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It had been a couple of weeks now that Killian and Emma had been meeting after work at her place. It was usually heated and raw passion as they tore their clothes off so that they could give in their carnal pleasures. It was usually followed by them cuddling before Killian had to leave so he could go back to his place, with Milah.

Every time he left, she felt as if the cracks in her heart just kept on cutting deeper and deeper. She hated that in one evening she could go from feeling happy and fulfilled to feeling sad and guilty.

Lately Emma had been wanting to talk to Killian about how she felt about their situation, but was afraid that if she did, he would come back to his senses and end what they had. Despite the fact that she hated being the other woman and having to share him, she didn't want it to end.

She was confused with this situation and the feelings were keeping her awake at night. The fact that nobody was aware of them, that she didn't have someone to talk to, made it a lot worse.

She went to work this morning as usual, going through her normal routine. Her eyes felt heavy and she had obvious shadows under her eyes, not bothering to conceal it this morning.

When Ruby arrived at 9 o'clock, she looked at Emma with a worried look and decided that it was time to talk with her boss, who had been looking more tired everyday. She took advantage off the fact that it was a slow morning and they only had three customers who had already received their breakfast. When Emma passed by the counter, Ruby saw her chance.

"Emma, can I talk to you for a second?" Ruby interrupted her boss as she walked by.

"What is it Ruby, you need a day off?" She asked.

"No, my schedule this week is fine with me. I just wanted to know if you were feeling okay?" She asked tilting her head to the side, concern in her voice.

Emma gulped hard, feeling as if she had been caught. She blinked a couple of times and cleared her throat before answering her employee.

"I'm fine, why do you ask?" She told her, trying to keep her voice normal.

"I don't know, it's just that lately you have been acting all happy and chirpy in the afternoon, and you leave work carefree, but you always come in to work sad, looking almost as if you didn't sleep at all. I'm just worried about you."

She didn't know that her private life was taking over her work life this much, and felt as if she owed Ruby an explanation since she was the only who had the guts to ask her if everything was okay.

"Look, Ruby, thanks for your concern, but everything is fine." She smiled back at her employee, hoping she had laid her concerns to rest. Emma started to walk toward the back of the diner when Ruby interrupted her again.

"Just so you know Emma, I don't believe you. I think something is going on that has your mind preoccupied, but I know you. You won't tell anybody what's going on because you're worried about what they'd think of you. I won't judge, but if you don't want to talk to me, it's fine. Just don't beat yourself up and keep whatever it is to yourself."

Emma went still at Ruby's words. She didn't think Ruby knew her that well, and that she cared for her beyond her work function. She felt bad that she refused to open up to her on her issues, but it was better that way. She raised her eyes levelling them with Ruby's brown ones, and smiled kindly.

"Thanks, Ruby, I'll think about it." With that said, she went back to her small office, locking the door behind her, thinking about what the brunette had just told her. She was right about one thing: she couldn't keep going on with this secret without talking to someone about it.

The day went by like every other day, David came to eat his lunch at the same time he did every day and Emma hesitated on telling him about Killian. When he left, she realized that she still hadn't made up her mind, so he went back to his workplace knowing nothing about her affair.

After he left she went into the freezer that was the size of her small office, with a pad with her the sheets she used to write down her order of products. The door opened and Jefferson's head peeked in, telling her she had a phone call.

She stopped what she was doing and walked out of the cold room, enjoying the fact that she was now warm. She walked to her office and grabbed the phone, pressing the button of the line that was on hold.

"Hello?"

"Emma! It's Milah!" Milah chirped on the other side of the line, as Emma's body stayed still at the sound of Killian's fiancée.

"Hey, Milah, how are you?" Emma asked as normally as she could.

"I'm great. Look, what are you doing tonight?"

She was doing the same thing she has been doing in the past month, sleeping with Milah's boyfriend.

"Uh, nothing in particular." She lied.

"Perfect. Do you want to go out to eat with me? It's been awhile since we saw each other."

Emma really didn't know how to answer her friend, knowing she would feel guilty during the diner, but if she didn't go she knew that Milah would keep insisting until she said yes.

"Sure, why not?" She answered reluctantly. "Where did you want to go?"

"The same restaurant where we had my engagement party, the food is amazing there. Be there at 8 and wear something nice, no jeans or leather!"

"I will."

"Yay! See you tonight then!" She yelped on the other side of the line before hanging up, leaving her no time to say goodbye.

Emma hung up the phone on her desk and sat on her chair. She was already feeling the nervousness coursing through her body, as she dreaded the evening that was about to come.

She took her cell phone out of the back pocket of her jeans and unlocked it. She tapped on the text messaging icon and touched Killian's name, opening on their most recent conversation. She turned her phone to the side so she could write him a message.

I have to cancel tonight. Something came up, I'll tell you about it tomorrow.

She hit send, and it only took a couple of seconds before he answered.

Ok, I'll miss you. See you tomorrow. xx

Emma smiled at his message and put her phone back into her jeans.

-/-

Emma arrived at the restaurant a bit late on purpose, wanting to the delay her evening with Milah as long as possible.

