Heeey there you sexy people… didn't want to post this chapter so quickly, but since its already written why let it collect dust for a few more days and not post it… so here it is the next chapter… So I might have given it away in the last chapter, but yes you are all right and you will find out when you keep reading and I know you all might hate me and I'm sorry, but like I said it's the way this story was originally going to go and trust me I hated writing it because I never like writing a story where Brooke is hurting bad and when this story idea popped into my head I actually never saw myself writing it, but here I am…
So anyway please keep reading and let me know what you think.
I woke up in pain… like serious pain… I started to scream… Lucas came running in from the living room turning on the light I see all the blood covered sheets and that was when I actually knew something had happened to my baby. I clutched my stomach as the pain got worse. Lucas flung back the covers wrapping me up in a cover he had grabbed and carried me to the car.
Before I knew it I was in some sort of room at the hospital lying on this bed that was not comfortable what so ever. Lucas was sat beside me with tears in his eyes. I knew it… I knew my baby was gone… just by looking at all that blood. No baby could survive after all that blood, but why me?
"Lucas…" I whisper "Luke"
"I'm sorry" he grabbed onto my hand and moved a piece of hair out my face "Oh Pretty Girl… I'm so sorry"
"No…" I shake my head as new fresh tears exploded out my eyes and down my cheeks "Oh god… Please no"
"I'm sorry Pretty Girl… you've lost the baby" My heart broke and I could feel it break in two… Not like when Lucas and Peyton broke my heart, but different… this was way different. I slowly moved my hand out of his grasp and turn my head to face the white wall when I heard the door to the room open and then close.
"I'm sorry I took so long Mr Scott" A lady with black hair says sitting in the chair by my bed "Brooke sweetie I'm so sorry for your loss"
I give out a loud sob and run my hand through my hair not saying anything. My crying says it all. My sight was still looking at the white wall. I just wanted to go home.
"When can she go home?" I hear Lucas's voice.
"Erm… well she can go home in about an hour" The lady replies typing at the computer.
"Okay thank you Doctor Valerie"
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"You'll have some more pain for the next week or so Brooke, so take these twice a day" Doctor Valerie tells me, but I still say nothing so she hands the pills to Lucas who thanks her again "Take care of her Lucas and I am sorry once again"
With that Lucas guided me outside to his car. Brandon and Peyton had come up for about 2o minutes until Lucas sent them home and then Haley came for about an hour, but Lucas sent Nathan to come get her and he promised to let her know how I was once I woke up. Lucas opened the door for me and I got in, put my seat belt on and looked out the window hugging my jacket to my body thinking about what I just lost and I couldn't get the image of all that blood out my head…
"So you hungry pretty girl?" Lucas asks pulling out of the hospital car park. It was now 8:00 in the morning so I was at the hospital for 8 hours to only get told that my baby had gone and most of them hours I was passed out… properly from seeing all that blood and when I don't respond I feel him looking at me "I could take us to my mom's café for breakfast" Still I say nothing.
It didn't take long for Lucas to drop conversation when I wouldn't reply he finally got the message that I didn't want to talk. He parks in my driveway and turns the engine off. I unclick my seat belt and climb out the car and head to the house in a very slow pace.
As usual the door was already open. Lucas was behind me. I open the door and walk in to be greeted my Brandon, Peyton, Haley and Nathan. They were all looking at me with sad eyes. With pity written all over their faces and I hated it. I hated that they pity me. I don't need them to pity me. I walk pass them all and head up the stairs to my room when I heard Brandon call after me "Brooke… wait… I haven't…" They all came running after me and stopped when they saw me stop at my bedroom door with the door open. My bed was covered in blood. It look exactly like it did last night.
I just stand there not saying anything. I hadn't shown any emotion since I stopped crying at the hospital about an hour before I got discharged and I hadn't said a word to anyone since Lucas told me I lost the baby. I just stare at my blood stained sheets and all the anger I felt from everything comes flooding out and I see RED! I stalk into my room and grab all the sheets from my bed "AAARRGGHH!" I scream throwing them out of my room watching as they hit the floor like everything was going in slow motion "AARRGGHH!" I yell again when I then take all the pictures of Peyton and myself and chuck them out my room along with the pictures of Lucas and me "Why me?" I question not to anyone, but just out loud "Why fucking me?" I scared myself with all the screaming I was doing. Everyone was just looking at me not knowing what to do and then I slammed my bedroom door and slid down it pulling my legs up to my chest and I cried "Why me?" I sobbed and I didn't stop for days.
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LPOV
A month… it's been a month and I haven't seen Brooke nor have I talked to her and that isn't because I'm hiding or because I don't care anymore. It's because she hasn't come out of her room ever since I watched her have a breakdown and I don't think it was all because she lost our baby, but I think it was everything that she was feeling from me cheating with her bestfriend to her brother sleeping with her bestfriend who is currently pregnant with her niece or nephew to her losing the baby she wanted so badly even if abortion did pass through her mind at the beginning.
