There's going to be a time jump in this chapter.. Well actually two just keep reading.. You never know what might happen...
That Monday was one of the worst days of our lives. I don't know how I got through it. After I got released from the hospital we tried to get back to normal somewhat. Jon went back on the road two weeks later and I joined him a month later. I decided I wasn't going to torture myself by sitting in the house I was going to try and get back to normal..
6 Months Later…
I was sitting in catering with Brie who had just given birth to her and Bryan's first child, A baby girl who was only 2 weeks old.. I was holding her when Jon came up behind me
"Hi beautiful" he said kissing my head before sitting down He watched me closely as I held the fragile little newborn
"Isn't she cute?" I asked him
"yeah..She's very cute" He said I could see the look in his eyes, I passed the baby back to Brie
We were on the bus that night..
"I saw that look on your face.." I said to Jon while he was at the fridge
"What are you talking about?" he asked me getting water from the fridge I stood up
"I saw the look in your eyes when I was holding the baby today… It was sadness"
"You were sad too! I saw how you watched Brie take care of her and I know for a fact that you wished it was you" He said
"Yes I do.. I wish I had my baby! Not a day goes by that I don't want her back! But guess what? She's not coming back! We have to accept that and carry on with our lives and try to be happy again!" I said with tears coming down my face
"How can you be happy? Our daughter is dead! She's gone!" He yelled
"We are going to be okay! We are going to have a baby! I don't care what we have to go through! We are gonna do this!" I said grabbing his hands and wiping the tears off his cheeks. I was having a hard time with this yes but it seems likes Jon is handling it way worse than I was
With that we started trying. It's crazy how difficult it was. I don't understand how I can unexpectedly get pregnant and then when we try to get pregnant we don't get anywhere..
6 Weeks Later:
"What about adoption?" I asked while we were laying in bed Jon looked at me
"I love you so much.. That's an amazing thing and I would adopt a baby with you in a second but we're getting married in three days.. We need to focus on that for now.." He said I guess he was right we need to focus on our wedding and a baby will come when the time is right.. I just hope it's soon..
Wedding Chapter coming next.. Are you ready? What did you think of this chapter? Let me know!