A/N: This is the edited version of chapter 4.

Hey, everyone. It's me again.

The last time I posted a note, I was really mad and was just writing out of anger. I admit I was wrong and I'm sorry, I COMPLETELY understand and will remember that you all are just humans next time.

To AbberzzzCain (and all my readers): I understand and I'm glad you and nclhdrs1717 have brought it to my attention that I'm putting a ridiculous amount of pressure on you guys and I'm really sorry. I want to apologize to everyone because I've gotten greedy and let that blind me and I'm really really sorry. Reviews should be awarded because you really think my story is good/or that bad, not because I'm telling you to. I swear I will try to never ever put that pressure on you again, because it really is mean, and if I ever slip up, I would like it if you guys told me. And so I hope you understand that I made a mistake and be able to move past that and judge me upon my work, not my independent attitude.

This may seem really ridiculous, but I was really mad.

I would like to thank all of you loyal readers out there who are with me no matter what like Mickey-D 0505, nclhdrs1717, KittyZheng, SadieLove2 and countless others. You have no idea how much it means to me .

I'm going to answer some of your reviews at the bottom, but for now, I hope you just hold on tight and enjoy the ride ;).

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Broken Down And Built Back Up

Chapter Five: I'll Love You No Matter What

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Jack put his head on top of my stomach.

"Look at it this way, Kim. Two's better than one," he said this and closed his eyes, falling asleep instantly.

Great, now what does that mean and what am I going to do with Jack? I can't carry him cuz he's way too heavy and the doctor said not to strain myself or whatever. That's great, just great. No sports, two kids and a sleeping best friends. I could have never been better.

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KIM

A few minutes later, the lady that had been giving me the sonogram came back with Jack's mother, Jennifer, and someone else: the man who had been working with me earlier, my new doctor (they didn't allow you to have the same doctors if you're pregnant).

A blush rose up in my cheeks and I looked down at Jack, who was snoring lightly. My hand had been holding his, but I'd let go of it and had been brushing his shirt, dark hair for the sake of doing something.

What was the most embarrassing was that Jack was sleeping on my top of my uncovered baby bump. It was a really sweet and intimate gesture but it's more like the kind of thing that the baby of the father would do, which Jack wasn't.

It seemed as if it was a depravation of privacy when the adults came in. I, for one, thought that I wanted to live in the moment for a while longer, just enjoying the beauty and silence of it, but of course, when you want something, you get the exact opposite of it.

"How're you doing, Kim?" Jennifer asked me.

"I'm doing well," I said timidly.

Jack's mother turned to the adults and began speaking with them.

I tuned it out until I heard something that interested me.

"How along is she?" Jack's mother asked.

"From what I can say, she's thirteen or fourteen weeks along. That's four months or so. I'm very worried about Kim."

"Why?"

"Because she's pregnant with twins, yet she's only gained a few pounds. I'm not saying that you should do anything drastic, but she might have an eating disorder and I'm worried about her and the babies. She's also not getting enough vitamins, so I'm going to give you a prescription for that…" and so on.

I looked down at my body and wondered what they were talking about.

Sure, by now, women usually are already blown up, but hey, I'm still a kid and things work differently because of that right?

"Alright, I'll make sure, she gets everything in her that she needs by the next time we come here for a check-up."

Jennifer smiled and walked towards Jack and me.

"Come on, Jack and Kim, we have to go home," she said.

"Jack's asleep. He seems pretty tired," I said.

"Jack. Jack, honey, wake up," she said as she shook him awake.

Suddenly I felt something wet on my stomach.

Jack touched his face, then looked at me.

"I'm so sorry, Kim," he said.

"Don't worry about it," I said, trying to not look grossed out by the fact that his drool was all over me.

As the woman that did my sonogram grabbed some towels for me, Jack fussed over me.

While I felt a bit flattered he was paying such attention to me, it was embarrassing.

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I woke up to an empty bed for the second time.

I groaned and remembered going to the hospital's and falling asleep slowly on the way home. Wait, not my home, Jack's house.

I sat up, picking up a pillow and screaming into it.