She had put on a simple dark red dress with thin straps, the hem of the dress stopping just above her knee, and wore a simple pair of black stilettos. She decided to cover up the dark circles under her eyes and put on some mascara, leaving her straightened hair loose.

She opened the heavy glass door of the restaurant and went to see the hostess.

"Hi, I'm here to join someone." She told the hostess, but before the woman could ask her for the name of the person she was joining, Emma heard someone call her name loudly. She turned her head to where the voice came from and her heart stopped.

Milah was standing next to the table waving at her, and next to her was Killian dressed in a nice black suit, probably the same he wore to work, and across from Milah was Graham.

She cast them a forced smile, and walk towards them, trying to avoid Killian's gaze. When she arrived at their table Milah pulled her in for a hug, when she was free from her embrace, Killian came to greet her, acting as if they hadn't seen each other for weeks.

When he leaned in for a quick hug and kiss on her cheek, she felt her stomach flutter as she smelled his scent, telling herself that instead of being here, they both could be in her apartment away from these people and enjoying each other.

When they broke the hug she searched his eyes subtly, and when her eyes met his, there was a hint of panic in his eyes as well. Emma felt somewhat alleviated knowing it wasn't just her who was freaking out.

Emma then turned around to Graham who was also wearing a nice dark grey suit. He smiled shyly at her before greeting her with a hug. She then sat down on the chair across from Killian, feeling her body shake slightly her nerves taking over her.

"So this is quite a surprise. I thought we were having diner just the two of us." Emma said to Milah, as her friend picked up the bottle of red wine on the table and poured her a glass. She grabbed the glass gladly, knowing she could use some alcohol if she wanted to survive this evening.

"Yeah, well, I decided to invite the guys, thinking it would be more fun this way." Milah responded her as she stroked Killian's hand that was splayed on the table. Emma's eyes followed Milah's hand, feeling a pang of jealousy course through her. She lifted her eyes to her friend and tried to cast the most genuine smile she could muster.

"Well, it does spice things up." She said as she took a sip from her wine.

The evening went by with no major incident but it was overall awkward.

Milah had clearly arranged the whole evening so it was a double date, Emma's date being Graham. After they all had a common topic of conversation, Graham's attention was now focused on Emma, and Milah took advantage of it as she turned her upper body towards Killian and got flirty with him, making Emma sick to her stomach. It wasn't the first time Emma saw her friend acting this way in public with her boyfriend but it was the first time since she started to have an affair with him.

She tried to distract herself from that sight and turned her attention to Graham. He was nice, sweet and interesting but he wasn't the one she wanted to spend time alone with. Throughout the evening Killian and Emma kept stealing glances at each other when the other two weren't looking.

After her second glass of wine, Emma excused herself, telling the others she needed to go to the bathroom. Killian also got up telling her that he'd walk with her since he also needed to go to the bathroom.

They walked in silence towards the hallway where the restroom was. It was two single bathrooms, one for men and one for women.

Killian looked over his shoulder, making sure no one was around when he rested his hand on the small of her back as they entered one of the bathrooms. When they were finally alone, Killian's hand went to cradle the back of her head, his arm wrapping her in a tight embrace.

Emma's hands went to rest on his shoulders as he pressed his lips on hers, kissing her desperately. They quickly broke the kiss and pressed their foreheads together, both enjoying the heat exuding from their skin.

"We don't have much time." Emma whispered on his lips, kissing him softly.

"I know, but I had to be alone with you. I've been wanting to kiss you all night." He told her as he kissed her jaw. When his lips started to leave soft, wet kisses on her neck, she moaned almost silently as his right hand held the back of her head as the other hand went to grab the flesh of her covered hips. He pressed his body into hers, and she could feel his pants getting tighter.

His hand left her hip and traveled down until it reached the hem of her red dress and started to pull the fabric up, trailing his hand softly up her thigh. She whimpered at his touch and felt her knees go week his mouth nipped her earlobe.

When his hand went to cup her core, her hips jerked at the contact, knowing her panties were now moist with her arousal. Emma was succumbing to his touch, forgetting completely about the two other persons waiting for them at the table.

When Killian moaned, his fingers pushing the fabric away and teasing her wet folds, Emma's eyes shot open as she dropped her hands on his chest, pushing him away.

"Killian." She panted as she straightened her dress, feeling her body going cold without his. "We can't do this here, Milah is in the other room. It's just wrong."

His right hand went to rub the back of his neck as he sighed.

"It's no more wrong than what we've been doing, love." He stated. She looked at him, confused.

"Yeah, well, I can't do this here when I know your fiancée is waiting for you a few feet away, and I'm supposedly on a date." Said Emma as she tried reasoning with him. At the mention of her date, Killian cringed.

"Look, I'll go back now, I don't want either of them coming to look for us." She turned her back to him and went to unlock the door. When her hand was on the door handle, Killian's voice stopped her.

"Are we still seeing each other tomorrow night?" He asked, insecure and vulnerable.

Emma turned her head and smiled at him as she nodded. She opened the door and went back to join the others. She sat back at the table as if nothing had happened.

"What took you so long?" Asked Milah.

