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We all know that wonderfull women that created this great world and that hot Viking XD
For the lyrics in this chap I really had no idea what the hell the guys are singing.. rape/rake/break..fuck! I really couldn´t find anything right in the www So I choose one of them. Please go and listen to the song...its so damn great.
Just for your information, I named my Bass Dai (after daisuke from dir en grey) and just thought Mara would love to use him ^^
Thanks again to my amazing, brilliant, wonderfull and lovely Beta TrinityIsis.
I just love you sweetheart.
This chapter is for all my readers out there, thank you guys ^-^
And now..have fun.
Eight month later
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Eric POV
I never found out what happened to her.
No one could.
After a month I saw an TV-Interview with them, accidentally.
And there she was, sitting on in of the chairs...smiling and answering the questions.
It was strange to see her but not to know how she was.
After all she was alive and still human.
She was mine, and she got away...something that never happened to me before.
The only person that could tell me about the happening of the night was Tess.
But I wouldn't dare to ask her.
I was never so obsessed with someone, and I couldn't even find a reason why with her.
And that reflected in my behavior.
The humans in my club were more afraid of me since ever and even Pam told me that she was sick of it.
So I pushed that annoying human aside and went on with my live.
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Mara POV
I loved our new home.
Tess done such a good job with it.
Without her help, we would be still living in New York without a management.
And damn, our manager Steve was freaking awesome!
But all together... Hell yeah!
The house were we all lived in was so fucking huge.
I even had my own bathroom right next to my enormous bedroom.
The recording studio was just a blog away and we could use it as often as we needed.
It was all like a huge fluffy dream.
But still...something was missing.
And I had no idea what it could be.
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Tess became a dear friend, not only for me also for the guys.
She helped us with everything and the only repayment she wanted was a gig now and then at her Club.
I really loved her for helping me, and the band, and couldn't wait for our weekly Girls-Night.
Since I lived here in Indianapolis we tried to meet every Wednesday just for talking.
Something I really don't wanted to miss anymore.
It was like having a big sister that's watching over you.
Sure, the guys still were like bloodhounds when it comes up to a guy that was into me, but with her it was better....way better.
And today was one of those Girls-Nights.
I slept the hole day, after all I changed my daily rhythm for the band to work in the studio with them the hole night, and after I got ready in record time I was still late.
"I'm sorry Tess. Overslept again." I told her while I was trying to catch my breath.
"I'm getting used to that. The first round is yours."
We walked into the Bar and found a nice place in a corner.
First we started to meet at her Club, but she also needed some time away from her job, so we found a Bar close to my new home.
"So tell me, how is it going with the album?
"Pretty good. The release will be in a week. And my song will be on it, Steve love it!"
"How couldn't he, its awesome. Who knew that you're such a great singer." she said with a huge smile while waving for the waitress.
"And don't forget your promise. The release will be at my Club."
"Sure thing. But...Well, there is something I need to talk about with you."
There was always something that I needed to tell her, the same old record.
"It happen again?"
I just nodded and lid a cigarette while she ordered for us.
"It creeps the shit out of me. Why the hell do I dream about him? How can I forget about that ass when my fucking mind still wants me to remember?"
She laid her hand on mine and gave me a warm smile.
"Sweetheart, don't worry. I told you its normal, after all you've been thru with that guy. He's an old Vampire, so his blood is very strong."
I sighted and remember what I had dreamt of him the last night.
It was always the same kinky dream.
"You know, I really thought it would stop after I drank from you. Hopefully it will stop soon. Or I should get myself a good therapist."
"No need for that, you got me. And believe me, even if I'm a bit younger than him, you still are free now."
Yeah free, as long as I don't count the bond that I have to her.
Sure she helped me a lot with that, after all what Shithead done to me.
God I just hated him.
And luckily I got rid of him.
But still...
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Eric POV
Days like this pissed me off.
First Sookie runs me wild about her upcoming wedding with Bill.
Than Pam got into this marriage feeling and started to help her.
So the both of them were now sitting at the bar, looking thru magazines and planning everything.
And the Police was watching Fangtasia after the death of some Fang bangers.
I was damn close to a boiling point and had the deep wish to hurt someone.
Chow wasn't a help either.
He just done his job and that was it.
I leaned back in my chair and tried to relax when Chow came in.
"There's a package for you."
He just handed me the small brown package and made his way out.
