Hi guys I am so sorry it has taken me so long but I have been going through alot at the moment and im moving soon and going on vacation so I am uploding two chapters today. Again sorry.
discalmier: I don't own twilight or the song's or anything but the plot and Izzy :)
When we got home I ran up to my room and cried. "Knock knock"
"Who's there?" I yelled through the tears.
"It's me Embry" my brother said.
"Fine" was my response. I heard his footsteps and the door open but I didn't lift my head from my pillow, then I felt him sit on the bed.
"Iz are you ok? The boys mean well but they never really got along before it's not your fault there fighting." he said trying to comfort me.
"Yes it is Embry, it's been my fault the whole time. I should have never dated either of them it's ruined my life I could have been here and with you and mom for the last little while. Instead of with dad he doesn't care."I sobbed and sat up hugging him. "Embry his new wife and her son mean more to him than I ever have."
"You can't know that, of course he loves them but has loved you longer." Embry said stroking my back.
"Look I can know this for sure because when I was there I had no friends no life. I eventually became so depressed I started to cut myself." I told him well I pulled up my shirt to show him the scares on my stomach. His eyes got really big. "Once dad caught me cutting myself and didn't say or do anything he just walked by me. When Dave died he blamed it on me and said I was a stupid arrogant freak. He cried for days and bought me a ticket to La Push and kicked me out." I was crying so hard now I couldn't make coherent sentences.
"Shhh its ok I'm here you now, everyone here loves you more than anything you will NEVER be alone again." He said at this point he was crying to.
I guess I must have fallen asleep because when I woke up then sun was in my eyes and Embry was gone. I went over to my closet and grabbed my bag of toilettes, I took out my razor and took of one of the blades I pinched it between my finger tips and brought it to my skin cutting myself feeling the pain release. I cut myself in every non visible place. When I was done I put on a pair of sweat pants and a long sleeve T-shirt. I walked to the bathroom and jumped in the shower washing away the blood. Puting back on the sweats and shirt, I walked back to my room and picked up my IPod the first song that came on was drops of Jupiter by train. I closed my eyes and started to sing along.
Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's a time to change, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey
Did you make it to the Milky Way
to see the lights all faded
and that heaven is overrated?
But tell me, did you sail across the sun?
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?
One without a permanent scar
and then you missed me
while you were looking for yourself out there?
Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey
She checks out Mozart while she does Tae-Bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow, hey
Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as
Plain ol' Jane told a story about a man
Who was too afraid to fly so he never did land
But tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet?
Did you finally get the chance
to dance along the light of day
and head back to the Milky Way?
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind?
Was it everything you wanted to find?
And then you missed me
While you were looking for yourself out there
Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you
Even when I know you're wrong?
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze-dried romance
Five-hour phone conversation
the best soy latte that you ever had, and me?
But tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet?
Did you finally get the chance
to dance along the light of day
and head back toward the Milky Way?
But tell me, did you sail across the sun?
Did you make it to the Milky Way
to see the lights all faded
and that heaven is overrated?
And tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?
One without a permanent scar
and then you missed me
while you were looking for yourself?
And did you finally get the chance
to dance along the light of day?
And did you fall for a shooting star?
Fall for a shooting star?
And now you're lonely looking for yourself out there
When I opened my eyes Jared and Quil were at my door looking at me. I turned so red.
"How long have you guys been there?" I screeched completely panicked. They both smiled.
"Just long enough to hear you sing my dear" Quil said while wiggling his eye brows. This made me laugh.
"Why are you guys here, where is Embry?" I asked, they both walked into the room and Quil sat on my bed which made me sit up a little.
"Well after Jake and Seth's antics you don't want to talk to them right? So Embry doesn't want you to be alone because your mom is on her trip and he has patrol so he sent us over, aren't you happy?" Quil shouted through his hands up at the end. I nodded my head.
"Why two of you though? Am I that much trouble?" I asked. It wasn't like my brother to not trust me but still two werewolves it doesn't make sense.
"Ya Embry only sent Quil over but Quil here didn't want to walk over here. So he made me drive him on the way to Kim's house." Jared informed me and looking like he wanted to leave.
"Oh in that case you shouldn't keep her waiting." I said laughing at his eagerness as he ran out of the room.
"So...what now?" I asked. He shrugged. "Hmmm...how about you go down stairs while I change in to something less warm?" I really wanted to change into shorts. Quil nodded and walked out of the room. I got up and closed the door. I took off my shirt and pants and looked at myself the cuts have lightened enough so that I could say a tree attacked me if I had to explain it. I picked up a pair of board shorts and one of my brothers old shirts from before his growing spurt. I checked again to make sure the scars weren't visible and walked down the stairs Qui was on the couch watching TV.
"What are you watching?" I asked him walking to the couch.
"Nothing but I`m hungry" He responded whining. I rolled my eyes and walked into the kitchen and started getting the stuff out to make lasagne. When there was a knock at the door I went to open it. Why were they here?
thnx for reading and thnx to my beta Bexxy