'Wake up, you piece of shit' Irina felt a firm grip on her arm, pulling her out of the dream. She sat, raised her head to face Levi, his angry eyes and disgusted look on his face. She smiled to herself, for making him feel so furious from the morning. 'Move' he said silently, grabbing her wrist and making her stand. Irina didn't say anything, just obediently followed Levi as he leaded her to the dining room, strongly squeezing her hand, making the skin red. Levi opened the door, pushing Irina in. The people inside the room, Levi's squad and Eren, raised their heads and began to curiously watch Irina. Eren felt strange, he lowered his head to the plate and tried to look completely casual.

'Heichou?' Petra turned to Levi, her eyes glowing with confusion. Levi grabbed Irina wrist as she tried to sit next to Eren, and forced her to sit next to him.

'Who is she?' Erd asked, leaning on his elbows.

'She's the new member of Survey Corps. New member of our squad' Levi replied casually, raising a cup of tea to his lips, yet not letting go of Irina's arm.

'A new member?' Gunther asked and turned to Eren. 'Is she a trainee, like you, Eren?' The whole table turned to Eren, who tried to hide his face with palms. Now Eren caught a sight of Levi's eyes. He gulped with fear and shook his head.

'No, I-'

'From Military Police' Irina replied instead of Eren. 'I decided to join Survey Corps, since it was boring in Military Police.' Irina glared at Levi and added more quietly. 'Levi, you're hurting me. Please let go of my hand.'

Levi glared back, tightening his grip on her hand. When everyone were done eating breakfast, Levi gave orders to clean every corner of the HQ. In the end, Eren got to clean the stables, as always.

'Hey there' Eren heard a soft, feminine voice behind him. He turned to see Irina, he even crying out with surprise. 'I guess you're Eren, the famous titan boy everyone speaks of. I heard a lot about you. I believe you already know who I am. I mean, who I really am' her voice got deeper with last sentence and her blue eyes widened. Eren nodded, grabbing another broom and handing it to Irina. And both of them began to work in silence, broom pounding to earth, slowly collecting the dirt in one place. Eren wondered about Irina, her plans, her thoughts, when Irina simply looked through her shoulder, her eyes meeting Levi's horse's eyes.

'You do not need to fear me, Eren' her voice sounded lightly, she breathed out silently, the wind blowing harder with that movement. 'I won't hurt you. If anything, I would only protect you' she smiled kindly and Eren flinched. She acted so dangerous and mysterious, and now she's completely kind and gentle.

'I d-don't fear you, Irina-san' Eren swallowed thickly and raised his eyes to Irina's blue ones. 'How can I say that you are a monster, when I am no better, if not worse...' Eren closed his eyes, turning away, thinking about his own monstrosity. He might not killed people like Irina did, yet he could. He almost killed Mikasa, his adoptive sister, and he felt powerful. He loved the feeling of being stronger, he loved to hold someone's life in his hand... He knew that he could kill, for no reason whatsoever.

'It's ironic, isn't it?' suddenly he heard a soft laugh, spreading through the room. Eren looked at Irina, who leaned to the fence. She sighed and continued. 'First of all, it's not other people who call us monsters. We do. You call yourself a monster. And then you give them the opportunity to call you a monster. If you would never view yourself as a monster, if you would always have a reason to kill, to steal and to ruin other lives, you would never be called a monster. And it's so sadly ironic...' She sighed, returning to her work without another word. Eren stood for a second, looking into the short woman, who swiped the flood, her ice blue eyes completely concentrated on the work.

Does that mean... She sees herself as a monster too?.. Does she feel guilty for her doings?

'Eren' he heard her voice once again, and lowered his head to look at Irina. She was now standing near, those fierce eyes meeting his. He felt scared and little, so weak and frail. Irina was a lot shorter than Eren- she probably was shorter than Captain Levi too- yet when Eren felt those eyes on him, he shrunk, his body and soul grew weaker. Irina rose her hand and Eren felt some obscure fear seize his body. Will she kill him? Yet that palm landed on Eren's head, Irina's eyes narrowed, they glowed with something explainable. She stroked his head, ran her fingers through his hair. 'It's so much better...' she uttered.

'Eren!' Eren turned to see Mikasa, Armin and Evaline standing, all with different expressions on their faces. Mikasa's face darkened, she let out a silent growl. Armin seemed confused. Evaline looked pale, when she met Irina's eyes, she squalled, turned away. Eren felt quite uncomfortable, especially for Evaline. She looked so confused. She, along with Armin and Eren, already knew, that Irina was the legendary serial killer, who took down hundreds of people, who got the name of 'Wolf' because she defaced her victims and made them suffer. Or maybe there was something else...?

Irina sighed, and made her way through the ex-trainees. Mikasa had the biggest urge to grab the woman and to slice her apart, yet she somehow controlled herself, maybe because Armin held her by arm. Irina stopped for the shortest moment, meeting Evaline's eyes, her cherry red lips forming a smile. Evaline grew even paler, her eyes widening in terror.