I have feelings too and I'm hurting just as bad as Brooke is. I lost something too… I lost my little girl or little boy. I just wish that I could take away the pain she is feeling and somehow show her that it will get better, but I can't… I've seen her hurt before and I've seen her broken, but never have I seen her as broken as I did at the hospital or even in the car on the way back. I just wanted to hold her and tell her everything will be okay, but I'm not sure if it will be. Don't get me wrong I know Brooke is a very strong person, but when she found out I cheated she nearly broke down, but now she has broken down and I'm not sure she'll ever be the Brooke Davis everyone knows and loves again… maybe this has changed her… maybe the broken heart she has now will never be able to mend and I hate that she feels any sort of hurt. I just wish I could take it all away and we could be like we use to be and I just wish she was happy like she used to be… I know I screwed it up; her losing the baby was just the thing that pushed her over the edge.
-xx-
It's gone... My baby is gone... They keep telling me that it isn't or wasn't my thought, but here I am laying on my bed in my room closing myself off from the world and blaming myself. I was carrying it. It was inside of me and now I just feel completely empty. The one thing I loved the most and now it's gone and I couldn't do anything about it. That night replaying through my head. My bed soaking wet with blood and then hours later the doctor telling me that my baby was gone and that she was sorry.
I got discharged last month and since then I haven't left my room. Everything just makes me so mad. All the anger I had from months earlier came flooding back. Seeing Peyton still pregnant with my niece or nephew made me even more mad and upset. I couldn't stand looking at her even if she was once my bestfriend. I've had my heartbroken before, but this was and is different. This is a whole new heartbreak. My life has been shattered and will never be the same again.
"Brooke…" I hear my brother call from outside my bedroom door. I locked it all those weeks ago and only went out for something to eat and drink. I didn't want to ever face the world again, so I do my school work online and submit it that way. I don't give an answer just shut my eyes and cry some more "Brooke please come and eat with us"
"Go away Brandon" I shout poking my head out of my covers and pulling the cover around me tighter "I just want to be left alone"
"Brooke you haven't been out for a month. That isn't healthy" Brandon's voice is heard again with some other mutters that I couldn't really hear "Brooke please"
"No Brandon" I shout again "Just leave me alone!"
"You must be hungry Brooke" I sighed to myself dragging my still tired self out of bed and opened my bedroom door to see Lucas, Peyton, Haley and Brandon standing on the other side of it. Walking pass them I head down to the kitchen and grab a diet soda and a banana.
"Happy" I hold up the items in my hands and show him "Now I'm going back to bed and I don't want to be disturbed" I say passing them all again and heading to the stairs.
"Brooke baby come out with us" I stop in my tracks and turn to look at him.
"Come out with you" I shake my head with a bitter laugh "Come out with the guy who cheated on me with my bestfriend who is dating my brother and is pregnant by him... No thanks" I turn again and walk to the stairs "I think I'm better off in my room"
"I thought we got through all that Brooke" Lucas says with a hurt expression on his face making me laugh a little more.
"Are you actually being serious?" I ask shaking my head again "Don't act like you wanted me Luke. Don't act like you weren't only with me because of the baby, but now there's no more baby you don't have to pretend to love me. You're free to go" I shrug "As for Peyton we were never friends and never will be again. You betrayed me twice and I'm not sticking round for the third time which is why on Friday I'm leaving for California for 6 months to clear my head"
"Brooke..." He goes to say something else, but I cut him off.
"Nah its okay Luke I knew this was all too good to be true. It's not like either one of us wanted the baby anyway. It was an accident, so don't worry about it" I tell him somehow with a straight face on "Just know my love for you was all real"
"You can't just leave" Brandon says and I turn my eyes to him.
"I can and I am. My flight leaves at 12:00am" I shrug "I submit my work online so nothing is really stopping me anymore"
"What about us Brooke?" Lucas sounded so sad, but right now I don't care. I'm doing me now, no one else, but me, me and me.
"There is no us Luke" I reply "I'm leaving and that's all there is to it. You're free to go now Broody. Live your life and I'll live mine. Be happy Luke. Just be happy" I tell him before running up the stairs and to my room and I act like I didn't hear him mutter that he 'Is happy with me'
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So lying to everyone might have been the wrong move, but that's the only way I could get out of here without saying the emotional goodbyes I know would happen if they found out my flight leaves in about 4 hours, but I also know that Brandon will call my Aunt Sasha to have her confirm that I was really leaving, so I knew I had exactly about half an hour to get out and head for the airport.
I had my bedroom door closed and locked for a reason. I wasn't only hiding away from the world, but I was also packing all my stuff. I had about 3 suitcases all packed. I looked around my room remembering all the memories I once had. Everything had changed now. It's funny how much has changed in the last 9 months.