Smart guy, he really knew that he shouldn't bother me at my current state.
Annoyed I threw the package on my desk.
Probably another damn job from Sophie-Ann.
I sighted and knew I had to open that damn thing.
So I grabbed it and stopped.
There was no sign from Sophie-Ann on it, just a normal postal stamp from a private courier service.
I opened it and all I found was a CD and a flyer.
No note or anything.
I took the CD and looked at it.
The first thing I saw was the name of the Band...her Band.
Who would do that, sending me a CD from them?
I grabbed the flyer out of the package and read it.
There was again the name of the band and the Album title, but also a date for a release concert in Indianapolis.
Tomorrow night in Tessa's Club.
The flyer was also a ticket for the concert.
Who the hell would want me there?
I couldn't believe that Mara wanted me there.
After all, I didn't heard a single word from her in the last eight month and I no longer had a bond to her.
Tessa sent me a note for some month, but just to stay in touch.
But she didn't told me, that she was also in contact with her.
Damn!
Eight month...I didn't spend one thought about her.
Well I tried to, but there were those moments when my mind just wanted me to.
It was strange, and on those days I really was a menace to anyone.
Pam also tried to avoid me on those days.
She stopped talking to me about Mara when I threatened her to send her to Alaska for a decade or two.
That human was kicking the edges of my mind and I tried my best to forget about her.
Something that really gone well for a while.
I had fun with some others, but still...
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Mara POV
The release would be tonight, and I was so damn jumpy.
Steve wanted a small change in our style, nothing drastic.
So I spent the afternoon with one of the girls from the costume section, running thru every store the City has, to find me some stuff.
I was never a shopping person, pretty much to her chagrin, and so I was rather annoyed about it.
The girl just dragged my from one store to another and ended my torture with a visit at a beauty salon.
After hours, wich felt like years, I was on my way home with more bags in my hand than I wanted and a new hair style.
Okay, my new hair style was awsome but I would never wear most of those clothes in my private.
I flung the bags on my bed and walked into the Bathroom.
The plan was easy, a nice long shower, a good DVD, a burger and than the concert.
I wrapped my now long hair up into a wild bun, got undressed and went into the shower.
A shower was always a good thing, but since Dallas, it made me think about him...every time!
I really hoped Tess was right about the bond.
Maybe it would took his time until he was out of my mind forever.
Sure I could asked her if she would glamour that Shithead away from me, but I wanted to remember.
As lucky as I could be, I would do the same shit again when I would meet him somewhere.
And I would probably ran into him someday when I would pay Jess a visit.
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"Wake up princess, or you'll miss the show."
I felt a cold hand on my shoulder and opened my eyes.
Mick was standing behind the couch and looked down at me.
"Damn! What time is it?"
Fuck, why the hell did I fell asleep.
"You have an hour to get ready, so hurry up."
I got up and walked over to my closet.
"I like your hair, suits you better than the pink."
"Thanks. Can you get Dai and bring it down in the car?"
I asked him while I was trying to get my outfit out of the shopping bags.
"Sure thing."
And with that, he grabbed my Bass and walked out of my room.
I pulled the jeans and the shirt out of the bag and went into the bathroom.
After I put on some lotion, I got dressed and ran down the stairs.
I had still enough time to put on some make-up in the Club.
The guys were waiting at the front door, and the moment I jumped down the last steps I earned some strange looks.
"Damn Mara, you look like bait!"
Thomas eyed me for some time with a huge grin.
"Thanks man. Lets go then."
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Eric POV
What the Hell was I doing?
I booked a flight to Indianapolis and was now on my way to the Hotel.
Sure I could stay at Tessa's place, but I had other interests.
After all, I would meet her at her Club and could say I just wanted to surprise her.
That even sounded to me lame, but I needed a excuse to be there.
The hole way long to my hotel, I was thinking about Mara and how she would react when she sees me.
I really had no plan of going there, but Pam found the invitation and the CD and told me to.
She gave me the choice of going to the concert or stay and get involved in the wedding planning.
And everyone would have booked a flight then.
After she and Sookie became close friends, those both were a pain in the ass.
The driver stopped the car in front of the hotel, opened my car door and bowed his head, not daring to talk to me or even lay an eye on me.
Anubis Airline really knew how to treat their costumers.
I still had some time before the concert starts and I wanted to be there even later.
So I checked in, walked to my room and ordered some food.
