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I Feel His Arms Around Me
Crying, I ran as fast as I could away from 12 Rue de Plumet and dashed down the city careless of who saw. My sobs were loud and I got plenty of weird looks, but I did not care. My heart was broken, and while theirs was full of love, my heart sat in my lonely chest, empty.
I didn't know where I was going until I found myself at the ABC café. Without Marius, I felt no longer welcome here and the place looked desolate and empty. Inside, though there were people and lights, all I saw was darkness and phantom faces at the windows that teased me because the girl who I was once so wicked to now had the one thing, the only thing in life that I wanted; Marius.
And I was sure that she always got what she wanted. Ever since that man took her away… When fate turned up for her, it turned down for us. Life snatched away all our good luck and threw it to her leaving us without a single thing, a single shine of light. My life was dark until I met Marius.
The clouds seemed to darken after something bad happened, and they were dark right now. It would rain soon and I didn't want to get the dress Enjolras bought me dirty, that would be disre- Enjolras! His groceries!
As I was used to, I put on a brave face and walked to the market with my head high. Well, after minute of my head high, I sunk it low so that I wouldn't be recognized as easily. Now what was it that Enjolras had wanted me to buy from the market?
I busied myself by picking the ripest looking apples, carrots, cabbage, celery, and strawberries, and by finding the best meat for the cheapest price. The market people shouted at me left and right trying to get me to buy from their shops, so I bought as much as I could from as many places as I could buy because I knew that they needed the money.
Here I bought some flour, there some eggs, I got a bit of sugar, and next thing I knew I had bought all the ingredients for a cake- when Gavroche was little he loved cake… which reminded me of Gav. He didn't usually check in, but I knew I could find him at every Les Amis meeting, so maybe I'd make Enjolras the cake today and bring a slice for Gavroche. Smiling, I walked to the bakery last to buy Enjolras his loaf of bread.
After I bought everything, I put the extra money in my pocket and struggled to carry everything to Enjolras' flat. While I walked, I noticed that the bottoms of my dress were already dirty. The further away from the busy market I got, the more I recalled Marius and Cosette.
It was then that the pain deep in my chest returned and I just wanted to start crying, but I choked it back and forced myself to look strong. If I cried anymore today, Gavroche might notice at the meeting tonight. When I finally reached ABC café again, I didn't dare look inside, so I continued towards Enjolras' flat which wasn't that far away.
As I walked by, I tried to concentrate on the clicking of my shoes on the floor, a noise that I was still getting used to without worries that I'm being followed, but my eyes kept on filling with tears. Finally, I reached Enjolras' flat I hurried in, but a noise stopped me.
There was a scruffling in the house just as I closed the door behind me. Silently, and cautiously, I took off my shoes, put the groceries down, and slowly edged towards Enjolras' room where I heard he noise. Slowly, my hand went to the doorknob, and I began to turn it when it turned twice as fast and the door flew open. I almost screamed, but then I recognized the figure in the door way and fell back in relief, then the tears came.
"Eponine? You scared me!" Enjolras cried.
My broken heart made me throw myself, I didn't even think twice of it. We were only acquaintances, barely friends and here I was throwing myself in his arms telling all my dumb problems. I should have felt ashamed at letting myself break down that easily, but all I could think of was the way Marius looked at Cosette and the way she looked at him…
"He loves her! He loves her and she loves him and there is no room in his heart for me because I'm not important! What was I thinking before?!" I sobbed.
Gently, he grabbed my arm and led me to the couch where I sat down and continued crying. He walked away and came back with a handkerchief that he gave me.
"Are you okay?" he asked softly, he sounded like Gav after he broke something which made me smile a bit.
"Oui, but gosh, I just feel like such a fool!" I cried. You don't understand how stupid I feel, I- and now I'm just pouring out my problems to you, the man of marble, you don't care!"
"Calm down, Eponine, you're one of Les Amis, so I do care," Enjolras corrected.
"Thanks," I muttered softly.
Awkwardly, Enjolras leaned forward and for a second I was worried that he was going to kiss me because I hadn't moved on from Marius yet… but, he wrapped his arms around me in a comforting hug and I let my head rest on his shoulder. Marius hugged me like this once… But now all his hugs would belong to Cosette… Suddenly, I realized something and as I rested in his hard, gentle arms comfortably, I thought: Woah, I feel his arms around me.
