Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight of any of it's characters although i do believe everyone wants to own a piece of Edward. Hm? am i correct.
Summary: She settled for him, knowing deep down it wasn't going to last. When it fell apart, could she convince herself even she deserved more? He had lived with heartbreak longer than he thought possible. Will he let her mend his broken heart? When Edward and Bella meet, things can only get better, or can they?
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Bella's Point of View.
I could not believe what I had just done… erm… what I was still doing. It should be wrong; I shouldn't be doing this. But oh god it felt so right, better than I had ever imagined possible.
I had praised the lord that Rose had stashed a box of condoms in my house when her parents came to visit. I was definitely going to put them to use to tonight, no matter what. After the kitchen experience, Edward and I had attempted to make it to my bedroom. We couldn't!
I knew it was wrong; both of our daughters were upstairs asleep in Jane's room. But we couldn't control it. We made it as far as the couch before the rest of our clothes were shed and I was riding Edward, gripping onto the back of the couch.
I didn't even know how to describe what I was feeling; I had never felt this way, not even with James. Sure sex with James was okay, but it was a routine. This was wild and full of want and passion. The way he moved? I never wanted it to stop.
I threw my head back and groaned as Edward's grip on my hips tightened.
"Oh yes, oh yes," I moaned softly, moving my hips against his. "You feel so fucking good!" I never cursed, ever! Especially during sex, but something had come over me.
"Bella…" Edward moaned throwing his head back as he brought his hands up to massage my breasts, causing me to arch into him and move faster. "Uh, so good."
I could not believe for one moment how tonight turned out. Sure, the first time I saw Mr. Cullen…er… Edward, I thought he was extremely good looking and I definitely found myself thinking of him the next day quite a few times. But then tonight, just talking to him and spending time with him was incredible. And when he kissed me… Oh god when he kissed me; it was beyond fantastic and I freaked out. But then in the kitchen, I couldn't believe what we did.
"I'm c—close… oh god. Yes. Yes!" I groaned as I brought my hand down to rub my clit. But Edward removed my hand and replaced it with his own.
"My job."
He leaned up and caught my bottom lip between his teeth. It didn't take long for either of us to reach our climaxes. But that wasn't the end; we eventually made it up to my room and once again were going at it. Except this time he had taken me from behind. I had only done that position a few times with James, never really feeling comfortable having to be on my hands and knees. But something about being with Edward made me feel confident and sexy, and even a bit of a vixen.
"Do you like that? Do you like it when I take you from behind?"
"Yes…" I whimpered. "Oh god yes! Harder Edward! Harder!" I was so grateful that Jane's room wasn't close enough to mine, but still, we tried to be as quiet as possible.
He let one of his hands go off my hip and travel to my breast, giving it a squeeze.
"You feel so good around my dick! Oh god…" He threw his head back and bit his lip to try and muffle his moan. "I'm not going to last much longer Bella."
"Oh god, oh god…" I buried my face into my pillow. "Right there, oh god that's the spot…" Not long after, we were both thrown over the edge but we still weren't done. We were no where near being done tonight.
I wasn't sure how I was going to be able to face this man in the morning, but I wouldn't think about that now. I would just let my body feel what it so craved. I had wanted to return the original favor he had bestowed upon me in the kitchen. But he wouldn't let me, he only finally agreed if I would let him taste me again at the same time.
I felt kind of childish not ever having done that position before, and at first I was extremely tense. Edward seemed to notice.
"It's okay, you can relax baby." As he drove into me with his tongue again I almost lost it right then and there. I took him into my mouth and together we began to set a similar pace. If his hips started to pick up I rode his face harder, which he seemed to like a lot. A whole lot! He gave my butt a little smack.
"I love it when you ride my face, you taste so fucking good…"
I moaned softly, which only made him twitch in my mouth. Soon enough he was thrusting two fingers in and out of me as I massaged his balls. But it wasn't enough; I needed him inside me again. I slowly slipped him out of my mouth.
"I need you inside me now please…"
He flipped me onto my back and brought me up so my head was resting against the pillows. He slid a condom on himself for the fourth time that night, positioned himself between my legs and pushed into me. I kept my feet planted on the mattress as I met his thrusts, my arms around his torso, eyes fixated on my ceiling.