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Mara POV
We still had one hour before we had to be on stage, but the line in front of the Club...DAMN I never believed that someday this would happen to us.
Tess told us to use the backdoor and so we parked the car behind the Club and went in.
Inside the Club was the feeling like being inside an giant anthill.
The Human employees were still stocking the freezers and get everything ready behind the bar and our stage got his last light check.
We made the Sound check yesterday night so we had nothing to do than just wait.
I walked over to the Bar and hopped onto one of the stools.
"Hey Sue, hit me!" I called to one of the Bartenders I knew.
She just smiled at me and made my drinks ready.
"I still don't like it. Drinking before the concert, you should change that someday."
"Fuck that Steve! I don't get hammered, I just drink to relax."
Steve was a great Manager, but when it comes up to alcohol he was like a mother.
He took the stool next to me and ordered himself a coffee.
What a douche!
"I love your new look. It's more you...Are you nervous?"
Sue brought me my beer and the Southern on ice while he asked me the dumbest question I had ever heard.
"Hell no. I love to be on stage. And after all, we do that shit for some years now. I guess, you're nervous?"
I took a sip from my Southern and watched him.
He was perfect dressed for opening a Bank account.
Grey suit, matching tie and his light brown hair so meticulous groomed that no one would ever believe that he works in the Music Industry.
"I'm never nervous. The concert is sold out and the preorders for the album are high enough. You see, no need to be nervous or worried."
With the big smile he took his coffee cup, which Sue brought while he was talking, and raised the cup in my direction.
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Sadly Tess wasn't here yet, but after they told us they would start to let the audience in, we walked back to our little room.
I really wanted to talk to her before the concert, but as it looked like, that had to wait.
The last minutes before a concert were always loud and we made a lot of jokes.
But this time we stayed silent.
We knew this was our first concert under a management, and we had tons of stuff to take care of.
So I sat there, sipping my beer and watched the guys.
The last time I was in this room was after my encounter with Shithead....just some meters away.
I sat on the exact same couch on which John had put me.
All the pictures flooded my mind again and I took a big gulp from my beer to get them away.
Fucking Asshole!
Eight month by now, and still I could get lost so easy in my thoughts.
It was almost normal for me to wake up after a nasty dream about him and wished he would stand in my room.
But it never happened...
I really tried my damn best to forget him.
Going out on Parties or in Clubs, meeting guys, even Vampires...but still it wasn't the same.
I hated myself for being so damn addicted.
Tess told me to use those feelings for doing something productive, creative...
So I wrote a bunch of songs, which strangely really helped and lucky me the guys liked them.
And tonight I could share my thoughts with everyone here.
I wasn't heartbroken and I never would be one of those musicians, but the way we met, our little strange vacation in Dallas.. it was far away from heartbroken.
It was more a pretty mean pain that hurt me deep inside.
He told me I would be his, he was so different in Dallas and than that girl.
DAMN! FUCK IT!!!
I shook my head to get those damn memories out of my mind.
Now was really not the time to think about HIM.
We had a show in a view moments and I had to concentrate on that.
For my release the door swung open and Steve came in.
"Well then, lets get the show started."
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Eric POV
After I had my dinner, which was served in a well looking package, I made my way to the Club.
I walked over to the entrance and could hear the band playing inside.
A strange feeling was building up inside of me but I kept on walking.
The doormen let me in without loosing one word or even checking my invitation.
I walked thru the small entrance hall and the music grew louder, also the screaming support of the audience.
The Club was full, awful warm and the smell in the air disgusting.
Sweat, alcohol and a mixture of different perfumes.
I took a small look around until I found her.
Tess was standing at the bar and talked to one of her human waiter.
I walked over to her, laid my arm around her waist and hissed a small hello at her neck.
"Northman, what gives me the pleasure?" she asked without looking back at me.
"Business I had in town. Thought a little visit would be nice."
She turned around and looked me right in the eyes.
And again, that women was just stunning.
"You choose a pretty good night for a visit Eric. As you can see, I have a full club and I guess an old friend of yours is also here. What a coincidence."
I just shrug and told the waitress to bring me a TB.
"If you don't want me here, just say so. I just thought you would like to have me around while I'm in your Area."
With a dirty grin she sat down on one of the stools and looked up to the stage.
"You know pretty well that I like to have you around me. Where are you staying?"