I hear my cell phone ring. I jump over my pink suitcase and grab my phone on the forth ring. California line.
"Hello" I slide the lock on my phone to answer.
"Hey B" It was Rachel. Typical… she always did have the gift of ringing me when I was extremely busy "You all packed?"
"Yep" I look at my almost empty closet "I'm all packed and ready to go. I booked a cab for half 12. Should be here soon"
"Good good" I could hear the glee in my cousins voice. When I rang her just after I lost my baby and told her, she just listened to me and then she suggested for me to come to Cali to clear my head away from Tree Hill and without thinking about it I jumped at that idea and brought my ticket "So Mom had something come up, so she let me borrow the car and I'm coming to get you"
"Okay" I shuffle around my room looking out the window for my cab "I should land at half nine"
"I'll be there quarter past" She says in a cheery tone just as my cab pulls up outside.
"Okay Rach well I gotta go cabs here" I tell her quickly "I'll see you soon"
"Yeah cool bye B" I hang up putting my phone in my jean pocket as I go to grab one of my suitcases and start to lug it down the stairs.
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"6 months..." Lucas says sitting in a booth at his Mom's cafe with Peyton, Haley and Brandon "That is way too long to clear her head"
"We know that Luke" Peyton responds rubbing her rather big belly.
"She'll be gone 6 months" He just couldn't believe his Pretty Girl was leaving for 6 months.
"Maybe she won't go" Haley says with a small smile "Maybe she'll stay"
"Nah" They all look at Brandon who was holding his phone in his hand "She's going"
"Yeah that's what she says now" Haley mutters "Maybe he'll change her mind"
"No Hales she's going" Brandon shakes his head "Aunt Sasha just confirmed. Brooke brought her ticket this morning and she and Rachel are going to go and pick her up at the airport, but she did lie about one thing"
"And what's that?"
"Her flight leaves in about 4 hours"
"Wait... What?" They all jump out their seats and head for Brandon's car and heading back to Brandon's and Brooke's home.
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As I was lugging my suitcases out of the house I see Brandon's car park up in fast speed with Peyton, Lucas and Haley in tow. So he called Aunt Sasha just like I knew he would. I lug my last bag to the cab which the driver puts in the boot for me. I thank him with a smile then walk back into the house grabbing my normal bag and jacket then shutting the door. Lucas was the first one to be in front of me "You're leaving now?"
"Yep" I reply putting my jacket on then slinging my bag over my shoulder. I circle him and head to the cab waiting for me.
"But you said Friday"
"I also said I was okay with you sleeping with my bestfriend, but hey never mind aye" I respond walking down the drive way.
"Brooke..." I turn to see a teary eyed Haley walking towards me. She is properly the only one I like right now "Don't go"
"I have to Hales" I tell her bringing her into a tight hug "I'm gonna miss you Tutor Girl"
"I'm gonna miss you too Tigger"
"Stay" I hear my brother mutter beside me "Please"
"No" I shake my head coming out the hug with Haley "I have to go. I need to leave"
"Brooke..." Peyton said next, but I just cut her off.
"I'll be back in 6 months Hales. I'll see you then"
"But that's a very long time" She replies wiping a tear from her eye "It's a long time to be gone Brooke"
"Yeah I know, but right now I can't be here" I open the cab door then look back at them "I'm sorry for lying about my flight, but it's the only way I could leave without saying bye"
"Why?" Lucas muttered walking closer "Brooke... Baby... Please stay"
"This is why I wasn't gonna say bye Luke" I tell him wiping a tear from my cheek "I hate goodbyes"
"You make it sound like you're never coming back" He pulls me into him and I wanna fight. I wanna fight him so bad, but I can't. I just can't "I love you Pretty Girl... I love you so much"
"Luuukeee..." I pull away "Please... Don't do this"
"Brooke..."
"I-I have to go" I then get into the cab and close the door. Lucas still standing so close. I lean forward to the driver "Airport please" I say before leaning back in my seat clipping my seat belt in and waving bye to him, Haley and my brother ignoring the blond blue eyed girl I once called my bestfriend.
So there it is… I know it sort of happened faster than any of you would have thought, but I really didn't want to drag it out and make Brooke look all depressing, but I also wanted her to look like she had broken completely… I know you all think I properly should have done at least one chapter of Brooke feeling hurt and blocking everyone out, but I didn't want to do that I wanted to just get it out there… she lost the baby, she breaks down a little then she acts all brave and puts a fake smile on and acts like she's okay when in reality she isn't and I'm not sure if you all see it, but I do reading it over at least 5 times.
I also put a Lucas POV in this chapter because I think it was important to see what Lucas is thinking and this story is all based around Brooke when its meant to be a Brucas story so I'm needing to put LPOV's in there now and again… so bare with me.
Anyway as usual let me know what you think and click the REVIEW button below… Thanks. Love you all loads… Roch xoxo