"You are so beautiful," he whispered softly into the crook of my neck as he pressed soft kisses.
When I rolled over the next morning I groaned softly from my body aching. Edward was still fast asleep. Edward was still fast asleep in my bed! I had sex with Edward! I had sex with my daughter's friend's father. I had sex with my sister's teacher!
Oh god, oh god! But it was fantastic sex, 4 times the fantastic. Oh my god, it was so good my body still tingled. What the fuck was wrong with me? I never did this! But at the same time, I wanted to do it again and again. I just wanted to grab his dick and beg him to fuck me all over again.
Oh god! I had told him to fuck me harder and… oh my god. I buried my face in my hands and shook my head; I needed to get up. I needed Coffee. Edward was probably going to need coffee as well.
I rolled out of bed and reached down for the first article of clothing I found, which just so happened to be his boxers. I wasn't even entirely sure how his boxers made it upstairs, but I do remember us grabbing some articles of clothing as we ran up my stairs for round three. I grabbed my tank top and slipped it back on and headed out of the room, glancing at Edward one more time.
As I made it down the hallway to the staircase, I started to feel terrible. Not because of what I had done, but because I had done it with my 7 year old daughter asleep in the house. Not to mention with, Edward's daughter here too.
Did that make us terrible parents? But didn't married people have sex all the time when their kids were asleep? I mean, James and I did occasionally. But then we never had sex that often. And we never had sex like I had sex last night.
I almost moaned from just thinking about it as I made my way into the kitchen, picking up Edward's shirt, my panties and jeans on the way. I was glad the girls hadn't woken up yet, but with all the candy they consumed I figured they'd be out for quite a while. And hopefully they were out like lights with mine and Edward's late night activities.
As I stood over my island pouring two cups of coffee, my front door opened and slammed shut. At first I thought it was Nessie, but wasn't too surprised to see Rose waltzing into my kitchen. Her hair was a mess and she was basically only wearing a trench coat.
"Let me tell you about the night I had…" She peeled off the coat only to reveal she was still dressed in a Halloween costume; she was a sexy Hogwarts student. She reached over and picked up the cup of coffee that was meant for Edward, but I didn't tell her that.
"So I went to that Halloween party with Angela and Ben. It was pretty dull at first but then—"
"It was dull? It looks like you haven't slept…"
She smirked evilly as she took a seat on one of the stools. "Oh, I didn't, but let me tell you what happened." She took a deep breath, "So I was mingling and dancing with some losers. They were cute though… But then I met him!"
"Who?" I asked as I poured some cream and sugar into my coffee, trying to pay attention even though all I cared about was Edward asleep in my bed. Edward, asleep in my bed, still gloriously naked…
"A doctor! And he is so fucking hot!"
I raised my eyebrow, "Was the sex good?"
"That's the strange part. We didn't have sex,we only made out. A lot! He wants to take me to dinner, so I told him I'd have think about—" she stopped mid-sentence and stared at me. "Something isn't right here."
"What do you mean?" I brought my hand up to push my hair out of my face when I remembered I didn't even look in the mirror before I came downstairs. My hair must look a mess. Oh god!
"Well I don't know." She looked around the room then back at me, "The room, something seems different. And something seems different about you."
She got off of the stool and came around to me, "you never wear pajamas like this, too much skin and—" she stopped and reached down to tug on Edward's boxers, "Please tell me they're not James'?"
"They aren't." I blushed softly trying not to look her in her eyes.
Rose's eyes widened. "Y-you had sex? Oh my god! Details! Oh my god, I think I'm having a heart attack!"
"Shut up!" I smacked her on the arm, "Jane and Emma are asleep upstairs."
"Emma?" She raised her eyebrow. "Isn't that the daughter of Nessie's teacher why is— Isabella Marie Dunham! Did you have sex with your sister's teacher?" She placed her hands on her hips and stared at me, waiting for an answer.
"Yes…" I admittedly shyly, which only caused Rose to jump with glee. What the hell? Were we in middle school?
"How did this happen? Oh… wait, I need to ask the important questions first. Was it good?"
I took a deep breath, "The best sex I ever had!"
"Really!?" She ran back and took her seat again. "Okay. So how did it happen? Did you guys just go up to your room and have sex?"
