AN: - Check out ch. 5 I added a scene, ya know, trying to please everyone.
*cough cough those people saying certain things*
Cammie's POV
I sighed as I pulled into the parking lot, looking up at the office building I knew a little too well.
I climbed out of my car and pulled my sweater a little tighter around myself.
I was always so cold, so cold...
So much has happened since my last visit, I have a feeling todays session will be very intense.
I shivered as I rang the bell next to the little speaker.
"Dr. Steve's office, how may I help you?" A bored woman's voice spoke.
"Cameron Morgan, I have an appointment." Honestly, I think I'm his only patient, shouldn't they know me by now?
"Yes yes darling, come right in." The double doors swung open and I hurried inside, wanting to get out of the cold.
"Ahh Cammie, Cammie, so nice to see you again!" Dr. Steve said, walking out of the hallway on my right.
Like you have a choice.
"You too Dr. Steve." I said politely as he ushered me into his- rather- my room.
I looked around, although I've been in here many times before.
The white walls were voice of any pictures, any art. Anything that could provoke me.
The two chairs sat facing each other were simple leather, with a small coffee table in between.
I sat slowly, making a face at the faint scent of citrus leather wax still lingering on the chairs.
"So, is there anything you'd like to share?" He asked warmly, his megawatt smile showing for the fourth time in 5 minutes.
"Yes, actually, there is." This comes as a pleasant surprise to him. I hardly ever want to share anything with him. Most of the time our sessions consist of him trying to get me to talk and me ignoring him.
"I told you about Zach, the new boy at school." I started slowly, not quite sure where to start. Dr. Steve nods slightly, encouraging me to go on.
"Zach and I were partnered up for a project. So, I invited him over to work on it after school."
"That's great progress Cammie! Now what we should work on is-" I held up a finger to silence him.
"Somehow he already knew about Ben..." My voice drifted off as thoughts of our uh, conversation, filled my head. The familiar prickling sensation began in my eyes, so I blinked to ward off the tears.
"He said he didn't believe everyone, or the rumours. So, he grabbed my hand." Dr. Steve gasped.
"And how did you react? The normal thoughts and feelings? Or did something else happen?"
I thought about that, not quite knowing the answer.
"Before he did it, I was feeling guilty. Because I wanted to be his friend. And then, when he did do it, it was the usual. I even got dizzy, that doesn't usually happen. But there was another feeling. It was small and fleeting, I only felt it for a second. But I felt...happy. And then I asked him to leave. But he refused to go...until he knew I was okay."
"I see..." Dr. Steve said quietly, resting his head on his hand.
"It made me feel wanted. He didn't leave until I told him the whole story. Everything, Ben, my dad, Josh, everything. And...he didn't leave. He comforted me...he said that he's scared...of losing me. And then, he kissed me." I blurted, then blushed profusely.
"And how did you react?"
"It seemed as though the whole world stopped. Like the only thing that mattered was us two. I felt free, like I could do anything, and nothing could ever hurt me. I only get that feeling when I'm with him." I smiled down at my hands.
"He asked me to be his girlfriend. He makes me happy. But Dr. Steve, is this real? Can I really do this? I think he could really help me. He makes the pain go away. Is this what love is? I only met him a few weeks ago...how is it possible that he makes me feel so, complete?"
Dr. Steve took a deep breath and took off his glasses, wiped them on his shirt, and replaced them before continuing.
"Well Cammie. It seems there's been a lot of change in little time. When you lost Ben you lost someone very dear to your heart, and someone that filled you with lots of love. Your subconscious created irrational fears associated with love. But during your encounter with Zach, you were forced to face both. At the same time." He stood up and walked over to his window.
"Is that a good thing or a bad thing?" I asked, already knowing the answer.
"It's opened your heart and your mind. And you're able to love this boy, and he's able to love you." Dr. Steve said simply.
"But is this real?! I only just met him! How can he make me feel this way?" I asked.
Turning to face me, I saw the hint of a smile, a real smile, tugging at his lips.
"Cameron, some people believe in a certain thing called love. How do we define love? How do we show it? How do we know when we're in it? Other people also believe in something called love at first sight. I do not."
I gaped at him, open mouthed. How could he say something like that?
He quickly walks over to me, and kneels in front of me. He grasps my hands in both of his and looks me in the eye.
"But once in a blue moon, there are two people that make me question my beliefs."
Tears begin to form in his eyes and he holds my hands tighter.
"Love knows no limits. It can make you the best person you can be, but in order to do that you have to open yourself up. To answer your question, I think you and Zach are in love. You just might not realize it quite yet."
He walked me to the door, and I remembered something.
"You know that song you told me to try and write?" I asked, walking past him onto the sidewalk.
"Yes, what about it?" He asked, sounding curious.
"I finished it." I gave him one last smile, before setting off for home.
I have an important night to get ready for, courtesy of one very handsome Zachary Goode.
So yeah, um, nothing to say here...
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