I AM SO SORRY FOR FORGETTING ABOUT THIS STORY!!! I got a huge writers block for this story and finally I got something to update it with and for all of those who encouraged me to continue to write this, I thank you greatly from the bottom of my heart, you know who you are! So once again I'm so sorry about the very very late update but here it is, chapter 5!

Chapter 5: So what does this mean?

-Nagisa's POV-
You are the one I'm madly in love with…. Rang over and over again in my head as I felt like I was falling, falling down into a never ending black hole of darkness. I couldn't believe that I have forgotten the one person in my life that loved me but right now, I felt nothing. Nothing was pulling me out of this dark hole, maybe someone might come and fine me like Shizuma-sama or maybe…no one wants to find me. I have no memories of who I was before the accident and its beginning to show on the people around me that they can't handle it, so maybe I should disappear. Me disappearing from this world would help them feel better but then, I'll never see her again. I'll never be able to find out who I really am from Shizuma….I may never look into those beautiful forest green eyes ever again, and that is something I never want to forget. How those eyes always manage to make me feel like I'm at home.

"Nagisa….Nagisa, wake up." That voice whispered to me and I looked around for it in the darkness but it just echoed everywhere I turned. It just was pitch black everywhere I looked and tears formed in my eyes. I felt lonely once more in this place and I cried…..trying to call out after the person.

"Shizuma-sama!" But all it did was echo once more but then….a girly chuckle came out of no where and I turned to find a girl that looked like me except with black hair and a lot paler than me.

"Kaori-chan…." I managed to say as my eyes widen in surprise as she came closer to me with a small smile on her face and she rested a hand on my cheek. I didn't feel anything, the hand on my cheek was cold and hard as if it had no life to it. "I thought you were dead…"

Another chuckle escaped her mouth before she shook her head at me and her hand began to rub my cheek softly. " I'm not dead, Nagisa-chan. I'm just merely a memory from Shizuma's mind, who wants to take back what's hers." She said hauntingly, sending shivers up my spine and I pulled away from her. I couldn't believe it, what was she trying to take from me that was already mine?

"Nagisa….you won't have her for long…" She whispered to me before disappearing as quickly as she came and I dropped, free falling down once more.

"Shizuma!" I screamed as my eyes opened back into reality and sat up from bed with a cold face cloth to my forehead. I looked out the window from my bedroom and noticed that it was still night out. How long was I out for? Where is Shizuma? Too many questions rang throughout my head and my headaches began to come back. My hand reached up and it pushed against the cold cloth, letting the water fall down my face as if it was trying to remove my thoughts. I had no idea what was going on in my life right now but I needed to know fast.

I looked down on the ground and saw that the picture book was still laying there, open to the wedding picture. I slowly lowed my body to the ground and pulled the book onto my lap and stared down at the pictures. With every picture I stared at, tracing my face and hers, my heart felt at ease and a small smile formed on my face. Who knew that I would get such a lovely woman like her and then my eyes rested on one that brought tears to my face. Shizuma was holding me bridal style with the sunset in the back ground and I had my hands around her neck, just staring at each other like as if we were speaking silently to one another.

"That one is my favorite, you know. Of them I mean." A voice said behind me as I quickly closed the book and turned around to see Shizuma laying down looking over my shoulder. My eyes widen as I didn't realize that she came in and was laying there watching me look at the pictures.

"I didn't see you there, Shizuma-sama." I blushed and turned my head straight to hide the blush and stood up as I placed the book on my nightstand. That was embarrassing; I thought before turning to face the silver haired beauty lying on my bed and gulped silently. She was wearing a pair of pajama pants with a white tank, which was showing a little too much cleavage. But to me…she looked "Beautiful…." I said out loud and heard a chuckle come from the woman in front of me. I didn't even realize that she stood up and rested her hand against my cheek because I was spacing out from how beautiful she looked. My heart was pounding against my chest a mile a minute and the next thing I knew…her lips brushed up against my cheek, a little too close to my lips.

"Nagisa…." Shizuma whispered as she pulled away and stared into my amber colored eyes with adoration and longing. What was she longing for? Me or me getting back my memories? I didn't know what do but just lean into her soft touch and close my eyes as I tried to remember something about us but nothing came. I so badly want to remember us so I can rid the pain that she was feeling right now but sadly, not everything works in everyone's favor. I'm going to have to be patient and wait for them to come back but then one thing popped into my mind. It quickly slipped from my mouth before I could really think about what I was asking her.

"Shizuma-sama….what are we right now?"

-Shizuma's POV-

My heart broke into a million pieces as she asked me that and all I could do was let out a sigh and remove my hand from her cheek. I walked over to the window that was in her bedroom and looked out into the busy city of New York and saw her reflection through the glass. She didn't move because she waiting for me to answer but what could I tell her? That we're a couple, a married couple no doubt but that would make her feel uncomfortable.

" I don't know, Nagisa. I really don't know…." I chocked out as I felt tears brim my eyes in hurt and anger. I hated whoever hit her that day, taking my Nagisa away from me and making me suffer once more. I told myself I was never going to feel like this again but that was just a lie I told myself, I am going to have to feel it for another very long time. I closed my eyes as I felt a tear fall down my cheek and my hands gripped the white curtains that blocked the bright lights from coming into the room.

My eyes then shot open as I felt a pair of arms wrap around my body and a head resting against my back. "Shizuma….I don't want you to suffer. I want to end it, I don't like seeing people around me feel like I'm making them suffer for what is going with me…" Nagisa cried into my back and shook her head back and forth as if she was trying get rid of the pain. My hands rested onto of hers before I just the tears fall for once, I didn't want to hold them back from her any longer. Crying always helps she once told me, it helps us relax and makes us feel with at one with the person we love. Her grip tightened on me and my tears came faster. This was too much, it was beginning to hurt too much for me to handle again.

Turning around in the embrace, I couldn't help myself any longer and leaned in and kissed her. My tears mixed with hers as they did once so long ago and my heart pounded against my chest telling me to stop, telling me not to do it. But ignored it and opened my eyes to see what she was doing. Her loving amber eyes were wide with surprise but then closed as she began to slowly kiss back. I felt it, my heart begin to rest from pain as her arms wrapped around my neck and mine around her waist. I couldn't ask for anything more than this right now, even if this one kiss would carry me to the grave. This moment will be forever in mind since this is my first kiss with my Nagisa since the accident…but was it really her kissing me back or someone else that is there.

I will never know the true meaning of what is going on inside of that mind of hers but the one thing I am for sure right now is, Nagisa is coming back to me. That's all I can pray for is that she comes back to me.

Author's note:

OK, I know this was really short compared to the other chapters before this but this what came to mind right now, so bare with me as I begin to think of something else for the next one. Please leave reviews for me because that tells me that people want more and it gets me excited to write. So click on the button below this and type something up nice for me! THANK YOU!

Sara