"Well no." I shook my head. "Actually… the first time we had sex was right here."
"Where?" She looked down at the counter and her eyes widened, "You had sex on your kitchen counter?"
I nodded, "he went down on me first, and then we had sex on it. Then we had sex on the couch and twice in my bed…"
Rose looked speechless, "I-I uh… okay, I need to know positions. So you were spread cross the counter and he ate you out…"
"I hate when you use that word!"
"What? That's what it's called. Fine when he went down on you, it was here. Then…"
"Well we had sex that way… then I rode him on the couch," I admitted sheepishly. "Then he took me from behind in bed. Then we did that 69 thing."
Her eyes widened, it was like she was a little girl in a candy store. "You finally did it? Did you love it?"
"It was pretty hot! But then we just did it again, and god Rose, he is fucking fantastic! I wanted to have sex with him again when I woke up." I shook my head and ran my fingers through my hair, "What is wrong with me?"
"Nothing! It's completely natural. I am so jealous of you; you not only had sex four fucking times, you had a guy eat you out twice! That's like heaven." She sighed sadly as she leaned her head onto her hand. "So wait, you wanted this… He's still here? But I only saw your car out front?"
"See that's the really weird thing. We ran into each other while taking the girls out, and Jane really wanted Emma to come back to the house. Edward and his best friend Jasper, one of Nessie's other teachers, were waiting for Edward's sister to meet up with them. When she called she was hungry so Jasper went to meet her at the diner and then Edward couldn't get a hold of him—"
"They were probably having sex."
"Well Jasper does like his sister apparently," I said, shrugging my shoulders. Before all the sex happened, we were just talking and I got to hear the whole Jasper-lusting-over-Edward's-sister story. It was quite cute.
"Why are you down here talking to me then!? You should be upstairs getting your brains fucked out sweetie. I mean, come on. You deserve it!"
"But the girls—" I trailed off when I noticed Edward walking into the room in nothing but his jeans.
Rose apparently didn't notice him at first. "So? I will deal with them when they wake up. Now go back upstairs and get pleasured by this sex god."
"Uh… hey…" Edward ran his hand through his hair awkwardly, shooting a small smile towards me. "I woke up and you weren't there…"
"I wanted to get us some coffee but… um… Rose showed up."
Rose stood up and waltzed over to him, "Rosalie Hale, and you are?"
"Edward Cullen," he said, taking her hand and shaking it.
"Well… I'm going to go to the bathroom and freshen up, you guys talk." She shot me a wink before heading out of the room.
"Um, how did you sleep?" I couldn't meet his gaze as he came and sat down in the seat that was just occupied by Rose.
"Good. Listen Bella, I want you to know I do not regret last night one bit. The truth is I kissed you because I was attracted to you and felt something between us. I didn't mean for it to go so far and I don't want you to think that I just used you to get some sex, although… it was some great sex."
I blushed slightly at this as he continued, "But if you rather leave last night as last night and not see me ever again I'm okay with that and I'll make sure Emma doesn't come over to see Jane if it will—"
"Edward no, I don't want that. I felt an attraction to you too, and yes I don't think we meant for it to go so far but I don't regret it either. Truthfully? I didn't want to stop after the fourth time last night and that's really hard for me to say. I've never done anything like that but if I didn't want it I wouldn't of had sex with you four times." I tried to keep a straight face as I talked to him.
"I would really like to get to know you if you'll let me. And I will totally take it slow if that's what you want."
"Yeah, I would definitely be willing to do the first part," I smiled sweetly.
"Come over and let me cook dinner for you, Jane and Nessie tonight."
I sighed, "James is supposed to pick up Jane tonight and I'm not sure what Nessie's doing."
" You can still come over, right?" Before I even got to answer, his cell phone started to ring. He reached into his pocket and groaned as he answered.
"Where the hell have you been? Oh, you'll explain it to me later, huh? I'm still at Bella's house. I'm not talking to you about this right now. Just call me when you're in the neighborhood." He hung up the phone and looked at me. "Him and my sister lost track of time. I don't even want to know what they were doing… So will you? Please tell me you'll come over tonight?"
