitated but then moved to sit next to her frowning when she shifted away from him.

"Why'd you just leave without saying anything? If you'd wanted to go, I would've come with you back home." He said and was somewhat surprised at the bitter laugh that she gave.

"I can take care of myself." She said and Sirius rubbed his face somewhat nervously, feeling that he was on dangerous ground.

"I know that." He said after a moment of silence and moved to take her hand, but she stood up abruptly. He stood up too, beginning to feel his temper rise. "What's wrong with you today? Why won't you talk to me?" He demanded.

"You won't talk to me! That's the problem!" Gia exclaimed and he frowned at her.

"I'm trying to! Can't you see that!?" He roared. They looked at each other defiantly for a moment, both of them glaring at each other.

"What's the Order then Sirius?" Gia asked, the fight draining out of her. She was tired of playing games. Sirius blanched at her words.

"What're you talking about?" He asked and Gia merely shook her head.

"You don't trust me." She said flatly.

"Gia." Sirius said reaching for her again, but she stepped back.

"No. It's fine. I-I- was just mistaken. It's as much my fault as yours." She said in a defeated tone.

"Let me explain." Sirius started, but she shook her head.

"It's ok. You don't have to. I think I'll go to bed now." She replied and quickly went to her room. Sirius heard the door click shut and found himself wishing that she'd slammed it. There was just too much resignation in that almost inaudible click.

"Dimmitt." He muttered to himself and went back to James' house. He had to ask his best friend's opinion. And if that failed, he had to at least yell at Lily for letting it slip about the Order. Weren't they supposed to be a secret organization?

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When Sirius got back to Godric's Hollow, he was chilled from riding his motorcycle. But he's always found that riding it had calmed him down. He knocked on the door and soon James let him in. Lily was just coming down the stairs from putting Harry to bed.

"Padfoot. We had a feeling you'd be back." James said with a half smile.

"Yes. Even if it was just to yell at me about telling Gia about the Order." Lily said with a wry look and Sirius couldn't help but smile at her. There was just something about Lily Potter that made it impossible to stay mad at her.

"I should've told her ages ago." He muttered and ran a tired hand through his hair.

"Why didn't you?" James asked stretching out on the couch. Lily sat next to him and he put his arm around her.

"I don't know." Sirius admitted and sat in a chair looking at the Christmas tree lights blinking at them. Lily and James exchanged a look that went unnoticed by Sirius. Lily faked a yawn and stretched her arms.

"Well, I'm going to bed." She said giving James a quick kiss. She turned to Sirius. "You need to talk to her, Sirius. Soon. With the world like it is-" Lily trailed off with a shrug before going upstairs.

"She's right." Sirius said when Lily was out of earshot.

"Yeah." James said. "She usually is." He sent a smirk towards his best friend. "I'm just surprised you agreed so easily Padfoot." They both chuckled.

"Well. I've talked to her about it a little bit." Sirius admitted and James looked at him curiously. "After Harry was born."

"How do you feel?" James asked nonchalantly. Sirius gave him a cheeky grin.

"What are we, women now? Let's go drink a pint at the pub or something. Maybe play some Quiddich in the snow?" James laughed.

"Alright, alright! Let's get the brooms. You gonna stay here tonight or go back to your woman?"

"I'll stay here. I wanna make some plans and I don't want her to overhear." Sirius said and grabbed a couple of brooms from James' closet. "Let's play!" And they both played Quiddich into the night, as Lily watched them with a fond smile from her bedroom window.