"There was a lot of people waiting for the restroom." Emma lied as she smiled at her friend, feeling dirty for what she was really doing. Killian joined them shortly after, putting on the same act as she had.

When the evening finally ended, Graham insisted on walking Emma home. She told him that he could and saw Killian shift uncomfortably at her response, and when she glanced at him he had his hands on his pockets, jaw clenched.

The couples said their goodbyes and walked in different directions. Emma felt uncomfortable during the walk back home with Graham at her side. She really didn't want to string him along with this madness so she decided to let him down easy.

"So, this was nice." He told her with a shy smile.

"Yeah, it was." She answered softly. They stood facing each other for a little while before Emma gathered the courage to tell him she wasn't interested.

"Look, um, Graham. I really had a nice time talking to you tonight but I think it's better if kept this on a platonic note." She blurted as she waited for his response.

"If it's what you want, I won't insist on anything more." He told her kindly, he was definitely very sweet.

"Thanks for understanding."

He bid her goodnight and she went into her building, leaving this awkward evening behind.

-/-

The next day, Emma went to work, exhausted as usual, as she kept ruminating on her actual love life. When she saw Ruby's concerned look again this morning she decided that she really needed someone's advice.

When David arrived for his lunch break, Emma waited for him to have his food so they wouldn't get interrupted.

"David, I need to tell you something but you have to promise me you won't pass any judgement on me, okay?" She asked him with a pleading tone in her voice. When he scrutinized her tired and worried look, he nodded as he answered her question.

"I promise. What is it?"

"I'm having an affair." She simply said, waiting to see his reaction before adding more details of the situation she was in. His eyes widened in surprise, his mouth agape.

"Okay. Do I know the guy?" She looked back at him, her eyebrows moving upwards.

"It's Killian." She answered, her voice barely above a whisper.

"WHAT?" David asked loudly enough for the tables around them to shoot them an annoyed look.

"Shhh!" She shushed him her hand waving, telling him to drop his voice.

"Killian? Really? You know he's engaged, right? To your friend?" He asked her, clearly outraged.

"David, you promised you wouldn't judge me." She said, her voice small as she felt her eyes water.

"I'm sorry, but it's just that this is big! Does he intend to leave?" He asked.

"I don't know, I mean, he wants to give us a try." She explained as David huffed.

"I mean, what does expect? To have both girls and walk away with it? I hope you told him no." When Emma didn't answer, Davis seemed to get angrier.

"Come on Emma, really? You agreed to this? You're letting him use you and then go back to her after he's been with you? You're better than this, Emma."

She felt tears fall down her cheeks as she felt this huge lump in her throat, making it hard to speak. She knew if she opened her mouth to say anything she would start crying and wouldn't be able to stop.

David was voicing all of her insecurities and the doubts she'd been having since this mess began. It hurt to hear someone tell her how the situation really sounded. David stopped his ranting when he saw how affected she was by his words, taking time for him to calm down.

"Do you love him?" He asked her, his voice now in a normal pitch. She nodded as she looked at her friend, her eyes watery.

"Does he love you?"

Emma shrugged her shoulders as she felt more tears fall, she realised she didn't know what his feelings towards her were. She knew he liked her, but love her? She didn't have a clue.

"Look, you need to tell him to make his choice unless you want this to end up with Milah finding out or him getting married and ditching you after. You need to give him an ultimatum. He needs to choose: you or her."

Her eyes were fixed on David's mug as she tried to get her feelings under control. She knew David was right, and that was why she needed to talk to him, so he could knock some sense into her.

-/-

That night Emma got home at the same time as usual and was waiting for Killian to arrive. She was pacing around her living room, not able to stand still as she was anxious of what she needed to tell Killian.

When she heard the knock on her door, she stopped, her eyes staring at the door. She finally regained the ability to move her legs and walked towards the door unlocking the safe and the lock, opening the door.

Killian was standing on the other side with a smile, clearly happy that he was now seeing her alone. She took a few steps back, opening the door a little further so he could come in. She closed the door behind him and it didn't take long for him to press his body into hers, as she was now pressed between him and the door.

He captured her lips with his for a searing kiss. His hands went to the top of her pants, his fingers already working on the button. Emma's eyes shot open as his mouth was still kissing her desperately. She managed to break the kiss, pushing him a little bit so there was some space between them. Killian looked at her, confusion written all over his face.

"What it is it, love?"

"We need to talk before we do anything else." She told him, her voice shaky.

He nodded and took a couple of steps back. She gestured toward her couch and they both walked towards it, taking a seat next to each other.

"What's on your mind?" He asked, worried.

"It's just that I can't—I can't keep doing this." She managed to tell him, her words clearly hurting him.

"You don't want to see me anymore?"

"I do, I just can't keep this secret anymore. I don't want to share you anymore, I want you to be with me only."

"What are you saying?"

"I'm saying that you have to choose: me or Milah. It can't be both of us anymore."

His body slumped on the couch hearing Emma's ultimatum.

"You want me to choose now?" He asked, completely wrecked with this whole situation.

"Not now but soon. Because if you can't choose, I will make this easier for you and end it for good." She managed to tell him with a stern voice, making him understand that she wouldn't be backing down from this.