"Let me think about it…" I smiled slyly as I watched him begin to pout, "Okay, let me get everything settled over here and I'll call you later."
"Okay, do you know where my shirt and boxers are?"
"Your shirts on my washing machine in there and I'm kind of… in… your boxers?" I wasn't sure if my face could turn anymore redder.
He leaned over the counter and smirked, "You most certainly are, and they look good on you."
After talking for a few more minutes, Edward threw on the rest of his clothes, minus the boxers of course, and I threw on a robe. Jasper eventually called saying he was here, and we got the girls up. Emma and Jane made plans for another sleepover right away, and I couldn't help but smile. But I just had such a knot in my stomach over everything.
After they all left I made sure I got everything ready for Jane so she could go as soon as James arrived. Nessie eventually called asking if she could go to the mall and movies with Gina and Sarah and then eat dinner out with them. So Nessie was out for the night, Jane got picked up by James, and all I had left to do was to get dressed, call Edward, and then get Rose and her million questions out of my house. Of course, that was easier said than kept saying she needed to approve of my outfit, especially my undergarments. She didn't even want to know what I wore last night, afraid she'd be too embarrassed by my choice. When she started talking about calling Angela I decided enough was enough, and informed her we could discuss it all tomorrow and she finally left.
I curled my hair and dressed in some jeans and a sweater, then headed to Edward's house around 8. He figured it would be a lot easier to talk if Emma was just getting into bed.
I couldn't help but be a little scared with where the night might lead; I did really want to get to know him and I was beginning to feel like maybe having sex with him the second time I met him would be a bit rushed. But I just couldn't get over the fact of how amazing it was.
When I arrived, Edward answered the door holding Emma under his arm. He seemed out of breath and she was giggling, "Hi Jane's mom!"
"Hi Emma," I smiled sweetly at her then looked up at Edward. "Hi."
"Hey, come in!" He moved aside and let me in. "Sorry if the place is a mess, I'm not the best housekeeper."
"No, it looks great." I smiled at him as he put Emma back onto her feet, returning my smile.
"You look fantastic!"
I looked over his outfit and smiled, "You don't look too bad yourself."
"Jane's mom?Where's Jane tonight?"
I giggled and bent down in front of Emma. "She's at her daddy's sweetie, but she really wants to see you again soon. And you can call me Bella."
"Okay Bella." She smiled sweetly, "You have a pretty name."
"You're the one that has a pretty name," I smiled at her and stood back up.
"Okay… so Emma already ate dinner and I told her she can watch TV in daddy's room until it's time to go to bed." Edward smiled as he tousled her hair.
Emma let out a loud sigh, "Fine dad. I'll see you later Bella…" She stomped off towards the stairs and headed upstairs.
"Do you want a tour? Or do you want to eat first? Dinner should be ready in a few minutes, I could give you a tour while we wait and—"
I put my hand on his arm, immediately silencing him. "A tour would be nice…"
The house was great, the color schemes were fabulous, all thanks to his little sister and mom. After his divorce they decided to get rid of Tanya's semi-terrible style. When we got to what I guessed was the third bedroom, Edward hesitated at opening the door. When he finally did, I gasped when I saw a little boy's room.
"This was my son, Masen's, room…" He shifted from foot to foot as he ran his fingers through his hair. "He died 3 years ago and I just haven't had the heart to change it," his voice a little shaky.
"That's understandable…" I told him, placing my palm on his cheek.
He looked at me sadly, "It's really hard to talk about sometimes."
I reached out and took his hand in my free one. "You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to Edward."
"Thank you." He bent down and pressed a kiss to my cheek. "You really are something."
We headed downstairs just in time for dinner to be finished; he had made us baked chicken with a side of pasta. He kept making comments that he wished he could have made something better; that he wasn't the best cook.
"Really Edward it's fine." I smiled sweetly at him as I took a bite and swallowed, "It's really good…"
"I really only know how to make chicken and pasta," He chuckled as he reached for his glass of wine and brought it to his lips.
"Well… I could eat chicken and pasta for the rest of my life," I giggled. Oh god, that was beyond cheesy! What was wrong with me? Edward didn't seem to notice though, he just kept on eating, which made me slightly less self-conscious.
We eventually made it to the couch and continued to sip on our wine as we talked about our marriages coming to an end.
