Lily woke up to a room of white. Turning her head and moving a little, she saw James asleep in the chair next to her. She smiled as she watched him sleep. Thinking back to earlier and what had happened mad the tears flow. As she silently cried, she continued watching the marauder hoping Remus was right and James cared for her, loved her. While Thomas was holding her, she saw how scared and determined the Head Boy's eyes were. She saw how he was trying to save her. She knew se haw Thomas and that was what stopped him. She didn't know how or what to tell him. If he asked her out right, Lily knew she wouldn't couldn't lie to him. He meant too damn much together. She realized she had fallen for him when she saw him fight the Death Eaters, that was why she tried getting to him. If he got hurt, Lily thought she'd go crazy. She couldn't and wouldn't see him like that, ever. The red head closed her eyes to ease the pain in her head. A moment later, she felt someone grab her hand.

"Come on, Lil. You need to wake up for me. I don't know what I'm going to do without you here. I can't think about it. You mean too fucking much too me. If you leave me, my heart will follow you. I think it's always belonged to you. I love you."

Lily heard every broken work and felt ever emotion through his voice. Squeezing the stag's hand, the red head opened her eyes to see hazel ones staring back at her. "I love you too." she whispered. The smile on his face made her smile just as big. The boy leaned down and kissed her forehead. "How are you feeling?"

"I've had worse. How long was I out?" she replied.

"Two days and what do you mean you've had worse?" he answered, trying to stay calm.

Lily sighed, "I'll tell you when I get out, I promise."

"Oh, Miss Evans…you're awake."

"Yes, Ma'am." Lily replied looking toward the nurse. The nurse was new this year. Her name was Madame Pomfrey and she was really nice. She asked James to wait outside for a moment while she checked Lily over. After she was finished with the look over, she asked the head boy back into the room. "Mr. Potter, the Head Girl is free to go. However; she'll need rest. I'm going to ask Dumbledore and Professor McGonagall to let the both of you out of class tomorrow. She doesn't need to be alone."

James nodded. "Yes, ma'am. I'll take good care of her."

The Head students smiled as they linked hands. The Head boy used most of his weight to carry the head girl, helping her walk back to their living quarters. On the way, James used a two-way mirror he'd gotten from Sirius for his birthday so that they would have food waiting on them. They walked in to find their mates waiting with loads of food for Lily. James walked her over to the sofa and sat her down, taking the seat next to her for himself.

"Thanks for the food." Lily replied, taking the plate Remus made for her.

"How are you feeling?" Melissa asked, taking Remus' hand as he sat next to her.

"Had worse, but the pain still feels like shit." she answered as she squeezed James' hand. They sat and talked for the afternoon, everyone filling the red head in on the events of the past two days. Lily was grateful that the Headmaster thought so highly of the that he protected her and James. She would have to remember to thank him.

"Hannah, Melissa…"

"Yeah." the stated together, looking at their friend.

"Is their any way you guys wouldn't mind helping me bathe. My body is really stiff and hurts like hell."

"Of course. Don't be embarrassed about it either." Melissa answered.

"Seriously, Lily. We'd be happy to help you." Hannah added.

Lily blushed. "Thanks."

The Marauders watched as Lily's friends helped their friend to her room.

"How are you, Prongs?" Sirius asked as soon as the girls shut the door.

James sighed. "Better now that she's awake, Padfoot."

"What's wrong?" Remus asked.

"Thomas knew her. How's that possible, Moony?" James asked, looking at his wolfish friend. Remus saw the worry and concern his friend felt on his face and replied, "I think I may know. It's not my place to tell you though, mate."

James took his glasses off and pinched the bridge of his nose. "Yeah, Moony, I know. I'm going to talk to her later."

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The girls helped Lily out of her clothes and into the porcelain tub. The water was warm and the Head Girl slid all the way in, submerging her head and bringing it out.

"We've got you bags. We thought you'd want to give James his gift when you woke up." Hannah told the girl as she came out of the water.

"Yes, but I think I'll save them for Christmas. Thank you." Lily smiled, taking a rag and soap from Melissa.

"That guy…he's your step-father, isn't he?" Melissa asked.

Tears threatened to fall as she nodded her head yes. The two girls reached over and hugged their friend.

"Does Jay know, yet?" Lily whispered.

"He knows that you know him, but not how." Hannah whispered back.

"He's gonna hate me. I don't know how to tell him." the girl stated looking at her friends.

Melissa smiled and moved a piece of wet hair from her friend's face. "James loves you, Lily. Explain to him what happened. What Thomas did. There is absolutely no way he can blame you for that. It wasn't your fault."

"Thank you." the Head Girl smiled as Hannah washed her hair and cleaned her body. After they rinsed their friend off, Hannah and Melissa helped Lily back into her room and into some clothes.

"Do you want us to lead the guys away?" the blonde asked before helping Lily back to the common room. She nodded. When they got to the common area, Lily sat back down next to the stag. James immediately put his arm around her and held her to him.

"Come on guys. Let's give Lily some rest." Hannah state, pulling her boyfriend's hand.

"Okay. Bye, Lily…we'll come by later." Sirius stated.

Remus walked over and kissed her forehead. "It'll be fine."

She smiled and nodded, silently thanking her friend. Peter waived and followed the couple out of the room. Lily leaned her had against the marauder's shoulder.

"You feel better?" he asked, kissing the top of her head.

Lily took a deep breath. "My mother remarried when I was ten. After a while my step-father started making me touch him. The day my letter arrived, I lost my virginity. Christmas was worse. He would hit me and throw me around before raping me. On my first summer home, he made me give him head. He would punch me until I got it right, took the whole bloody summer. Each holiday was worse. I got pregnant during Christmas fifth year, and that's how I knew about Lyndie. Mel and Hannah helped me hide it. Remus figured it out because of his heightened senses. The day my step-father found out, he threw me down the stairs. The baby died. I almost died myself. He became more violent after that. Called me a whore and that the boy I was sleeping with would get hurt for getting me pregnant. Every time I would tell him it was his baby, she sliced me on my leg with a butcher knife…always in the same spot…" She could finish the story. Feeling ashamed, she turned her head away from the boy holding her. Lily didn't even realize she was crying until she felt James move her face to look at him. James cupped Lily's face, wiping tear with the pads of his thumbs. "he wont touch you again, Lil. As long as I'm able, he'll have to get through me to get to you." James than pulled her close and held her as she cried herself to sleep pulling the head boy into slumber with her.

I forgot to put this at the beginning of the story. I DON'T OWN HARRY POTTER. I'm not that cool.