"The Omni Hotel. I thought it would be to rude to ask for your hospitality again
The waitress gave me my TB and I had the chance to take a quick look around.
"You know very well that you can stay at my place anytime. But you have to excuse me, I have still a job to do."
With that she hopped of the stool and walked into to crowd.
I leaned myself at the bar and looked over to the stage.
Lucky me I'm taller than the normal Americans, so I had the perfect view.
But I didn't expected what I was now seeing.
Mara looked complete different.
Her hair was in a light blond with black highlights, which made her look so much more scabrous.
A tight, black, tattered jeans and a black Tank top, which was ripped at the right places marked her as the perfect bait.
My fangs started to tickle and I had the deep wish to just grab her and get her the hell out of here.
I knew she couldn't see me in this dark room, so I had enough time to watch her closely.
She already had the bite marks at her neck, and I dammed myself for coming that late.
I missed the best part.
But I guess that was a good thing, after all I had no idea how I had reacted at the smell of her blood.
Or the fact of seeing someone else drinking from her.
They ended the current song and the audience made the usual noise.
She walked up to one of the mics and gave them a bright, but still nasty, smile.
Thomas, as I remembered his name, stood beside her, his own mic in his hand.
"The next song is from our new Album."
He said with a grin towards Mara and grabbed one of the guitars that were behind him.
"And it will be sung by Mara." he added.
The audience was surprised like me, but busted out in applause and supporting screams.
Mara looked over to Thomas, still a huge smile on her delicious face.
"I try my best, so don't execute me! The song is called Controllable and is dedicated to all Shitheads out there."
And with that, the band started to play.
Did she really said that?
Now I was more than interested and also concerned.
There she stood in the middle of the stage, playing her bass and started to sing.
It was strange to listen to her.
The last time I heard her, she was moaning in pleasure and called me a Shithead afterwards.
But now she was singing with a aggressive tone, which made the lyric more intense.
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I love the way you rape my skin
I feel the hate you place inside
I need to get your voice out of my head
'Cause I'm that girl you'll never find
I think you know all of the rules
There's no expressions on your face
I hope that someday you will let me go
Release me from my dirty cage
I love the way you look at me
I love the way you smack my ass
I love the dirty things you do
I have control of you
I need to feel you
You need to feel me
I can't control you
You're not the one for me, no
I can't control you
You can't control me
I need to feel you
So why's there even
You and me
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I had no idea what I should think about that.
But the way she sung the song, and the way she looked while she was singing, was impressive.
I never, in my hole existence, had those moment where I didn't knew what to do or to think.
But since I knew her, those moments came more often like I wanted them to.
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Mara POV
The audience was amazing.
After I ended my song, they screamed and waved at us.
I was glad that they liked the new song and didn't had a problem with the fact that I sung it.
The only thing that gave me a pretty mean chill was the guy in the back of the Club.
I had no idea if it was just a nasty trick of my mind or a hallucination, but that guy looked like Shithead.
But that couldn't be him. Could it, right?
Why the hell would he come from Shreveport to Indianapolis to our sold out show?
Okay he came to Indianapolis before, but after all what happened between us.
No!
The light was awful, and it was hard to guess how the last three rows of the audience looked like.
So the guy at the Bar could be anyone.
Shithead wasn't the only tall and blond person on this Earth.
Maybe the only one with such a huge ego, but that was it.
My mind just tricked me and I waved away those damn thoughts to go on with the show.
There were still five titles to play and the atmosphere was so fucking great that we probably would give some encore.
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Eric POV
Go figure!
What the hell should I think about that?
My mind was running more than wild, it was a frenzy.
So I didn't noticed that Tess had came back to me.
"See something you like?"
"Nothing impressive, as usual." I respond.
But she just gave me a small smile while she sat down again.
"You never asked me."
Surprised I looked down to her.
Did she really meant what I was thinking?
Without getting an answer from me, she went on.
"Oh stop playing Eric. You know what I mean."
"What should I ask you, there aren't any questions."
"There aren't? Even after that song? She made her point pretty clear, I guess." she said with a mean grin.
I looked over to the stage and back to Tess.
The fact that she knows me so damn well really pissed me off.
While she was watching the band, she let one of her finger ran slowly over my arm.
"The only thing that wonders me is, why you're so close to her now. After all, you never had interest in human friends."
She didn't looked up to my, but waited with her answer.
Probably she was searching for the right words.
I knew it was a stupid question, but I had a bad feeling about the situation.