"I guess in reality, we never really clicked."
He reached out and pushed a strand of hair behind my ear. "I don't know how that's even possible. I've only know you for a couple days now, and I can see just how amazing you are."
I blushed softly and placed my cup on the table, "You're just saying that."
Edward shook her head, "I'm going to kiss you now Bella."
I just nodded as he leaned forward and kissed me softly. It was much like the first kiss we had last night… on my couch. Suddenly we heard giggling and pulled away. Emma was standing at the top of the stairs peeking around the corner.
"Emma Cullen, you better be getting into bed right now or I'm going to start to count to 5."
You could hear Emma running back to her room and slamming the door. I couldn't help but smile, "So?What made you become a music teacher?"
"I don't know…" He reached up and laid his arm behind me on the back of the couch. "I always liked music and used to play when I was younger. I liked the idea of teaching kids about music and the history of music always interested me."
"I always wanted to be a teacher," I sighed sadly.
"Why didn't you go for it?" he asked curiously.
I shrugged my shoulders, "I got pregnant and James wanted me to stay home with Jane. But I don't regret that or anything; I just wish, sometimes, I wasn't stuck in an office, you know?"
He nodded, "Yeah, understandable."
"Oh! I almost forgot." I reached over for my purse which I had placed on the couch and dug into it, pulling out Edward's now clean boxer shorts.
"I thought you might want them back."
"You washed them?" He took them from my hand and chuckled. "Thank you."
He brought his hand to rest on the back of my neck and pulled me in for another kiss. I let out a soft moan as Edward's tongue ran across my lips and slipped into my mouth. I brought my hands into his hair as his under-arm hooked around my waist and pulled me closer. I couldn't help myself from straddling his waist as I pulled on his hair, receiving a groan from him.
"Daddy?" Emma's voice came from the stairs.
I quickly moved off of Edward and fixed my clothes as he did the same, "Yes sweetie?"
"Can I have a glass of water?"
"Of course! I'll bring it up to you in a couple minutes, okay?"
"Okay. Night Bella."
"Night Emma." I smiled softly as she went back upstairs and I wiped my lips with my thumb, "I should probably head home, Nessie will be wondering where I am."
"Can I see you again soon?" His voice was full of hope as we both stood up.
I nodded, "I would like that. Good night Edward." I leaned up and pressed a kiss on the corner of his mouth.
When I got back to the house Nessie was sitting on the couch waiting for me. "And where were you young lady?" She stood up and put her hands on her hips, "I was worried sick about you."
I rolled my eyes and tossed my jacket and bag onto the chair, "I was out."
"On a date?" She narrowed her eyes at me and brought her arms up, crossing them across her chest. "With Mr. Cullen?"
"How…?"
She smiled brightly, "I called Rose to see if you were with her." She grabbed me by the arm and pulled me over the couch. "Now tell me, what the hell happened after I left last night."
"I-I… uh… I can't…"
"You can't?" Nessie tilted her head to the side as she watched me for a moment. "Bella… I need you to be truthful with me okay? Did you sleep with Mr. Cullen?"
I nodded, "Yes I did… more than once."
Nessie's jaw dropped and she shook her head, "Did you sleep with him tonight?"
"No, no… we just had dinner. We want to get to know each other." I leaned back against the couch, "I'm a slut, aren't I?"
"Bella there are girls in my school that are sluts, you are not a slut. You are 28, he's what 29? 30? You guys are mature adults. Plus I think he's a really nice person and if you want to get to know him or date him, I am completely 100% okay with that."
I back up and looked against my sister, "You are?"
"Of course, I mean I am your sister."
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A/N: So, um more sex? I couldn't help it! I hope you guys like it, please tell me you like it. Last chapter I was an idiot and forgot to tell you guys that in my profile is a link to the girls costumes, as well as Nessie's and Rose's. And also the outfits that Bella and Edward wore when Bella goes to dinner at Edward's.
But look I didn't make them all awkward around each other! Apparently a lot of you were afraid of that but I couldn't do it.
Thank you for all the fantastic reviews on chapter 5 it really made me inspired. I actually wrote two chapters today! And there's a lot that's going to happen! So please keep on reading and reviewing.
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