What a nightmare is the life I'm living.

First the thing with Aaron, now I'm homeless and pregnant. Geesh.

I went back over the conversation at the hospital. Goodness, it was like I had been holding the weight of the world before I'd gotten checked up.

I had been so scared at the beginning, when I realized there was a chance I might be pregnant. It was like realizing your life was a horror book or movie. I had not just been scared for that fact. I was scared of some many things. I even had a list written down in my journal.

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"Scary Things About Being Pregnant At Fourteen"

Might loose some or most of my friends.

No sports whatsoever.

Will probably get teased at school, get called names and get kicked out of clubs.

Aaron will get mad. He might get mad enough to hit me and have it affect the baby, maybe harming it. Scary. Don't want to have my possible baby harmed or killed.

What family will say. They're gonna get mad and there is a very slim chance that they might kick me out into the street (the possibility is maybe next to one percent, but you never know right?

Have to live on a home that is not my own.

Have family find out about what Aaron's done, loose my chance of staying at Seaford, which would be horrible.

Have to be a teen parent with no help. I bet Aaron would never respond and no one would ever want to be the father of my baby. ^-^.

Where would I get the money to maintain a baby?

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Most of my worries are still there, but now that I have Jack on my side, I feel safer and like everything's going to be okay.

For all of those reasons I went on pretending that I wasn't pregnant, ignoring all of the signs.

I laid back down and smiled, envisioning a perfect world in which I would be around twenty and where my children would be born into a family that was just there, waiting along for them to be born and complete the family. In my perfect world, my babies would have a father whom I wasn't related to. I smiled when I started picturing his perfect face, someone I would love, who would love me back and loved my children. Suddenly, Jack's face appeared in the slot of that perfect man I envisioned.

I frowned, opening my eyes.

Surely, Jack wouldn't really want to be my partner, not with me being pregnant and a whole set of different reasons.

I sighed heavily and turned sideways.

I was faced with the night stand and the bunch of pictures sitting there. People stared back at me, some of them were familiar and some of them were not.

As tears started making their way down my face, I grabbed a particular picture frame (it was of Jack and me smiling brightly at the camera). His arms had been around me, and I remember not having to put any effort into my smile because he was so close to me.

I smiled, remembering when it was taken.

I hugged it tightly to my chest and rubbed my belly. I arched my back and let my baby bump grow bigger and bigger as I held my breath in.

"Oh, hon," I said, talking to my stomach, "why is it that you two little guys had to make such trouble for me? I know that it's not you babies' fault for being made, but I wish you wouldn't have been conceived until I was older. I'll love you no matter what, but I can't help but doubt that what will be best for you is not what I'll probably do and I'm sorry for that. I'm really really sorry, little babies."

My tears started rushing out faster and I began to sob.

I clutched the picture frame to me and cried for everything that was going on in my life and everything that would.

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Kind of sad, huh?

Anyways, I got the idea to make a page that has like pictures and stuff for my stories from Kickin'Taylor and so I made one. If you want to like my page/follow it/see the pictures I'll post, it is the following link (thought without the parenthesis such as this):

* KickinItPropsEmeralgreenlove

*Facebook Kickin It Props-emeralgreenlove

The picture Kim mentioned is in there.

Anyhow, here are some reviews I answered:

whitebelt9: Thank you so much for your support . You know it means a lot to me, right? ;).

person (anonymous): I included an explanation for all of that. Thank you for reading and I hope that's good enough an explanation . (If you spot any mmore mistakes, please consult me).

Lazy (anonymous): I now understand that. Thank you for the eye-opener .

Hailey (anonymous): Same as above. I totally get where y'all are coming from now. Thanks for that .

K.P. (anonymous): I find it so inspiring that you like this story so much ;). I think that if you're thinking of being a good father to your children NOW, then I think you'll be a wonderful one when the time comes . Thank you and I would like to know more about you.

To everyone: Thank you for your reviews and support/loyalty and everything else you have all done for me . I apologize for my little freak out and hope you've liked this and reviewed.

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XOXO,

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