'I'm sorry' Irina said silently, yet those words disappeared in the wind, not even reaching anyone's ears.

-Flashback-

It was an early morning, when the whole HQ smelled of breakfast food and some cheap coffee, when most of the members were still sleeping in their warm beds, mumbling in their sleep, having nice dreams. The Commander of the Survey Corps was no longer asleep- he sat in his office, enjoying the fresh air, that came through the open window. The table was covered with paperwork, yet he didn't seem to be interested in that. His attention was directed at a woman and a man, who sat in front of him. Irina and Levi both sat with bored and sleepy expressions on their faces. Levi crossed his legs typically, narrowing his eyes at Erwin.

'I believe you should know the part of our plan, Irina. If you'll help us, the secret of your existence won't be revealed, nobody will ever know that you got caught. If you'll agree to co-operate on the 57th expedition, you won't be handed over to any scientist- you'll only be executed' Erwin stood up, looking into Irina's face.

She nodded.

'I already agreed to this the second I got caught by Survey Corps' she answered and stood up. 'I don't know why you are you doing all of this, Erwin. By this stupid action you will probably sacrifice lots of people and you'll just make this mission a fail. But it's your decision I guess' she stepped towards the door, yet Erwin's voice stopped her.

'I believe you had a reason for killing those people too' he said, Erwin's voice still stony and determined as always, yet you could say it softened a bit.

She stood there, not turning around to face Levi or Erwin.

'I don't. If I would have reasons, I wouldn't be here'

-End of Flashback-

When Irina came back to Levi's- now her's too- room, it was quite late. She did a lot of things today. In fact, she never felt so close to people- she got to know Levi's squad, the hazelnut-haired girl, named Petra, the two older brothers like guys, Gunther and Erd and in the end, the jerk named Aurou, who seemed to annoy her all day. Irina understood, how lonely she have been, because those people made her laugh and smile so easily. It was too long, since she saw eyes filled with happiness, not coldness and sorrow. And so she thought, what would they do if they would figure out who she actually is. They would run away. They would leave her alone. She shivered from the thought of being alone again. The loneliness was horrible, for her human, and wolf self.

How did I became so weak? Irina thought to herself. Yet somehow, the weakness didn't scare her at all.

'What were you doing with Yeager?' Irina turned to Levi, who just appeared out of dark. He seemed annoyed.

'I said that I won't hurt him. Why should I?' Irina replied, taking steps back as Levi neared.

'Stay away from my squad. If you lay a single-'

'I won't.' she growled, interupting him. 'I-

'Don't' he said in a deep voice. 'From now on you stay locked in this room until the expedition'

'Don't you order me around' Irina felt the anger rise inside her. She always killed people with cold expression on her face- she never felt furious, in fact, she never felt happy or sad when she killed them. She felt nothing. But now there was anger rising inside, she felt how the man wanted to show his power over her.

What if I kill him?

She forgot about her perfect plan, about her mission, if you could call it that, about her cold blood- for that second she just jumped on him, scratching his neck- she felt how Levi's body tensed up. He grabbed her by waist, and she felt how he landed her on his own bed.

'Go ahead' she whispered. 'Kill me. That's what you wanted from the very beginning, isn't it?' she said breathlessly. 'You can't' she answered her own question. 'She looks like me, doesn't she? You love my sister, that's it?' she said with the same cold voice, yet you could hear disappointment. Irina felt so strange at that moment- she felt so confused- two feelings merging in her heart.

'Shut up' Levi said, grabbing her hair and pulling. Irina moaned in pain. 'Just keep quit and obey orders. Like a soldier should. Don't you dare do attack me again, Irina. If you will, I'll cut you down, no matter what Erwin says' Irina felt how Levi stood up, his scent disappearing, his warmness fading away. Irina felt so hollow for some time, sitting on his bed. He looked at her with pity, letting out a silent 'tch', and left the room.

Irina growled deeply and breathed out. That sudden pain made her breathing harder, she slowly touched Levi's pillow. Why does it hurt so much? Why can't she stop thinking about him? Irina closed her eyes and felt how tears began to form in her eyes.

'It's so stupid' she whispered to herself. The tears began to drip through her cheeks and chin. And for a second she froze. She remember the last time she cried. It all seemed so many years ago.

Thank you for reading! Please review. I want to know what you think, what you want to happen next... I just watched the last episode of SnK, and I feel so... Strange. I really hope that there'll be season 2, since they did NO PROGRESS WHATSOEVER and it all got even more unclear. And for my fanfic, well, I was concentrating on Irina, I guess, next chapter will be for Evaline. Again, I love those who favorited, followed and reviewed. I'll write soon, of course, if I won't mess everything up. OK, if you have any requests, please, let me know.

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