I want to know why you guys are still reading this story. Like I swear this is probably the worst story I've ever written and I hate it so much. Anyway, after A LOT of consideration I have decided what will happen in the next few chapters. OH shout out to arcaneAnatomy for the help with ideas and shit. Btw she's is fucking awesome and everyone should love her :3 check out her story Rainbow Drinking Clown too!

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I woke up the next morning almost forgetting all that had happened the previous night.

That was, until I walked into the entrance way.

Blood covered the wall beside Sol's old room. It was dried up, and there was also a disgusting blood stain on the carpet. I covered my mouth to hold back a scream as I fell to the floor. Tears rolled down my cheeks and I could do nothing but scream into my hands and cry.

After what seemed like forever, I shakily pulled out my phone and tried to call Kar.

It rang once, twice, Three times, Nothing.

I hung up. No answer. Even though I knew Sol wasn't going to answer a call from me, I tried him as well. All I got was four rings and voice mail.

Fuck.

I needed to talk to one of them, hear them tell you it was all right, hear one of them say that it's not blood, it's just fake blood…yeah, I wished that was true.

I want to think that maybe they were just practicing for a play. Maybe a current day Romeo and Juliet, but I knew that wasn't true either.

THEY WERE SUCH IDIOTS! Throwing someone's life away because of me; funny, how someone would kill another person because of me.

I didn't want them dead. I wanted both of them to be alive, well, and happy. I wanted Sol back; I wanted him to be mine for the rest of our lives. I wouldn't care if he cheated or anything; I just wanted him to be mine. I loved him, more then I had ever loved anyone else, but now… now he might have been… gone.

I wanted Kar back just as much, but I didn't want him the way he wanted me. He was my friend, my best friend, and I didn't want him to be my lover. Sure I had slept with him a few times but I didn't love him. I didn't love him at all, and it took me until that minute to realize it. But he wanted to be mine. The only thing was, if he was left alive I don't think I could ever look at him again. He'd go to jail and I don't think I could ever look at him the same way again, knowing he killed Sol.

The same went for Sol, would I still be able to love him knowing he killed my best friend? The one who was there for me when he wasn't? It was a hard thing to think about.

This whole thing was a hard thing to think about. I loved them, I really, truly did. Weather it was as a friend, or as my partner, I still loved them both. None of them should have died, but one did…

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A few hours later, my phone rang. There was no ID, so I picked it up, hoping it wasn't one of those damn telemarketers calling just to piss me off. "ERIDAN, HEY IT'S ME" The voice on the other end of the phone said.

"Kar?" I asked. Somewhere in the back of my head I wished it wasn't him. If he was calling, that would mean Sol's dead.

"YEAH IT'S ME, HEY CAN I TELL YOU SOMETHING?" His voice was full of urgency. Something was wrong, something was really wrong. He doesn't wait for my answer before he starts talking again. "LOOK ERIDAN, I SHOT SOLLUX LAST NIGHT. WE GOT INTO A FIGHT AND…AND IT JUST HAPPENED."

"I knoww" I whispered so quietly I wondered if Karkat could even hear it.

"…" silence on his end.

"I heard you fightin last night an then I heard the gun fire an…" I burst into tears, I doubted Kar could even tell what I was saying after gun fire, but I didn't care.

"I'M SO SORRY; LOOK, I NEED YOU TO DO SOMETHING FOR ME."

"Wwhat?"

"CLEAN UP THE BLOOD AND ABANDON YOUR HOUSE. RUN AWAY WITH ME AND WE CAN START A NEW LIFE TOGETHER. JUST THE TWO OF US, THAT WAY SOLLUX CAN'T INTERFERE WITH OUR LOVE. WE CAN CHANGE OUR NAMES, COME ON ERIDAN, DO THIS, FOR ME?"

I let out a sigh; I knew something along those lines was coming. I just didn't know if I was ready to tell him no yet. I had to think of the words for a bit before I finally said something. "Kar, listen, it's not that I don't lovve you or anything, because I do, I just don't lovve you in the wway you lovve me. I lovve Sol, I lovve him more then I havve ever lovved anyone else an I don't think I could spend my life wwith the one wwho killed him. I'm sorry Kar."

"FUCK YOU, ERIDAN, I WAS THERE FOR YOU WHEN HE WASN'T, YOU SHOULD LOVE ME, NOT HIM AND YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DO? YOU GO AND STAB ME IN THE FUCKING BACK BY SAYING YOU LOVE HIM INSTEAD OF ME. YOU KNOW WHAT I THINK OF THAT? I THINK YOU SHOULD GO FUCK YOURSELF IN THE FARTHEST REACHES OF HELL FOR LEADING ME ON LIKE THAT. THERE'S A SPECIAL PLACE IN HELL RESERVED FOR ASSHOLES LIKE YOU. I HATE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH ERIDAN. I NEVER WANT TO SPEAK TO YOU AGAIN!"

"Fine because I nevver wwant to speak to you either!" I yelled hanging up the phone. I screamed, it felt so fucking good to scream. I was so nice to him, and all he did was yell at me. It's not like I have to be in love with him or anything. It wasn't illegal to love someone else or anything.

God, I missed Sol so much. I would never see him again, and I would never see Kar again either.