"What makes you think that?"
"They're living now here in Indianapolis and got a management. I know that you have contact to the music industry, you always had. So don't tell me that all was just an act of mercy."
Slowly she turned around and looked up to me with a cold smile on her face.
"For something that is so unimpressive for you, you know much about it."
"I just heard their manager talk to one of your waitress."
My voice was cold and calm.
I wouldn't let her get me this time, not with that topic.
Tess got up from her stool and was now standing in front of me.
Her hand on my chest got up to my necklace and she started to play with it.
"Oh it wasn't an act of mercy. It was business."
"Business."
"Yes, something you teacher me. Keep your friends close but your enemies closer."
Smoothly she started to walk away, her hand slide over my chest and off of me.
Now I had a pretty bad feeling about this.
"Close like a bond?"
I tried my best to sound casual.
Without looking back at me but still walking, she answered.
"Is there anything closer than a bond? I'll be waiting for you at home."
And with that she walked away from me.
I couldn't believe what she had just said.
That was the reason I didn't felt Mara the next night, and why she didn't contacted me.
I looked back to the stage where she was.
Still doing her job and everyone could see how much she loved it.
I turned back to the Bar to put my empty bottle of TB away when I saw her.
She stood behind the Bar, giving away some drinks and talking to the other girls.
The AB positive girl from Dallas.
The reason for all this.
On her name tag, which was pinned on her chest, was written the name Sue.
Instantly I looked into the direction where Tess has been.
She stood there, with a wicked smile and said something that only I could hear.
"As I said Eric. Keep your enemies closer."
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Mara POV
Man I was full of energy.
I never was that hyperactive after a concert.
We walked of the stage and right back to our room, well that was the plan, but the moment I jumped of the stage, I saw Tess.
She stood across the Bar and was talking to someone.
Finally, she was here!
I ran over to her and almost jumped her.
"Tess! Tell me you saw it..."
"Sure I did. They loved your Song, but how couldn't they."
She answered me with a huge smile and looked over to the bar.
Her expression just changed for a second from happy to devilish, but than back to the friendly smile.
That could just mean one thing, someone she hated was here.
Sure she was a Vampire, but sometimes you could notice some idiosyncrasies.
So I looked over to the Bar and got sick instantly.
He was here...he was really here.
My mind hadn't played a trick on me.
I felt my hole body got stiff when our glances met.
The expression on his face was.. damn I had no idea how I could describe such an expression.
It wasn't surprise or puzzled...it was blank.
Every part of my body screamed at me to walk over to him.
But I couldn't, I wouldn't dare to.
Tess must have felt my little inner fight, cause she laid her arm around my shoulders.
"Lets get you something to drink sweetheart."
She dragged me in the opposite direction to the other bar in her Club.
My hole body felt like it would belong to someone else while I was walking.
Before Tess could drag me into the crowd, I turned my head back to take a last look at him.
Still staring at me, his expression changed.
I could see it in his eyes, there was something...something I knew but couldn't figure out.
The pain inside my stomach grew at that view and I grabbed for Tess's hand.
"I really need a drink."
"I know. Everything alright with you?"
I just nodded and looked at her, which wasn't that easy.
"Why is he here?"
Tess gave me the warm smile of her, while she dragged me thru the audience like a bodyguard.
"I sent him an invitation and your new CD. Thought it would be fun to let him know that you grew up, moved on...you know what I mean."
"You did what?"
She really sent him an invitation.
Damn Tess!
I looked back at him, and the last thing that I saw was his back .. he just walked out of the Club.
"Maybe it was a good idea. If you would ever have bad ideas."
I tried my best to gave her a grin, which was easy this time.
He was gone now...out of the Club and hopefully out of my life.
I knew that I would never see him again after this night, and I felt a deep relief inside of me...but also a huge emptiness.
My life would go on...after all, it was nothing important.
Just a nice fuck.
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This is the last chapter and I hoped you loved it. Sorry guys, but I wanted to end it with this one...Maybe, just maybe I will write another one, so just keep an eye on me.
Well and if I do, here´s little challenge, who tells me first what song i used will have sex with eric in my next story (or if I go on, chapter). ^_^
And "No Tess not you, you had enough hehe" ^^"
I´m working on a Godric story at the moment, and I will upload it soon..just give me some time to get some chapters ready ^^"
Would be nice If you read that one also. ^_^
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